not brilliant

After ten o'clock in the evening, Jing Can was holding the phone, waiting for He Pingyi's video as usual.As soon as the bell rang, Jing Can immediately pressed the answer button.He Pingyi was sitting at the desk with an exercise book spread out in front of him.

"What are you doing today?" He Pingyi asked.

"Just draw, I've shown it to you." Jing Can thought for a while, then added rigorously, "But Xiaowei's drawing was pretty good, right?"

Never forgetting to praise his younger brother, He Pingyi couldn't help Jing Can, so he cooperated with a smile: "It looks good, it's amazing. I just draw, nothing else?"

Jing Can hesitated for a moment, then shook her head.He Pingyi smiled and didn't ask any more questions.

"Why did you change your profile picture to New Year's?"

"Huh?" He Pingyi said quickly, "I didn't just change my profile picture."

Jing Can blinked, then quickly clicked on He Pingyi's personal information.Sure enough, He Pingyi's WeChat name also changed to "New Year".

"you……"

In the video, He Pingyi lowered his head and scratched on the exercise book, it looked like he had written a multiple-choice question.Then he raised his head and smiled at Jing Can: "If there is anything you want to say to New Year in the future, just tell me."

The silver pen twirled quickly between He Pingyi's fingers, like a casual sentence, but gently pushed away Jing Can's clumsy disguise.

Unprepared, Jing Can met He Pingyi's eyes, lowered his shoulders, and laid his head sideways on the table as if tired, leaving He Pingyi with a deformed half of his face.

"Actually, I still watch the basketball court." His voice was muffled by his arms, and he seemed a little pitiful for no reason. "There is a street basketball court downstairs in our house. When the sun is good, it looks very beautiful. I saw someone playing basketball, but Xiaowei told me that there is no one downstairs."

The spinning pen didn't stop, and He Pingyi's expression didn't change at all, and there was even a faint smile on his lips.

"Well," he tilted his head, raised his hand, and tapped the half of the face on the screen with the pen, "it's okay."

Jing Can unconsciously repeated his words in his mind. It was strange that these four ordinary words, coupled with He Pingyi's gentle tone, actually calmed his nerves that had been restless and beating all day long.

He Pingyi continued: "If you don't have it, you don't have it. You just... watch a short video and forget about it after watching it."

"Okay," Jing Can raised her head and said, "Then I'll show you the basketball court at noon tomorrow, I like it very much, you..."

Before Jing Can could finish speaking, her voice suddenly fell silent.He Pingyi waited for a long time without waiting for his next sentence, so he called him.

Jing Can recovered, and continued, "You should like it."

"Okay." Speaking of this, He Pingyi suddenly thought of something. He narrowed his eyes and asked jokingly, "No... You used to practice basketball on this basketball court, right? teacher?"

"En." Jing Can responded with a sympathetic nasal cavity.

"Good guy," He Pingyi snorted, "Then I have to take a good look at it, and you can take a 360-degree shot for me with no dead ends."

Jing Can's eyes crooked with a smile, and said "yes" in response.

Many times Jing Can knew that He Pingyi was coaxing him on purpose, but even though he knew, he was still very useful.At night, he was lying on the bed and still thinking, no wonder so many people have no resistance to sweet words, he doesn't need any sweet words, as long as He Pingyi looks into his eyes and says in a low voice With such an ordinary sentence, he seemed to be able to temporarily forget all the troubles.

Originally, Jing Can planned to shoot the basketball court for He Pingyi at noon the next day, but he didn't expect that when he woke up to take a nap at noon the next day, he suddenly heard the voice of a child through the door.Jing Can couldn't judge whether the voice she heard was real, so she sat motionless on the bed.

There was a knock on the door, Jing Can cleared her throat, and shouted to the door, "Come in."

Song Yinan pushed the door open, and asked him with a smile: "Xiaoling is here, do you want to go down and play with her?"

Jing Can didn't speak, Song Yinan asked patiently: "Do you still remember who Xiaoling is?"

Jing Can nodded.In my impression, Xiaoling is still a little doll sitting in a stroller, always wearing light-colored clothes, and smiling at everyone she sees.Even when she saw Jing Can for the first time, Xiaoling held up the rattle in her hand and wanted to hand it to him.However, Jing Can shrank her hands and didn't dare to pick it up, nor did she dare to approach her.

"She was building blocks. I asked Xiaowei to accompany her, but Xiaowei felt bored and kept making other girls angry. Xiaoling was so angry. If you are free, come down and play for a while?"

Jing Can didn't know what happened at that time, maybe the little girl's crisp voice was too penetrating, her laughter was too beautiful, and people always yearn for beautiful things, so he sat on the bedside and drank After a glass of cold water, I still went downstairs.

Seeing him coming down, Song Yinan burst out laughing, she turned her head and shouted to the little girl sitting on the carpet: "Xiaoling, look who's here."

Xiaoling's long hair hung on her shoulders, and because she played too hard, her bangs were soaked with sweat, which made her eyes bigger and brighter.When she saw Jing Can, she was timid and dared not speak.

Xiao Ling and Jing Wei are very familiar, but she has never played with Jing Can.Her eyes kept looking at Jing Can, and Song Yinan encouraged her to say hello, and then she called softly, "Brother Xiao Can."

Jing Can stopped in innocence, and slowly pulled out a small smile.Song Yinan took a cushion from the sofa, put it next to Xiao Ling, and waved to Jing Can: "Xiao Can, sit here and play with Xiao Ling for a while."

After hesitating, Jing Can slowly sat down beside Xiaoling.

"What are you building?" he asked.

"Castle," perhaps because Jing Can was not aggressive at all in terms of appearance or temperament. After Xiao Ling answered, she naturally complained about Jing Wei to him, "But brother Xiao Wei is not good at all. The castle is not pretty."

"It was originally." Jing Wei took off a red building block that Xiaoling had just put on it, and replaced it with blue, "Look at your color matching, does it look better after I change it for you?"

Xiaoling pursed her mouth all of a sudden, put one arm on the ground, and leaned towards Jingwei.

"No!" Xiao Ling snatched the red building block, "I want red. I won't play with you, I will play with brother Xiaocan."

"My brother won't do such childish things with you."

"You hate it!"

While Jing Wei and Xiaoling were arguing, Jing Can hugged her knees and quietly looked at the castle standing in front of her.Song Yinan, who was sitting on the side, was holding a building block, looking at Jing Can motionlessly.

Xiao Ling couldn't agree with Jing Wei, so she simply rubbed against Jing Can, turned her back, and ignored Jing Wei.She asked Jing Can if he could help her enlarge the castle, Jing Can nodded and asked her to choose the building blocks she likes and help her put them up one by one.

When the castle was completed, Xiaoling happily clapped her little hands and cheered, then lay on the carpet with her buttocks pouted, and carefully looked at this very beautiful castle.She rested her chin and looked at it for a while, then suddenly turned her head and looked at Jing Can.

"Brother Xiaocan."

"Ok?"

Xiaoling blinked and said, "I think you are different from what they said."

Several people present were stunned for a moment, Song Yinan reacted the fastest, and immediately wanted to divert the child's words.But Jing Can seemed to be interested, she tilted her head and asked, "What did they say?"

"They said you were crazy," Xiao Ling held her head and shook her head, "but I don't think you are. The castle you built for me is very beautiful. I have never seen such a beautiful castle."

"Who said that?" After all, Jing Wei was still young, and when she heard Xiaoling's words, she immediately lost her temper.Xiaoling was taken aback by him, and immediately realized that she had said something wrong, and looked at him without daring to speak.

Jing Can called Jing Wei and shook her head at him.

Xiaoling looked at Jing Wei, and finally at Jing Can, even the corners of her mouth drooped.

Jing Can quickly touched her head and said, "It's okay."

He spread his hand and handed the last triangular building block to Xiaoling. Xiaoling lowered her eyes and slowly stretched out her hand.

The building block was taken away, but Jing Can didn't withdraw her hand immediately, Xiao Ling stared at the palm of that hand for a few seconds, then suddenly raised her free hand and put it on Jing Can's hand.

Jing Can didn't expect Xiao Ling to act like this, the palm on the palm was so soft, Jing Can slowly closed her fingers, and held that small hand in her hand.

Xiaoling still looked aggrieved by doing something wrong, she whispered: "Brother Xiaocan, don't be sad, I like you."

Children's love is the most valuable.Jing Can laughed all of a sudden, shook Xiaoling's hand, and said, "Thank you Xiaoling."

After the castle was built, Song Yinan beckoned Xiaoling to drink some water, while Jing Can was still sitting there, fiddled with the remaining building blocks with one hand.

A few building blocks under the eyelids were caught in one hand, Jing Can looked up along the white arm, and saw Song Yinan was looking at him with a smile.

"Are you in a better mood?"

Jing Can nodded and smiled at her.

Song Yinan put down the building blocks in his hand, and picked up two blocks again: "Yesterday, your father told me that he regretted it very much. He felt that he made a mistake in cultivating you."

When Song Yinan said this, Jing Can listened, but shook her head.

"He's not wrong." Jing Can built up the building blocks one by one, "When I was young... when you were not together, I remember that for a while, my father was too busy, so he sent me to grandma's house. At that time, my uncle's house My brother and sister are also there, and they play very well, but I am very uncomfortable when I leave home for such a long time for the first time, and I can’t sleep or eat at night. I have been holding back, but when my father called , I couldn't help crying, and I told him that I wanted to go home. As a result, he came to pick me up the next day. I remember that it was foggy that day, and the long-distance bus could not enter the village. When my father arrived , his knees were dirty. I didn’t know what was going on at that time, and I asked him if he had fallen... Later, I heard from my grandma that my father got off the car at the entrance of the village and walked in, but the fog in the village was too thick. Big, he can't see the road clearly, so he can only walk a short distance, lie down and look ahead, and then walk a short distance... When my father took me away, my grandma still complained, saying why are other people's children staying here with me, you I can't stay at home."

Faced with grandma's complaints, Jing Zaixing just hugged Jing Can and said, "He hasn't left home before, so he's not used to it."

From then on, no matter how busy Jing was, he never sent him to grandma's house. Even after Jing Can went to school, even the people who had been invited to take care of him at home were dismissed, and he did everything by himself.Every day, I find time to pick him up from school, and return to the company to work overtime after he falls asleep at night. Sometimes Jing Can wakes up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, but Jing still hasn’t returned home.Even when he really couldn't get away, Jing Zaixing would take him to his company to do his homework. Most of the time, Jing Can would sleep on the small bed that Jing Zaixing had temporarily rested in the office, but when he woke up the next morning Already lying on the bed at home.When she was a child, Jing Can even felt that her father didn't seem to need to rest, he was always busy like a superman.

Even Song Yinan didn't know about such past events.

"I know, Dad loves me very much. But sometimes I think... If I never grow up, I will always be a very, very small child. Then, he will not expect so much from me, and he will Indulge me, and I won't... let him down again and again."

Hearing this, Song Yinan stretched out his hand, patted Jing Can's hunched back, and said, "You didn't disappoint anyone, your father did something wrong."

"No," Jing Can still shook her head and insisted, "Actually, if... I'm not me, I have a big heart, and I can adapt to such strict requirements of my father, then when I become famous in the future, I will definitely be grateful to my father for always supporting me. My strict requirements. But..."

However, he happens to be himself.It is often not objective to use the result to deduce the right or wrong of the original behavior. There must be many factors that lead to this result. It may be no problem to take each link separately, but it is wrong to combine them together.

Song Yinan didn't speak, she was pulling the building block with one hand, she didn't know what she was thinking.Jing Can watched Song Yinan hold a square and a triangle building block in his hand, clenched it tightly, and even made his whole arm tremble because of using too much force.

"Xiao Can, don't you think that everyone is actually like a building block, and they can put together good-looking figures together with others, but everyone also has shortcomings and edges and corners. It's nothing when they are separated, but the closer they are, the closer they are. The tighter it is, if the angle is not right, it will hurt the other party."

As Song Yinan said, he opened his hand, and the soft palm had already been pricked with deep red marks by the corners of the building blocks.

"I don't want to argue for us, but Xiao Can, we have become a family, if Mom and Dad are not doing well, can you tell us later?" Song Yinan said, "You are our child, you can blame us. "

The two building blocks were still clinging to each other in the palm of their hands, and the eyes of the person holding the building blocks were slightly red.

Jing Can didn't know what he was thinking, and kept his chin on his knees. He also followed Song Yinan's example, grabbing two building blocks from the ground and holding them in his hands.He could clearly feel the pain caused by the tightening of his palms, just like the way he and Jing Zaixing have been in this father-son relationship for so many years.

Xiao Ling and Jing Can had a good time, but before they left, they had a big worry.

"I hate to bring down the castle."

Seeing the little girl tearing up, Jing Can hurriedly said, "Next time, brother will help you."

After hearing this, Xiaoling wiped away her tears, nodded and knocked down the castle.

Colorful building blocks scattered all over the place.

"Brother Xiaocan, why don't I give you a building block, thank you for building a castle for me today." Xiaoling was very polite, "You can choose one you like."

Jing Can didn't expect to receive such a gift suddenly. He looked at those building blocks, and after a while, he smiled and asked Xiaoling, "Can I give my brother two yuan?"

"Okay," Xiaoling agreed happily, and then asked curiously, "but why do you need two yuan?"

"Because I want to give another brother a piece."

"Another brother..." The child's thinking was very simple, and Xiao Ling quickly asked, "Will the other brother also build a beautiful castle?"

Jing Can was raising his hand to pick up the two building blocks on the ground, when he heard this, he was slightly shaken.

castle?

What is a castle?

The signature wall in the spring, the basketball rolling to his feet in the summer, the electric wheels rolling over fallen leaves in the fall, the snowman and Qingyan Temple in the winter...

It seems to be both.

It's only been a year, but the memories seem to be so full that they can't even fit in the four seasons.

"Yes," Jing Can said, "he will build a very, very, very, very, very beautiful castle."

His voice was very small, but he said a lot of things in one breath, even Xiao Ling laughed: "Why do you say so many times? Then next time, can I see how beautiful the castle that brother built is?"

Facing the child's question, Jing Can thought carefully for a while before nodding: "Yes."

After Xiaoling left, Jing Can sat for a long time fiddling with the two building blocks, and Song Yinan came over to accompany him with a plate of fruit.Jing Can pricked a piece of mango with a toothpick and put it in his mouth, the sweet juice and aroma overflowed together.

After eating a few pieces of mango, Jing Can suddenly raised her head and said, "Can you contact the doctor my father mentioned before? If he doesn't have time today, make an appointment at another time."

"Ah?" Song Yinan was startled.

"I want to see it."

"Don't you want to see a doctor?" Song Yinan looked at him with concern, "Don't force yourself."

Jing Can shook her head, and put the two triangular building blocks side by side.

The intimacy of the two building blocks actually made him a little jealous, he really wanted to return to He Pingyi's side as soon as possible.He twitched the corner of his mouth in a self-deprecating manner, and said, "It's not forced, your mind will change."