not brilliant

There was the sound of a porcelain cup falling on the stairs, Song Yinan stood up abruptly, and hurriedly looked back.

Jing Can was standing on the stairs, her face was pale, her eyes fixed on them.

"Xiao Can..."

Song Yinan didn't know when Jing Can appeared on the stairs, nor did he know how much he had heard.

"Didn't find anything?" Jing Can suddenly asked on the stairs and asked in a low voice.

Neither Jing Zaixing nor Song Yinan answered.Jing Can moved, Song Yinan hastily walked forward a few steps to meet him.

Jing Can walked down step by step. After going down a few steps, she suddenly fell down the stairs abruptly.

The fragments of the cup that shattered and rolled down the stairs pierced his calf, Song Yinan exclaimed, Jing Zaixing had already stepped forward to help the person who fell on the ground.

Rolling down such a high staircase, Jing Can's eyes immediately became pitch black, and when he saw the world inside the room again, he felt pain in every part of his body as if he had been crushed.

With Jing Zaixing's support, he stood up, but slowly brushed away Jing Zaixing's hand, took two steps back, and stood there straight.

"It was their mistake."

The blood on Jing Can's calf kept flowing down, he opened his eyes wide, looking at Jing Zaixing and Song Yinan well.

"They..." It was very difficult for Jing Zaixing to say this, but he had to say, "They checked the list..."

"The list will be wrong!" Jing Can, who had been quiet all this time, suddenly yelled almost collapsed. He shook off Jing Zaixing's hand and kept moving backwards until the railing of the stairs touched his back and stabbed him. Hard bones, he had no way to retreat, so he yelled at Jing Zaixing in a loud voice, "The list will be wrong! He Pingyi told me that he transferred from another school, so maybe the one they checked This list is not up to date! I don't know why they got it wrong, but they must be!"

The hard wood pierced his bones achingly, but the pain could no longer calm Jing Can down.

After saying this, Jing Can saw Jing Zaixing and Song Yinan's eyes clearly.Song Yinan said that he has a keen sense of emotion, which is true, so at this moment, he can clearly see the emotions in their eyes.There is worry and distress, but there is no... trust.

This kind of cognition completely collapsed Jing Can's mind, he murmured: "You don't believe me..."

These words seemed to be addressed to Song Yinan and Jing Zaixing, but only Jing Can knew that he was speaking to himself.No one would believe him. Ever since he became what his classmates called a "lunatic", no one would have believed him.They will say, so what if you are smart, but it is a pity that you are mentally ill.

"You don't believe me..."

Jing Can kept repeating these words, her voice getting weaker and weaker.

"Xiao Can, we don't believe you, it's just..."

Before Song Yinan could finish speaking, Jing Can said, "Yesterday he was still asking me when I would go back, and he even made a home for my puppy..."

His voice was not loud, as if he was talking to himself, and at the end, tears replaced words, marking the full stop.

"Xiao Can..."

"I'm going to find him."

There was dazzling sunlight coming in from the window, Jing Can looked against the light, and suddenly straightened her back.

"I'm going to find him."

Before Song Yinan and Jing Zaixing could react, Jing Can had already stumbled to the door.The door was pulled open and closed again, the loud sound made Song Yinan's tears roll down all at once.Jing Zaixing and the others hurriedly chased Jing Can out, and the passers-by in the community were frightened by the attitude of their family of three, they all stopped and stared at this side in a daze.

Jing Can's vision was completely blurred, he fell heavily to the ground after not running very far, when he got up enduring the pain, he saw a very familiar person standing in front of him.

What does it mean.

"Are you going to Huihe?" Xu Hewei stretched out his hand to help him up as he had done countless times before.

These hands held Jing Can when he was most at a loss, and he accompanied him through the most painful and helpless years. He was once the only good friend in Jing Can's heart.Xu Hewei has never changed, he still has a gentle appearance and a calm expression.

Jing Can bit her lip tightly, not answering him, nor moving.He watched Xu Hewei cry, Xu Hewei looked back at him calmly at first, when Jing Can's tears became more and more uncontrollable, Xu Hewei frowned slightly.

"Jing Can, I thought we were friends." He stretched out his hand to Jing Can again, "Give me your hand, and I'll take you to find him."

Jing Can shook her head until her tears fell to the ground.

He stood up by himself, trying to avoid Xu Heyi and move forward.Xu Hewei was unwilling to let go, moved his body, and stood in front of him.

Jing Can was taken aback by Xu Heqi's sudden movement, he took two steps back, avoiding Xu Heqi's approach in a bit of embarrassment.

"I really don't understand why you want to make yourself like this. What can you change by ignoring me? Look at what you look like now. It's really... a mess."

mess?

Jing Can stopped in her tracks and clenched her fists tightly.

Yes, he did mess himself up.But who knows how much effort he spent to make the current situation just as bad as this.

When Jing Can was distracted, Xu Hewei had already stuck in front of him again.He lowered his head and whispered in a bewitching way: "As before, let's do the questions and discuss together, isn't it good?"

Under the influence of these words, the seemingly peaceful life in the past flashed into Jing Can's head.The sunshine in the picture is very good, but Jing Can can't feel any temperature now.He closed his eyes and shook his head.

Xu Hewei asked: "Why?"

The teeth became more and more uncontrollable, piercing the lips sharply, spurting blood.The smell of blood made Jing Can's nerves become more disordered, he suddenly had some doubts about the current situation, and suddenly couldn't remember the complete cause and effect of the matter.

Why is he standing here?How could he confront Xu Hewei like this?How did Song Yinan and Jing Zaixing discover him?

He seemed to have a vague answer to every question, but his recollection was not so clear.

"I don't know," Jing Can shook his head in a daze, and continued to repeat his only thought, "I have to find He Pingyi."

After hearing this, Xu Hewei laughed, "You can't find him."

"I can find it!" This sentence seemed to completely anger Jing Can, and he yelled at Xu Hewei, "He is different from you!"

Xu Hewei didn't speak, but looked at him as if stung by Jing Can's words, and frowned deeply.

Song Yinan and Jing Zaixing had already caught up, and the people around started to talk a lot, Jing Can was all too familiar with this scene.He didn't want to stay here, not for a moment, the eyes of everyone here made him breathless.

Jing Can wanted to continue running forward, but Jing Zaixing held him back.

"Let go of me! I'm going to find him!"

Jing Can struggled desperately, her jacket was deformed by the tugging of the two, and the neckline had red marks on her neck.

"Xiao Can!" Jing Zaixing wrapped his arms tightly around him, and shouted in his ear, "Don't run away! I'll go drive, and we'll take you to find him."

"Yes," Song Yinan cried, "Don't run anymore, you are injured, wait for your father to drive, okay?"

Hearing what they said, Jing Can slowly stopped struggling.His eyes remained fixed on the empty ground ahead, and he returned to silence.

There were discussions all around, which were restrained at first, but then became louder and louder. A child asked in a normal volume, "Mom, what's wrong with that brother?"

Jing Can blinked, but didn't look up.

No one spoke on the way to Huihe.Jing Can and Song Yinan sat in the back seat, Song Yinan watched him keep digging his thumb with his nails, trying to stop him, but Jing Can just repeated this action mechanically as if he couldn't hear her at all.

The car stopped at the gate of No.[-] Middle School, before it stopped, Jing Can rushed out of the car.The guard stopped him at first, and Jing Can said with a choked voice, "I'm a student here."

At any rate, the doorman still had a little impression of him. Seeing that the expression on his face was not quite right, he guessed, "You missed the exam, go in quickly, but the exam is almost over, I don't know if I will let you in now." test."

The door opened, and Song Yinan and Jing Zaixing also rushed in together.

Jing Can ran to the door of Class 21, peeked through the window and took a look in. After seeing a completely unfamiliar face, she remembered that the exam was going to be taken in a random order.

He didn't know which examination room He Ping intended to be in.

"Not here," Jing Can pretended to be calm, and explained to Song Yinan and Jing Zaixing who had followed up, "This is his class, but the exam room is disrupted this time, so he won't take the exam here."

After Jing Can finished speaking, she began to search classroom by classroom. After searching for the experimental class building, she ran to other teaching buildings.Every time he went to a class, students who were taking the exam would look at him curiously. They might not have malicious intentions, but under the eyes of more and more probing, the world in Jing Can's head became more and more complicated. Fuzzy, he began to be the same as before, unable to distinguish what is true and what is false, Song Yinan, Jing Zaixing, Xu Hewei all followed behind him, the expressions on their faces were anxious and concerned. At this moment, he began to feel that Xu Hewei was no different from Song Yinan and the others.He knew that his thinking was wrong, and he kept revising his thinking. Before he realized it, his pace became faster and more chaotic, and finally he was almost from a class. The door rushed to the door of another class.

His arm was grabbed by someone, Xu Heyou supported his shoulder, forcing him to look at him: "Jing Can, don't do this, calm down."

Jing Can subconsciously shook her head: "Xu Hewei, help me find him..."

Halfway through the conversation, he remembered something.He saw the sad faces of Jing Zaixing and Song Yinan behind Xu Hewei.

Jing Can was stunned for a moment, then stepped back abruptly.

"Jing Can, don't do this."

Xu Hewei stretched out his hand, wanting to grab Jing Can, but Jing Can threw away his arm like crazy: "Leave me alone! Please! It's my fault, it's all my fault! But I beg you, don't Leave me alone!"

"Xiao Can!"

Song Yinan ran over, wanting to hug him, but Jing Can waved her hands desperately, not giving her a chance to go forward.

His almost crazy movements and shouts quickly attracted two teachers. The teachers didn't know what was going on, so they yelled at him: "What are you doing! You are taking an exam now, don't disturb the classroom order."

Jing Can glanced at them, then bit her lip tightly and stopped talking.With his already stiff legs, he avoided everyone around him and planned to go to the next classroom.

"I'm done looking for this floor," Jing Can murmured, "I'm going upstairs to look for it."

"Jing Can!"

A familiar voice sounded in the corridor, and Jing Can quickly turned around after being slightly taken aback.

He Pingyi walked towards him step by step, and even opened his arms.

"He Pingyi."

Through the real or fake world, Jing Can softly called his name.

At this moment, Jing Can realized very clearly that he didn't come to He Pingyi to prove anything, he didn't want to prove that He Pingyi was true, and he didn't want to prove it to anyone at all.He just wanted to see him crazily after feeling the loneliness of being rejected by this world.

Want to see him, want to hug him.

Unable to hold back the tears she had been holding back, Jing Can ran towards He Pingyi.He lost his center of gravity due to the excessive speed, his body leaned forward uncontrollably, and before the center of gravity dropped even more, he was firmly caught by a pair of hands again.Jing Can clung tightly to He Pingyi's body, and continued to call: "He Pingyi..."

He Pingyi stroked his head and hugged him tightly.

"What's wrong?" Xu Shi also ran violently, and when He Pingyi said this, his chest was still heaving violently.His voice was a little choked up, and even his eyes were sore.

All Jing Can's strength seemed to have been exhausted just now, his legs were weak, and his whole body was trembling.He shook his head vigorously, and the grievance in his heart slanted out with tears: "They said you were fake."

"How could I be fake." He Pingyi put his chin against Jing Can's ear, raised his eyelids, and glanced at the person standing in front of him with red eyes, "They said something wrong."

Jing Can could no longer control her emotions, and at this moment she was already whimpering.

"But they don't believe me... they don't believe me..."

He Pingyi was so distressed that he could hardly breathe.He hugged Jing Can, and kept rubbing his tense neck with one hand, trying to relieve his overly tense spirit.However, such reassurance seemed to have no effect at all, and the person in his arms was still shaking.

"I believe you."

He Pingyi suddenly hugged Jing Can and flashed into the stairwell.He clasped Jing Can's head and kissed it, still wiping the tears on Jing Can's face with one hand.

The crying gradually weakened, Jing Can raised her head, feeling the kiss almost obsessively.He hugged He Pingyi tightly. In this kiss, his fear seemed to be unable to hide. He was afraid of being regarded as a lunatic, afraid that he would really become a lunatic, and even more afraid...

It wasn't that he was more afraid, but that he was the most afraid, and He Pingyi would also treat him as a lunatic.

So he frantically asked He Pingyi for a sense of security. He remembered that He Pingyi said that he would "be with him", so he wanted to use this kiss to tell He Pingyi that he really needed him.

"I'll always trust you, okay?"

After the kiss, Jing Can was already sobbing.His bewildered cries echoed in the corridor, He Pingyi hugged him back and said, "Who is crying and kissing?"

Jing Can was gasping for breath from crying, He Pingyi kissed his ear, waiting for him to calm down a little.

"Stop crying, let's go home."

Hearing what he said, Jing Can, who had already calmed down a bit, began to shake her head frantically again.He suddenly pushed He Pingyi's body with both hands, trying to make him leave him.

"You go to the test."

He Pingyi frowned and held him down.How could he be in the mood to take the exam now.

"Please." For some reason, Jing Can's emotions, which had been so hard to calm down, seemed to become agitated again, and he suddenly shouted to the side, "I didn't!"

Jing Can's eyes were full of fear, just like that day on the racing track full of people, tears overflowed again uncontrollably.

He Pingyi was stunned, glanced at the empty side, and hurriedly hugged Jing Can in his arms again.

"Xiao Can, what's wrong? Who else is here?"

Jing Can pressed her forehead against He Pingyi's shoulder, and cried, "I didn't want to drag you down...you go to the exam, please...I'll wait for you at home, I don't care about anyone, just wait for you to come back ..."

He Pingyi never expected that the truth about Jing Can would be revealed by Jing Can herself in this way.He asked his psychiatrist, he originally wanted to find a suitable time to talk about these things with Jing Can in a warm environment.In his plan, he should hug Jing Can and kiss his eyes in front of the New Year's house.

Then tell him, it's okay, it's not scary.

But the terrible reality didn't give him any chance to make arrangements. The "night long dream" that he was worried about two days ago came true, and Jing Can came back to him crying, with a broken heart.

Jing Can muttered a lot of words, He Pingyi heard a name called "Xu Hewei", and heard that Jing Can kept begging him to finish the paper.

"Okay," He Pingyi said with a choked throat, "I'll finish the exam. Be good, go home first, and wait for me on the rooftop, okay? I'll find you soon."

"Okay," Jing Can said.

Jing Can had several injuries on his leg. Although he had no energy to feel the pain at all, when he got out of the car at the door of his house, he still staggered because of these injuries.He held onto the car door and stood still, resisting the dizziness, followed Song Yinan and Jing Zaixing towards home.

There is the barking of a puppy.

it's new year.

Jing Can froze for a moment, but didn't turn her head to look.