Let me have a drunken dream

"Hello, Nianbei, I've arrived at S City International Airport. I'm at Exit H of the underground parking lot. Find me there." Cui Shengxian lowered his voice and called at Exit H to quickly inform Chen Nianbei.Even though the plane arrived in the middle of the night and early in the morning, he was still afraid of being recognized, even though he didn't know if the people in City S could recognize him now.

Sitting in the Starbucks waiting for him, Chen Nianbei hurriedly paid the bill after receiving the news, hailed a taxi and rushed to exit H of the underground garage.When she got out of the car, she saw the still handsome man wearing a gray overcoat standing in the wind, with his back behind her, with one hand in his pocket and the other smoking a cigarette.Swallowing clouds and fog is the greatest pleasure for him to spend time and relax his spirit in his spare time. This kind of pleasure is the favorite of most men. No matter how special he is, he is just an ordinary man.

It was very windy outside, so she told the driver to wait a while.Opening the car door, a gust of cold wind blew directly in front of her. She couldn't help shrinking her neck. When she got out of the car, she tightened the scarf around her neck.Walking behind him, she patted his shoulder lightly, and said slowly, "Waiting for a long time?"

Realizing that it was Chen Nianbei, Cui Shengxian quickly pinched the cigarette in his hand, and threw the cigarette butt into the trash can on his left.This was a habit he developed when Chen Nianbei was pregnant. After a long time, he couldn't change it.He looked at Chen Nianbei, who was a head shorter than him, and said, "No, just for a while."

Chen Nianbei smiled, lowered her head and said softly, "That's good." Immediately, she looked up at him, "The taxi is over there." She pointed to the direction behind her right, "Let's go. It's cold outside Yes." After that, she took his hand and walked towards the taxi, just like them at the beginning of that year.

How long has it been since you held hands?How long has it been since you said these words calmly?How long have you not longed for the stillness of time?Each has a steelyard of time in their hearts, weighing their respective answers.Maybe the answers are different, but the feeling at this time must be the same. "If life is just like the first time I saw it", what they said is probably what they are now.

Cui Shengxian and Chen Nianbei sat in the back of the taxi together. Chen Nianbei, who had just gotten into the taxi, couldn't bear the cold outside the car and rubbed his hands together.He saw her coldness, he took her hand as before, and put it in his big hand to warm it.After warming for a while, when he felt that her hands were not so cold, he asked her softly: "Is it warm?"

Chen Nianbei was stunned and didn't speak for a long time.It's been a long time, she hasn't thought about his kindness to her for a moment, she has long forgotten such a scene, and it took her a long time to recall this feeling.Her eyes were a little sore, she sniffed, nodded, and said with a smile, "It's warm."

In fact, he is a very good man, and she is also a very good woman, but they live in two different worlds, wandering in two different circles.Perhaps it is because of this that their kindness always seems so commendable and precious.It's like saying that now, such ordinary actions and conversations seem to be a great gift to them.Time and accidents really separated them and drew a galaxy.This Milky Way gave them to a certain extent the preciousness that is less than ordinary people at this age.It can also be said that their preciousness is more than that.

"I've watched your recent programs and reports, and it doesn't seem very good." Chen Nianbei leaned towards him, originally thinking of resting his head on his shoulder, but suddenly found that he didn't have the courage.

He saw this, and it was a lie to say that he was not blocked. He tightened his grip on her hand, but he was afraid of hurting her, so he loosened his grip after a while.His condition is more than 'not very good', it is 'very bad'.The former high-priced commercials have long since changed owners. He can only be an ordinary guest on second-rate programs, and the occasional interviews are all zero-hour programs. There are no new songs recorded, no scripts, and his old club YG has already drawn up a termination contract.He didn't want to say more about it, and he didn't want to tell her.One is that he is afraid that she will think too much, and the other is that he has his reconciliation, and he doesn't believe that it is really such a complete defeat.He smiled calmly, looked down at the hands he and she held tightly, turned his head and looked out the window and said, "Fortunately, the reports are exaggerated. Don't think too much about it."

When a man tells a woman not to think too much, the woman will start to think too much, and the same is true for Chen Nianbei.She guessed he was not doing well.It's just that he wants to save face and be strong, she won't point it out, and she won't mention it again.She immediately changed the subject, "Arrange you to stay in the hotel first today, it's too late now, it's inconvenient for you to stay at my house. After all, I don't live alone." What she said was her worry, but the bigger worry It was she who did not know how to bring this man before her parents.

Cui Shengxian, who rushed to City S non-stop, has not rested for 36 consecutive hours, although he slept for two hours on the plane.But those two hours were almost consumed by tension and excitement, and my nerves hardly let go.Looking at the phone, the time display is a quarter past two in the morning.He was tired, and he nodded in agreement tiredly.In fact, he didn't understand her worry, but he was also worried.They all need time to organize themselves, to adjust themselves.

Still silent, most of the time between them is now silent.They each have their own thoughts, but they don't want to say it, so they choose not to say it. They each look at the scenery outside the window, sleep by the window when they are tired, and watch the scenery on their side soberly, waiting quietly to reach their destination.The clenched hands then loosened.

Chen Nianbei patted the sleeping Cui Shengxian, "Wake up, we're here." He rubbed his eyes sleepily, and she couldn't help smiling at the occasional childishness. be on guard. "Hurry up, I'll get my luggage first."

The procedures for checking into the hotel had been completed before, and Chen Nianbei deliberately used the room registered with her ID card to avoid suspicion.Before entering the hotel, she deliberately lowered his peaked cap, and they walked very fast when entering the hotel.

Fortunately, it was early in the morning, and there were not many people coming in and out of the hotel, and even the lady working at the front desk was dozing off with her head propped up.His room was on the eleventh floor, and he could fall asleep by the elevator when he was tired.Standing aside, Chen Nianbei looked at him who was exhausted, with indescribable sadness. In her impression, his brows had never been so haggard.He seemed to be thinner than the last time we met, the flesh on his cheeks was much less, and the already sharp-edged face seemed to be more profound, and this period was only two months.

On the eleventh floor, the elevator door opened automatically, but she was reluctant to wake him up.She patted him on the back lightly, "Wake up, we're here. We'll sleep in our room and cool off by the elevator." She picked up his luggage for him and walked out of the elevator holding his hand.After walking a few steps, her hands were empty. It was he who took his luggage and took the room card from her pocket.Then, lead her forward. "No matter how tired I am, I don't want my woman to help me with my luggage."

Domineering as always, this kind of domineering made her feel swollen and sour.He is still full of pride, and his self-esteem is still so strong.She let him pull, her eyes blurred.

In his room he took off his peaked cap, took off his overcoat, and put on hotel slippers.It was at this time that she realized that he was only wearing a shirt with a black border and a white bottom. He should have just left the show, hurried home and changed into a coat before rushing to the airport.She deliberately turned up the temperature of the air conditioner, and then took his hand, and found that the big palm in his hand was not that warm, "So busy, why did you agree to come over?" She asked him.

He looked down at the little hand holding him, and smiled, the dimples on his cheeks sunken.In the past, he had flesh on his face, and he looked good when he smiled. Now he is too thin, and his smile looks even more vicissitudes. "I promised you, I will never break my promise." Chen Nianbei felt unspeakably uncomfortable. She rested her head on his chest, touched his back, and felt his relief.I don't know if it was her illusion, but now his heartbeat was louder than before, and as his chest rose and fell, her tears quietly soaked into his shirt.She still couldn't bear him, and didn't want to see that he was not good at all. He had long been an indispensable part of her heart, even though she was used to living without him for three years, and she also forgot his kindness and tenderness to him.Her complaints, her dissatisfaction, perhaps disappeared at this moment.

The wet stickiness on his chest was her tears, so why didn't he feel the same emotion as her.He gently rubbed the top of her head, "Okay, don't cry, I'm here." He let go of the person in his arms, and gently wiped the tears on her face, "Go and put the bath water for me, okay?" , I'm tired." He paused, took a deep breath, "You haven't done this for me in three years."

This sentence means in disguise that he has not had sex for three years, whether it is physical or psychological desire, he told her very honestly.Chen Nianbei looked at him almost in surprise, his eyes widened.From Cui Shengxian's point of view, she looked very distressed, her big eyes seemed to be about to shed tears again.He hugged her, patted her on the back, and said softly: "Help me get the water, please, I miss you, I miss you very much."

Having said that, Chen Nianbei didn't think she could say anything else to refuse.When the relationship reaches this level, who is right and who is wrong is no longer so important. If they all gave sincerely, then each other should be satisfied.Cui Shengxian wiped the tears from her face and kissed her forehead.Chen Nianbei nodded, turned around and went to the bathroom.

She always remembered that he liked hot hot water, but when the water was turned on, he accidentally let the scalding hot water scald himself, and the back of his hand was flushed.When Cui Shengxian came in with a change of clothes, Chen Nianbei happened to have put away the bath water as well. "What a coincidence, the water is ready." After that, she glanced at him who was unbuttoning his shirt, and opened the door to go out as if avoiding suspicion.

Cui Shengxian held her back, "You haven't helped me for three years. Can you stay?"

Chen Nianbei looked back at him, he was tired, but she was also tired. "Don't use three years as an excuse, you haven't had promiscuity in three years, you wait for me, I know. I am very touched about this, but you have to understand that I have never had any ambiguous relationship with other men. You don't need to make such a request at this time. It's so late, I'm tired, and there's no need."

Chen Nianbei's refusal made him feel uncomfortable. His request was not too much. He always believed that such a request should be satisfied as a husband, but to her, it was a little shameless and obscene. "How can three years be an excuse? I don't think my request is too much. You are my wife, and this is your obligation!" After finishing speaking, he pulled her back to his side and closed the bathroom door. Pressing Chen Nianbei against the door panel, staring at her, and questioning her in a low voice: "I am so annoying to you, so annoying that even physical contact with me feels disgusting?"

Chen Nianbei turned his head away, she didn't like him looking at her like this, his eyes contained too much information and put too much pressure on her, she instinctively avoided such eyes. "I'm tired, and you haven't rested for a long time. Don't make trouble like this. Why don't you have a good sleep?"

He didn't like the fact that she turned her head away from him, it gave him the illusion of being 'out'.What Chen Nianbei said was not wrong, but he couldn't listen, "Tell me, don't you care about everything between us anymore?"

Chen Nianbei still turned his head away, not looking at him.She never thought that he didn't trust her so much, she closed her eyes, feeling an indescribable feeling in her heart, as if the ups and downs were all entangled together, she was so excited that she couldn't say a word.Cui Shengxian turned her face, he thought that all her actions confirmed his guess, he was anxious, "I want you to look at me and tell the truth, if you want to have a clear conscience, don't be evasive." He urgently needs an answer , Various characters related to her have appeared in his mind, "Is it your boss, Wang Nan? Tell me!" He almost roared out, his eyes were bloodshot, and Chen Nian's ferocity at that moment Bei was terrified.

"Don't make trouble for no reason, okay? What I didn't say is nothing!" Chen Nianbei pulled away the hand that imprisoned her vigorously, but his strength was too strong, she couldn't pull it away several times, but she let go of her hand, "You're tired and you need to rest."

He was really tired. He leaned on her shoulder and buried his head in her neck, "Nianbei, compared to working day and night, I am most afraid of your betrayal. Can you understand that feeling? This It hurts more than gnawing on my bones or stabbing a knife in my body. It feels like there are thousands of worms gnawing on my heart, and I am in so much pain." Chen Nianbei felt the stickiness in the pit of her neck, and there was liquid running across her neck. Hugging the man in front of him, he looked helpless like a child, "I'm afraid you will really leave me, it's been three years, and three years can kill too many things."

Time will indeed erase too many things, and it is precisely because it is the most powerful scavenger that people are so afraid.They don't have the open-mindedness to forget each other, let alone the courage to abandon everything in the world, so there is very little left for them.The road is too bumpy, you can't see the end, and you can't see the surroundings.