Let me have a drunken dream

The environment of the suburban forest park is very quiet and there are few people.But the weather was not very good, it was foggy, and if it didn't rain, it made people feel depressed and couldn't get rid of it.Chen Nianbei led Chen Yujing along the small lake, she and Cui Shengxian chatted every sentence.

"I went to the immigration department to check, and I have already solved the problem about you." Speaking of this matter, it was his mistake.Chen Nianbei, as the person involved, needs to know the final outcome of the matter.And in his opinion, this is good news.

Chen Nianbei originally thought that the result was not important. She had imagined thousands of life in S City, but when she heard the news, she felt the ease of being wronged.She smiled heartily, "Thank you."

Obviously he didn't want the word 'thank you', or he didn't want the answer. "Thank you. You are not wrong. It was my family who wronged you. I am just correcting their mistakes. I should say thank you for your forgiveness."

"Hehe, it's meaningless for us to thank you. The matter is over, so don't worry about it. Besides, those who should have suffered and should not have suffered. The result now is just a drawing for this matter." Beautiful full stop." She realized that she had spoken too much, paused, and continued: "I'm ready not to go back, I have considered the blueprint of my future life, and designed many kinds of life without Seoul You have to know... I don't have so much confidence to promise myself. I wait because I still have obsessions, but I don't know how long I can persist. The reality pushes me to have to Go forward step by step." She looked at him, sighed, and said slowly: "I want to live, I don't ask for a big status, but at least I have to live in a bright and aboveboard way." She really didn't want to say these words , but she wants to tell the truth, it's not that she is too realistic, but that they both have to distinguish their respective roles in their lives.

Those who say these words are uncomfortable, and those who listen to them don't feel much better.There was a long silence between the two, neither of them knew what to say, and the momentary silence gradually revealed the distance between them.The distance between them is not only the distance from S City to Seoul, but also the ideal distance between them.

"Come back to Seoul with me, and we'll start over again. I'll give you what you want to be upright, and I'll pay you back everything I owe you." Obviously, Cui Shengxian was in a hurry.His consciousness told him that if he stopped fighting or made a decisive decision, Chen Nianbei would never come back to him again.He knows very well that living in two places and meeting twice in three years may turn into meeting once in three years, meeting once in six years, and never seeing each other again.He didn't want such a result.

Chen Nianbei smiled, her eyes were a little sore, she turned her head to look at the lake, "You can't give it until your career is back on track." Walking to a pavilion, she hugged Chen Yujing to the side of the pavilion. After sitting on the chair, he continued: "Not to mention your thoughts, even if what you said is true, what are you going to say about your parents? You know their attitude, I will never be accepted. When the time comes It's a short dispute between parents. In this way, no one wants to see anyone else's family, and no one is happy and can't stay any longer."

"I'll take care of the matter over there, you don't have to think so much." Cui Shengxian leaned on the pillar at the entrance of the gazebo, and took out a cigarette and a lighter from his pocket.When he was about to light a cigarette, Chen Nianbei took his lighter, "Yu Jing is still there, don't smoke." Then he put the lighter back into his pocket.

"Sometimes I don't want to think about it, but I can't help but think about it. I feel worried when I think about it, and I don't want to go back when I'm worried. I think it makes me feel at ease. It doesn't mean being with you I live a restless life, I just feel that you have worked hard, and your work does not allow me and Yu Jing to be exposed. This kind of careful life makes me breathless and aggrieved. Every time I tell myself that this is not a big deal , I should pay something for you. I think I will get used to such carefulness, but then I finally realized that I can't get used to it. As long as I am a woman and your real wife, I can't stand this kind of invisible Relationship. I'm not great, I just want a normal marriage, that's all." Chen Nianbei stood opposite Cui Shengxian, looked at him, and said very sincerely.

She told a lot of the truth, the truth is hurtful and thought-provoking.He also knew at this moment how selfish he was.He always thought that as long as she was by his side, his "sometimes", "wait for a while", "later"... could all be established.Especially when he knew that Chen Nianbei was pregnant with Chen Yujing, he felt that she would always be by his side as a matter of course, so he kept procrastinating, and never kept the promised promise.The longer the delay, the more unstable factors will appear.But he didn't know that his unscrupulous self-confidence was bought by Chen Nianbei's regress step by step.Now that he finally heard her truth, she was unwilling to back down, and his bastard also surfaced.

"Go back to Seoul, after all, you have to give me a chance to fulfill your promise." If he cares about the unsatisfactory career, then as a man, he has to trade his family for the possible rise of his career.Then such a man is no different from eating soft food, he is nothing more than selling his wife and children in disguise to exchange for possible glory and wealth in the rest of his life.If he wanted to be such a person, then Cui Shengxian would rather be poor for the rest of his life. "I have to fly back in the early morning of the night. I don't have much time to accompany you today. Nianbei, you must give me a chance. "

There was a hint of pleading hidden in his words, Chen Nianbei was not unmoved, but she knew too well that this was just a decision made by him out of fear.Maybe this decision is what he is willing to say now. If he can really feel unhappy in the future, it will be too late to regret it. She doesn't want to have an unstable future.Emotional and rational, at her age, she will choose rationality without hesitation at the end.Maybe the relationship is a play house between two people at the beginning, but living it is like peeling an onion. The beauty of the appearance is peeled off bit by bit. If you are lucky, you can leave some; Nothing at all.

Chen Nianbei bowed his head and smiled slightly, "I've been giving you opportunities, but in fact, I didn't give you your opportunities." She glanced at Cui Shengxian and continued: "What we give to each other is not only affection but also love. There are many other factors, some of which are about respect, about family, about your career, about children, about culture and race, and many other miscellaneous things. Therefore, it is not enough just to have feelings, or whether we can get together if we are together. In the end, we have nothing to say. I hope you go back and think about what you and I should do in the future? Should we start a business first and then start a family? Or start a family first and then start a business? These are not things you can decide with just one word now." In fact, she didn't know what to do between them, and she urgently needed an answer, but she was too eager and decisive to gamble.

These words were like a knife piercing Cui Shengxian's heart without hesitation, but he couldn't even groan in pain.Chen Nianbei is the person in his heart, he can give everything, but he missed the best time.He was helpless but angry, the more he wanted to hold it, the tighter he grasped it, but he realized that too much had slipped through the gap between his fingers before he knew it.He looked at Chen Yujing who was sitting on the stone bench in the gazebo, walked over and picked her up on his lap, teasing her.After all, they are father and daughter, and the bond that blood is thicker than water cannot be broken. The little girl likes Cui Shengxian very much, her initial fear has long since disappeared, and she also has the recognition of her father towards the man in front of her.She smiled and put her arms around Choi Seung Hyun's neck, and called out 'Abba' sweetly.The hearts of those who yelled "Abba" softened, Cui Shengxian's eyes were red, and the soreness made his eyes swell.He hugged Chen Yujing in his arms, small and soft, and gently responded to the child, "Well, my baby." The child could not understand Korean, but she could understand her father's feelings for her.

Anyone watching the scene of loving father and daughter being filial is full of emotions, and Chen Nianbei felt a deep sense of regret and guilt rolling in her heart.There is nothing wrong with a child, but being born in a family like hers is fate.From the time the child was born, she and Cui Shengxian owed her a complete and healthy family.It's their incompetence as parents, it's their fault. "Let's give each other a little more time. When you are stable, and when the parents of both parties are ready, I will wait for you to marry me in the door." She took his hand, smiling like a flower, "Say it okay?" ?” She has always been a hard-hearted person, she still has the best expectations for him, she loves him, this seems to be no longer a fact but a piece of mind engraved in her heart.

At this point, no one could do anything, Cui Shengxian held the woman holding his hand back, and he nodded.As she said, that was the best ending.She is willing to wait, and he has no reason not to follow her, but he still has his insistence, "Nianbei, I still hope you can go to Seoul with me, since we have to go back sooner or later, wouldn't it be good for our family to reunite as soon as possible?"

Chen Nianbei shook his head and said with a smile: "That's different. I want you to pick me up and go back to Seoul. That's my honor. I don't want to be wronged anymore. I have the right and need to be married by you in a sedan chair. Mrs. Choi."

The so-called formalism is not only a form, but also a statement and dignity.Nothing can be lacking without words and dignity. This is the bottom line of being a human being.Abandoning them, even if the result is good, is still missing a piece, or inferior.

When Chen Nianbei and Cui Shengxian sent Chen Yujing home together, Cui Shengxian wanted to visit Chen's father and Chen's mother. He said that it was a matter of time between them, and it made no sense for him not to come forward after the child was born.Chen Nianbei felt that he was right, that he should meet her parents, it was his responsibility as well as hers.

The process of meeting was not good, it can be said to be very unpleasant.Chen's father and Chen's mother were very polite, but they didn't say a word. They didn't even have a simple investigation of the personal situation of the "granddaughter and her father". They just politely invited Cui Shengxian to drink tea.To be polite is to be polite, but to be very polite is to look outside. Obviously, Chen's father and Chen's mother are not very satisfied with Cui Shengxian.This embarrassed Chen Nianbei, who was acting as the translator, and Cui Shengxian also understood the attitude of the two elders, so they dispersed without saying anything.Afterwards, Chen Nianbei sent him back to the hotel.

At night, Chen Nianbei packed his little luggage, which was actually just a few clothes. "I didn't expect my parents to be so out of touch. Don't worry about it. It took a while for them to accept Yujing at first, and they will be able to accept you after a while. After all, I was too embarrassed when I returned to China. I have always been unwilling to reveal you even if I had a child out of wedlock, and the elders must have criticized you. Thinking about it, I did too much, which made it difficult for my parents to accept all this."

He also had a share in her excesses, and when he saw the parents at night, he felt more and more indebted to her.He hugged her from behind and rested his head on her neck, "Don't say that, you are not wrong, it is my persuasion that put you into this quagmire and made you have so many difficulties. Your parents need time, I I also need to show my sincerity better, I will definitely let them accept me." At this point, he tightened his arms and hugged her waist even tighter, "Similarly, I will also try my best to let my parents accept you .As long as we are determined enough, it is really not that difficult, and many problems will be solved.”

This is another promise. Women are emotional animals. Even though they have warned themselves countless times to be rational, once a man they love says such things, their rationality will prove to be worthless again, and their sensibility will fill their brains. And Xinfang, in addition to unconditionally choosing to give again is to promise everything the man said.Chen Nianbei closed her eyes and leaned against the chest of the man behind her. She wanted to keep this moment forever, without separation or realistic concerns.In fact, aside from these, they are an extremely well-matched pair.

Before boarding the plane, Cui Shengxian thought of Li Qiqi that Quan Zhilong mentioned to him last time.He talked to Chen Nianbei and asked her to pay attention.Chen Nianbei was surprised that Li Qiqi left without making a sound. She always thought that she would be with Quan Zhilong. After all, Li Qiqi had made up her mind, and she promised him that she would tell him as soon as there was news about Li Qiqi.The two parted reluctantly, watching him pass the customs with the boarding pass, she didn't know when the next meeting would be, and the part of her heart that had just been filled was empty again.There was too little she could do, she could only pray for him that everything was well.