Ji Guang

The sky gradually darkened, leaving only a little charcoal fire in front of me, illuminating a small area.

As the night fell, it was still cool, and the heat of the day was driven away. With the wind, you can hear the rustling of the surrounding trees being blown by the wind.

Several people were full and did not refill the charcoal. The charcoal fire gradually extinguished, leaving only a few sparks, and occasionally a little beeping sound, and one side of the light completely gave way to the night.

There are no lights in the abandoned city, but there is a very good moonlight, which illuminates the surroundings brightly, like half a day.

Xiang Huai was lying on Lin Ji's lap, with weeds growing under his body, he arched into Lin Ji's arms, screaming itchy, Lin Ji stretched out his hands to protect his waist, and shielded him from the grass stalks that pierced his body. .

Both Zheng Zaoqiao and Shi Fa didn't like it.

Xiang Huai laughed a few times triumphantly, and asked Shi Mana again: "By the way, what medicine did you take wrong today?"

"It hasn't been two years. I've been eating and drinking with you two all the time." Shi Fa scratched his head, "I'm a little ashamed too."

Xiang Huai sneered: "Why do I not believe so?"

Shi Fa smiled and did not refute him.

"I heard," Zheng Zaoqiao said, "the abandoned city will be rebuilt next year."

"Who said that?" Xiang Huai was surprised.

"I heard it from my dad," Zheng Zaoqiao said, "It will start next spring, re-plan and rebuild everything."

The four of them didn't speak for a while, Xiang Huai grabbed Lin Ji's hand and squeezed his fingers one by one.

Reconstruction of the abandoned city is a good thing. It is a pity to waste such a large and good place halfway and turned into ruins, but new life also represents destruction. For them, some things are no longer there.

"Huai'er." Zheng Zaoqiao suddenly called out.

Xiang Huai looked up at him.

Zheng Zaoqiao squeezed the can in his hand, making a harsh metallic sound, and it took him a long time before he said softly, "I'm sorry."

"Okay," Xiang Huai sat up and said indifferently, "Why are you talking about it after it's all over?"

Zheng Zaoqiao let out a deep breath, and also smiled: "Don't talk about it, it's all my fault anyway, you just don't know as much as I do."

"Cut," Xiang Huai said, "Who is free to talk to you?"

Zheng Zaoqiao was about to pounce on him, and said angrily, "You ungrateful bastard! I'm still sticking to you!"

Xiang Huai kicked him while hiding on Lin Ji's body, Lin Ji took him into his arms, Zheng Zaoqiao couldn't go over to hug Lin Ji, so he let it go angrily.

Zheng Zaoqiao was still groaning, Xiang Huai suddenly reached out his hand, touched the can with Zheng Zaoqiao, raised his eyebrows at him, and poured down half a bottle.

Zheng Zaoqiao's eyes turned hot, and he quickly raised his head to drink too, concealing his emotions.

The reasons why he distanced himself from Xiang Huai could not be said at all. First, he felt irrational and couldn't figure out what kind of anger he was getting at Xiang Huai. Zheng Zaoqiao can't let people expose his secret love.But he felt that Xiang Huai seemed to have guessed it all. He was a very smart person.

"Huai'er," Zheng Zaoqiao was moved and guilty, always wanting to confess his sincerity in return, "Your matter is no big deal, no matter what happens to others, we will always be there and support you."

"You're fucking finished." Xiang Huai stretched out his leg and kicked him, "It's almost done, it's so disgusting."

When Zheng Zaoqiao finally calmed down, Xiang Huai couldn't help laughing again. He remembered a long time ago, when he thought he was unrequited love, secretly kissed Lin Ji in the middle of the night, and ran to make peace with Zheng Zaoqiao the next day. Caster said he likes men.Zheng Zaoqiao said, who made you my buddy, and Shi Fa said, so do I.

Now their situation is very bad, but it doesn't seem that bad, at least the people he cares about are still there.

This night when casting spells, there was a rare silence. He sat aside, quietly listening to their conversation, occasionally laughing, and the smile quickly disappeared.

"What are you doing?" Xiang Huai asked, "I'm bleeding so much tonight that I'm so distressed that I can't even say anything?"

Zheng Zaoqiao chuckled.

Caster didn't laugh.

"I want to tell you something," Shi Fa paused and said in a low voice, "I won't be going to school next semester."

The laughter stopped abruptly.

The courtyard fell into silence for a while, and the moonlight became brighter and brighter.

"What did you say?" Zheng Zaoqiao said dryly.

Casting the spell is like being on the same level as a soda can, pinching it flat and then rounding it, lowering the head and not looking at the other people.

"There have been a lot of things happening in the past few days, and I haven't been able to find the time to speak," Shi Fa said, his tone was very light, almost deliberately, "it has been delayed until now."

"No," Zheng Zaoqiao said, "the college entrance examination is only a year away, why is it so sudden?"

"Not suddenly," Shi Fa said, "I didn't even plan to go to high school at the time. I was lucky enough to pass the exam, so I wanted to give it a try. But after a year, I was still doing well. My dad didn't want me to pass the exam. I said that after three years of high school, I will be a junior college, and I will still be looking for a job after finishing the junior college, so I might as well learn some skills in advance, he will help me find a relationship, and I will be able to work soon."

"I told him to give me a year to try again. No, another year is over, and it's still like this. I'm not material for learning."

"If this is the reason," Lin Ji said, "There is nothing you can't learn, and you can improve a lot in a year. I can help you."

"No, no," Shi Fa waved his hand, "You've got a lot of credit. I went out to work with my dad for a while during the winter vacation, and I think it's pretty good. I can do everything."

"Is it really decided?" Zheng Zaoqiao asked.

"Well," Shi Fa laughed heartlessly, "it's nothing. I'll probably spend my whole life in this small city, but you don't know what big cities to spend in the future. I'm stationed here, you guys Whenever you come back, there is a place to go."

Zheng Zaoqiao wiped his nose, and grinned at him: "What's so good about a big city, our small city is a livable city, you fucking look like a human in the past few years, and then I will follow you messed up."

"That's a must," Shi Spell boasted, "Let's learn how to cook, but don't cook anything else. Wait, when the time comes, buddy will take you to fly."

Xiang Huai didn't say a word, Shi Fa and Zheng Zaoqiao made a few jokes, and then their eyes were on the silent Xiang Huai intentionally or unintentionally.

"Huai'er?" Zheng Zaoqiao called him, "Say a few words."

"What are you talking about?" Xiang Huai's voice was very weak, "I can still control other people's decisions? If I can't learn, I can teach, if I have no money, I can borrow, if I really don't want to go, what can I do?"

The smile on Caster's face disappeared. He looked at Xiang Huai and said in a low voice, "Don't be angry with me."

"Think too much," Xiang Huai said, "This is your own business, we can't control it."

Lin Ji pulled his hair, glanced at Xiang Huai, his expression was still a bit cold, Lin Ji rubbed the back of his head again, as if to comfort him silently.Only then did Xiang Huai's expression gradually change, his coldness faded away, his eyelids drooped, and his lips were pursed tightly.

When Shi Spell spoke again, his voice was choked with sobs: "I'm very happy to be friends with you in high school, really, otherwise I won't be able to survive half a semester and get out."

Casting a spell started talking to Xiang Huai a week after the first year of high school.

They have been the two extremes in the class since the beginning of school.Xiang Huai is very attractive, he doesn't gather crowds to yell, he doesn't become a clique, and he doesn't give any face to anyone who provokes him. He is arrogant and domineering, but everyone likes to play with him, and no one dares to bully him.

Casting a spell is the one who dares to bully anyone.He grew up very late, only 1.6 meters in the third year of junior high school. In three years, he was bullied and became a habit. He ran errands and was beaten and vented his anger. It was his junior high school classmate who brought over his old habits and yelled at him. Within a few days, even the other boys in the new class looked down on him.

He sat in the front row, and Xiang Huai sat in the last row. The two of them had nothing to do with each other during the first week of school. On that day, the boy in the back row who was separated from Xiang Huai in the aisle called for a spell, asking him to go downstairs to buy water for him.

Xiang Huai was playing with his mobile phone, chewing gum with his legs crossed, and cursed casually, "You have no fucking legs."

When casting the spell, he didn't know whether he should accept the boy's meal card. His hesitation angered the man, and he was kicked hard on the leg, and people around him laughed.

Shi Fa hurriedly went to pick up the meal card, but Hengkong stretched out a hand and snatched the meal card away.Xiang Huai took a casual look, and with a flick of his hand, the meal card flew out of the window.

The boy stood up abruptly, very angry, and glared at Huai, the man was too scared to speak again.

"No," Xiang Huai turned to cast spells standing aside, it was the first conversation between them, "You are too cowardly, you can beat back whoever bullies you, you can't lose it if you are so cowardly shame?"

In the next few days, no one dared to trouble him with casting spells. People were watching, but Xiang Huai obviously forgot about him and ignored him.

A few days later, Shi Fa ran into Xiang Huai fighting with others outside the school. He hesitated and hesitated, turned around dozens of times, trampled the lawn under his feet, and finally gritted his teeth and rushed out.

Although he only had time to punch one of them on the back and the fight was over, Xiang Huai and Zheng Zaoqiao still had a huge change in their opinion of him. After the end, the three of them ate popsicles together, and after that they We often hang out together, and soon became friends.

The first year of senior high school was the year when spellcasting changed the most. In one year, his height increased by more than ten centimeters. It was almost visible to the naked eye that he was getting taller day by day. No matter the appearance or the inside, he was no longer the one who was bullied by others. skinny boys.After a long hesitation and entanglement that day, the moment he rushed out also opened a valve somewhere in his heart. He found that it was not so difficult to resist, and those people were not so strong.

When he was dueling with the boy who came to trouble him, Xiang Huai and Zheng Zaoqiao squatted side by side eating snacks, watching with great interest. I felt so full in my heart, and for the first time felt that there was someone behind him.

Later, no one really dared to trouble him.

Many people ridiculed him as Xiang Huai's little follower, but he didn't take it seriously, because he knew that Xiang Huai didn't think of him that way, and Xiang Huai regarded him as a friend.

In the summer vacation after the first year of high school, his father asked him to drop out of school.His family background was not very good. At the beginning of the senior high school entrance examination, he only surpassed the admission threshold by two points, and narrowly passed the high school entrance examination. If he was like Xiang Huai, his parents would never pay tens of thousands of dollars to let him continue to attend.There is also a pair of twin siblings under him, both of whom are in the second grade of junior high school, and their grades are very good. He is far away from him. He has no hope of getting ahead. His father wants him to work earlier and save some money for the two. A small one for school.

At that time, Shi Spell was terrified, and begged his father for a long time, so that he could step into the school again in September when the second year of high school started, squeezed into the crowd to look at the class schedule, and was excited that he and Xiang Huai were assigned to the same class again.In fact, it was better for him to choose liberal arts, and he had a hard time taking any of the subjects of physics, chemistry and biology, but Xiang Huai and Zheng Zaoqiao both chose science, so he followed suit without hesitation.

He really doesn't like studying, but he also really doesn't want to leave school.Xiang Huai is a rampant school bully, and Zheng Zaoqiao is the second-generation official who is praised by others. They actually become friends with the most ordinary him. They let him feel the joy of going to school and friends for the first time. He is very happy. reluctant.

In his sophomore year of high school, Xiang Huai had Lin Ji beside him, and he spent much less time hanging out with Shi Fa and Zheng Zaoqiao.Casting the spell felt a little uncomfortable at the beginning, as if his things had been taken away by someone, but this feeling didn't last long. He had someone he liked, and of course Xiang Huai could have one too.

He began to try to study hard, but he really didn't have the talent for learning, and his grades kept failing. During the winter vacation, his father took him out to work for a while, and Shi Fa realized that maybe he was going to study this time. I can't go down.

He tried to accept the mediocre life that came ahead of time, convinced himself that this was actually not bad, and slowly he seemed to accept it.

Neither Xiang Huai nor Zheng Zaoqiao knew about these things, and when they were together, they rarely talked about each other's families.

Spellcasting has always found it difficult to speak, especially since Xiang Huai's situation was not good during this period of time. He seemed to be abandoning him at this time, and it was a bit difficult for Spellcasting himself.

Now, he couldn't even say a word.

It took a long time before Xiang Huai let out a slow breath, and he asked again: "Is it really decided?"

Caster nodded.

In the moonlight, the expressions of both of them were a little hazy. Xiang Huai looked at Shi Spell and felt that he was about to cry.

Xiang Huai suddenly felt a great sadness.

He grew up and started to lose.

In this sadness, there is also the confusion of facing the truth of life.He stayed with Shifa all day long, but he never realized that behind those ordinary school routines, Shifa used to have so many thoughts and struggles.What happened to Zheng Zaoqiao?What did Xiao An'an go through?What happened to Wang Yan?What happened to those dozens of people in their classroom?What was going through and thinking about the person who passed him by in the hallway and said hello?

He suddenly discovered that there is not only one world, the world belongs to individuals, and there are as many worlds as there are individuals, and they can never merge with each other.

"Xiang Huai?" Lin Ji called out to him.

Xiang Huai came to his senses, he didn't say what he was thinking, those things were too mysterious for him to explain clearly, and he also felt that he was being hypocritical.

"Then do it well," Xiang Huai said.

Shi Fa suddenly lowered his head, and after a while, he hummed in a very low voice.

The moonlight dyed everything a faint silvery white, and the whole quiet city seemed to be covered with a layer of silver veil that fell from the sky.

They sat quietly for a while, Zheng Zaoqiao looked up at the moon in the sky, and said, "The moonlight is so beautiful today, and when the business district is built here, we won't be able to see it anymore."

"If there's nothing here, there's always a place," Xiang Huai said.

After the show ended, Shi Fa and Zheng Zaoqiao went to return the grill, Xiang Huai and Lin Ji packed up the leftover garbage, packed two big bags and came out, each of them carried one and walked slowly.

Xiang Huai looked up at the moon while walking, he could clearly identify the laurel tree on the moon, and there was a big rock under the tree, but Shi Fa and Zheng Zaoqiao couldn't see it, saying he was nonsense.

Xiang Huai asked Lin Ji: "What do you see on the moon?"

Lin Ji looked up and said, "There is a tree, and there is a stone under the tree."

Xiang Huai laughed. He threw the garbage bag in his hand on the ground, turned around and hugged Lin Ji, leaning against his neck and laughing non-stop.

"What are you laughing at?" Lin Ji was holding a garbage bag in one hand, so he could only hold him with one hand.

Xiang Huai finally had enough of laughing, hugged Lin Ji and rubbed against his neck, and remained silent.

Lin Ji followed his back and kissed his side temple hair: "Good boy, don't be sad."

"I'm not sad," Xiang Huai hummed twice, but couldn't help but said, "It would be great if I didn't grow up."

Moving forward in time means parting from many people and many things.

"Not good," Lin Ji said, "I want to live faster, graduate and work, earn money to support the family, and when I'm with you, no one can say anything."

"Hey, you said it like this," Xiang Huai was coaxed, "I changed my mind, it's better to grow up."

He said so, but he still hugged Lin Ji coquettishly and refused to let go, and he refused to raise his face.Lin Ji smelled the faint smell of wine, rushed to Huai with a smile and said, "What should I do when I go home?"

He originally said that Song Lingran was not allowed to drink with Xiang Huai, and what to do if he was caught when he went home, but Xiang Huai thought of another meaning and remained silent for a long time.

"I don't care," Xiang Huai said, "If you dare to agree to separate, I'll beat you to death."

"You can't beat me." Lin Ji said.

"Huh?" Xiang Huai was furious, "Then I'll kill myself and turn into a ghost to scare you to death!"