sickness

There is always an endless rain in autumn in the tea city.

The patter of light rain, it falls and rests for a while, I don't know how this rain started, and I don't know when it will end.The whole world is foggy and wet, and people with gloomy moods have their hearts soaked by the slowly soaking rain, and they can wring out water.

After only three months, returning to the tea city feels like time has passed.Looking at the scenery along the way from the airport to the urban area, Zang Bai remembered every detail of the past few years when he and Lin Bochuan were in the tea city.Every bit is sweet, even if the project encounters difficulties, the two encourage and support each other to overcome all the difficulties.

Thinking of this, his face was pale, but he couldn't help laughing.In this life, I'm afraid there is no one like Lin Bochuan who made him hate so much, and now love him so much.

Soon the surrounding scenery became familiar, passing by the Jinchuan real estate, the building was much taller than when he left.He didn't go to the company, Yu Youxing said that Lin Bochuan didn't come to work today either.

The taxi stopped at the gate of the community, and Zang Bai didn't take anything with him except a bag for his documents on this trip back to the tea city.

In the short distance from the gate to the building, the swirling rain condensed on his hair and woolen sweater coat, forming tiny drops of water like sugar, which made his eyebrows and eyes wet.

Ignoring the rain, he quickly went upstairs and stood at the door, but hesitated.This door gave him a sense of strangeness, as if this was not his own home that he had lived in for several years.

He put the key he took out back into his bag, closed his eyes, took a deep breath, raised his hand and knocked.Just in case if you open the door and go in, you will see something you don't want to see.Those bloody plots that often appear, the partner returns home early, and the adulterer is caught in bed.

Rationally, he knew that Lin Bochuan was not such a person, and even if he had a new lover, he would not rashly take him home.But under the action of Omega pheromone, everything became unknown again.

Would he find someone else so soon?It stands to reason not.But he couldn't explain it. He said he was away on business for one month, but he didn't come back until three months later.He obviously went home, but he didn't contact himself.

The knock on the door was swallowed by silence, and no one came to answer the door.Zang Bai leaned close to the door to listen, but there was no sound from inside.He took out the keys that had been stuffed back into his bag again.

The furnishings in the room are exactly the same as when he left, nothing has been touched, it seems that he just left yesterday, and there is no sign that anyone has lived there.

The room was also gray on a rainy day. He went in and turned on the light, only to catch a glimpse of the car keys on the coffee table. Sure enough, he was at home, but the room was quiet, only Lin Bochuan's door was closed.

Zang Bai knocked on his door, but there was no sound from inside.

Zang Bai knocked harder, leaning against the door and asked, "... Lin Bochuan, are you there?"

"...I'm here, I'm..." Finally heard a commotion, and said urgently, "Wait, wait for a while..."

"Lin Bochuan, I came back to talk to you." Zang Bai drooped his hands weakly, and also lowered his head.Things have come to this, they should have a result.

"wait for me……"

After another sound from inside, the door finally opened, and a person stood in front of him.

After meeting for such a long time, it is inevitable that there will be some strangeness. This person in front of him is somewhat different from the Lin Bochuan that Zang Bai is used to seeing.His hair was messy, and he looked like he had just gotten out of bed at this point.Taking a closer look, the person has lost a lot of weight, with slightly protruding cheekbones, deep-set eye sockets, and the contours of the entire face are tougher and sharper.And those sunken eyes stared deeply at Zang Bai, seeming to have thousands of words.

Only then did Zang Bai realize what was really wrong. He was wearing a pair of summer short pajamas, but his upper body was a turtleneck sweater.

"you……"

Zang Bai wanted to ask him what he was doing in the room just now, and it took him so long to open the door, and he wanted to ask how hard he was on a business trip, why he lost so much weight, and if he was ready to face himself...too many questions, and all of them were crowded In the throat, he was speechless for a moment.

Before he could sort it out, Lin Bochuan had already hugged him, and his arms gradually exerted force until he stuck Zang Bai into his arms, as if he wanted to embed him into his own flesh and bones.

The hot and humid breath is right next to my ear: "Zang Bai, I miss you very much..."

The familiar embrace, the familiar smell, the familiar murmurs of love, but Zang Bai couldn't help but feel his nose sore.

"...I miss it so much, I can't stand it...Rui Rui, do you miss me?" The voice that was sticking to his skin was buzzing and sticky.

Zang Bai pushed Lin Bochuan's shoulder, he didn't know what it was.It's been so long, thinking he can't come to him, can't make a phone call with him?It would be ridiculous to say this at a time like this.Are you planning to finally push the responsibility for the divorce onto yourself, and continue to be a perfect man without fault?

"let me go."

"...don't let go," Lin Bochuan just hugged, staggering and dragging him to his room, "let me hug you for a while...I really miss you..."

Zang Bai gritted his teeth.He did a long time of psychological construction before returning to the tea city, and he had the courage to knock on this door.He didn't want to be angry and noisy, and he didn't want to cry bitterly. He hoped that he could end all this kindly, because this would be the deepest image he and Lin Bochuan left in each other's hearts.

But Lin Bochuan's sudden behavior made him inexplicably annoyed.

"let me go."

"...I really miss you, 92 days, it's too painful, I don't want to be separated from you for so long in this life..."

"I told you to let go of me, don't you understand?" He was really angry, put his hands on Lin Bochuan's shoulders, pushed hard, and finally broke free from his embrace.

But Lin Bochuan fell back, staggered two steps, fell directly beside the bed, and knocked down the trash can beside the bed.

Zang Bai was a little confused, did he make such a big effort?

"Are you okay, did you fall somewhere?"

Zang Bai stepped forward to help, but Lin Bochuan didn't use his hand to get up, but lay down on his stomach and grabbed the spilled garbage into the trash can, and stood up by himself holding the side of the bed.

"No, I'm fine."

Zang Bai was astonished.Lin Bochuan actually put the trash can into the bedroom, and even grabbed the trash with his bare hands, and finally supported the bed with the hand that grabbed the trash.

"Lin Bochuan, you..."

"I'm really fine, let's go to the living room to talk. The room doesn't have a window open, so it's a bit stuffy."

Zang Bai was feeling that everything was wrong, when he saw Lin Bochuan kicked the trash can under the table, and inadvertently turned sideways to block it.

"What's in the trash can?"

As he spoke, he took two steps forward, bent down to take the trash can, but was stopped by Lin Bochuan: "It's just trash, what else is there. Let's go out and talk, I have something to tell you."

"What's in the bucket?"

"It's nothing."

"If not, let me see."

"...No, you didn't let me hug you just now..."

"..."

"..."

The two were entangled in silence, one insisted on going to the trash can, and the other refused to let it go.While twisting and shoving, Lin Bochuan suddenly groaned, and Zang Bai caught something somewhere, and wet his hands.He subconsciously rubbed it on his clothes, and was about to ask where the water came from, when a dirty light brown streak appeared on the beige sweater.

He was a little dazed suddenly, and opened his palm, which also had brown marks that had been wiped away, rubbed his fingers together, and it was sticky.

"what is this?"

Lin Bochuan subconsciously covered the back of his neck.

Zang Bai took this opportunity to overturn the trash can, spilling bloody gauze and bandages all over the floor.

He couldn't help but peel off Lin Bochuan's collar at the back of his neck. There was a large piece of gauze stuck there. Because of the "fight" just now, it was soaked with blood, and the dark blue sweater that had seeped out was soaked.

Zang Bai stared at the blood-stained gauze, as if someone had stuffed a prickly pear into his throat, making him unable to breathe or speak. Every breath brought a piercing pain, as if One mouth can also spit out a mouthful of blood.

The people behind were silent for a long time, Lin Bochuan couldn't turn his head back, so he could only lower his head and say to Zang Bai: "This is what I want to tell you, I have undergone a cervical gland removal operation..."

Following his words, the hands gripping his shoulders trembled and continued to exert force until the blood from the fingertips faded and they pinched into the flesh.

The strength drove the muscles to move, and involved the wound. Zang Bai had already grabbed him when he was entangled just now, but now the pain was so painful that Lin Bochuan's face turned pale.

"... Take it easy, it hurts..."

Awakened by the sound of Lin Bochuan gasping for air, Zang Bai withdrew his hand as if he had been burned, then turned around and ran out of the room.

This action frightened Lin Bochuan. He ignored the severe pain in the back of his neck and staggered to follow: "Zang Bai, where are you going? Don't go, please. I beg you...don't go anymore... ..."

Lin Bochuan was leaning against the door frame of the bedroom. He was in so much pain that he broke out in a cold sweat. Not only his legs, but his whole body felt weak.

Seeing him sliding down against the door frame and about to shrink to the ground, Zang Bai quickly turned back to help him up.He has really lost a lot of weight. In the past, he had to use all his strength to hold him up, but now he doesn't need to work so hard.

"I'm not going anywhere, I'm looking for a medicine box."

"do not go……"

"I won't leave, you're still bleeding, I'll find a medicine box and change the gauze for you." Zang Bai lowered his head and said not to cry, but the tears kept dripping onto the floor like broken beads.

"The medicine cabinet is in my bedroom."

"I'll help you to lie on the bed."

"Let me hug you first...for a while..."

Zang Bai stood upright, Lin Bochuan arched his back and leaned on his shoulders, their necks crossed and they hugged each other tightly.His tears flowed down his chin to Lin Bochuan's shoulders, and soon they were wet.Lin Bochuan was buried on his shoulder and neck, and after a while, that area also became hot and humid.

The nose was blocked, and the voice sounded humming: "Rui Rui, I have solved all the problems."

"Why are you so stupid, why do you always hurt yourself, are you out of your mind..." Zang Bai was a little bit broken, "How could this be...how could it be like this..."

"It's okay... the problem is solved, you can love me at ease from now on, okay?

"Don't fight anymore, really don't fight anymore. I will do whatever you ask me to do, don't be angry with me, don't be alone, don't drive me out of your world, don't need I……

"...Okay? Ruirui, promise me."

"...Okay, I promise you."