sickness

When Zang Bai arrived home, night had already fallen.He opened the door of the house, and it was dark inside, as if there was no one in the house.He turned on the light, only to see Lin Bochuan sitting on the sofa in the living room, as if he had been sitting there.

"...Why don't you turn on the light?"

"You're back."

"Yeah." He put the key on the shoe cabinet and walked towards the man.

Lin Bochuan looked up at him, when he was expressionless, he would always give people a cold feeling.It's just that when Zang Bai saw this face, he remembered that broken face lying on the steering wheel and looking at him with tearful eyes.Thinking of that expression, his whole heart was broken.I had typed the parting script along the way, but I couldn't say a single word at this moment.

"have you eaten?"

Lin Bochuan lowered his head: "Not yet."

"...I'll take a shower first, and then I'll make something to eat."

The lights in every room were turned on, and the homely smell of food wafted from the kitchen. The room was no longer so lifeless, and had some vitality, but the silence amplified other noises in the room.

Zang Bai was busy in front of the cooking counter, his determination was marinated several times by these oils, salts, sauces and vinegars, and he was beaten repeatedly by these pots and pans, which had been shattered several times.What can be picked up from these fragments in the end, rationality is gone, only his selfish selfishness.

Let's wait and see, the apple is not so rotten that it must be thrown away, give Lin Bochuan some more time, even if this contradiction cannot be resolved, what if he can coexist with it.

There is no perfect love in this world, can't he lower his requirements?Not 70.00%, [-]% [-] is not enough?Even if one day Lin Bochuan minds that he is not a complete Omega, there is no way to love him so much, as long as he still loves him, isn't it okay?

It was the first time for the two of them to finish their meal in such silence.When Zang Bai got up to clean up the dishes, Lin Bochuan pulled him back to his seat.

While hesitating, he spoke with difficulty: "I thought a lot this afternoon... You are right, I don't really care that you lost your glands at all... I care about this, even if the person who caused you to lose everything it's me.

"I am also worried about our marriage. There are examples of happy marriages between A and B around me, but my parents... I know that we will not repeat their old ways, but my own physical pressure and the pressure of public opinion in society have made me I was anxious. My nerves were too tense, and I was very anxious during this time. I didn't take the initiative to tell you these things, and I didn't dare to say them, because it would definitely be like this today...

Lin Bochuan rubbed his face, his expression obviously became painful: "I don't want to lose you."

Zang Bai shook his hand: "You didn't lose me..."

Zang Bai wanted to say that I will give you time, and we will face it together, but Lin Bochuan continued on his own: "After knowing this, I was really flustered, and I wanted to cover up this panic. It seems that as long as I cover it up, I will Nothing has changed, we are still the same as before. But obviously, this is impossible." He looked up at Zang Bai, sad, powerless, reluctant but had to say, "So let's separate for a while..."

When Zang Bai heard the word "separate", there was a "buzz" in Zang Bai's ears, and he began to hear the next words intermittently.

"...Give me some time to organize myself...There is a project in X City to investigate, I want to go and have a look...A month or so...The problem will be solved..."

When Zang Bai came back to his senses, he was already sitting in the bedroom, and the sound of rummaging through boxes and packing his luggage from next door could clearly reach his ears.

He smiled silently, but he didn't expect that Lin Bochuan proposed to separate first, and it turned out that he was the weakest person.

There is nothing wrong with being separated for a while, Lin Bochuan can think about what he wants, and he can also think about what he is pursuing in this relationship.

He couldn't fall asleep all night. When it was almost dawn, Lin Bochuan gently pushed open the door of his room, and stayed quietly by the bed for a long time. He didn't kiss his cheek until the sun was bright, turned and went out, and then The receding trunk rollers and footsteps.

The moment the outside door opened and closed, Zang Bai opened his eyes, and the pillow was already soaked with tears.

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After Lin Bochuan went on a business trip, Zang Bai stayed alone in the tea city for ten days.Later, he was invited by Liu Dao to participate in activities in another city.At the end of the event, after confirming with Zhou Chuang that Lin Bochuan, the project of the tea city, had been properly explained, he returned to his home in Haicheng.

Qiurong Road is still the same, with banyan trees covering the sky and sun in summer.The old villa at the end of the road is still the same, but the plants in the yard are well trimmed.Seeing Zang Bai carrying two big suitcases and saying that he would go home for a while, Bai Yuzhen was pleasantly surprised.

"When you come back, what about Xiao Chuan? You left him alone in the tea city?"

When Lin Bochuan was mentioned, Zang Bai felt sour in his heart.He quickly swallowed that emotion, and explained to Bai Yuzhen, "He's on a business trip for at least a month."

"It's been so long, and the business trip is so hard. You should care more about him at ordinary times."

Zang Bai changed the subject calmly: "Last time you said you always had headaches, I think this is the right time to take you to the hospital."

"Oh, I'm fine. At this age, there is always a headache."

On the night of returning to Haicheng, Zang Bai called Lin Bochuan, but no one answered.The long busy tone dragged Zang Bai's emotions straight down until he hung up automatically.He sent a message saying that he had returned to Haicheng.

It was late at night when Lin Bochuan replied "Got it".

After being separated for more than ten days, the two communicated for the first time. Looking at these three words, Zang Bai suddenly lost the desire to say something.

When I got home, my mind calmed down a lot, at least I no longer felt that strong feeling of being abandoned.After Lin Bochuan left, he stayed alone in the tea city, doubting the other party's motives for leaving every day, imagining that the other party had abandoned him with this excuse.It's just that the life in Haicheng is quiet and boring.

I took Bai Yuzhen to the hospital for a headache check. There was nothing serious about it, and it was said that it was caused by high blood pressure.Taking this as an opportunity, Zang Bai took her for a physical examination, and it turned out that she was very healthy, with only some unavoidable minor ailments.

The left and right are fine, so Zang Bai took the medical report and chatted with the doctor a few more words, talking about an old lady of this age, and an Omega, there are not many people as strong and healthy as her.This is still due to Zang Bai's father's permanent mark on her.

"Permanent marking is not the mainstream choice for AO now, but from a medical point of view, it is beneficial to both parties." The doctor looked at Zang Bai's neck, "Are you married?"

"over."

"Planning permanent marking?"

Zang Bai was not willing to answer this question, and the doctor also noticed it, so he didn't ask further questions, but just advised: "It's better to mark your marriage early, even if it's temporary, it's good for you and your partner."

On the way home, Bai Yuzhen also thought of this after being mentioned, and asked Zang Bai: "You and Xiao Chuan have been married for more than four years, why hasn't he marked you yet?"

"I don't want him to mark it."

"Why don't you get marked?"

"pain."

"Go to the hospital for it, it doesn't hurt much."

"It hurts too, Mom, don't worry about whether we can do it or not."

Bai Yuzhen shook her head: "You child...you have to think about Xiao Chuan, people can't be so selfish."

Zang Bai remained silent while Bai Yuzhen only sighed.

The days in Haicheng were muddled, and I always suffered from insomnia at the beginning. I couldn’t fall asleep because of thinking about it all night. At that time, I felt that time seemed to be stretched out, and I was suffering every day.

After a period of time, I started to sleep all day and all day again, as if to make up for the lack of sleep in the previous days.He didn't want to do anything, lost interest in everything, stopped painting, and refused all the activities that Liu Dao invited him to participate in.

In a blink of an eye summer is over and the days are starting to shorten.When Zang Bai went out again, he already needed a coat over his T-shirt.Only then did he suddenly realize that almost three months had passed since he and Lin Bochuan separated.

The other party hadn't contacted him during this time, he didn't know if Lin Bochuan's business trip was over, or how he was sorting himself out, but Zang Bai was feeling almost broken in love in this dazed time.

Unable to bear it any longer, he clicked on the chat box with Lin Bochuan, and still stopped at the message "got it".Zang Bai typed the words and deleted them several times. Before he knew it, he lost the courage to ask the other party.

After a while, he called Yu Youxing and asked if Lin Bochuan's business trip was over.

Yu Youxing told him that he had only been back for a few days, maybe he was exhausted, and he didn't show up at the company for a few days after he came back, as if he was resting at home.

"Brother Xiaobai, brother Lin is back, when are you coming back? Xiaohao plans to celebrate the Mid-Autumn Festival together."

"I'm coming too."

"Then come back soon, I miss you."

"Ah."

"...Brother Xiaobai, did you quarrel with Brother Lin?"

"..."

"...I said it casually, just guessing, anyway, come back quickly."

"it is good."

After hanging up the phone, Zang Bai's throat was a little choked.He didn't know why Lin Bochuan didn't look for him when he came back, he didn't even contact him, and he didn't hear from him at all.

But Zang Bai is not good at evading, even if it is a very painful result, he is more used to facing it.He wanted to go back to the tea city, even if it was over, he wanted Lin Bochuan to tell him himself.

While packing things in the room, Bai Yuzhen always looked out of his door.

After repeated several times, Zang Bai couldn't help it: "Mom, what's the matter?"

Bai Yuzhen came in embarrassingly: "Are you going back to the tea city?"

"Well, go back and have a look."

The old lady tentatively asked: "Ruirui, is there something wrong with you and Xiao Chuan?" She wanted to ask this question a long time ago, but she was afraid of putting pressure on her son, so she endured it until now.Now that he plans to go back, the problem should be almost resolved.

But he didn't expect Zang Bai to stop his hands when he heard this, and his expression darkened accordingly.

This is not resolved yet.

Bai Yuzhen approached her son who was more than a head taller than herself, and comforted her softly: "Talk about any problems you have with Xiao Chuan, and we can solve them. It's not easy for two people to be together. I can see that Xiao Chuan cherishes you very much. As long as you There are still feelings, quarrels and quarrels will pass, such arguing is not worth it..."

"I can't get through..."

"What's the matter with you?"

"..."

"What's the matter?" The old lady asked eagerly with her face wrinkled.

Zang Bai finally confessed all this to his mother, only concealing the reason for removing the glands.Bai Yuzhen was dumbfounded and couldn't believe it until Zang Bai took off the anti-bite ring.

"I don't have glands, so I can't be with Lin Bochuan."

Bai Yuzhen hugged Zang Bai and blamed herself, she had no idea that Zang Bai had experienced such pain.

"Why didn't you tell me earlier? Silly boy, what a silly boy..." Bai Yuzhen patted Zang Bai's back and comforted him, "No matter what, come home," she sniffed, "It's nothing The big deal is that our mother and I used to live together, it doesn't matter, no matter what, at least we can go home."