What bad thoughts does the little milk dog have?

Argument 12

The large room was softly lit, and on one of the large white walls hung a painting of a man.

I saw the man straddling the chair, wearing a black eyepatch, covering half of his delicate face, his hands were constrained by a stethoscope, and his half-faded white coat was hanging on his arms, revealing the black shirt inside.

Maybe it was uncomfortable, but the slender and fair neck was slightly tilted back, like a white swan.

The cool white skin and black shirt are very visually impactful.

It was such a painting that was framed by an exquisite frame, as if the beautiful man in the painting was a bird in a cage, being raised.

Then, half of the blank wall next to it was filled with photos. There were paintings of the man wearing a white coat as if he was seeing a doctor, he was looking at the side of his face when he was shopping, and he was in class...etc. .

The only thing that has changed is the man in the photo. From being a little young and abstinent four years ago to being gentle and mature now, he is like a peach that becomes sweeter and sweeter with time.

This room full of prying desires is like a beautiful net, which is expanding bit by bit.

After admiring his favorite work, Fu Xingran walked to another wall.

There is a large glass cabinet on the other half of the wall. There are thousands of bottles of perfume on the glass cabinet, almost all of which are luxury perfumes.There are also many exquisite retro glass bottles, and the liquid in the glass bottles is full of luster under the outline of light.

I saw that there is a label in front of each place where the glass bottle is placed, with the year, month and day written on it, and most of them are special anniversaries, such as Valentine’s Day in the West, the traditional Chinese Valentine’s Day, and special symbols such as 520 day.The remaining dates are December 12, September 13, and September 9.

September 9 is the day they met.

September 9th was the day they met for the second time.

January 1th is Su Lixu's birthday.

There are currently 1 bottles of perfume on January 15th, which means that he has prepared 29 birthday gifts for Su Lixu.

Originally, he thought that if Su Lixu didn't come back, he would keep doing it, and give him all these perfumes until Su Lixu came back.Fortunately, he didn't wait too long for Su Lixu to come back.

So during the four years when he couldn't find Su Lixu, he made perfume for Su Lixu on every special day, including the anniversary of their acquaintance, and Su Lixu's birthday.

He thought about it, when he didn't appear in this world, he couldn't appear beside Su Lixu, these perfumes were just gifts that he didn't have time to appear.

When Fu Xingran was 16 years old, he officially met 26-year-old Su Lixu, it should have been earlier.

Gently pushing open the glass door, Fu Xingran took out one of the bottles of perfume, which was August Night Osmanthus from Lu Dan's Cellophane Night series.

He sprayed it lightly on the side of his neck, and the sweetness of honey osmanthus and the woody agarwood were embraced by the warm breeze in autumn. It was this smell that saved him on the twentieth-floor rooftop at the moment of his despair.

- Don't let go!

The voice of trying his best, the hands holding him, and the smell of sweet-scented osmanthus on August night made him take back the idea of ​​giving up the world.

At the age of 16, Su Lixu became his psychiatrist and took him out of the years of hesitation, struggle and panic. Since then, whenever he smells this smell, it always brings tears to his eyes.

And more of an addiction.

No one knows the deeper meaning of this addiction, even his father doesn't know why he insists on Su Lixu as his psychiatrist.Even Su Lixu didn't know why he liked him so much from the first sight.

He would keep this bottle of perfume in his bag, next to his pillow, and in the car.

It's like the shyness of being admired and exposed in broad daylight and being spied on makes him excited. He wears the fragrance of sweet-scented osmanthus on August night, as if saying loudly to everyone passing by him, this is what I like. the smell of the person.

This is the taste of Su Lixu.

This is what keeps him alive.

And his father said that he was really dazzled by this perfume, he didn't deny it, because he was dazzled by Su Lixu.Now that Su Lixu appeared, he would forgive Su Lixu for disappearing suddenly, but if Su Lixu left him without saying a word, then he would really be angry.

As long as he doesn't leave him, he will give Su Lixu the fullest love in this world, because he will only have Su Lixu in his eyes, and there will be no other people.

Fu Xingran held the perfume bottle tightly and slowly turned sideways. He looked up at the wall where Su Lixu's portrait was hung, and looked at his beloved man, his eyes were full of obsession.

Finally, he can give this full cabinet of perfume to his beloved.

"Fu Xingran."

A stern scolding sound suddenly sounded at the door of the room, but Fu Xingran didn't respond when he heard it.

He put the perfume in his hand back into the cabinet, and then took a perfume he made by himself, which he learned from a teacher for a long time before he made this perfume that was very similar to the feeling Su Lixu gave him.

Thinking about going to Su Lixu later, and giving him this perfume.

"Do you know what you are doing now?" Mr. Fu stepped into the room and walked up to Fu Xingran, with a gloomy expression on his face. It was really hard for him to look directly at this room. If he lost this guy, he would go crazy. This place is simply a forbidden place. : "Xing Ran, I have said many times that you are breaking the law. If Dr. Su knew what he would think of you, he would be very scared. What did you do to him four years ago and why did he leave? Don't you know? !"

Severe reproach sounded suddenly in the room, like a fuse.

Fu Xingran looked sideways at Mr. Fu, his eyes full of vigilance and hostility, like a hedgehog, unable to accept this man's approach: "Are you qualified to control me? You can ignore me like you did back then. I'm thrown in a mental hospital, you don't care what happens to me anyway."

This is still the little boy in front of Su Lixu.

The sarcastic words directly ignited the fuse, making the quarrel between father and son ignite.

Mr. Fu's chest was heaving up and down, he controlled his anger, but what happened back then really made him not have enough confidence to discipline Fu Xingran.Now he felt that his request to Su Lixu might be another mistake, and worried that it would put Su Lixu in another predicament.

He also remembered that Su Lixu said not to tell Fu Xingran about the treatment, but if he didn't say it, this guy wouldn't realize that his current state had fallen into extreme paranoia, he couldn't let Fu Xingran go, this guy is too dangerous.

The paintings and photos all over the wall are evidence.

And this cabinet full of perfume.

He was startled and shocked to see him.

But as a father, it is impossible for him to let his child go on like this. This kind of sick love makes him angry.

"It seems that you still think that it would be better for me to die together with my mother." Fu Xingran felt his father's silence, and he said with a smile: "It's over, and there is no need for people to say that you have a crazy son."

Mr. Fu frowned when he heard Fu Xingran's words, and couldn't help raising his tone: "What nonsense, when did I tell you that you are ashamed." After speaking, he realized that his tone seemed a bit heavy, and consciously slowed down: "Xing Ran, Dad said that he would be with you. Dad will give you whatever you want, and I will do what I say."

"I want Su Lixu."

"Except for Su Lixu."

The unison of the father and son made them fall into a moment of silence when they looked at each other.

Fu Xingran said: "I only want Su Lixu, I don't want anything else."

Mr. Fu felt his head hurting even more: "Fu Xingran, let me tell you, liking is not obtained by improper means. Look at the paintings and photos all over your wall, you would rather hide these things than pursue them openly. People, you don't like it, you just think Dr. Su is very similar to your mother, don't you?"

"I can tell the difference."

As Fu Xingran said, he walked up to the huge portrait, raised his head, as if looking up at his own god, his eyes were brightened, and he was also imagining the scene of pulling the god down from the altar to blaspheme the gods.

"My mother was the one who gave birth to me, and Su Lixu was the one who kept me alive. I know very well. My mother is gone, and I can't live without Su Lixu."

Fu Xingran's hand gently caressed the portrait, his fingertips just touched Su Lixu's hand on the portrait, his fingers curled up, light and shadow intertwined, as if he was holding the hand.

Just like the hand that Su Lixu held him when he was about to jump off the [-]th floor.

"I'm going to tell him that I must have him, and that without him he would be dead."

Mr. Fu had mixed feelings in his heart: "What if Dr. Su doesn't like you? Are you going to be stupid?"

Fu Xingran turned around and looked at his father: "He will like me, I promise."

These are extremely firm and resolute words.

The two stared at each other for a while.

In the end, Mr. Fu broke the silence. He sighed, and reluctantly compromised: "Then you promise me, it's fine to get close to him, but you must not hurt Dr. Su."

Fu Xingran looked at the portrait again, how could he be willing to hurt Su Lixu, this is his savior, his god, the rose he wanted to water, and it was too late for him to take care of it carefully.

"How could I hurt him."

Mr. Fu sighed helplessly, then walked to Fu Xingran's side, and handed over the two keys and access card in his hand: "Take it."

Fu Xingran looked down, and saw the words Romance on the access card.

"Didn't you say you wanted to live in Romance last time? It's close to your school, right? Dad bought it for you. The 1204 you want. It's hardcover inside, with all the furniture. Auntie has already cleaned it. What do you think?" The past can pass now.”

Fu Xingran took the key and card.

"In the future, if you have any discomfort in your heart, you can go to Dr. Su more often. Don't keep holding back, and don't scare people. You must be sincere in chasing people." Mr. Fu remembered the apartment that his son had been talking about last time, thinking that It's because the son simply likes it, and he doesn't know why.

Fu Xingran responded lightly, "Yes."

The smile in the bottom of the downcast eyes swayed, as if something was completely satisfied.

After speaking, he turned around and left with his perfume in his hand, walking in a hurry, as if he couldn't wait.

Mr. Fu who was behind him looked at Fu Xingran's leaving back, then turned around and looked at Su Lixu who was covered with walls in this room, hiding in this room with every frown and smile for four whole years.

With a final sigh, he looked away and slowly closed the door. .

"We just played a few games and you twisted your waist, Su Lixu, it seems that you can't accept it."

Downstairs in the apartment in Romance, from a long distance, I saw two men supporting each other.

Su Lixu took a deep breath, feeling that his back was so painful, he held He Shi's hand and stopped: "Stop for a while, I don't think I can straighten my back."

Seeing that Su Lixu's face turned pale, He Shi frowned: "Let's go to the hospital to take an X-ray."

"I can't walk now. I think I have exhausted all my energy to walk downstairs from the stadium. You should help me move back." Su Lixu felt that he was unlucky enough today, so what is he going to do next? When hitting the ball, he even flashed his waist.

He Qian thought of Su Lixu's whole body falling when he caught the ball just now, and looked down at his ankle: "Is there something wrong with your ankle?"

Su Lixu shook his head: "No."

He Shi glanced at him helplessly: "I really convinced you, come up." After speaking, he turned around and squatted in front of Su Lixu.

Su Lixu was stunned: "Then you don't need to memorize it, my feet are fine."

"Ghost knows what happened to you just now, we are not 20-year-old boys now, you are already [-]."

"Thirty is not very old."

"Don't dawdle and come up quickly, I'm thirty and maybe I can only carry you a few steps, let's do it and cherish it, Su Lixu."

Su Lixu couldn't resist He Shi and could only lie on his back, and his brows couldn't help frowning when he exerted force on his feet. Could it be that the fall just now not only twisted his waist but also twisted his feet?

He Shi carried Su Lixu on his back and entered the apartment door, but suddenly there was a jealous eye staring at them not far behind him.

Fu Xingran tightly clenched the black gift bag in his hand, looking at the two closely behaving not far away with red eyes, who is that man?Why can you carry Su Lixu behind your back and hold hands just now, no matter how you look at it, it looks like flirting, right?

His Dr. Su doesn't know how to fall in love, does he?

Is that man his lover?

What are the two of them going to do now?

Could it be that the two of them want to prostitute themselves in the daytime?

No, it can't be like this, how can it be like this, how can his Dr. Su fall in love with someone else?

The boundless suspicion made him fall into anxiety, and the uncomfortable feeling in his heart was pricked like a needle prick, making him deny and affirm again and again.

Finally he followed.

He's going to ask.

At this moment, Su Lixu's painful cry sounded in the living room.

"...Why try your strength!"

"I just touched it lightly." He Shi squatted in front of Su Lixu and touched his slightly swollen ankle, perhaps because his skin was too white and the bruises were particularly obvious: "Lie down first, put your feet on the pillow I'll get an ice pack and apply it to you so it doesn't get more swollen later."

Su Lixu lay down obediently, but now he felt that the pain in his waist was not so painful, but his ankle was more painful.

He Shi walked towards the kitchen, and inadvertently glanced at the small west-facing balcony next to the kitchen. This is where the washing machine, dryer and clothes are dried, but he saw a baseball uniform hanging on it that did not belong to Su Lixu's style.

"Since when did you start liking this baseball uniform?"

Su Lixu saw He Jian coming out of the kitchen with an ice pack: "Why do I like baseball uniforms?"

"I saw a baseball uniform hanging on your west balcony, and I thought it was yours."

Su Lixu recalled Fu Xingran's visit to the house last week, met Shang He Shi's teasing eyes, and suddenly didn't really want to say: "...a student's."

He Shi raised his eyebrows: "So it's the boy who called your brother like a rape last time? It looks like he's very tall."

Su Lixu didn't hear He Shi's voice-over, and thought about it seriously: "It seems to be a little taller than you."

He Shi walked up to Su Lixu and directly pressed the ice pack on his swollen area: "Do I need to compare my height with a brat?"

"...Then why are you pushing so hard?" Su Lixu sat up in pain, then looked at He Shi's hand on his ankle, wanted to push it away but still didn't move.

"It can't be the patient you mentioned earlier, right? If so, you two are too close, don't blame me for not reminding you." He Shi caught the hesitation in Su Lixu's eyes, and instantly understood that this guy was going to push him away , he let go of the ice pack and sat down beside the sofa:

"Even if he is your first patient, it does seem to be meaningful from a certain level, but this kind of relationship can make people come to your house? And you only have one bed, when will you, a clean freak Is it a problem or is it divided?"

Su Lixu: "...I don't know either."

But it seems to be so miraculous, when He Shi touched his ankle just now, he wanted to push away but he held back, and when Fu Xingran was around, he couldn't think of this problem at all.

"Would you like to rub your waist for you?"

Su Lixu shook his head when he heard He Shi's question: "No, it's not serious. It's an old problem. I'll put an ice sticker on it later and it will be fine."

"You don't seem to have told me when you got this back injury?"

The wall clock in the living room reached 12 o'clock at noon, and there was a "thump", and a woodpecker in the small wooden house under the wall clock poked its head out and pecked at the wooden house with its beak.

Su Lixu was silent and did not speak.

He Shi saw Su Lixu bowing his head in silence, as if he was sad, and sensitively noticed that he might have said something that shouldn't be mentioned: "Sorry, I shouldn't have asked."

"On the day Li Yang left, I went straight to the sky restaurant on the [-]th floor of Skyscraper after I came out of the hospital, thinking that it would be meaningless to live alone in this world."

He Shi looked at Su Lixu in surprise.

"There was no one in the restaurant at the time. When I went in, I saw a very thin boy climbed onto the roof. Without thinking, I rushed over and carried him down. The waist injury was caused when I was hugging the boy. "

"Su Lixu, you..." He Shi hesitated to speak.

Su Lixu looked at Shang He Shi's worried eyes, and couldn't help laughing: "I'm fine now, don't worry about me, in fact, I already regretted it when I walked up to the [-]th floor. Besides, I saved a Child, this child can be regarded as saving me, at that time I was sober and felt very confused."

As for why he has a cleanliness obsession, it is also because after his younger brother Su Liyang committed suicide by jumping off the building in front of him and died on the spot, he was too emotional, several nurses pulled him desperately, it was those hands that made him feel rejected physically and mentally at that moment.

It's not a big problem, it's just that I don't like being touched by others since then.

Except Fu Xingran.

"Su Lixu, you didn't tell me?"

Su Lixu listened to He Shi's scornful reproach, and looked down at the ice pack on his ankle: "So I hope everyone around me can be well and healthy, and the past will be over, as long as If you live, everything will be fine."

Including Fu Xingran.