fall in love with ex-husband

I don't know why, but recently I always dream about things from the past, dreaming that I was mischievous when I was a child, dreaming that I talked back to my parents, and dreaming that I was lying in Zhang Kaiji's arms and crying.

Perhaps this is also a sign.

Recalling the days when my grandfather was about to pass away, he who was already delirious suddenly became radiant, making everyone think that his illness had improved and he could at least survive another winter.

In those few days, my grandfather talked a lot, no matter who he saw, he could chat for a long time.Although he is demented and can no longer recognize a few people, the only thing he knows is that he has a wife who is ten years younger than him. He asks people all day long where Yu Yu is and if he is in good health. He misses her very much.

But even if grandpa always remembers grandma, and grandma stands in front of him, he always regards her as the youngest daughter in the family.

Grandpa has actually been ill for many years, and the family is also mentally prepared that he may leave at any time.But every time the doctor asked us to prepare for the funeral, grandpa could survive.

My mother said that it was because grandpa still couldn't rest assured that grandma would stay in this world alone.

Grandma is the child bride-in-law of the family, to be precise, it is a child picked up by grandpa from outside.

There was a famine that year, and many people died, and the streets were full of poor people who were homeless and couldn't get enough to eat.Grandpa couldn't bear it, so he took his grandma, whose parents had died, back home, and raised him as his little sister. With him eating every bite, grandma would never be hungry.

Grandpa was eighteen that year, and grandma was only eight years old.The eight-year-old child couldn't even speak, and was so skinny that he only had bones left. He could only follow behind his grandfather timidly, and when he saw that he wanted to work, he hurried forward to help.He didn't dare to go to the table to eat, and squatted at the door with a bowl, stubbornly guarding the door for grandpa and the others.

Later, the family conditions improved, and there was no shortage of food anymore. Grandma finally learned to speak, but she still had no name.

Grandpa decided to give grandma a name.More than enough, I hope she will not worry about eating and drinking in the future, and have more than enough every year.

Grandpa is the oldest child in the family, and he stopped studying for a long time. When he was 20 years old, he packed his luggage and prepared to go out to work.

Before leaving, the only thing he was worried about was his grandma.A little girl who has long passed the age of studying, but she can't even write her own name, and she can't tell where she lives. Even if she is kidnapped, she can't find her way home.

At that time, child trafficking by human traffickers was not new. In order to reduce the burden, some parents would even take the initiative to sell their children to traffickers, hoping to help them find a better family, but no one knew where the children went. Not sure.

Just because he couldn't let go of grandma, grandpa hurried home after only going out for a month, and finally decided to take grandma with him.

Although my grandfather didn't study much, he always hoped that his younger brothers and sisters could become talents, so he remitted most of the money he earned from selling his physical strength to his family for his younger brothers and sisters to study, and he didn't dare to spend the rest of the money indiscriminately. Because he has to use this pitifully small amount of money to feed his rich sister.

If you follow him in the future, you will never be afraid of being hungry again. This is the promise that grandpa made when he brought grandma home.He has been busy all his life, and throughout his life, he has been fulfilling his promise to his grandma.

Grandpa said that he never had any unreasonable thoughts about grandma. He just wanted to make more money so that grandma could go to school like other people of the same age.

But as the age grows, the grandma looks more and more beautiful, and many people start to pay attention to the grandma, wanting to come to propose marriage.

Because of grandma's intellectual problems, grandpa can't rest assured that she can be taken care of by others. This life is so long, and grandma has a character that can't be spoken out after suffering. If she marries someone else and is bullied, grandpa There is no way of knowing.

Grandpa thought that it was he who promised to take care of grandma for the rest of his life, so he should take responsibility, so he asked grandma if he would like to live with him for the rest of his life, just her and him, no one else.

Grandpa was determined to marry grandma in spite of his family's opposition. At that time, there was a lot of trouble, and even the brothers and sisters had to distance themselves from him, saying that he had no sense of shame and disregarded the family's face.

Because they could not get the blessings of their family members, the wedding ceremony of grandpa and grandma was extremely sloppy. The two of them cooked a table of meals. Even if they were married, they didn't even have a group photo.

That year my grandfather was 27 and my grandmother was seventeen.The life after marriage is not easy, but it is not too bad. It is still working at sunrise and resting at sunset.

After more than [-] years of marriage, grandpa and grandma are just like ordinary couples, supporting the family and having children.Grandpa, who has not read much, even taught himself high school textbooks in order to let grandma recognize a few more words.

On the day when grandpa was about to leave, his cloudy eyes suddenly became clear. He recognized grandma, called her to the sickbed with trembling hands, tightly held the hands that had supported each other all his life, and asked with difficulty: "Is there more to you?" , Follow me, are you full in this life?"

Grandma was only malnourished when she was a child and developed later than others, but in the eyes of grandpa, his surplus was always the little mute sister who would only shake her head when she went to his house for the first time to ask anything.

"Full, too full." Grandma cried and replied.

"Can you write your name?"

Grandma spread out Grandpa's hand, and wrote down the name he gave herself back then stroke by stroke in his palm.

"It's good if you can write."

"Do you know where our house is? You must go home when you go out to play."

"In the next life...I will still be your brother."

Grandpa's breath became weaker and weaker, and before grandma finished telling his home address, he died completely, and died in the No. 60 year when they met.

Grandma said that she saw the heavy snow on the day grandpa passed away, the day grandpa took her home.

Every year during the tomb-sweeping festival, grandma always asked us to leave first, and let her and grandpa talk alone.

I once overheard my grandma talking to herself.She is always perseveringly counting the days until Grandpa leaves.She said that grandpa lived ten years longer than her and suffered ten years more. When she lived these ten years enough, she would go underground to find him.

This year is already the sixth year, and my grandma's health is obviously not as good as before.

My mother often said that although grandma was not as intelligent as other people, she lived a happier life than anyone else, because all these years, grandpa had been standing in front of her to shield her from the wind and rain and prop up the sky.

Maybe it’s because I grew up listening to my grandpa telling stories about him and grandma. I also want to be like my grandpa.

However, I have followed my grandfather as an example since I was a child, and I only learned a little from him in the end.

After I announced my relationship with Zhang Kaiji to my family, my grandpa and grandma were the only ones who didn't object.

When I went to visit my grandma a few days ago, she asked me why I didn't bring Zhang Kaiji to see her.Considering my grandma's health, I didn't tell her about my divorce with Zhang Kaiji.

Faced with my grandma's concern, I obviously had many ways to get around it, but I was still unable to open my mouth to lie. In the end, I couldn't bear the condemnation in my heart and hurried away from my uncle's house.

Am I afraid that I won't be able to fool my grandma, or am I afraid that I won't be able to fool myself?

The past came to my mind one by one, and there was no lack of sadness and fear in it.

I struggled to get up, found the wedding ring from the box hidden in the corner of the wardrobe, put it on, and then lay back on the bed. At this time, my vision had begun to blur.

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Poor writing can be criticized. Don’t think that if you tell me about my poor writing, I will be unhappy and angry.Will not.

Because my cultural level is limited, I can’t write beautiful sentences and words that make people read heartily. Everyone’s criticism is actually a way of encouragement for me. I also want to become better and be able to live up to everyone’s expectations. , so be sure to speak up.