grandfather's daughter-in-law

At that time, Yu Minxiu was eight months pregnant, but she was still wearing a big boa robe to play various civil and military officials on stage, and had big pot meals with us.Her stomach and feet were so swollen that she could no longer squat to pick up the vegetables in the bowl, and her body became heavier and heavier. It took her a long time to complete each squat movement.By the time she gets the second piece of meat, those who move quickly have already eaten it.Every time I sit next to her and help her pick up vegetables.Heat up the hot water at night and let her soak her feet.At the beginning, she was very uncomfortable, but as her belly got bigger and the performance became more and more tiring, she accepted it.I record her pregnancy reaction every day, adjust her diet, matters needing attention, don't touch cold water too much, and try to avoid any labor that requires physical strength.I did it so easily that even Wang Yugui said that our sister-in-law has a deep affection, which is very rare.

"Could it be twins?" Someone teased her like this.

This reminded her, and she had an epiphany, "It's possible, the doctor didn't say anything when I went to the hospital for an examination last time, I have to find a time to see it again." She said, immersed in the joy of being a mother middle.

"Then hurry up, it will be terrible if you have twins. I heard people say that twins are a gift from heaven to people. It's a noble person coming to the world. It's a great thing."

She nodded, smiling like honey.She didn't know about me and Ding Jianye, seeing how concerned I was, she often took my hand and asked me when I planned to have a baby.After she was pregnant, she would talk about the baby in her belly most of the time when she was chatting. She would caress her belly affectionately and guess whether it was a boy or a girl. Xiaojiabiyu.I just laughed, and we didn't talk about the day of the earthquake as if we had agreed.The impermanence of the world gives people an illusion; the difficulty of the world gives people an illusion of happiness.And reality always gives us the most sober blow when we are dizzy with happiness.In the past, she shone like the sun, moon and stars in the sky, and I was as humble as a grain of sand in the dust; in the future, she will be her good wife and mother, and I will be the culprit of my sins.We will go farther and farther along this road, and maybe after she successfully gave birth to this child, our fate will be over.

She and Wang Yugui went to the hospital the next day, and it was confirmed that she was indeed pregnant with a pair of lovely twins.She happily told me that the doctor said that they could see their little hands and feet, and they were still moving around inside.

"It must be too crowded. They are in a hurry to come out. These two little naughty ones." She said dotingly.

"Look, look, it's kicking my stomach again." She took my hand and pressed it on her stomach.Through the thin spring clothes, there is a real and clear touch in the palm of my hand. I think this is probably the feeling of a mother.

"It's a pity that the doctor won't tell me whether it's male or female, otherwise I can name them in advance. Jianguo is so busy, I don't have time to think about it. If I think about it in advance, it will be much more convenient for him to decide when the time comes." She Regrettably, she put her hand on her stomach, "What do you think of what I told you earlier? It seems that I have to think of a few more girls' names. It would be great if one boy and one girl." She said to herself, her face always filled with With a halo of happiness.

Wang Yugui, who hadn't shown her face for a long time, held a family meeting for Yu Minxiu again—including Uncle Ming.The general idea is that Yu Minxiu is eight months pregnant with twins and can no longer perform on stage. She will go to Tainan Ding Jianguo to raise the baby and welcome the birth of the child.Ding Jianye and I were entrusted with the theater troupe, and Uncle Ming took care of it.

Uncle Ming is naturally very happy.Although he and Yu Minxiu are not teachers and apprentices in name, they have a profound friendship between teachers and students.Step by step, he cultivated Yu Minxiu into a well-known and versatile young man in the industry. Watching the battered troupe come back to life, his love and satisfaction are no less than a father's love for his daughter.

"Go, go, take good care of the baby, we will leave the troupe to us, don't worry." He said with a smile.

Wang Yugui also laughed from ear to ear.She was fifty, maybe sixty.Cherishing flowers and pots, cherishing children and grandchildren, she loves Ding Jianguo so much, these two unborn children are naturally the apple of her eye. "Jianye, did you hear? It may take a long time for Axiu to leave. You have to learn to be a leader, you know? Uncle Ming will help you." Just like helping Yu Minxiu in the past, assisting a generation A generation of Mingjun.

However, the more you enjoy the bliss of your family, the more you can contrast the sorrow of loneliness and childlessness.Ding Jianye replied flatly: "I see." He looked at me with deep, resentful, and cold eyes.

That night, he slept on half of his bed as usual, but suddenly he said to me in a strange way: "You don't have to be envious, because you don't have that kind of blessing. You don't deserve it."

This made me very baffled, only when he was talking to himself.Seeing that I didn't reply, he glanced at me, and said sourly: "That's right, you should be sad. Because it is impossible for you to have your own child. Others will leave tomorrow, and you don't even have the chance to take care of other people's children." It's all gone."

I still didn't answer.Yes, she is leaving tomorrow.I don't even have the opportunity to take care of other people's children.

"But seeing the woman I love is pregnant with someone else's child, doesn't it feel good?" He didn't look at me, but my heart skipped a beat. His hand rested on his head in a strange posture.

silence.

An awkward waiting silence.

He seemed to be asleep, with light, even breathing.But I know he didn't sleep.He was counting the chips in his hand and had a showdown with me.But he doesn't need it at all, because at this moment I am a fish on the chopping board, ready to be slaughtered.

After a long time, I heard my distorted voice ask: "What do you mean?" My throat was pinched like an invisible hand.

He sneered, "What do you mean? Don't you know what it means?"

Yes, I know it, I can't even find the throat to pretend I don't know it.

"During the earthquake, you went back to look for her desperately. You didn't even feel that your feet were cut by broken glass. She was pregnant, and you took care of her meticulously. Every meal sat with her Next to her, help her pick up vegetables. Her legs are swollen, you soak her feet in hot water, you are more considerate than the child's father, are you going to tell me that you are sisters-in-law?"

The comb fell to the floor with a clatter.I saw my hands trembling, trembling messily with every detail of his counting.I thought everything was perfectly disguised, and I thought I was superb at acting, but it turned out that he already knew everything.Then why didn't you expose me?Is it to humiliate me like this now?Or should the family ugliness not be publicized?

He jumped up from the bed, and the bed creaked uncomfortably.Suddenly he was a little frustrated, and asked, "Why don't you speak? Hearing other people say such things, shouldn't you say something?"

What should I say?Saying this is slander, am I really just a sister-in-law for Yu Minxiu?Even if I can say it out of conscience, I'm afraid he won't believe it.He wasn't expecting this answer.Does that mean I have to admit it openly?Even if I say it, he won't let it go.After a long time, I replied softly: "I have nothing to say." Right and wrong, let him judge for himself.

"Ha! What did I hear? I have nothing to say? If I have nothing to say, let me speak for you." He snorted coldly, as if mocking himself, "You shameless woman, you know when I say something from someone else's mouth How shocked I was when I heard the news! How sensational!" He patted his chest excitedly, "I said it was impossible, it was nothing but slander and slander. I watched you grow up, you So well-behaved, you are just a little depressed. You were a virgin when you married me, yes, we have no children, but you are still willing to go to the hospital with me. If you are sick, we can cure it. Isn't it?" He He wiped his face hard, as if crying.

"Until that moment, I still defended you so much, but what about you?" He pointed at me, "You betrayed yourself, completely and cleanly! I didn't believe it at the beginning, and I went to Yan Zhennan specifically. Ask for advice. Yan Zhennan, screenwriter Yan, do you remember?" He sniffed hard, "He said that there are many such people in foreign countries. It is because they have different cultural backgrounds and advocate freedom and equality. Do you know? It felt like a slap in the face, which knocked out all my big teeth, and forced me to swallow all my blood. We, descendants of Yan and Huang, have been educated by Confucianism for thousands of years, and require women to obey three virtues and four virtues How could you do this?" His voice lowered, like a low curse, "You are shameless, you pervert! The reason why you refuse to have children is because you love her! You love her! "

I didn't listen to his indignant accusations and low growls, I just remembered three words - a name - Yan Zhennan - the man who had only met a few times, the man who was said to have drunk foreign ink for several years A talented man, a man who for some reason is willing to write scripts for traditional dramas like Gezai Opera——I was betrayed by him!How can he do this?Why does he do this?How could he put on the judge's hat so shamelessly?How could he decide our fate on his own initiative?This shameless man!If I want to be judged, like the ending of that biography, I deserve what I deserve, but what about Yu Minxiu?what should she doShe is innocent.Innocent throughout.The world is full of hypocritical robbers wearing false masks. If they are going to be judged, how can they escape?Do I deserve so many crimes and so many accusations just because I love a woman?At that moment, I felt a kind of tragic death together.I think I really have been hiding it for too long, this dark road without a trace of light, I have walked in the dark for too long.Now, I'm finally done.It was as if I had finally taken off the long shackles. Although it tore my flesh and left me covered in bruises, I finally took it off.To die together is at least an ending, and finally my soul can no longer wander so alone.

I took a long breath of relief and said calmly: "I am sorry for you."

"I don't want your sorry!" He waved his arms angrily, and cursed again, "You shameless woman!"

I was helpless, "Then what do you want?"

Ding Jianye stood up furiously and pointed at me, "You are the most shameless woman I have ever seen! The most shameless woman! Why do you ask me what I want so indifferently?"

I laughed, I actually laughed.In his eyes, my sadness that flows upstream is indifference, shamelessness, and indifference.I sincerely want to make amends. Like a pious believer with the determination to fall into hell, I knelt before the leader and confessed my mistakes, but what I got was merciless scolding.What else can I say besides laughing.But I forgot that the smile at this time is a condescending gesture, the embodiment of loneliness, an existence that should not exist, and a challenge to his authority.So he waved his palm violently, crushing the smile.I feel a faint fishy sweetness slowly seeping out from my taste buds.

This sudden impulse was beyond his expectation. His hand resting by his side was trembling uncomfortably, but he still said stubbornly: "You... you are shameless, I still want to be a human being. Anyway, child... child you I must give birth to one."

"Childless couples are not uncommon," I said, using the unswollen side of my face.

He jumped up again, "But I must have my own children! I will never allow myself to be the laughing stock of others."

"You can find another woman to live for you, I will never ask."

He stared at me tightly, and the guilt of that slap was wiped away by the humiliation of the truth.He squeezed out each word through his teeth, "I will never allow others to take advantage of me."

Yes, I took advantage of him, gambled a lot on happiness, and lost in a mess in the end.I don't know how we can still lie naked in the same bed and have sex after such brutal and naked revelations and fights, but the truth is, we have.I seemed to see myself sitting on the head of the bed, quietly watching the two soulless bodies repeating a regular mechanical movement.That my body was not wet like any other time in the past, but he forcibly broke in and swept away every painful cell in her body as he did during the Japanese invasion of China. She frowned tightly, but I didn't pain.Weakness can be a deadly weapon because of pity.Without mercy, weakness is just weakness.She resisted strongly, but under the domineering coercion, her frail body was like a catkin in the wind, dilapidated and scattered.Maybe there is a chance to turn defeat into victory, but it will take a long, long time, like the War of Resistance Against Japan, eight years, or ten years.I have no idea.The probability of this probability problem may also be zero.