grandfather's daughter-in-law

The news of Yu Minxiu's pregnancy quickly spread in the troupe. Everyone said that the child was blessed with great fortune and would definitely become rich and honored in the future.Wang Yugui smiled from ear to ear.She burned incense and told Ding Yongchang in front of the altar that the Ding family finally had a son, and this is the real eldest grandson of the Ding family.After Ding Jianjun and Xu Hong left, they had almost no contact with the opera troupe, but there were occasional rumors that they had opened a song and dance troupe by themselves, recruiting some young Chamou to perform modern and fashionable songs and dances. not related.In short, life is so fair, some people go, some people come, there is a loss, there is a gain.Sadness and joy take turns, never ending.

Yu Minxiu called Ding Jianguo to tell Ding Jianguo the good news—shortly after the troupe moved to Yilan, we installed a telephone for the convenience of contacting the performance—Ding Jianye stood beside Yu Minxiu, vowing to Ding Jianguo that he would take good care of Yu Minxiu and the descendants of the Ding family no longer make Yu Minxiu so hard.Afterwards, he really kept his word and took on a lot of odd jobs in the troupe, assigned Yu Minxiu a relaxed role, cared about the development of the fetus, and reminded her to pay attention to the time to go to the hospital for a gynecological examination.He is considerate and thoughtful in every way, as if the one he is pregnant with is his own flesh and blood.During the performance, I would notice the cute children in the bustling crowd very sharply. Sometimes I would stop and watch for a long time, like coveting the candy jar my mother put on the high place when I was a child, but when I looked back and saw me, it was like stealing I was caught by my mother.

Ding Jianguo came back to see her once. When walking, he would deliberately protect her waist with one hand and cover her stomach with the other. He carefully protected her under his wings.Ding Jianye is always envious of them.At that time our situation didn't get better, but it didn't get worse either, and he began to hint, intentionally or unintentionally, that I would have a son and a half for him.He took me to a baby store, bought a small windmill, a bell, a long-life lock, and prepared all kinds of small toys for Yu Minxiu's child. He hoped that I would be infected and have the desire to conceive a child, and our intercourse would go smoothly. conduct.But no, we still have very few successes.Having children in this situation is even more of a delusion of luxury.The only thing I'm glad is that he didn't try harder.

As Yu Minxiu's belly got bigger and bigger, Ding Jianye's enthusiasm fell into a kind of magic barrier.After all conceivable attempts had failed, he began to suspect that something was wrong with our bodies.He begged me to go to the hospital.I explained to him that there was nothing wrong with my body and that I didn't want to share every detail of my sex life with a stranger.But I didn't say the real reason was that I was afraid. I was afraid that they would see that I was different.Those sharp eyes peeped at every corner of your body naked with sharp knives, and then showed a look of disdain, gloating in your heart.Ding Jianye didn't listen, he wanted a child so much, he acted like he wanted a child so much, he even begged me.Finally, I gave in.I once hoped to end all the sins through marriage, but unexpectedly I was in pain, and I thought about how to get rid of it as soon as possible.I naively thought that one child would end it all.

The gynecologist, with a big belly and a round face, asked us for an examination after asking about the details of our sex life.

"You come first, men are simpler." He said to Ding Jianye, tapping his fingers lightly on the desk, "Men's pipes are just like their brains, simple, and there are few accidents." He raised his head and smiled at us, A mouthful of thin and white teeth, "You women are different, quite complicated."

Inexplicably, I felt that the smile was full of schadenfreude, maybe he had said the same self-humorous thing to every couple who appeared here.

He gave us a test strip and a plastic jar and asked me to do regular blood tests.Ding Jianye passed the test quickly, and I was in a state of confusion for the rest of the time.Basic tests, blood tests for every imaginable hormone, ultrasounds, urine tests, and finally he asked for a "hysteroscopy" - a microscope inserted into the vagina for inspection, but I declined.

After all the other tests were over, he couldn't explain why we couldn't conceive.His brows were deeply furrowed, as if very heavy.I'm starting to suspect that he checks every couple that walks in here as a routine.

"Well," he was trying to phrase, tapping his fingers rhythmically on the desk surface, "passing the examination proves that you are in good health and not sick, and it just takes a little time to conceive a child."

"But we have been married for half a year, which is not a short time." Ding Jianye said.

"Half a year is not a long time. Some couples may take two or three years to conceive a child. Sometimes this requires a little fate. This does not mean that there is a problem with your health."

Ding Jianye let out a long sigh.

"Don't be discouraged, your situation is not uncommon, just give it a little more time."

I sneered in my heart, maybe, what a coincidence!He gave me a piece of paper for testing basal body temperature, and taught me to measure [body temperature] every morning when I wake up, and then record it on that graph.If the body temperature suddenly increases by 24 to 0.3 degrees within 0.6 hours, it means that you have entered the ovulation period, and that day is the day when you are easy to conceive.He also suggested that we use Vaseline lube, saying that would be more successful.

"Take your time, you'll be fine," he said.

Ding Jianye did not give up. He led me through the aseptic examination rooms lit with fluorescent lights, humiliatingly talked about every detail of our sex life to people who had never met before, and told me to eat all kinds of food on time and in quantity. medicines, but to no avail.The results of all checks were the same, none of the indicators changed.In the end, all the doctors blamed their incompetence on the hysteroscopy that I refused to do.Ding Jianye couldn't stand the alarmist talk and began to blame me.He thinks that I have a guilty conscience, that I hide my illness and avoid medical treatment, and that I deliberately oppose him because I don't want a child.No matter how I explained the humiliation, he thought it was my eccentricity.

"Queerness!" he yelled at me at the door of the gynecological examination room after the last consultation.

"Perverted eccentricity!" He cursed in a low voice again, as if he couldn't accept facing a stranger who took off his pants, spread his legs, and asked her to insert a cold instrument into the vagina to watch, it is really an unforgivable eccentricity.

"Everyone who comes here," he pointed to the people in the hall who were looking at us in twos and threes, "everyone who comes here, women, who doesn't accept this test? Everyone is a woman, why are you the only exception? What are you afraid of? Why are you guilty?" His aggressive demeanor seemed to imply something.

"Can you not say this here?" I said, "I feel very ashamed." The eyes that fell on him were exactly the same as before, with jokes and prying eyes, and Ding Jianye was like a slug, and he was very excited when he spoke clearly. A big sore was made public.He enjoyed the nakedness of being spied on, like he finally had the leverage to make me yield.

"Go in if you're afraid of embarrassment." He raised his voice and pointed to the door behind him.

I don't know where the stubbornness came from. I stared into his eyes and said word by word: "I said, I won't go. I won't have this child."

"Ah!" He exclaimed, "Finally you have spoken your heart, you have finally spoken your heart! The reason why you don't go is that you don't want to give birth at all. You are not physically sick, but mentally sick. you……"

What he didn't say came to a sudden stop in his throat like a big secret choked, and I strode out of the hospital before I could comprehend the stunned stop.Our friendly relationship came to an abrupt end with this muffled throat.At the same time, we tore up the provisional agreement that was temporarily calm and calm, and once again fell into the bottom of the cave where we respected each other like ice, without talking or interfering.We'll split half the bed evenly and stop having [love.Because Ding Jianye has already decided that I am the one who caused the trouble, no amount of unnecessary sex can exchange for a child.Many attempts that were abandoned halfway in the past finally quietly disappeared in my stomach.But my shriveled stomach is not a complete emptiness, no, it is even like a newborn baby, a living, breathing thing, lying between us in countless nights without conversation, silently and slowly Slowly seeping into our lives.