grandfather's daughter-in-law

Yu Minxiu left, hastily, hastily and full of sweetness and anticipation.I did not send her.I hid behind the door and peeked at her through the narrow gap, just like I did many years ago.Her bulky and bloated body walked very slowly, and the loose and bulky maternity clothes covered her body, and she could no longer see the graceful figure of the past.Wang Yugui was pulling her suitcase, with one of her windproof jackets hanging on her arm.They gradually faded out of my sight, and finally disappeared, and she didn't look back for anything.I no longer have Xiao Huang by my side.Things are not like people.

"Are you very reluctant?" Ding Jianye's voice rang in my ears abruptly, and he looked out along the gap.Our conversations can be so candid, so ruthless, without the false mask of vain.

"None of your business," I said.

"Don't forget what you said. You are someone else's wife now, please learn what shame is."

Wife, this word declaring sovereignty means that for a long, long time, it may be a lifetime, it may be the birth of a child, and I am subordinate to him.Is this binding relationship in marriage the tragedy of all women?

"I won't anymore." I said.

In the future, there will be no future.After she gave birth to those two children, there was a long period of breastfeeding.After that, they have to learn to walk, go to school, and take care of their every word and deed. Maybe we will never see each other again.Maybe I will spend my whole life looking at the back of that departure.He never has to worry about being exposed by others as this perverted and unfaithful wife, and he never has to worry about me daring to have any extravagant hopes.I am so happy and so grateful that she left here far away with full of happiness.From this unhappy place, there is no sin, no evil, no reason to fear.At that time, I didn't know that all the beauty is a hypocritical appearance, the more enviable happiness is, the more vulnerable it is.The nature of Find a World was originally very gloomy.

Two days later, the troupe's long-silent phone rang jingling. In the quiet night, it was like a reminder from hell, loud and uneasy.As soon as I picked up the receiver, I heard Wang Yugui's urgent crying voice coming from the other end of the telephone line, accompanied by the hiss of electric current.

Panting heavily, she asked with fear, "Jianye? Has Axiu returned to the troupe?"

"No." I said.

There was the sound of the microphone dropping, then the sound of being grabbed indiscriminately, and then Wang Yugui's eager voice, "If you see Axiu going back, remember to keep an eye on her! Follow her all the time, and don't let her go. She did something stupid. Tell Jianye to look for her nearby, remember to keep an eye on her!"

My heart suddenly rose to my throat, "What happened?"

"Just remember to find her and keep an eye on her." She hung up the phone hastily, and a beeping busy tone came from the receiver, which made me feel upset.Didn't you say you're going to Tainan to raise a baby?How can you do something stupid?Could it be that something is wrong with the child?She is more than eight months pregnant, where can she go?I was as anxious as an ant on a hot pot, but Wang Yugui only said three points, and the remaining seven points passed in my mind in a mess, and I couldn't figure it out at all.

A person only thinks of home when she is helpless, but if she can't even think of home, then she must have encountered something very disheartening.Wang Yugui urged her not to do stupid things, just like telling me that she would do stupid things.Thinking of her being eight months pregnant and staying alone in a certain place, lonely, cold and helpless, and I was not by her side, I couldn't sit still anymore.

The whole hospital was plunged into darkness, and the dim incandescent lights quietly enveloped the whole hospital. Occasionally, doctors and nurses in white coats rushed by pushing an ambulance covered with white sheets to rescue a dying patient. suffer from.Wang Yugui sat in the hall, her eyes were red and swollen from tears, and she didn't see Ding Jianguo or anyone else.

"What's going on?" I asked.I tried to sound as calm as possible, "I've been to their house, but there's no one there."

Wang Yugui looked up at me and then lowered her eyes, her pale lips trembling, and she murmured, "This is all a crime. A crime."

"What happened to her?" My voice was suppressed and calm.

She began to cry, "Axiu never told Jianguo that she was pregnant with twins, and said that she wanted to surprise him. This silly child, we arrived in Tainan that day," her throat choked, and tears streamed down her cheeks. Sobbing, "We arrived in Tainan that day, unexpectedly, Axiu's sister was also there, and there was a little girl over one year old."

Axiu's older sister, that woman with a pair of soul-stirring peach blossom eyes.When I first saw her, those eyes had been resting on Ding Jianguo unscrupulously.When Yu Minxiu got married, she was surrounded by a group of bridesmaids smiling mockingly and jokingly.Yu Minxiu's face turned pale for a moment, she seemed to understand what she said, and all her bad premonitions seemed to have finally been fulfilled one by one.

"That little girl, in front of Axiu, yelled at Jianguo's father. What an injustice!" She closed her eyes weakly and wiped away the tears on her face. "She was more than eight months pregnant and stumbled to the On the street, I encountered a crowd of demonstrators. She was hit by the rioting crowd, and the child almost lost her life."

I imagined such a scene, she was completely irrational by the sound of father, she was overwhelmed by the crowd and couldn't distinguish things, her heavy and bloated body was knocked down to the ground, and she couldn't get up again.The broken amniotic fluid wetted her floral maternity skirt, and she fell helplessly on the ground, but no one offered a helping hand when she asked for help, and maybe someone stepped on her hand.The people around walked in a hurry and looked indifferent, holding up the signs of justice and freedom, but they were indifferent to a pregnant woman who fell down, and the culprit had long since disappeared.

I choked up, "Are they all okay?"

"It has been more than eight months, and it is still timely to send to the hospital, but it is a little weak."

"What about her?"

She shook her head, "They disappeared shortly after giving birth, and no one saw where she went. Today is the second day, and they couldn't find her. I dare not not inform Axiu of such a big event. Her family is gone, we are the ones who are sorry for her. This is all wrong!"

She has been repeating the word grievance, but I have no intention of talking about what is right and what is wrong.I don't care about anyone but her.

"What now?" I asked.

She shook her head again.

"Has she been here before? Is there any place she is familiar with here?"

Wang Yugui still shook her head.

"In order to give their siblings a stable living environment, her father gave up acting when they were very young. I haven't seen them for many years. If I say I have, it can only be a long time ago."

"I'll look for it."

She nodded, tears welling up in her eyes again.

From the hospital to the street, the night was as cold as water.In the late spring, the air is filled with thick fog, and the sight is not clear.The nocturnal people gradually lurk and return to their nests, and it is deserted.This is a less prosperous southern city.Low buildings, deserted streets, narrow glass windows, and shadowy scenes in the windows.Here, somewhere, she may be sitting still, weeping silently.Where should I find her in such a small and huge place?

For no reason, I thought of the scene where she saw a well-behaved and cute little girl calling her sister, mother, and her husband, father. I seemed to see her stumbling into the street with my own eyes. Shouts and slogans came and went, and the demonstrators were shaking around. She looked around in a daze and was struggling.I seemed to see her clutching her painful stomach, transparent liquid flowing out from her lower body, and she was at a loss as to what to do.My mind was in a mess, as if I remembered for no reason that many years ago, in that ivory white notebook in that small room, Ding Jianguo's name was densely written; and her pale face in a wedding dress, maybe that She had already heard the answer by then, but she still plunged into it without hesitation.Is it a trick of fate?Or is she deeply in love?It's a pity that the most sincere heart can't meet the best person, and it will never end in a heart-wrenching end.

Maybe fate will never favor her again.No, fate has not favored her for a long time.From the moment she married Ding Jianguo, from the promise that she thought would never happen, from the moment she resignedly returned to the troupe, today's ending was already doomed.Tragedy does not happen overnight. Tragedy often puts on the cloak of happiness, speaks sweet words, coaxes us to the top of heaven step by step, and then inadvertently throws us down hard at a certain moment. The things in the past have long been unsightly, covered with the dust of time, and are no longer as glamorous as they used to be.

The street was very quiet, and my steps became lighter and slower, as if a heavy heart dragged my steps.A wedding dress is reflected in the glass window on the side of the road.I'm tired of thinking about how many people come and go here every day, how many people leave halfway, and how many people can end happily.The dim light casts vague shadows from the sky, and in the fragmented gaps, there are only darker lights and shadows in the farther sky.Ambiguous, means dawn, and the darkness before dawn, the dark, dim and silent darkness.Through this darkness, on the light side, where there should be no pain, where there should be bliss.Is it called Paradise of Paradise?

Yes, it must be called Paradise.

The night wind gradually brought in the cold dampness, which seemed to be accompanied by the sound of gurgling water.a river.The river willows that are gradually springing up are swaying in the night wind, and the icy river water is quietly washing the stones at the bottom of the river.Others say that water is the cleanest thing in the world, because it comes from the sky, can wash away filth, and move forward forever, never turning back.The greatest respect for death is to die in the water. Except for those free fish, no one will see your last ugly appearance in this world.When you lie quietly at the bottom of the river, those bits and pieces of the past that are too late to sort out will flow slowly in front of you.Happiness, sadness, joy and anger, will eventually pass one by one.If blood is on your hands, water will wash it away; if blood is on your heart, death will wash it away.This is the last respect for life.

If I had to choose the way of death myself, I think I should choose to sleep forever with the fish at the bottom of the river.There, they won't laugh at you, look down on you, whisper behind your back, or tell the ugly story of your death.They all surround you and sympathize with your pain.I think that her heart is ashamed, she will definitely find such a quiet place and go back.Then fate brought us together again.I looked around and saw a lonely figure in the river, step by step, walking into the river, slowly, mechanically, and the cold river water submerged her knees.

"Xiuxiu!" I yelled, but she couldn't hear me.Then another figure spoke to her.She followed him back nonchalantly, like catching a piece of duckweed drifting in a drifting river, peacefully.

It was a small Mazu temple, with Wuwa overhanging eaves, dilapidated and dilapidated, which is not uncommon.The courtyard at the entrance is a ruined wall, and a row of vegetables is planted under the wall.Dim light, loving Mazu, she knelt quietly on the futon, with her back to the door, her head bowed.See no one.In this life, I have watched too many her backs.It was the first and only time I met such a thin and fragile back.I hid outside the door and didn't dare to move, I was afraid that if I touched her lightly, she would be broken and scattered.For a long, long time, she has been kneeling on the futon in that position, and there is a big puddle of water on the ground from her wet trousers.There was a big pool of blood on the trousers.Black.Just when I thought she was going to kneel that position for eternity, she spoke.

"Mazu, tell me, what did I do wrong?" she said.Hoarse and muffled voice.

"Matsu Mazu, tell me, what did I do wrong?"

"Mother Mazu..."

In the empty and silent temple, the voice of her weeping gradually rose.Sad and mournful.First she sobbed silently, then sobbed softly, her shoulders shook slightly, then she cried uncontrollably, her voice was hoarse, and then she howled hysterically, her shoulders shook violently, and she sobbed deeply, as if she was about to hold her breath.In the end, she finally cried and fainted on the futon.