bad derailment

I have hoped that Gu Mingsheng would make a choice countless times.

When that day really came, he walked in front of me, put aside all external factors, and told all the truth with a firm attitude, but I was at a loss and wanted to escape.

He said that this decision is for himself, and I don't need to blame myself.He said he would give me time to get everything sorted out.

Is it really?

I was silently surrounded by Gu Mingsheng's breath, and the moment my lips touched my skin was frozen in eternity, as if going back to the beginning of everything, the picture flashed in a trance.I tightly grasped the corner of Gu Mingsheng's clothes as an answer.

There are some things that no one needs to say, they already know it well.

It was cloudy and rainy for two consecutive days in Yancheng, and it was rare for Jiang Qiushi to clear up the day when he went through the divorce procedures.

I haven't forgotten what I said, stay home.The mood was completely opposite to the bright sunshine outside, and was filled with confusion and emptiness, as if the person who was about to divorce was not Jiang Qiushi, but me.

He sent a text message, saying that he would go to the hospital to dispense medicine after completing the procedures.I read the message twice and replied with a 'yes', he didn't reply, maybe he was busy.

In the end, I broke my promise and found a suitable reason to convince myself - I only said that I would not go there with Jiang Qiushi, but I didn't say that I would not come to pick him up after the end.

The end of the year was approaching, and it was the off-season for marriage and divorce. The staff sat in front of the window and didn't ask any questions after seeing me coming alone.

I was about to send another message to Jiang Qiushi, but before I turned on the phone, the sound of high heels stepping on the tiles came from far and near.

Shao Qin put on a windbreaker, and the waves swayed with the movement of walking.She didn't stop when she saw me, and the expression on her face was as cold and arrogant as the last time we met.

The line of sight collided in the air for a few seconds, and I couldn't tell what kind of complicated feeling it was.She hooked her lips with red lipstick, with some sarcasm, looked away, and left the gate of the Civil Affairs Bureau with her bag on her shoulders.

Nothing was said, everything was said.

Jiang Qiushi went out of the house, and all the joint property after marriage was given to Shao Qin, except for one house, which is where he lives now.

I still remember the first time I walked in here, seeing the spotless furniture, the empty refrigerator, and the astonishment that surged up.

In fact, at that time, I should have noticed something wrong with these everywhere.

"Shortly after buying this house, my father fell ill, and the follow-up plan was disrupted, and this place was slowly put on hold. No one has ever been here except you."

Jiang Qiushi explained.

Somehow, the words he said clearly and firmly when he gave me the key sounded in my ears - 'it will always be yours'.

Perhaps as early as a long time ago, he thought of everything today.

December is approaching.

Jiang Qiushi's health was the same as usual, not good, but it didn't deteriorate.I let out a breath of relief and raised some selfish expectations. Perhaps a miracle will really happen to him, and perhaps the less I wish for something, the easier it is to get something.

On the second day after getting the divorce certificate, Jiang Qiushi cooked a dinner.I've rarely kept him busy, worried about his illness, and worried about many others.But once Jiang Qiushi gets tough, I can't beat him no matter what.

He cooked a bowl of steaming cabbage vermicelli soup, braised crucian carp and fried pork with lentils, which was to my liking, with a strong taste.Jiang Qiushi put down his chopsticks after tasting a little, and looked at me with his chin propped up, with a faint smile on his thin face, "Is it delicious?"

I nodded, "It's delicious, but when I saw you chopping vegetables just now, I was always afraid that if you didn't pay attention, you might hurt your hand."

Jiang Qiushi was quiet for two seconds, and said lightly: "Actually, I cut it because I thought of you."

I froze for a moment, not even noticing that the food in the chopsticks fell back into the bowl again.

"Now you are by my side, so there will be no next time."

The light in his eyes softened a little with the voice, and he seemed to be seeing pictures from a long time ago across the distance from the table.My heart beat twice suddenly, I never thought it would be for such a reason, and there was a different kind of feeling.

After dinner, Jiang Qiushi took the medicine under my supervision and asked me if I wanted to watch a movie.I remembered the literary film that I didn't have time to finish last time, so I nodded, restarted the playback, and sat on the sofa with Jiang Qiushi to watch it.

The content is actually very plain, and can be summed up completely in a few sentences, but maybe the camera is too beautiful, and the music is rendered just right. When I saw the ending, I realized that my eyes were a little moist.

"I was wrong last time, and this is a good ending."

Jiang Qiushi spoke in a low voice, and at some point covered my hand, the familiar breath was close to his ears, which made people feel at ease, "At least he has gained someone's love for the rest of his life."

I felt my chest was so full that I couldn't breathe, "Can this be considered good?"

"I think so," Jiang Qiushi raised his lips, looked at me softly but firmly, "Lin Yao, we will have a good ending."

I would rather he not show such an expression and say this sentence.

Jiang Qiushi was too tolerant and restrained, maybe he had suffered all the hardships that others could not imagine before, but he was unwilling to show me the painful side in the face of the final tribulation.

I can't get angry with him, at most let him eat something every day, take medicine on time, and then ask him about his attitude towards the hospital.Jiang Qiushi often would not refuse my request, until one time, he locked himself in the bathroom after eating, no matter how much I asked and knocked on the door outside, there was only the sound of water swishing inside.

When the door was opened, Jiang Qiushi didn't seem to expect that I would stand outside all the time, his lips were flushed from rubbing.He was silent for two seconds, and said softly, "Sorry."

I felt as if I had punched the cotton with a fist, pressing down my rising and falling chest, "...Does your stomach still feel uncomfortable?"

"It's not uncomfortable now," Jiang Qiushi hugged me, leaning his voice low to his ear, with a comforting gesture, "Lin Yao, I don't want you to see me like that."

I remembered the last time he accidentally knocked over the bowls and chopsticks and soiled his clothes. It turned out that he used the sound of water as a cover to hide all the embarrassment.

He is unwilling to expose the cruel reality to the outside world, as the last trace of dignity.

The temperature plummeted, and Jiang Qiushi put on the overcoat I gave him. The clothes he wore fit well at the time, but now they are a bit too big.

This year's forecast does not mention snowfall, and it is a pity that we cannot see the beauty of last year.

I am planning the New Year's Eve activities in my heart. It's funny to say that this kind of festival was the last thing I liked in the past, but this time I want to seize all the time and see the rest of the scenery with Jiang Qiushi.

But this time the miracle didn't happen, I didn't have time to tell him the plan I had planned, Jiang Qiushi was admitted to the hospital again.