1987, I didn't know I would meet you

After living in anxiety for more than half a year, I received a letter from my father from Beijing. The letter was very concerned about my current situation, asking how my life was, how my work was, and why I hadn’t written to home for a long time.Moreover, my father plans to find some free time to come here to visit, and wants me to take the address back home.

My heart shuddered, and most of my confused head woke up.Turning around in a hurry, I stepped on the beer cans scattered all over the floor, and when I fell to the ground in embarrassment, the corner of my eyebrow was cut by the edge of the bed, and the blood streaked down, fascinated my eyes.

I irritatedly swear a few times, and finally kept cursing until I had no strength, so I could only lie down on the floor full of soot condensation, at a loss.

I did not write down the address according to my father's instructions, but roughly explained that everything was fine, and then went to the post office to send a letter without an address.How dare, I'm afraid to see my father looking at me with shocked eyes, watching his obedient son in the past turn into this decadent appearance, even worse than a beggar on the street!

It was also a letter from my father, which broke my long-term depression.I started to change into clean and tidy clothes and wander in front of the job advertisements-I hope to find a job.

I am not even ashamed of such a self. It has always been my self-deception that gave me a reason to eat and wait to die.

Not long after, I received an offer response from an editorial agency, which told me to go to work.This news is not unexpected, but for me, it made me nervous.I was afraid, I hadn't had normal contact with people for so long, I was overwhelmed by the panic, and I couldn't sleep until dawn.

When I was fully dressed and walked out on the street with a human appearance for the first time in half a year, I felt a brand new feeling, which made me yearn for it, and it was so fresh that I could temporarily forget the painful memory.

Since then, I have tasted the essence, worked crazily, stopped smoking, and lived without anxiety every day.Gradually, my work was praised by my boss, and sometimes on special occasions, my colleagues would have dinner together.

Life seemed to be back on track, but it made me feel even more flustered.Every time I am in a daze, I can't tell where the dream is.Now?once?I gave up my plan to rent another house, just to keep myself awake all the time, the past was no longer a dream.

Unexpectedly, listening to the noise from the street every night, I fell asleep even more soundly, and I returned to that year in a trance, when Ma Kun, Xie Dong, Zhan Hua, Tang Zhan, I and Yang Zhenyu first met each other look...

Time is the best medicine for wounds, I rejoiced in my heart, and at the same time I was reluctant to part with it and at the same time wanted a quick relief.But I know that that day may not be far away. I know from home that my parents are all well, and my younger siblings have also been admitted to college. While I am happy, I always feel like there is something missing in my heart.

So, I silently started to inquire about Yang Zhenyu again.I really want to slap myself, but...

"I'm just not reconciled. I found him, asked him clearly, and gave myself a dead-hearted answer. I will never open this memory again in the future." I thought so, and in the end I deceived myself very well and hid it from my heart.

In the first New Year in a foreign land, I thought that I would watch the black and white TV at home all night, and finally collapsed on the sofa, but unexpectedly, I welcomed a person I could never have imagined.

"anyone there?"

I was dozing off watching TV when I was awakened by a sudden knock on the door.Gathering my mind, I listened carefully to where the knock on the door came from.is my home.

"Who?" I stood at the door and asked suspiciously, without opening the door.

But the people outside the door didn't respond, they just knocked lightly twice again.

I felt a little uneasy in my heart, so I had to ask again patiently, but as always, no one responded, just knocking on the door.

Immediately, I became impatient, unlatched the door latch rudely, pulled open the iron door with a huff, and looked out the door angrily with a frown, wanting to see who was so bored.

But I froze in place like a thunderbolt, and my angry expression had long been distorted into a laughable one.

Totally unexpected.Or I can't think of it at all. I have not only imagined this kind of scene a thousand times or ten thousand times, but also dreamed it countless times in my dreams. After opening the door, the result can only be Yang Zhenyu, and it is far from possible.. .she!

"you...!"

I stared dumbfounded at the girl who was a head shorter than me in front of me. She was looking at me sobbing with red eyes, and she couldn't speak at all in her emotional mouth.Wearing a gray fisherman's hat and a black overcoat that was bigger than her body, her face was pale from the cold, but her eyes were red and full of tears.Looking behind her, there was a not-so-big suitcase, the corners were a little damaged, and it looked a little overused.

I don't know how long it took before she choked up and spoke, her voice was familiar and strange to me.

"Zhiqing...I finally found you..."