come close to me hold me

On New Year's Eve, a woman walked in the alleys of the old city with enchanting steps that were incompatible with her surroundings.Picking and choosing in front of a fish shop, a teenager speeding past on a bicycle behind her, she instinctively avoided the cigarette in her hand.

"Boss, just this one."

I picked the fattest perch, smoked a cigarette, added some perfume to my body, and walked towards the alley, the high heels making a clear sound in the bustle.

The white Jaguar at the alley had obviously been waiting for a long time, and the woman in the driver's seat rolled down the window impatiently: "Su asked, can you hurry up for me?! You said you can't stop here for a long time, it takes so long to buy a fish... ..."

"Here we come!" Su Wen gave a "tsk" sound, quickened his pace and got into the car: "Smelly Minmin, why are you so fierce~"

The inside of the car was filled with a strong smell of perfume and a faint smell of burnt tobacco. Li Min sniffed and frowned: "Smoking again?"

Su Wenjiao said strangely: "Oh, it's the first time I meet your parents, they are so nervous!"

Li Min didn't blame her anymore, and rolled down all four car windows. His body was also a little stiff because of nervousness. While starting the car, he repeatedly reminded: "My dad is a boring gourd. He usually doesn't like to talk. If he doesn't speak for a while, you Don't take the initiative to find words, and make many mistakes. My mother is more troublesome. If she asks you, you can just say what you prepared at home..."

Su Wen waved his hand, pretending to be relaxed: "Oh, I know!"

Li Min's father is a civil servant, and his mother is a high school history teacher. The two have their own duties throughout their lives. They have no official or wealth, but they are enough to support a small family without worrying about food and clothing.Because of strict family education, Li Min has been a "child of other people" since elementary school. She has excellent academic performance and a quiet and introverted personality. From college entrance examination to employment, she can be regarded as a steady step. Whenever relatives and friends gather for dinner on holidays, she is also a parent. face and pride.

Such a child who follows the rules and never makes people worry about it, just didn't get married at the "age to get married" and "have children at the age to have children".There are not no suitors, and some people even come to propose marriage directly through the recommendation of relatives and friends.In the eyes of those men, Li Min is definitely not an outstanding beauty, but marrying her back home must be an IKEA IKEA room.

Li Min was extremely disgusted by such evaluations.

Only Su Wen regarded her honesty as cute and her seriousness as special.Those who love her, love her soul, will remain steadfast in her even if the future is difficult and difficult.

She has followed the rules all her life, and Ai Suwen is her only exception.

I was apprehensive all the way, but finally opened the door timidly, and stayed at the door a little stiffly. My father was sitting on the sofa reading the newspaper, his expression was mostly covered by the serious reading glasses, and he couldn't see his emotions clearly.Mother was busy at the dining table, and when she saw her come in, her expression was complicated and difficult to understand.

"Mom and Dad, we're back."

She tightened Su Wen's hand, and finally summoned up her courage.

At the hospital, An Xun was still on duty, and the emergency department sent three high-speed rear-end patients in a row, and four of them were assigned to thoracic surgery.Several operations were performed at the same time. An Xun performed two of them, finished the tricky part, handed over the rest of the finishing work to other doctors, and went to the next one. Jiang Yien followed and helped, never tired of it.

After the shift, it was already ten o'clock. The hungry two planned to have a big meal outside before going home. When they passed by the hot pot restaurant, they stopped and hesitated to enter.The explosion that night really made them a little scared, but the hot pot is still attractive after all.

An Xun originally wanted to say that it would be fine if he changed to another restaurant, but seeing the little girl staring eagerly, he had no choice but to bring out the old method he had used: "Xiaoen, let's pack it up and eat at home, shall we?"

Jiang Yien's eyes lit up, and he nodded vigorously.

At home, the dining table is steaming hot, and the Coke is bubbling and bubbling before the red oil. I don’t know how many years have passed, and the hot pot still needs to be packed and eaten at home. The difference is that there is a laughing and lively lover on the opposite side.

Before the hot pot boiled, the two decided to sort out the New Year's goods they bought from the supermarket earlier.Jiang Yien spread Zhengdan paper for writing couplets on the tea table. The couplets in supermarkets are too clichéd. She felt that what she wrote was more meaningful, so she suggested buying blank ones.

She had thought about it a long time ago, so she wrote: Love will never leave, and will be with you year after year.

It was agreed that she would write the first couplet, and An Xun would write the second couplet, but right now a lot of draft paper was wasted, and no matter how I wrote it, I was not satisfied.Turning her head to look at An Xun, she couldn't help leaning her head closer. The draft paper still turned into a pair of exquisite regular script, which was as strict as the bone and chic as the wind. She had enough words in her mind to describe An Xun's good characters, but I don't have the slightest ability to write a couplet that matches it.

She bit the tip of her pen, puzzled, and finally came to a conclusion: "It's because my words are more difficult to write..."

Well, in some aspects, she always has some blind confidence, such as singing, such as the violin, such as writing.

"Sister An, can I change it with you?"

An Xun was a little surprised, looked up at the pile of ghost symbols on the table, and agreed with a smile.

Jiang Yien regained his morale and wrote again, but the result was still not satisfactory.

"Ah! It's so difficult! It's not easy at all!" She looked at An Xun who was smiling and said nothing, pouted her lips, stretched out the brush in her hand to An Xun, and said arrogantly: "It must be your pen It’s easier to use, and I’ll exchange it with you!”

An Xun couldn't laugh or cry, shook his head and sighed softly, knelt down beside her, wrapped his arms around her from behind, held her hand, took her stroke by stroke, and wrote a "love" on the draft paper. "Character.

"Practicing calligraphy is for self-cultivation. How can you write well if you are so impatient?"

Hearing the soft words beside her ears, Jiang Yien's heart beat faster, and she couldn't help but look at An Xun, who had a side face that was more exquisite than words, so close that she didn't dare to breathe, her throat moved slightly, and her brain began to lack oxygen .

"To write well, the most important thing is to control the pen well. If you are so good at controlling the knife, you must be able to control the pen well..." An Xun didn't notice it, and continued to write with Jiang Yien stroke by stroke, with a low eyebrow and a slight smile , Inadvertently, the four eyes met, and the breathing blended, and the heartbeat missed a beat.

"What are you looking at me for? Read the words!" She rolled her eyes and reprimanded softly.

In an instant, Jiang Yien's face was redder than Zhengdan paper, he turned his head and followed An Xun's strength to move the brush in a muffled voice, but his eyes could no longer focus on the paper, and his mind was blank.

The red oil was finally bubbling. Hearing the sound, An Xun put down the pen, rubbed Jiang Yien's hair, and pulled her up: "Let's eat first."

Feeling lost, Jiang Yien pulled An Xun into his arms with a little force, and innocently blinked his eyes twice: "I want to taste your lipstick first..."

Before An Xun could react, the passionate and eager kiss had already covered all words, so he had no choice but to let go of his lips and teeth, allowing the girl to be unrestrained.

After being kissed until his whole body was soft, with tears streaming down his face, in a daze, he could only slowly lie down on the carpet with the girl's light pressure, his legs crossed, his hands helplessly looking for a fulcrum, and finally wrapped around the girl's waist , the tighter the hug.

After finally finding a little gap, they separated for a short time, and struggled to utter a few words: "Xiaoen... hot pot..."

Jiang Yien sat back with his arms around An Xun, and finally lingered softly on the corner of his lips for a few seconds, finally ending the excitement.

"Hey, let's eat!"

An Xun was ashamed and annoyed looking at the innocent and pure eyes, but there was nothing he could do about her.

"Naughty..."

That night, the two of them opened a bottle of highland barley wine and drank three cups in a row to pay homage to the deceased elders.

In addition to the couple's bowls and chopsticks for the two of them, there were five neat servings of white rice on the table.An Xun's gaze lingered for a long time, the corners of his smiling mouth were lowered by loneliness, and the water in his eyes was shallow: "It would be great if they were all still here..."

Jiang Yien's smile disappeared, imagining how the deceased relatives were really still alive, sitting around the table and having a lively New Year's Eve dinner together.The picture in my mind has fallen so far that it is really deserted at this moment, and I feel a sharp pain in my heart, and I have been seeking happiness while avoiding the most important, but happiness is indeed a luxury for them today.

"They're here, as long as we believe they are, they will be."

An Xun was moved, smiled and nodded.

After sitting down, both of them remained silent for a long time.An Xun took one cup after another, as if he had decided not to get drunk tonight, the girl had already returned to her side, sober enough not to throw it away, he could finally throw it away.

Jiang Yien suffered even more in his heart, but still chose to let An Xun get drunk, leaving himself sober to clean up the mess.After all, she knows too well what she looks like when she is drunk, unlike An Xun's wines, no matter how drunk she is, she just laughs and cries quietly.

"Sister An, I had a dream two days ago." She found a relaxing topic and tried her best to recover.

An Xun was distracted, picked up a piece of fat beef and put it into the hot oil: "What dream?"

"I dreamed that we had a daughter with eyes like yours, dimples like mine, and white skin with rosy cheeks. Her smile is so sweet! Sister An, shall we have a daughter in the future? This way the family will be lively!"

Jiang Yien didn't do it on a whim, she checked a lot of current policies.In this era, lesbian families can use medical means, through bone marrow fertility technology, to have a child that really belongs to both of them, and it can only be a daughter.

Thinking that in the future there will be a little girl who shares their common blood and will act like a baby in her arms with eyes that resemble An Xun, Jiang Yien's heart is full of happiness.

More importantly, An Xun seems to really like children.

She thought that she would definitely learn how to take care of children, she would learn how to hold children, learn to change diapers, and learn to breastfeed.She will not let the child become a burden to An Xun, her sister An, as long as she enjoys the happiness the child gives her.

An Xun paused for a moment, then loosened his eyebrows, smiled slightly, and naturally put the fat beef dipped in sauce into the girl's bowl: "Okay, let's discuss it later."

"Then it's decided! After I've been busy for the past two years, I'll be reborn." Jiang Yien jumped up happily.

Unexpectedly, An Xun was stunned, his expression suddenly changed: "No!"

"Why not?" Jiang Yien frowned and asked her in a daze.

Even though the drunkenness was already strong, An Xun never forgot to love the girl, she put down her chopsticks, and replied seriously: "Xiao En, pregnancy and childbirth is a very difficult process, if we really want children in the future, it will be too I come."

Jiang Yien was stunned for a moment, seeing An Xun's suddenly serious expression, a feeling of warmth came to his heart spontaneously.He got up and walked to An Xun, hugged her who was so drunk that she couldn't sit still: "Sister An, you are already 35, people have to obey the old! I am young, recover quickly, and I should be me in terms of emotion and reason. come."

An Xun's slightly hot cheeks were pressed against Jiang Yien's neck, and he felt his pulse beating, and his heartbeat followed.

She suddenly realized that the girl's heart was the same as her own, and if she persisted on this issue, none of them would be able to convince the other.

It's not that she hasn't been tempted to have a child, but after thinking about it, children have their own lives, and it's too selfish just to have someone to accompany the girl to have a child until she grows old.

Besides, with one more child, there will be more fetters in my heart.That is still her and Jiang Yien's daughter, she will definitely regard it more important than her life.It is inevitable that half of the heart given to girls will be given to children.

Although it was ridiculous, she was really asking herself in this moment of drunkenness, who would she save first when Jiang Yien and their daughter fell into the water.

She didn't think this way for no reason. At that time, there was her younger sister who was slowly moving in her arms, and her mother who was immobile in the car. A tearing pain like losing the right hand.

The last time her mother saw her, she was locked up like a nightmare for more than ten years. It was hard for her to get out of it a little bit, and it was hard for her to love someone wholeheartedly.

She didn't want to have another chance to make such a difficult choice.

"Then we don't want children. Anyway, we only have you as a child in our family, and you are enough."

The wine made the speech sticky and soft, and it sounded a bit coquettish.

"But I..." Jiang Yien looked at An Xun, tears in his misty eyes, and his pink complexion made his expression even more charming.For a moment, she lost all thoughts.

An Xun's attitude remained the same, without leaving any room for it, and once again gently and sternly refused: "This matter is not for discussion, and it is not allowed to be mentioned again in the future."

Seeing that the girl didn't answer in a daze, she curled her lips so tenderly for the first time, and whispered coquettishly: "Isn't it enough for you to have me?"

Jiang Yien seemed to be hit in the heart by Cupid's arrow, and his love overflowed into a mess.

Whether or not to have a child, in the final analysis, is for the sake of the other party, so why bother to disagree on this matter.

After all, two people are enough.

"Enough, how could it not be enough?" She whispered in An Xun's ear, and kissed softly: "It is enough for me to have you...Okay, what else do you want to eat? I'll wash it for you."

An Xun smiled dizzily, pointed at Xia Hua, slightly raised his head and looked at Jiang Yien, with a brighter smile: "I want you to feed me..."

Jiang Yien was stunned for two seconds, with countless surprises and joy in his warm eyes: "Okay, I'll feed you."

She rummaged through the pot, found one that was already scalded, and blew it carefully around her mouth to cool it down. She was worried and stuck it to her lips to test the temperature. Unexpectedly, An Xun stuck it directly and bit it slowly. Half live shrimp slippery.

Jiang Yien was taken aback again, dropped the chopsticks, and swallowed the other half of the shrimp slippery, once again the soft lips leaned together, the hot air filled the air around him, in a haze, it was hard to tell apart for a long time.

The author has something to say: An Yi: (covering her eyes) I'm forever eight years old and I shouldn't be watching this.

Mother Ann: As expected of my daughter!

Mother Jiang: Jiang Yien rushed to the duck!

Papa Jiang: Cough cough... I'll go outside to smoke a cigarette.

Jiang Xueer: (holds forehead) Whoops, young man...