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He Jiashi kissed Qin Yan's forehead, "What are you afraid of? Yanyan, what are you afraid of?"

Qin Yan shook his head in his arms, and stopped talking.

He Jiashi became more and more confused.He had known Qin Yan for so long, and thought he understood Qin Yan, but after these days, he felt more and more unpredictable about Qin Yan.

"What's the matter with you? How do I feel...feel..."

He Jiashi wanted to say that he felt that he didn't know him less and less, but it was too cruel for the two of them to say that.

They should be the ones who understand each other best.

But even if he never uttered some words, Qin Yan could read what he meant.

He knew that He Jiashi had been patient with him and tolerated him, and he knew even more that He Jiashi couldn't solve his problems at all.He Jiashi was just a student.

But he had no choice.

He can only vent his anxiety to He Jiashi, he can only "ask for help" to He Jiashi.

He has never needed He Jia as much as now, like a drowning man desperately grasping at the last straw, even though he knows it well, everything is useless.

He Jiashi repeatedly kissed his face and stroked his smooth back, "Don't be afraid, Yan Yan, don't be afraid of anything. I will always be with you."

Sometimes, Qin Yan would rather he could trust He Jiashi so that he could sleep peacefully overnight.

The next day, Qin Yan became silent again. He didn't talk often, but he always wanted He Jiashi to be by his side, reading books with him, and doing exercises with him.

He Jiashi didn't dare to provoke Qin Yan, and sat beside him the whole time, either doing homework or playing with his mobile phone.

However, He Jiashi didn't stay at home for too long. After the third and fourth grades, he returned to the decoration team to report.

And when he was not around, Qin Yan would probably sit at the desk, anxiously and irritably looking at the homework in his hand.

Every evening, Qin Yan would always lie on the sofa, watching the setting sun shine on the floor.

Then, he got up to cook, and waited anxiously at the dining table for He Jiashi to come home.

After dinner, He Jia would occasionally take him out together, but Qin Yan has been too clingy to him recently, even pulling at the corners of his clothes when he was walking.

The community was full of teachers and students from the school, He Jia felt a little embarrassed, and whispered to him, "Qin Yan, everyone is watching."

Qin Yan was taken aback, and quickly withdrew his hand, but in the future, he was even more reluctant to go out.

Although He Jiashi was dull, he still noticed Qin Yan's emotions. Before going to bed, he carefully explained, "We live in the school's family home. How many teachers and classmates are there? It's not good to be seen by others."

Qin Yan nodded, of course he knew that this was not good, and he also knew that He Jiashi treated him sincerely.

But he couldn't control those unreasonable emotions, and he just felt wronged.

Seeing that he was still unhappy, He Jiashi scratched his hair and said helplessly, "Can you stop being angry with me? I'm so tired every day."

Qin Yan nodded, hiding his expression in the shadows, resisting the unexplained boredom and sourness in his heart and said, "It's alright, alright, go to sleep."

During this winter vacation, He Jiashi earned 6000 yuan, but he didn't move any of it. He transferred all of it to Qin Yan, and said that he would earn more money in the future.

The smile on Qin Yan's face was finally no longer against his will, he didn't shirk it, and accepted it straightforwardly, as if it should be like this between them.

After the winter vacation, the second round of review is in full swing.

Compared with the first round of review, the difficulty of the second round of review has obviously increased by a level, the questions are more comprehensive, and the test points are more flexible.

With the increasing pressure of reviewing and the increasing difficulty of homework, coupled with long-term anxiety and lack of rest, Qin Yan obviously felt that his study was getting more and more difficult.

It is obvious that his foundation is very good, and it is obvious that he has always been among the best, but one after another question, one after another paper, just can't think of it, do it wrong, or answer it badly.

The more you have no ideas and can't do it, the more nervous and anxious you are, and the more nervous and anxious you are, the more you can't find ideas, and so on and on, the situation gets worse.

He looked at the problem in front of him, desperately trying to find out the useful ones from the dense conditions, frowning, trying to find a solution to the problem, but his brain was blank, and he couldn't think of anything.

Exams again and again, performance abnormally again and again, and seeing the teacher's eyes of hatred for iron and steel...

Everything made him feel ashamed, and his whole body was hot and hot.

But facing his messy answers to the papers, he clearly felt that this was not a malfunction at all, he really couldn't find a way.

On the eve of the monthly exam, Zhao Zhongya praised Niu Chaoda, saying that he had won the first prize in the national physics competition, and that he was already preparing for NATO, Warsaw Pact and Zhuoyo's independent enrollment.

It was only then that Qin Yan remembered that on the night when He Jiashi and Niu Chao almost had a fight, on the day when he was dubbed a "small town as a problem writer", Niu Chao was not because of the so-called "something happened at home" And suddenly left, but because of the physics competition.

Qin Yan thought numbly in his heart, during the two and a half years of his study in the provincial experiment, he had neither been recognized by his teachers, nor had he been catered to by his parents. He hadn't even heard of "NATO," "Warsaw Pact," and "Excellence."

However, before Qin Yan could get out of his disappointment, Zhao Zhongya said that Liu Dong's composition won the second prize of New Concept Composition, and he was submitting the self-enrollment materials to S University on Xuexin.com.

At this time, even He Jiashi, who was indifferent to his grades, was stunned. He never knew that Liu Dong, whose Chinese grades hovered around [-] points all year round, could write good articles.

During lunch, He Jiashi frequently complained to Qin Yan, which made Qin Yan's brain hurt. In the end, it was Zhao Yiming who was well-informed, and suddenly said, "Have you been his father in the Education Bureau all these years for nothing?"

Zhao Yiming lowered his voice, asked He Jiashi to poke his head over, and said in a secretive manner, "I heard from my aunt that Liu Dong's father just assigned a college bully from the Chinese Department of the National People's University. Liu Dong won the award. This novel was written by Xueba for him."

He Jia was stunned, "Isn't it? It's that simple? It's that simple and let him take advantage of it?"

Zhao Yiming sneered, "Easy? Do you think the second prize is so easy to win? His father was afraid that Liu Dong would not win the prize, so he asked Xueba to write several novels for Liu Dong!

He Jiashi had never heard of such a thing before, so he was too shocked to speak, but it was Wang Lili who asked after a long time, "Would that person from the Chinese Department of the National People's University be willing to be popular for others?"

Zhao Yiming shrugged, "Would he dare? Do you still want to hang out in the unit?"

Wang Lili stirred the rice in the bowl angrily, and said bitterly, "Why! Really why!"

He Jiashi had stayed in the He family for so many years, and had lived with He Min and Lin Nan's couple. He naturally knew the truth that "a senior official crushes people to death". He sighed, and suddenly felt uncomfortable for Qin Yan and Wang Lili. value.

The children in their small city are desperately fighting for a future for themselves, and these efforts are placed on those "Heavenly Proud Ones", which is nothing more than a family matter.

It's never been fair.

The night before the monthly exam, Qin Yan suffered from insomnia and didn't fall asleep until the middle of the night.

He knew that he didn't study well, and he also knew that it was impossible for him to get a good ranking in the exam. He was afraid of this exam, and even more afraid of how others would think of him after this exam.

Just as Qin Yan expected, the difficulty of this monthly exam has risen sharply. No matter which subject, it is no longer like "playing house" before.

The highly differentiated topics and the thought-provoking materials made Qin Yan feel overwhelmed.

His answers were messy, and every time he finished a test, he became more nervous. Every time he finished a test, he repeatedly sentenced himself to death in his heart.

It's over, this time it's really over.

In a daze, the six exams were over, but within one night, the results were posted in a corner of the classroom.

Qin Yan didn't dare to look at it, but He Jiashi did.

He lay awkwardly on the table, still working on the questions, pretending not to care.

He Jiashi took a deep look at Qin Yan, knowing that he was in a bad mood, so he didn't say anything, let alone ask Qin Yan, "What's the matter with you?"

Qin Yan was very grateful for He Jiashi's silence.

When He Jiashi went to the toilet, he finally walked around to the report card, took a quick glance, and saw the dazzling 5 and 81 immediately after his name.

For the first time ever, he was ranked fifth in his class and 81st in the school.

The author says:

NATO, Warsaw Pact, and Excellence in this article are all self-enrollment alliances.NATO is headed by Peking University, Beihang University, and Beijing Normal University; Warsaw Pact is led by Tsinghua University, Shanghai Jiao Tong University, and University of Science and Technology of China; excellence is mainly led by Beijing University, Tianda University, and Harbin Institute of Technology.Now it seems to be the tears of the times.