I can't hold back my heart

Li Li slammed the door with almost all her strength, which not only hurt the eardrums of several people present, but also shattered the past between her and Wei Xi.

They end here, there will be no future, and there will be no future.

She wanted to expel Wei Xi from her mind completely.

Outside the door, Zhao Ruoxuan and Ling Lan didn't expect that Li Li would close the door suddenly, and they did so vigorously, after all, they were still outside.

Compared to them, Wei Xi stood in place like a statue, as if the loud noise just now had no effect on her, but Ling Lan could still see that her complexion seemed worse than before.

"Hey..." Ling Lan rubbed her ears and sighed. She still had some affection for Wei Xi, but she couldn't be completely indifferent.

"Why are you back?" Ling Lan asked her with a complicated mood, frowning.

Only then did Wei Xi get out of her sad emotions. Li Li had obviously accepted the fact that they broke up, and wanted to sever ties with her completely. This was exactly what she wanted to see. A move you regret.

"This." When Wei Xi raised his eyes again, he had restrained the emotions in his eyes, and he was indifferent again, "Jiang Mu asked me to give it to Li Li, please give it to her."

Just as Ling Lan was about to reach out to pick it up, Wei Xi put the shell bag on the porcelain table next to the guardrail, turned around and left, looking like he didn't want to stay for half a second.

Ling Lan: "..."

Now, Wei Xi and Li Li are really finished, Ling Lan thought.

Although Li Li is very attached to Wei Xi, she can't stand Wei Xi's capricious alienation and indifference. After realizing the truth, Li Li will not entangle her anymore. Even if Wei Xi wants to get back in the future, it will not be easy.

She shook her head at the thought, reaching for a shell bag made of men's shirts.

After Ling Lan took the shell bag off the porcelain table, Zhao Ruoxuan took out the key to open the door, opened the door and went in, but they didn't see Li Li, but they heard the sound of water, Li Li should be taking a bath.

Ling Lan sat with Zhao Ruoxuan and waited for Li Li to come out. After sitting for a while, Ling Lan asked, "Can I move here to live with you and Li Li?"

"Why?" Zhao Ruoxuan asked puzzled.

"I just don't want to go back to the dormitory." Thinking of the current atmosphere in the dormitory, Ling Lan couldn't help shaking her head, "Xu Lingwei is back, and Wei Xi..." She couldn't continue.

Zhao Ruoxuan nodded, she understood Ling Lan's mood, what happened in the dormitory when Li Li went to deliver food to Wei Xi at noon, they don't know if they weren't there, but the part where Li Li broke up with Wei Xi outside the cafeteria, someone on the forum almost took pictures down.

"So Wei Xi and Xu Lingwei are really having an affair?" Zhao Ruoxuan asked suspiciously, she simply felt that Xu Lingwei and Wei Xi were not a good match.

Ling Lan shrugged uncertainly. In the past, she dared to guarantee that Wei Xi and Xu Lingwei had absolutely no affair, but Wei Xi's recent manipulations made her dare not draw conclusions casually. After all, before seeing the video, she did not I would believe that Wei Xi would take the initiative to hold Xu Lingwei's hand. Although it was just the wrist, it was amazing enough.

After Li Li took a shower and dried her body, she found that what she habitually took was the orange-pink skirt that Wei Xi gave her before when she changed her clothes. She immediately stopped wearing it. She opened the door and shouted: " Zhao Ruoxuan, bring me a nightgown here."

"Okay." Zhao Ruoxuan responded, stood up, walked to Li Li's closet, opened the closet door, randomly picked out a red suspender nightdress from inside, and quickly brought it to Li Li.

Li Li took it over and took a look, his face sank when he thought of something, and said to Zhao Ruoxuan, "Please help me change another one."

Zhao Ruoxuan: "???"

"Are there any clear instructions?" Zhao Ruoxuan looked at Li Li's uneasy expression and asked, fearing that she would still be dissatisfied with taking Li Li again.

"Just take whatever you want." Li Li thought for a while, except for these two, she won't step on thunder again. The first one was given to her by Wei Xi, and she won't wear it again. There is also a rose red suspender bought by her mother. Xi also has one. Every time she wears it, she treats it as a couple nightgown with Wei Xi. Now that she has broken up with Wei Xi, of course she won't wear it again.

Now that we broke up, let's break it up thoroughly. Procrastination has never been her style. After being entangled with Wei Xi for so long before, it was because she was in love and got lost.

Zhao Ruoxuan had no choice but to go back and get another beige one for Li Li. This time Li Li didn't say anything, closed the door and got dressed, Zhao Ruoxuan went back to the dormitory again, Ling Lan looked at her and asked, "What's going on?"

"I don't know." Zhao Ruoxuan was also confused.

Finally Li Li came out of the bathroom. She saw the shells she picked up on the balcony, and suddenly understood why Wei Xi came up, but it was not important anymore.

She took two clean nightdresses into the dormitory, found a cardboard box for clothes, and stuffed the orange-pink one in, and the rose-red one on the back of the chair, thinking of throwing it away when she went downstairs. .

"Is there anything wrong with these two skirts?" Zhao Ruoxuan asked cautiously, afraid of touching Li Li's minefield again and making her unhappy.

"This one belongs to Wei Xi." Li Li didn't hide anything, and put the paper bag containing the nightgown in front of Ling Lan, "Sister Ling Lan, please bring it to Wei Xi."

Ling Lan reacted for a while, then remembered that this was the time when Li Li was showered in their dormitory by Xu Lingwei, and Wei Xi exchanged it for Li Li. At that time, she wondered why Wei Xi had such a beautiful dress. .

She took it, and said with some sentimentality: "Okay, I just want to go back to the dormitory, and I will bring it to her for you."

"Wait." Ling Lan had already walked to the door, when Li Li suddenly stopped her.

"What?" Ling Lan turned her head and saw Li Li running towards her with a lipstick in a unique package, "Sister Ling Lan, and this, help me too

Give it back to her. "

"...Okay." Ling Lan agreed and left the dormitory. She took out the lipstick from the paper bag. She was a little dumbfounded. She turned to the bottom and found the capital letters of Wei Xi and Li Li's names, like Special custom, a little romantic.

I used to be so careful, how can I not like it if I don’t like it?

Ling Lan couldn't figure it out, so she quickened her pace and went back to her dormitory, wanting to ask Wei Xi personally.

At this moment, Wei Xi was sitting in his seat, with the blank paper related to the graduation project still laid out in front of him as before, his back looked lonely and dejected, and the whole person was full of sadness of losing love.

It was at this time that Ling Lan opened the door with the key and went in. She fixed her eyes on Wei Xi, who was obviously also sad.

She lowered her head and glanced at the things Li Li asked her to return to Wei Xi in her hand, she couldn't bear it.

But he still approached Wei Xi with the paper bag.

"Wei Xi." She walked behind Wei Xi and lightly tapped Wei Xi's shoulder. When Wei Xi turned around, Ling Lan's heart was hardened, and she handed the paper box to her, "Li Li asked me to bring it to you. of."

She carefully considered the words and phrases, and used "bring" instead of "return", but it didn't seem to be very useful. Wei Xi immediately understood when she saw the contents of the paper bag.

Li Li returned all the things related to her. She reached in and flipped through it. The skirt and lipstick were clearly visible. Suddenly, her hand touched something hard, like a shell. Slippery and hard, she pulled out one, a beautiful creamy shell.

"Ah... Li Li gave it to me." Ling Lan said apologetically, she reached out and picked out the remaining 5 small shells. These shells were also given to her by Li Li chasing them out. She was very sorry. Clearly, there is no Wei Xi's share.

Wei Xi didn't know why he was looking forward to it, lowered his deep eyes, and returned the most beautiful one in his hand to Ling Lan.

On the other hand, Li Li drank too much wine on an empty stomach in the evening, her stomach began to feel uncomfortable, and she went to the bathroom to vomit several times, Zhao Ruoxuan was worried.

"No, I have to eat something to pad my stomach."

"I don't want to eat." Li Li lay weakly on his desk, feeling very uncomfortable, but still refused.

Zhao Ruoxuan rubbed her shoulders, "Eat at least a little, I'll go down and buy it for you, green vegetables and lean meat porridge, okay?" After she finished speaking, Li Li's face darkened, realizing that she might have said the wrong thing again, "The millet pumpkin porridge ?”

Just now when Zhao Ruoxuan mentioned green vegetables and lean meat porridge, Li Li thought of Wei Xi again. She remembered that she was injured when Xu Lingwei ordered her to give a demonstration in the taekwondo gym. Meat porridge. .

Damn, there are too many memories related to Wei Xi.

Wei Xi closed her eyes and took a deep breath, and slowly calmed down. Zhao Ruoxuan was still waiting for her reply. She knew that Zhao Ruoxuan was very worried about her, so she nodded weakly and said, "Yes."

Vegetable lean meat porridge is fine, millet pumpkin porridge is fine, although there are memories related to Wei Xi, but the food is innocent, and these foods are not contracted by Wei Xi, she can eat as much as she wants.

Zhao Ruoxuan got up and was about to go out when there was a knock on the door first, she opened the door, Li Li rested her head on her hand, looked sideways, and saw that it was Ruan Qing and Lu Shuangshuang, they were holding a small pink pot in their hands, There is a sweet smell coming out.

"Can I come in?" Lu Shuangshuang asked nervously after Ruan Qing.

"Of course, please come in." Ling Lan invited them in, then closed the door of the dormitory, and temporarily put aside the matter of buying dinner in the cafeteria, after all, someone had already brought food.

Although she hadn't communicated with Lu Shuangshuang much, Li Li had a good impression of her.

"Shuangshuang happened to cook porridge at night, and I heard that you felt uncomfortable after drinking, so I wanted to give you some." Ruan Qing looked at Li Li and said.

Ling Lan was ashamed in the back, this is not a gift, it is moving both pots.

"One pot is purple potato porridge, and the other is millet pumpkin porridge. I don't know which one you like, so I brought them both." Lu Shuangshuang said embarrassedly.

In fact, this matter has nothing to do with her, she has no reason to come here, but she saw that Ruan Qing was in a hurry and a little confused, so she wanted to help, she hoped that Ruan Qing would be happy, Li Li and Wei Xi would break up, and Ruan Qing would have another chance to go Pursuing Li Li, she also wanted to help Ruan Qing as much as possible.

So when Ruan Qing returned to the dormitory and didn't know what to do, she asked about the situation and analyzed to Ling Lan what to do now to warm Li Li, that is to take care of her body first, Li Li was drinking and her stomach was uncomfortable, just right She has a pot and ingredients. She often cooks in the dormitory and feeds her roommates from time to time. Now she can also cook porridge for Li Li.

"Both of me want to drink." Li Li didn't know why seeing Lu Shuangshuang felt better for no reason, and smiled with her eyes bent. Although she was broken in love, she saw Ruan Qing and Lu Shuangshuang standing together , all holding a small pink pot, I think they go well with everything.

Lu Shuangshuang was a little surprised, and asked pleasantly, "Li Li, do you have a bowl and a spoon?"

"Yes." Zhao Ruoxuan answered for Li Li. Li Li was lying on the table, unable to move. Zhao Ruoxuan knew exactly where Li Li's lunch box and spoon were. It was on the desk compartment in front of her. She took it. Go down to the balcony pool and run it with clean water before taking it back.

Lu Shuangshuang gave Li Li a spoonful of pumpkin and millet porridge with a medium-sized white spoon, and asked her to taste it first. Li Li tasted the porridge, it was sweet but not greasy, and she said sincerely, "It's really good."

Seeing Li Li eating happily, Lu Shuangshuang breathed a sigh of relief, it was not a disservice to her, it played a positive role, she turned her head to look at Ruan Qing, and Ruan Qing's eyebrows finally relaxed.

When leaving, Li Li gave her and Ruan Qing 6 small shells, saying that they had just picked them up at the beach this afternoon.

"Thank you." Lu Shuangshuang thanked, feeling that Li Li was easier to get along with than imagined.

Li Li waved her hand and said to her: "It's very close to the school. Doesn't Ruan Qing have a car? You can go together when you have time. It's quite fun."

After coming out of Li Li's dormitory, Lu Shuangshuang realized that Li Li might be trying to set her up with Ruan Qing just now. At night, the lights in the corridor of the dormitory were dim. Lu Shuangshuang lowered her head and blushed.

"Thank you, Shuangshuang." Ruan Qing suddenly stopped and said, "Actually, you don't have to do this for me."

"Ah?" Lu Shuangshuang suddenly felt flustered, did Ruan Qing discover something?

After a few seconds, when Lu Shuangshuang was so nervous that her heart was about to jump out of her chest, Ruan Qing said again: "Li Li doesn't like me, I know, sometimes hard work is useless, I just want to help as a friend today Li Li, I don't think much about other things, so Shuangshuang, you don't have to worry about it anymore."

It turned out that Ruan Qing didn't find anything, Lu Shuangshuang breathed a sigh of relief, but felt a little lost.

Ruan Qing said not to think about it anymore, meaning that she would no longer have any hope of being with Li Li, which meant that she had a chance, and she should be happy, but Ruan Qing's words rejected this opportunity again.

"Effort...is it really useless?" She tilted her head and looked at Ruan Qing blankly.

"What?" Ruan Qing froze for a moment.

Lu Shuangshuang asked again: "In relationships, is hard work really useless?"

Ruan Qing looked at Shuangshuang's face, she didn't know why she felt that Shuangshuang suddenly became a little sad, her throat was choked, and she didn't know how to answer.

"I see." Lu Shuangshuang said to herself, and continued walking forward with the small powder pot in her arms.

Ruan Qing followed, feeling somewhat blocked for no reason.

The next day, Li Li got up early and went to class with Zhao Ruoxuan. Zhao Ruoxuan couldn't see any sign that Li Li was still sad about the broken relationship. She was sincerely happy for Li Li, thinking that Li Li should be like this now, Don't get bogged down by feelings.

There were only two classes in the morning, Li Li went to the counselor to make up the leave after class, Zhao Ruoxuan was worried about going with her.

Li Li entered the office alone, while Zhao Ruoxuan waited outside worryingly.

The door of the office was not closed tightly, and Zhao Ruoxuan could vaguely hear the counselor talk about Li Li's love affair causing a sensation, and after teaching for about half an hour, she signed the leave note and let Li Li leave.

"Help." As soon as she came out of the office, Li Li leaned on Zhao Ruoxuan's shoulder and complained in a low voice: "This counselor is much more difficult than Lao Zhang. Why is there no teacher in the university that we agreed to take care of?"

Zhao Ruoxuan patted her on the back reassuringly, "So, next time, don't leave without saying a word, at least let me know where you are."

"Okay, I got it, Zhao Ruoxuan, you've become more verbose too." Li Li said with disgust, but he went downstairs together holding her hand.

"Where are we going now?" Zhao Ruoxuan asked.

It's an embarrassing time now, it's too early to go to lunch, let's go to study, and it's hard to find a study room, and I'm not in the mood now.

"Go back to the dormitory first." Li Li had already planned, "Put down the schoolbag first, and then come down to eat, the time is almost up."

"Okay." Zhao Ruoxuan agreed with a smile.

The difference between university and high school is that university has time to relax and squander. You don’t have to calculate whether to go directly to the cafeteria or review after a meal like in high school, which is more time-saving and efficient.

Back in the dormitory, Li Li took out the books in the backpack, put them on the compartment, and hung the bag on a small sticky hook on the cabinet.

Zhao Ruoxuan went to the bathroom, Li Li was waiting for her in the dormitory, and saw the shirt she helped Jiang Mu wash last night hanging on the balcony, opened the door, took the shirt down with the clothes rail, folded it, and put it in a paper bag In the end, she still didn't forget to pick 6 more shells from the shells that were almost given away and put them on the side of the shirt. In this way, she only had 3 shells left.

When Zhao Ruoxuan came out, she went downstairs with her, not forgetting to tease: "Jiang Mu will be flattered if he knows that you wash his clothes and give him shells."

"That's enough for you." Li Li bumped her shoulder, "I helped him wash the shirt mainly because I stained the shirt, and gave him the shells because we picked them up together, for his share, we are sisters, Jiang Mu I said it myself."

"Sister?" Zhao Ruoxuan couldn't help laughing, "The legendary male girlfriend is online."

Li Libai glanced at her, "If you laugh again, I will take back the shells I gave you."

"Don't." Zhao Ruoxuan stopped smiling immediately.

Li Li looked at her and said, "Next time you pick it up with Sister Ling Lan, it will definitely be more fragrant than what I gave you."

"The three of us go together." Zhao Ruoxuan hugged her shoulders.

Li Li raised her eyebrows with a smile, "You don't mind if I'm a light bulb."

The two chatted and laughed all the way, and walked slowly to the cafeteria. Jiang Mu had classes in the next two periods, and Li Li and Zhao Ruoxuan went to make dinner before the end of get out of class time.

In order to express his gratitude to Jiang Mu for taking him for a drive yesterday and sending her back to the dormitory, Li Li also ordered a meal for him. I don’t know what Jiang Mu likes to eat, so Li Li chooses the most expensive one, although the C cafeteria is the most expensive. Expensive is still very affordable.

Jiang Mu was really flattered to receive the message from Li Li, because Li Li not only wanted to return his clothes, share his shells, but also invite him to dinner. Grinding his back molars with hatred.

In the public class yesterday afternoon, he reported Jiang Mu for skipping class. The professor called the names directly and found many students who did not show up. Now these students hate him. I don’t know who put a dark black plastic on his head last night. bag, punched and kicked him in the public restroom, and when he took off the plastic bag on top of his head, there was still no one to be seen, so he could only swallow his breath and blame Jiang Mu.

That revenge had nothing to do with Jiang Mu, he was always aboveboard when he hit Gu Cheng'an, but he was really relieved to see Gu Cheng'an's face stained, and with Li Li's friendly response, he was even happier.

The roommate has a good relationship with him, knowing that he was in a hurry to find Li Li, and lent him the scooter the second time, even after the last class, the road was crowded with people, and even riding a scooter couldn't be cool. Smaller eDonkeys are flexible, and he plans to buy a small eDonkey for himself. The National Day will be here in a few days, so he just chooses it.

There were too many people on the road, Jiang Mu almost propped his legs on the ground, and pushed the locomotive all the way, so that his roommates caught up with him later, Gu Chengan's face was stained, and he didn't come, so he asked his roommate to bring him food, otherwise If you see it, you must laugh at him.

Jiang Mu got out of the car, wiped the sweat off his brow, and then walked to the cafeteria. Unfortunately, he ran into Wei Xi again, and Wei Xi took his meal out, as if he wanted to take it back to the dormitory to eat.

"Coach Wei." Jiang Mu called her to stop, Wei Xi's eyes were not focused, and she saw Jiang Mu after searching for the voice. She stopped and asked dryly: "Just finished class?"

"Yes." Jiang Mu responded with a smile, "Li Li invites me to dinner." At this moment, he was like a child eager to share his joy with his elders, and he didn't notice the light in Wei Xi's eyes after hearing Li Li's name. It sank down.

"By the way, Coach Wei, after you went up to deliver shells to Li Li yesterday, did your relationship with Li Li ease up?" He asked with concern.

Wei Xi could see the genuine concern in the eyes of the boy in front of him, and shook his head slightly.

The relationship between her and Li Li could not be eased anymore, and the sound of the door closing heavily sounded in her mind again, reminding her that there was no room for maneuver, and this situation was also caused by her alone.

Although she also has regrets and struggles in her heart, she will ask herself every night when she can't sleep, if she hadn't compromised but tried her best to fight for Uncle Li's request to leave Li Li, and hadn't kept it from Li Li but Tell Li Li to face it with her, will they still be together now, and work together to get the approval of Li Li's parents, instead of scarring Li Li and Zi all over like now.

But time is fair, because it will never go backwards, and there will be no chance for people to regret it. Everyone needs to be responsible for their choices and actions, and she is the same.

"Coach Wei?" Jiang Mu waved his hand in front of Wei Xi's eyes, no longer expecting him to answer his own question.

Just as he was about to say goodbye to Wei Xi and go to Li Li, Li Li's dissatisfied voice sounded behind him: "Jiang Mu, why are you so slow? Everyone who walked over has eaten."

When Li Li shouted, many people around looked over.

Jiang Mu shrugged, his eyes drifted to Wei Xi, motioning for Li Li to take a look, Wei Xi was standing in front of Li Li now, with his back to her.

He has a single-threaded thinking, and feels that no matter what contradictions or misunderstandings, he just needs to talk about it.

But Li Li didn't look sideways, she only looked at Jiang Mu, she even took two steps to the side, grabbed Jiang Mu's arm and dragged it to the depths of the cafeteria, "The food is cold."

Jiang Mu was a little confused, but he still didn't forget to turn his head to look at Wei Xi when he was dragged. Wei Xi had already turned around at this time, looking at Li Li's determined back that didn't stop for her.

When she turned her back to Li Li just now, she could feel that Li Li's gaze never fell on her, not even for a second.

In Li Li's eyes, she was no longer there.

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