I can't hold back my heart

Wei Xi didn't stop there, stood there for two seconds, then turned and left.

"Li Li, you and Wei Jiao..."

"Don't mention her in front of me." Li Li interrupted Jiang Mu, staring at him with a fierce expression.

Jiang Mu now understood that their relationship had not been eased, and even became more rigid, so he stopped touching Li Li's bad luck, and changed the subject and asked, "Li Li, what did you order for me?"

Li Li didn't answer, and continued to walk forward. Jiang Mu followed her to find a seat, and sat down opposite Li Li. In front of him was a large baking tray, a mix of meat and vegetables, which looked very rich, a successful hook Woke up his appetite, "Thank you."

"It's cold." Li Li stared at him and said, "It's your fault."

Jiang Mu didn't mind at all, and he still ate happily when it was cold, "It's okay, I don't pick."

Li Li pushed the cardboard box containing the shirt and shells towards him again, "And this, here you are."

"What is this?" Jiang Mu didn't react, put down his chopsticks, and looked into the paper box. It turned out to be his shirt and small shells, and he could smell the faint smell of lavender laundry detergent.

"You washed it for me, didn't you?" Jiang Mu asked pleasantly. His roommate was unfortunately sitting at the table behind him, and he couldn't help but make a booing sound when he heard this sentence.

Li Li frowned, and said unhappily: "Shut up."

Jiang Mu immediately turned his head and asked his roommates to stop talking nonsense, but was slightly complained by his roommate: "Wife management is strict."

He wanted to, but he knew very well that Li Li didn't like him at all. Now that he has friends who are doing well, if he thinks about other things, he will definitely be rejected by Li Li thousands of miles away.

When Wei Xi returned to the dormitory, Xu Lingwei got off the bed and complained to her: "Wei Xi, why didn't you call me when you went to buy food?"

Wei Xi ignored her and sat down to eat in his seat. Xu Lingwei knew she was bored and walked away.

On the way back, Wei Xi was thinking about Li Li all the way, thinking about how she and Li Li got closer to each other and then distanced from each other.

Don't think about it, Wei Xi, she warned herself.

After eating, Wei Xi sat upright at the table, holding a paintbrush, but he still didn't have the inspiration to complete his creation. As long as he looked at the blank paper, Li Li's face would automatically appear, smiling brightly, or crying aggrieved .

In desperation, she had no choice but to open the part-time job group, found a part-time job for half a day, and went out immediately.

On the first day after officially breaking up with Li Li, Wei Xi was busy. As long as she devoted herself to something non-stop, she would have no time to think about Li Li. Although she would still think about Li Li after work, But the body and mind are very tired, and the emotion of missing is not so intense.

It seems that she has returned to the original appearance, she is still the same Wei Xi who is busy with part-time jobs to make money every day, her body and soul are exhausted, and she repeats this peaceful and busy life every day.

And Li Li hasn't appeared in her life yet, she just needs to continue living in this peace.

The next day, Wei Xi thought she had adjusted her mentality, so she bent over the table and drew pictures.

Seeing the breaking news on the forum, Xu Lingwei couldn't help sharing it with her, "Wei Xi, here is Li Li's latest love news, do you want to listen?"

Still haven't received a reply, but this doesn't affect Xu Lingwei's enthusiasm for sharing. She knows that Wei Xi will definitely listen, "The school flower and school grass are strolling in the playground, the conversation is lively, and I feel very CP..."

"Click." Xu Lingwei was interrupted by the crisp breaking sound, she looked away from the lit phone screen, looked at Wei Xi, and asked in surprise, "Wei Xi, why did you break the brush?"

"Oh! Your hands are still bleeding." Xu Lingwei exclaimed exaggeratedly, and went back to her place to search for a Band-Aid. Wei Xi didn't feel the pain, and didn't even see the blood dripping from her fingers stained the drawing paper, so she got up and left the dormitory , Waiting for Xu Lingwei to find the Band-Aid, nowhere can Wei Xi's shadow be seen.

Wei Xi ran to the playground under the scorching sun. The plastic runway was hot, and the strong sunlight made it hard to lift her head. The vast playground was empty, and there was no one there. It seemed that an invisible basin of ice water was pouring her whole body Through it, she was walking in the sun, but her heart was covered with dark clouds.

She lifted her leg, but she didn't know where to go. She walked downstairs to the dormitory, instead of going upstairs, she went to the Aegean Sea near the dormitory. Sketch Tutor came to her and threw her down accidentally. Wei Xi sat down on the grass until evening.

Until she received a call from a parent asking her to tutor her daughter's composition, just two hours a week. Wei Xi taught this girl mathematics last year, and her grades improved rapidly. Even in the monthly exam, when the composition could not be finished, Wei Xi agreed, saying that he would have time to pass today.

Wei Xi first went back to the dormitory, washed the dried blood off her hands, and treated the wound briefly before going there. The address was still the same as before. She stood outside the door and knocked, and the girl immediately came over to open the door for her. , called her Teacher Wei affectionately, and pulled her in.

The girl is also called Zhang Li, which is different from the second name of her roommate in the dormitory. Wei Xi calls her Lili just like her parents.

"Miss Wei, have you had dinner?" Lily asked her, she couldn't see the tension and depression of a senior high school student, and she was very excited.

Wei Xi shook his head, said with a faint smile, "You seem to have a good mentality, keep it up, the third year of high school is all about working hard."

Lily stuck out her tongue at her, "Mr. Wei, don't think I'm fine on the outside, I'm already depressed inside."

"Let's not talk about this, let's go eat first." Lili pulled her to sit down at the dining table, and the table was full of dishes. Last year, when she came to teach Lili math, her aunt always asked her to eat, even if she came after eating specially. Auntie would still pull her to eat another bowl, so her enthusiasm and kindness remained unchanged. When talking on the phone, Auntie specifically told her to come to eat at home, and then go back to her room to help Lily write.

At the dinner table, the uncles and aunts briefly asked her about her current situation and her plans for the future, and they fed her later, saying that she was thinner than last year and she needed to eat more.

After dinner, Lily took her back to the room, and the aunt brought them another plate of fruit, saying that there was no rush for tutoring, and she would take a rest first, and then closed the door and went out.

When Auntie went out, Lily ran to the door and locked it behind her. It was the same as last year. Adolescent girls pay more attention to privacy.

"Lily..." Wei Xi wanted to ask her why she didn't finish her essay for the monthly exam, but stopped when she called her name.

"Teacher Wei, what's the matter with you?" Lili asked suspiciously as she took a toothpick and forked a piece of cantaloupe into her mouth, seeing Wei Xi suddenly petrified.

Wei Xi quickly calmed down, and said lightly, "It's nothing." It's just that she didn't call her by her name anymore.

"Can you tell me why you can't finish the composition?" Wei Xi asked seriously.

Lily didn't answer immediately, but handed a fruit plate to Wei Xi to signal her to eat and talk while Wei Xi picked up a piece of seedless watermelon with a toothpick on it.

"Because I don't like the subject of the composition, writing it against my will is very painful, so I can't finish it."

The smile on the face of the young girl in front of him faded, and Wei Xi listened intently to her continuing to say: "I don't like the format of the argumentative essay either, it feels like a template. I don't agree with many of the contents, but I know that only Only by writing like that can I get a high score, but I can't force myself to finish writing in one breath, and if I pause for a long time in the middle, I don't have enough time."

Next, Lily talked a lot, and the content was a bit extreme. Wei Xi asked her after listening to them one by one: "Have you ever tried to write only what you want to write? You don't have to cater too much to a certain idea, as long as you don't deviate from the general direction, the format It’s good to keep the most basic format of argumentative essays, the focus is on clear arguments and sufficient arguments.”

Lily shook her head, "Teacher Wei, I know what my problem is, and I don't have enough evidence."

"Do you usually accumulate material?" Wei Xi asked her.

"rare."

Wei Xi thought for a while and said: "I have a material library here. I made it a few years ago. It should be enough, but you still have to memorize it by yourself. Remember it every day, and pay attention to the people and things around you. Sometimes great people are not the only ones who can make material.”

"Yeah." Lily nodded heavily, suddenly she thought of something, and shouted excitedly: "Teacher Wei!"

"What?" Wei Xi looked at her suspiciously.

"I have a high-scoring composition for the college entrance examination here. It's from this year. It's very new. Teacher Wei, wait a moment, and I'll show it to you."

Wei Xi waited quietly, wondering why she suddenly became so excited.

Lily searched for a few minutes, and finally found the composition in the folder of the Chinese textbook in her schoolbag. The format of this composition is an argumentative essay, but the writing is very similar to a narrative. There is a lot of controversy in my eyes. In short, it is not recommended for students to write this way, because the risk is very high. If you write it well, you will get a high score. If you overturn it, it will be miserable. It is better to honestly get an average score according to the template.

"Mr. Wei, in this essay..." Lily approached Wei Xi holding the self-printed essay, her eyes lit up.

Wei Xi tilted his head slightly, becoming more puzzled.

"Your name appears in this composition, Teacher Wei." Lily handed her the composition printed on the A4 paper in her hand, "Here." Lily pointed to her, "Wei Xi, it's Teacher Wei's name. "

Wei Xi looked in the direction of Lily's finger, and sure enough, he saw his name, and it was in a handwriting she was familiar with. It was obvious that these two words were a mistake, and they were enclosed in brackets, followed by Sima Qian's name, followed by a typo It is crossed out with a slash.

"Ms. Wei, the author of this essay is called Li Li, do you know him?" Seeing that Wei Xi was stunned, Lili excitedly shook her hand and asked, "Does she like you?"

Teenage girls are the most keen on this kind of gossip. The definition of love is vague, and they want to try but are afraid.

The high score of this article is very controversial, and it has aroused heated discussions on a certain software. Some netizens jokingly said that the teacher who corrected the paper may have been moved by the student's secret confession in the argument, and there is an element of moving in the high score.

When Lily saw this composition on the Internet by chance, her first reaction was romance, the romance hidden in the college entrance examination composition, and she happened to know a tutor named Wei Xi, so she was so excited.

"Teacher Wei?" Lily was still calling her over and over again, asking if she had any relationship with Li Li who wrote this composition.

Wei Xi lowered her head, and the thoughts and regrets she had suppressed with great difficulty surged up again. The great pain eroded her, and everything reminded her:

She had lost a little girl who had loved her so much.

The author has something to say: I don’t know if there are any cuties. I remember that Li Li laughed at Zhao Ruoxuan in the first few chapters, and specially reminded Zhao Ruoxuan not to write the composition as a love letter