prefer silence

Monday is here.

When I arrived at the company, I greeted Xiaoxia awkwardly, glanced secretly at Song Zhiyuan who was opposite him, and hesitated what to say.

Song Zhiyuan did better than me, he just pretended not to see me, and his attitude was extremely cold.

My complex emotions are like a joke in front of him.

I returned to my work station in embarrassment, trying to digest the loss in my heart.

This is just the beginning.

During lunch, Song Zhiyuan voluntarily left the main force and ate alone, leaving me alone to face Xiaoxia's interrogation.

If there is a work problem, even if it is just a sentence, Song Zhiyuan would rather choose to send it to me online.

After going on like this for a few days, the colleagues in the group and even Sister Bing knew that Song Zhiyuan and I had broken up.

Obviously I proposed not to be friends, but Song Zhiyuan adapted better than me.

I'm not happy, but have to sustain it.

Doing this is good for Song Zhiyuan, good for Chen Zheng, and good for everyone.

Chen Zheng may have seen my bad state, he guessed who I was for.But he didn't quarrel with me this time.

He just worked less overtime and left work earlier.We try to go grocery shopping together every day, cook together, and go for a walk together.In time for the sunny weekend, we will also go fishing.

By the way, the pot of asparagus bamboo I bought was originally placed on the desk by him, but I don't know if it is because the weather is too cold, the small leaves of asparagus bamboo have shown signs of turning yellow, so Chen Zheng put it Brought it home and raised it.

Floor heating is provided 24 hours a day at home, and I often step barefoot on the living room carpet without feeling cold.

"It's almost the end of the year." I sighed while watering the asparagus bamboo, "I don't need to go back to my mother's hometown this year. There is no one in my hometown."

"Then shall we travel during the Spring Festival this year?" Chen Zheng suggested.

My eyes lit up, "Okay! I have been talking about traveling during the Spring Festival for several years, and I must go this year."

Chen Zheng: "Where do you want to go?"

"Winter is wet and cold, let's go to a warm place." I thought for a while, "Go to the southernmost island, it's comfortable."

Chen Zheng: "Okay. Is your company still on the eighth day of the spring break this year?"

"A high probability, right? What about you, or the fourth day of junior high school?"

"Not necessarily. If you want to, you can still get a few more days." Chen Zheng closed the book, rubbed the hollow of his brow with his fingers, "Old Zheng's wife is due in the first month of the month, and will invite us to his house for dinner."

"It's so fast." I walked up to Chen Zheng and spread my legs to sit on him. He obediently moved the book away, and I sat down and hugged him tightly, "Hurry up until next year, this year is too late Oh no."

This year is very miraculous, people who thought they were going to be separated stayed, people who thought they would be with me all the time left, old dreams were driven away, and loved ones passed away.

"Next year will definitely be better."

Chen Zheng grabbed my butt with both hands, caught me off guard and carried me to the bedroom.My legs didn't shake twice before I was thrown onto the bed. He held me down with his firm chest, and his hands traveled from my side waist to the right chest.

I was so cold that I "hissed" and stepped back on the bed sheet to avoid Chen Zheng's hand, "No, it's so cold!"

Chen Zheng's dense kisses came down, "Don't want the cold ones, but the hot ones?"

……

As the end of the year approaches, I am even busier, and Chen Zheng has a little leisure time.

With Chen Zheng's company and a stressful job, my unbalanced emotions quickly calmed down.

It's just that my mother has become strange recently. She calls me more frequently than before. She usually has nothing serious to do when she calls.

It's okay once or twice, every time there is a problem.

I said helplessly: "Mom, the child's matter is really not urgent. Your son is only 25 after the new year, and he is very young."

"Why don't you rush, Chen Zheng is almost thirty, and you got married early." Mom said, "That's because you recognized him, so I asked you to raise a child as soon as possible. Yuan Yuan, don't be confused, Your mother saw how you came here in those years, if you really want to hold onto Chen Zheng firmly, you need a child."

"Then there was no such technology before, didn't they have no children?"

I can't understand what my mother said, as if children are just born to maintain the family.

I hope that Chen Zheng's child and I don't have to shoulder any inexplicable missions, but come to us just because we want him.

"Do you know whether the homosexual life in the past was good or bad?" Mom's voice became tired, "Yuan Yuan, Mom is afraid that you will be like me in the future."

I panicked, "What's the matter? Mom!"

"Your dad did the test tube behind my back, but it didn't work. He, he has done it several times."

I was shocked and said, "Being behind your back? How can you be behind your back when doing test tubes?"

To be a test-tube baby also needs the mother's egg, which cannot be done by the father alone, unless...

"He found another woman."

This sentence rolled into my head like a big rock, and I took the words apart and spliced ​​them together, and they lined up one by one to laugh at me.

——[You are not your own, look, look, they really still want their own baby. ]

——[Your mother is too pitiful, she lost her son, and now her husband doesn't want her anymore. ]

——[Blood relationship is greater than the sky, there is nothing wrong with it. ]

I don't understand, I really don't understand, if dad just wants a biological child, dad can discuss it with mom, why would he find someone else?He just broke my mother's heart!

Mom continued: "Yuanyuan, there is something I should tell you. In fact, after your brother lost, your father and I tried to have another child, but we couldn't get pregnant. The doctor said, we both have a little My problem is more serious. After having you, we still haven't given up, but I really can't do anything."

Mom let out a sarcastic laugh, "Back then your dad comforted me, saying that you were enough, but now? It can be seen that people will change, but I don't know whether the woman he is looking for is for money or love. "

Listening to my mother revealing her scars like this, my heart hurts.

"Mom, we... what shall we do? Did you have a showdown with Dad?"

"Don't get involved in this matter, you can't manage it." Mom was silent for a while, and said, "I'm pretending to be confused. Let's wait until the day I can't pretend. I still want to give your dad a chance."

I understood Mom's plan, she wanted to see if Dad could turn around on his own initiative and find his way back.

Mom said that I can't manage this matter. As my adopted son, it's really not easy to meddle in the parents' scandals, and it also involves the issue of Dad wanting to have a biological child.As long as I stretch out my hand, maybe someone in the know will say that I am thinking about the Li family's property and that I am a white-eyed wolf.

But, I am the son raised by my parents, how can I ignore it?

"Mom, I see."