prefer silence

I decided to talk to Dad alone without telling Mom.

The relationship between parents has always been very good, which is obvious to all neighbors.I remember when I was young, my dad would often bring some snacks to my mom and me after get off work, sometimes tea eggs, sometimes glutinous rice cakes wrapped in sugar.These little things are worthless, what matters is the intention contained in them.

"Dad, have you been particularly busy recently?"

"Busy, what's the matter, do you need me?"

"Yes, there is something..." My throat was rough, "It's hard to talk on the phone, can you spare some time for us to meet?"

Dad was very concerned, "What's the matter? Is it... related to Chen Zheng?"

I realized that I had to confuse my father first, otherwise the phone would be leaked, and I was afraid that it would be difficult to see him.

I admitted it smoothly, "Yes. I want to ask you for a favor. You must meet me."

"Yes, it's fine." Dad agreed, but then he was a little embarrassed, "But I'm in S city now, and I won't be home until next week."

I tentatively asked, "Dad, are you on a business trip in City S?"

"Ah, yes, the school and S University have an exchange seminar."

"Okay, then you are busy first." As I said, my thumb had already moved to the red on-hook button, and I quietly thought of my mother's sentence "I still want to give your dad a chance", and as soon as I thought about it, more Said, "Dad, Mom and I miss you very much."

Dad was happy, "It's too nasty, it's not like I won't come back, I just hung up."

After hanging up the phone, I immediately found the official website of A University of Municipal Law.

Generally, the exchange or cooperation with other schools, especially famous schools, as Dad said, the school's official website will definitely post an announcement.

But I searched all the big and small news on the official website, but I couldn't find any seminars that Dad mentioned.

Dad, I lied.

What followed was a series of questions.

Why is Dad going to S City?see who?See that woman?

When did it start?How did he meet that woman?

The answers to each of these questions may be things I don't want to hear, but I have to face them.

I haven't told Chen Zheng about this yet.

If Chen Zheng were me, he would definitely be able to come up with the most suitable solution.

Want to tell him?

No, this time, let me do it myself.I really depend on him too much, and I can't be so dependent on him forever.

Everyone will have a tired day. When Chen Zheng is tired, can I let him rely on him comfortably?

I also want to improve a bit, and I also want to be a trustworthy and trustworthy person.

Ultimately, I chose to remain silent on this matter.

A week later, Dad came back from S City, and we made an appointment to meet in a teahouse.

He originally thought that I would look for him at home, but when he heard that I had booked a small room in the teahouse, he thought I was being too serious, saying that it must not be a trivial matter for me to ask him for help.

"Tell me, what's the matter with Chen Zheng? Is there anything serious you can do for me?" He looked energetic, with a leisurely smile on his lips while sipping tea.

I felt that smile was harsh, so I turned my eyes away from him, "I'm fine with Chen Zheng."

"It's good?" Dad asked suspiciously, "Didn't you say it's related to Zheng Zheng? That's a problem with Zheng Zheng's work?"

"No, not at all. It has nothing to do with Chen Zheng." Feeling very awkward, I picked up the teacup and took a small sip to cover it up. The tea was very fragrant and a bit bitter. It was the strong tea that Dad liked.

I lowered my head, "Yes, it's about you."

"Me? What's the matter with me?"

"Dad, don't you really know?" I couldn't help but look at his eyes. The lines in the corners of his eyes are vertical and horizontal. When he smiles, he will tuck in a few creases. Dad is old, but I have to admit that there is a kind of precipitation in him like this. The old-fashioned charm of time.

Compared with my mother who has been unemployed for a long time, my father's vitality is still bursting out. It used to be surging in his prime, but now it is a trickle.

"How much do you know?" Dad's smile faded, and he stared at me with an almost scrutinizing gaze, "Who told you, it was your mother?"

I was very surprised, "You know mom knows, then you still—"

Dad interrupted me, "I don't know what your mother told you. She may be embellishing it. I understand. She is not happy. But, Yuanyuan, you are also a man. You should think about it for me. I just want to Have a biological child!"

"Of course, you are also my son. But, I can't let the Li family die in my generation."

"So, you find another woman to have children." I didn't care about being sad, and pointed out the crux of the problem, "Have you thought about it for your mother?"

Dad didn't answer directly, and poured a cup of tea on his own, "When I have a baby, I will bring him home, and he will also be your mother's child."

I asked, "What about the woman who gave birth to you?"

"I gave her a sum of money, we just exchanged money."

Money deal?that's it?

I looked at him disappointedly, "Dad, is that woman in City S now? If it's just a money transaction, why do you keep running out? You're not going on a business trip at all, you're going to accompany that woman!"

Dad showed a surprised and nervous expression on his face, "I just think she is very pitiful. We have tried the test tube three times but failed, which is very bad for her health. She is a single mother, and her daughter is sick again. Come do this..."

"Poor, who is not pitiful, have you ever thought about it, Mom is even more pitiful!" I couldn't control my emotions at once, and my voice became a little louder. The waiter was startled and ran in to see us.

Dad told her to go down with a cold face, and slapped the table hard, "Who are you talking to? Li Yuyuan, I'm your dad! Parents who are everywhere in the world, it's not your turn to say these things."

"Yes! It's not my turn to say it." I choked up, "I just can't see my mother in such pain. She is waiting for you to come home, and she can't bear to tear her face off with you!"

Dad's face was ashen, and he didn't say a word.

I went on to say: "Is it all right to have a biological child? If so, don't you and Mom have one? Just find him, just find him—"

"You are so naive. That child has been lost a long time ago, and now we don't know whether he is dead or alive. If we could find it, we would have looked for it long ago!"

"What if! What if! What if I can find it?"

"Then go find it, and come talk to me when you find it."

We parted badly.

In fact, when I said I wanted to find that child, I just had sex with Dad in a hurry.After many years, it will be more difficult to find someone.

But I thought about it carefully, and I should not have to respond to this.

Judging by Dad's appearance, he is determined.If only this one condition can make him give up, I would rather give it a try.

I still hold on to a glimmer of hope, maybe I can find it?

As long as we find it, our family can be restored to its former happiness.

Or, it will be more happy.After all, that child was supposed to be part of the family.

The author says:

Yuan Yuan complied with her mother's wishes.