prefer silence

I purposely took Chen Zheng to the pavilion downstairs and sat there for a while, waiting until Song Zhiyuan called me.

"Where did you and your family go? You haven't come back for so long, it's almost time to check out, and everyone started to leave."

Listening to the familiar voice on the other end of the phone, I couldn't imagine that he liked me.

Song Zhiyuan, he has a girlfriend, and he has been in love with Le Min for so long, how could he like me as a man.But this is what he said himself, and it cannot be faked.

Maybe I shouldn't be so entangled. After all, according to Song Zhiyuan's thinking, everything is in the past tense. Didn't he tell Yang Wenluo not to mention it again?

I calmed down, and said in a natural tone, "We're downstairs to have some air, we'll be up right away."

"Okay, then hurry up."

Chen Zheng leaned against me, drowsy.I looked at him and smiled wryly, "So what you said is true. Fortunately, you didn't hear it today because you were drunk. Otherwise, it would be even more difficult for me. To deal with him, I have to deal with you."

I supported his armpit, and half hugged him back, the upstairs was ending, it was noisy, I was upset, so I randomly found an empty box for Chen Zheng to sleep on the sofa.

I sent Song Zhiyuan a message.

【Me: Chen Zheng fell asleep, I took him to 208, come to me after you send them all away. 】

This reunion meal with old classmates lasted for four hours, from noon to late evening.It's winter, the sky gets dark early, the sunset outside the floor-to-ceiling windows hangs on the far horizon, and the street lights are on.

I took off my coat, covered Chen Zheng's body, and kissed his forehead tenderly.

"I'm sorry, bro."

Song Zhiyuan came in, his hair was messed up, probably messed up by some bastard in the class as a joke, he let out a long sigh, "It's over, this class leader is really tiring."

We looked at each other, and Song Zhiyuan pointed at Chen Zheng, "Did you both drink and call a driver?"

"I called, I'll be there later."

Song Zhiyuan: "That's fine, the driver I called should be here soon."

There was a long silence, a gust of cold wind came in through the open window, and I shivered suddenly without my coat.

"Here you are." Song Zhiyuan took off his jacket and handed it to me, "You really want your husband to die, and then you'll catch a cold again."

His hand holding the clothes was right in front of my eyes, I half lowered my eyelids, and smiled, "You... I'm not that weak, okay, I've become much stronger in recent years."

Like a slow-motion replay, the hand retracted frame by frame, and the sleeves of the clothes shook twice with the movement.

For a long time, "You heard it, at that time."

I opened my mouth, not knowing whether to admit it or not.

Song Zhiyuan said again: "The one who made the noise in the bathroom is you." He used a very affirmative tone.

Song Zhiyuan chuckled softly, "You heard that, and then, do you want to break up with me?"

My throat was dry, and I didn't dare to look at him, "Why should I break up with you? I remember you said before that we would be friends forever. You've let it go, haven't you? You don't like me anymore."

"I don't like you anymore... That's right, I probably don't like you anymore. It's just me, I can't let go. You are by my side, so close, I can see you almost every day, how do you want me to let go ?”

"Yuyuan, I have regretted many times that I didn't confess to you earlier. I have written all the love letters, but I just can't pass the barriers in my heart and the prejudices of the world. My first love is actually a man. It took me a long time to accept."

"You came out to me in my sophomore year. Before I was happy, you said that you had someone you liked. I can't say what I like anymore. I can only watch you graduate and get married. I, in your life, will always be just a friend."

I closed my eyes, "Isn't it good to be friends?"

Song Zhiyuan's voice lowered, "Not good, not good at all. But, I still want to stay by your side."

"Since it's not good, let's not be friends for the time being." I was cruel, "You are not good, you will never let go."

"I'm going to let it go one day! I'm going to find someone else I like, I'm going to marry him, I'm going to have a kid."

I looked up into his eyes, "Then wait until you let go, wait until you find someone truly worthy of your love, until that day, we will still be best brothers."

Song Zhiyuan glared at me fiercely, and I stared back, in a stalemate for at least a minute.

In the end, his attitude softened, he turned his face away, and pulled out a handful of hair angrily, "I knew it, I knew it."

The cell phone rang suddenly, it was mine.

I picked it up, the call was from the surrogate driver, and he had already arrived at the parking lot downstairs.

"Okay, I'm going down now, you wait a moment."

After hanging up the phone, I endured not looking at Song Zhiyuan again, and lifted Chen Zheng up from the sofa to hug him. When I passed by him, I stopped, "Song Zhiyuan, goodbye."

Then he walked out without looking back.

……

The roadside lights were thrown behind one by one, red, green, yellow.

Chen Zheng and I sat in the back row. The valet driver we called this time wasn't chatterbox. After confirming the address, it remained quiet.

The phone vibrated, I opened it, it was a text message from Song Zhiyuan, he didn't use WeChat to send it.

【Song Zhiyuan: I lied to you.Yu Yuan, I may still like you a little bit. 】

Like an electric shock, my fingers trembled slightly and I lost my strength, and the phone fell under the car seat.

I tightly grasped Chen Zheng's shoulder blades, hoping to gain some strength from him.For a moment, I felt hatred for Song Zhiyuan.

I wanted to beat him up, from face to toe, crying while beating.

A tiny stream of water flowed under his chin and into his sweater.

A warm hand touched my face, Chen Zheng, who was leaning on my shoulder, woke up at some point, biting his ear, "Yuan Yuan, don't cry."

He bent down to pick up my phone, unlocked it with the password, clicked into the text message and swipe right to delete the latest one.

I was stunned, did Chen Zheng see it?

It was dark before his eyes, Chen Zheng held my head and sent it into his arms, there was a residual perfume smell.

"Don't think about him anymore." Chen Zheng warned me.

When I got home, I looked at Chen Zheng's flushed face, decided to give up fooling around and admit my mistake obediently, "I was wrong."

Chen Zheng's eyes were foggy and unfocused, but the words he spit out were very clear, "What's wrong with you?"

"I shouldn't have distrusted you."

"Then...then you must not believe me in the future..." Chen Zheng's body collapsed, and he fell asleep again.

The corners of my mouth slowly moved up, and I said with a wry smile: "Brother Zheng, it's lucky to have you."

Help Chen Zheng wipe his face, I wash myself, and lie down beside Chen Zheng.

I'm feeling lost and overwhelmed by the upcoming workday.

Today, I lost my best friend, and he is still my colleague, how will I treat him in the future.

I sighed.

No one can live without them, and time changes everything.Song Zhiyuan will find his destiny, but I only hope that that day will not be too far away, and I hope that we can be best friends again in the future.