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We held hands all the way to the underground parking lot, and Chen Zheng refused to let me get in the car.

He pressed me against the car door, kissing so hard and fast, I couldn't resist, maybe I didn't want to resist subconsciously.

I was afraid of missing the appointment time, so I pushed him hard, he pressed my shoulder, and asked me softly: "Yuan Yuan, when did you know that he is You Yu's?"

I raised my eyes and glared at him, "I knew it from the beginning, to be precise, I knew it on Christmas Eve! Are you satisfied?"

Chen Zheng showed such an expression, he asked again: "Then do you know about my relationship with You Yu when I was in college?"

I gave a "hmm" and added: "Our family all knows. Oh, and you came out for You Yu."

He firmly caught my eyes, "So, in fact, you want to divorce me because of You Yu?"

I turned my face away, wanting to say no, Chen Zheng immediately continued: "You Yu and I are ordinary colleagues now, really."

"When he first came to the law firm, he did ask me to get back together. I refused and distanced myself from him. Later he said he gave up on me. He said he had a boyfriend. We are colleagues, I I didn't eat with him, and I didn't drink with him."

"You Yu had a very serious stomach problem when he was in college. He was operated on and almost died. That's why I rushed him to the hospital. He is not a local and has no friends. These are all true, not excuses."

"Yuanyuan, you can't just convict me without asking me."

Ordinary colleagues?I looked at Chen Zheng coldly, for a moment, I felt that his face was distorted, his appearance was hideous.He obviously still loves You Yu, one after another, there are only four words in my eyes - he loves You Yu, and he never even said that he likes me.

Then he still refuses to admit it until now, and chooses to stay in this marriage that he doesn't agree with. What's the purpose?How can he enjoy my devotion to him and pursue his love with peace of mind?

I shouted angrily: "I can! It was you who gave me the chance to be convicted, and you kept it from me!"

"Why did I keep it from you, don't you know? My parents love you so much, they could have forced me to get married for you, and they could have fired You Yu for you." As soon as Chen Zheng said that, he immediately became annoyed, "No, Yuanyuan... I remembered that this is not what I was talking about..."

I laughed out loud: "So I am such a monster in your eyes, then take a look, has your You Yu been fired?"

Chen Zheng lowered his head, "So, I know I'm wrong to blame you for thinking this way...don't say that about yourself, it's my fault."

"Chen Zheng, you are really contradictory. Since you hate me so much and marry me, now you have a chance to get rid of me, why don't you get a divorce? Don't you just think that I treat you well and obey you, Isn’t it these things that you are reluctant to part with?”

"Actually, if you frankly admit the matter between you and You Yu, I will give you a high opinion. But you are a fucking hypocrite, saying one thing and doing another makes me sick! Don't want it, kid. I regret it, my child's other father should not be you."

After finishing speaking, I opened the car door and locked Chen Zheng out of the car.Chen Zheng patted on the car window, "Yuan Yuan, Yuan Yuan! Let's have a good talk..."

I gave him a blank look, stepped on the accelerator, and left Chen Zheng far behind.After rushing home, I packed a box of clothes and called Song Zhiyuan to take me in.

Song Zhiyuan readily agreed.

In fact, I don’t have everything anymore. I still have friends, parents, work, and life.

I took off the wedding ring, looked at it carefully for a moment, and threw it in a drawer.

Just think of it as feeding dogs for those 11 years.

……

In the evening at Song Zhiyuan's house, we drank until the wee hours of the morning.

In the middle, Chen Zheng called me more than a dozen times, but I didn't answer, and finally muted the phone.

Then, Song Zhiyuan's cell phone rang.

Song Zhiyuan was so drunk that he picked it up with his tongue out: "Who is it?"

"Li Yuyuan? Who is Li Yuyuan?" Song Zhiyuan turned to me and asked, "Do you know who Li Yuyuan is?"

I blushed, narrowed my eyes and thought about it, and smiled, "Li Yuyuan is me, you are so stupid!"

I don't know what was said on the other end of the phone, Song Zhiyuan shouted: "Who are you? You let me turn on the speakerphone and I will turn on the speakerphone. Goodbye brother!"

Song Zhiyuan snapped and hung up the phone.

I was so sleepy that I wanted to lie on the sofa and take a rest, but after this rest, I would rest until the next morning.

I had a splitting headache, the living room was messed up, a pile of wine bottles rolled by my feet, and Song Zhiyuan was lying on the other sofa, snoring and sleeping soundly.

Picking up the phone to look, it's early eight o'clock.There are as many as 48 red labels for missed calls.

I clicked on it and saw that most of the calls were from Chen Zheng, from last night until early this morning, and there were a few calls from Lao Zheng, concentrated at ten o'clock last night and one o'clock in the morning.

Why is Lao Zheng calling me?When I called back, Lao Zheng scolded me: "Li Yuyuan! What are you doing when you don't answer the phone? Something happened to Lao Chen. You come to the Third People's Hospital first, and I will explain it to you in detail when you arrive."

I hung up the phone with trembling hands, and went downstairs while putting on my coat. My legs were so weak that I almost fell in the stairwell. Fortunately, Song Zhiyuan's home has good transportation. As soon as I sent a taxi request, the driver picked up the order.

I got in the car and said anxiously: "Master, go to the Third People's Hospital, please hurry up."

The driver may have encountered such things a lot and comforted me, but I couldn't listen to it at all.

I held my head and began to regret not answering his phone call last night, regretting saying such heavy words to him.

When I arrived at the hospital, Lao Zheng came out to pick me up. I had dark circles under my eyes, and it looked like I hadn’t slept all night.

He explained to me what happened last night.

Chen Zheng didn't see me when he came home last night. I didn't return until ten o'clock. He kept calling me, but I didn't answer.Chen Zheng asked Lao Zheng to call me again. I was drunk at the time, and the phone was on silent, but I still didn't answer.At eleven o'clock, he had no choice but to call Song Zhiyuan, and when he heard my voice, he knew that Song Zhiyuan and I were drinking.After Song Zhiyuan hung up the phone, he couldn't get through again, thinking we were in a bar.

After twelve o'clock, Lao Zheng accompanied Chen Zheng to look for me in the bar street. I was at Song Zhiyuan's house at that time, so of course they couldn't find me.

According to Lao Zheng's words, Chen Zheng saw a figure that looked exactly like me at the time, thought it was me, and chased after him. When crossing the road, he was knocked down by a drunk-driving motorcycle, and then he was sent to the hospital.

"Spleen hemorrhage, rib fracture, the operation is over, Lao Chen is still asleep, you come and watch over him, I have to go back to catch up on sleep." Lao Zheng yawned, "By the way, his parents don't know yet , He told me not to tell his parents in the ambulance yesterday, so I just called you, who would have thought that you still haven't answered. "

I thanked Lao Zheng repeatedly and walked into the ward.

Chen Zheng's face was pale, his body was covered with a thin quilt, and one hand was left outside for infusion.

I sat next to the hospital bed and gently held Chen Zheng's fingertips, which were icy cold.

I couldn't be happier that it was just a motorcycle that hit him, that the accident wasn't serious.

In addition to being grateful, I also feel powerless.Last night I was drinking to celebrate that I was finally letting go of him, and today I worry about him and feel sorry for him.

I am really hopeless.

I stared blankly at Chen Zheng's face, and began to struggle repeatedly.

Should I try again?He has been denying the reunion with You Yu, is he lying, or... I really blamed him.

If he was lying, why did he lie to me?Can a person's behavior really change that much?

If I blamed him wrongly, then what I saw, heard, and perceived were all messed up?

The author says:

Yuan Yuan is still too soft-hearted! ! !