God is Daozu

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Well, it didn't occur to me that besides the death of this war, the one I remember most is Daniel Shelley.

I have had jealousy and admiration for Daniel. He is my generation, and he is also the object of our generation. Daniel and I stayed in the eastern battlefield for more than 600 days. For a long time, we have become the same, eating the same, living the same life, and facing the same unpredictable death.

Sometimes I feel that he is really different. My brother’s undisguised admiration for him in the past is confirmed in my eyes one by one. In the past, his quality was the direction I kept looking up to, but now his calmness makes me feel awed. And shuddering, his excessive calmness seems to be inhuman, he is like a sophisticated machine, artificial intelligence.

"Are all the guides trained by the commander like you?" I suddenly hated his calmness this day.

Daniel didn't answer when he heard the words. His silence and calm look at the moment drove me crazy. The air supremacy outside the base has been lost. The air strike of [-] fighter planes left me with an unpredictable idea. Will you remember everything in the past so clearly?I looked at Daniel's blue eyes seeping into the thin ice and remembered that I had been here when I was eight years old. At that time, the ground world was a civilized and beautiful place, with a cool lake reflecting the blue sky, tall spires, and walls inside the walls. Sculptures and paintings left by great artists of different eras, masterpieces of civilization, and treasures shared by mankind.At that time, I was too young and opened my eyes to shuttle in front of these masterpieces of the era, amazed, delighted, and hurried.

In the past, I never seemed to recall those monuments very strongly, never had any special affection, nor had I ever had strong feelings, but only vaguely remembered occasionally, and occasionally marveled, they seemed to be in my life is a dispensable thing.But when they collapsed, those ruins and the surprise of the past turned into a deep mourning in my heart.

I can't describe this feeling exactly. The next day I saw the broadcast of a war correspondent. She described this feeling as "the moment when the building collapsed, and I felt like I lost my last name." At that moment, I felt empty , I burst into tears in an instant, I felt that my past and even my father's generation were abandoned with the fragmentation of civilization, even though I knew that my past, my blood, and even my ancestors might not have much to do with this place.

"Gao Lan, what do you want to do if there is no war?"

Daniel stood in front of me the day I lost control. He was as cold and calm as ever, and the ribbon bird circled around me, channeling my overwhelmed spirit.I don't know if he asks me to divert my attention or what, my leg is numb, I can't tell at that moment whether I don't care if this leg can stay with me for the rest of my life, I don't say a word He looked at Daniel dumbly.

"Your leg is fine."

When I heard him say this, I suddenly realized that I didn't care about this leg anymore. The long and tragic war drained away my hope for life, leaving only fatigue in my body. I am here day after day, day after day. Death after day.

The gauze on my head blocked my sight a bit, but it didn't take the despair out of my sight. This hospital full of wounded patients was full of struggle and fatigue at first glance. I held my breath and wanted to hear other voices, but only Wailing, such a place is barely breathing, such a place is not enough for me to dream about the future, my eyes fall on the white wall, my fantasy speaks out in this exhausting moment.

"Write prose and poetry, or write a play when I'm lazy, and invite my relatives and friends to have a picnic..."

I struggled and pointed to the empty, dead white wall on which poor fantasies blossomed.

"Flowers bloom from this hillside to that hillside... I sit there, in soft clothes, enjoying the cool wind, and my brother's child may be born, and his wife walks with him, His child came from the sea of ​​flowers over there. He may want to learn architecture like my brother once did, or he may have other dreams. There is a beautiful lake under the mountain, the wind and sunshine are just right, and my friend drives a car. Waving to me, we laughed and cheered and left."

The illusion was so distorted and gorgeous that the white wall couldn't hold it. Our car galloped out of the white wall and flew to despair. My hand fell back on the bed, and the wall faded silently.

"We are like free men."

In February of the year after I went to the front, the war situation improved. New anti-aircraft guns were put into the war. To a certain extent, we maintained air supremacy. During this period, the supply of supplies in Tan City, where Qiangju was located, improved slightly, and the reserve army was moving to Tan Marching into the city, the headquarters ordered to launch an attack from the rear and two wings on the main traffic line occupied by the enemy, quickly break through the bottleneck and join the defenders of Yuantan City at the ferry.Like countless days and nights, hope and despair are mixed.Contrary to the assumption, the reserve army stagnated after advancing hard. The weather in Tan City gradually warmed up, and the lifeline opened up during the war was in jeopardy. The siege of the division, soon after the photos and names of the traitors occupied all the reports and media, the hope of the besieged people in Tan City was once again cut off, during this period the suicide rate of the remaining troops and citizens rose, I dare not guess what Qiang Ju was thinking at that time What, what I dare not speculate even more is whether Qiangju is still alive?

Large-scale aliens attacked the area where I was located, and the citizens in my area were on the verge of collapse. Everyone was afraid that the bad luck of the second siege of Tan City would befall them. Order disappeared during this period. On the second day, unemployed people roamed the streets. On the sixth day, vicious incidents such as burning, killing, looting and so on emerged one after another. The troops patrolled the city with guns to maintain order. The people who could not leave the area became increasingly desperate. On the tenth day, the troops We have to take the method of eliminating extremists to ensure law and order.

The enemy destroyed the information security of the media, the traitor's speech was played on the light screen, and the face of the disgusting traitor was above the city. He incited and bewitched people. During this period, the people in the area where I was located were more difficult than ever Guess, people will quietly turn traitors and attack you when you are unsuspecting.

The following month, the Eastern Battlefield sent troops to delay the enemy's reserve army and buy enough time for our side to deploy fortifications. The troops launched an ambush to the highway hub as planned, but the enemy's reserve army did not occupy the highway hub, but moved secretly to the rear, leaving only The communication device that continuously issued meaningless commands interfered with the line of sight of the troops, and the enemy's reserve army was approaching.

At this most chaotic moment, I still remember that at six o'clock in the morning, the army lined up for martial law in the urban area. The car of the Supreme Commander came into view at the moment when the sun was about to rise. He saluted the soldiers calmly and solemnly, as we all know This is an extremely dangerous moment. The area we are in is very likely to be within the range of the enemy. For 15 minutes that day, my spirit was in a state of extremely tormenting high tension.

The vehicle stopped, and the commander saluted the landmark building in the east. The flag of the Union Zone was raised high above the collapsed ruins, the people cheered, and the sun rose.

September of that year is also a day that I remember deeply. The enemy stopped the air raids and the siren sound in the city stopped on this day.A soldier threw a cigarette and lighter as he passed Daniel.

"Daniel, yesterday was your birthday, right? Happy birthday."

The soldier patted Daniel on the shoulder and left. I saw Daniel’s slightly hesitant expression holding the lighter. At that moment, I suddenly wondered, could it be that Daniel’s concept of time was also blurred by this round-the-clock war?Thinking of this, I smiled and shook my head.

"No air raids today," I said to Daniel, "a nice belated birthday present."

The ribbon bird appeared on Daniel's shoulder. Daniel held the lighter without saying a word. His expression was as calm as ever, and his eyes were calm and deep.

Suddenly a cluster of flames lit up, and Daniel watched the flames quietly, he was still so unpredictable.

"Happy birthday."

I didn't expect Daniel to answer me anything.

"Happy birthday." Daniel said.

Just when I was about to say something, Daniel continued without moving with that calm expression.

"Happy birthday, Mr. Little."

memoirs of daniel

The late autumn when the war entered the later stage is the day I remember most.

The Supreme Command decided to open a breakthrough line in the bottleneck area between Tan City and the opposite bank. The newly added reinforcements and the original Tan City Army will launch an attack on the periphery and interior of the city. The strong attack launched for nearly two months was unsuccessful. It started to work, the two armies advanced slowly, and the success or failure of the siege was during this period. I went to the besieged Tan City with the reinforcements. Qiang Ju and I had never seen each other during this period. When I was in the middle of the day and night, I briefly hoped that maybe Qiangju was only two kilometers away, or maybe it was gone.

The enemy army defended the communication line in the middle area and did not retreat. We must successfully meet up before the arrival of enemy reinforcements. The defenders on the other side were beyond our imagination. On the night of January 21 of this year, Qiangju and I were in We met in the abandoned corridor, there was no Qiangju this year, there was no miracle, the [-]-year-old Qiangju met me in a blood-stained combat uniform.

Just like when we first met, we met in a not-so-good place in this world, but this time it was him who came to save me.

He opened the medical device on my chest and replaced the device on his chest. His mental data was abnormally chaotic. I have never seen any sentinel whose mental data was so chaotic, but he was in that day. The voice is so calm.

"Soldier number T411 is located in the southeast corner of the ruins. You need to ensure that his mental data is stable."

This was the last sentence he said to me that day. I smelled an unusual message, which also confirmed my guess that some soldiers received documents different from ours at the beginning of the war.

His medical device worked inside my battle suit, as if his heart beat inside my shell, and I stuck to the rules of the day that all guides must follow.

The guide must remain calm at all times until death.

On January 660 of this year, Tan City announced that the [-]-day siege was lifted, and the counterattack in the east began. I and the troops deployed fortifications along the communication line, but on this day, Qiangju was in the hospital.

Memoirs of Qiang Tangerine

Value choice

This is the most memorable thing among all the things Guan Cangming taught me.

It is also one of the most profound things I learned in the war.

The year before I went to the front line, I met Professor Li in a closed conference room, and I knew that she was the most respected person in Zhou Ming's life.In mid-October, I and other conversion agent victims listened to Professor Li's speech. To be honest, I was not that surprised by Zhou Ming's plan.

There are more than [-] victims of conversion agents in the same group as me, and more than [-] survivors. Zhou Ming knew that he would commit a heinous crime. He thinks the best way to make up for it is to transform us into a war machine that can resonate with aliens. We still cannot escape the fate of being a knife, but Zhou Ming sent it to the best knife holder.

Before the plan was fully implemented, Zhou Ming died. Before Zhou Ming died, Professor Li received Zhou Ming's information. After that, Professor Li went to the front line and conducted research in the front-line research institute for more than ten years. During this period, some victims agreed to the experimental plan, and the first war machines capable of resonating with aliens were born during this period.

"So I am a sentinel and a guide. Zhou Ming needs a war machine that can reversely interfere with aliens."

I asked Professor Li calmly, and a boy next to me suddenly rushed up. He was stopped and yelled at Professor Li like crazy, "Do you know what the fuck you're talking about?! He took away my whole life! Everything I am a product that my mother did not want to give birth to! I was an experimental product in his laboratory for the first half of my life! After he died, he wanted me to be a tool for him to clear his name! Ha! Want me to die for him with honor?! Let I can't choose to live and die for this damn joint district! His name will be in the media for many years! And me?! Me! Is this what you think is justice and honor?! Victim Do you not deserve to be given human rights! You shameless bastards! Sanctimonious bastards! He ruined my whole life! Do you fucking understand?! My whole life!"

I quietly watched the chaotic and out-of-control scene and suddenly felt tired.

I hated Zhou Ming, I had pity on him, but I hated him that way, the same way I hated Lu Chan, Yu Qiping and other people who have not yet suffered retribution, the hatred penetrated into my bones and heart.

But when I sat here today, I was very tired and sober. I thought maybe this is fate. My life can no longer enter a normal track. Accepting this fate, I told Professor Li that I needed a little time. I waited for my parents and Daniel with pitiful hopes, but I was actually ready to sign, so I cooperated with all the next steps. Plan relevant human experiments.

When I walked up to the rooftop that day, Gao Lan looked solemn, but his elder brother seemed to have continued on him after his death. For a moment, I could see his elder brother's shadow when I looked at his back.

"Qiang Ju, I'm going to apply to go to the front line."

He walked out of the shadow of death, he grew up suddenly, he grew up so fast, he was already an adult in front of me.I reached out and patted his head to say goodbye to the childish Gao Lan in the past. I also said goodbye to the current Gao Lan wordlessly. He was taken aback for a moment and then cried. Maybe he realized instinctively that I was saying goodbye to Gao Lan. He said goodbye.

You have to come back alive.

I smiled at him thinking.

So perhaps unlike most soldiers who went to the front line, I didn’t have too many illusions about survival in the early days of going to the front line. We were distributed on different battlefields, and the instructions required us to locate the existence of the guide in the alien. I was in the early days of the war. In the mid-term, I never felt where the so-called alien wizard existed. Many times I began to question its authenticity, and when my mental data began to be abnormal in the late stage of the war, I suddenly understood that it was getting closer and closer to me, death It is also closer to me, and my last step is coming.

I lost nostalgia for the past, every day in the latter part of the war I lost the ability to imagine the future, I no longer dreamed of a future where I could walk on the hillside with Daniel and walk among the irises, the rare kindness of God to me Finally, I met the wounded Daniel in a confined space on January [-], late in the war. All three of his medical devices were paralyzed, and I still had two medical devices on my chest that were barely functioning.

I made a value choice in this moment

I think daniel shelley's life is worth more than mine

I choose to let him live

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I recalled it carefully for a long time later, maybe Daniel was not as calm as I imagined.After Tanshi was completely rescued, Daniel always had a ribbon bird on his shoulder. He stood outside the transparent ambulance room and watched the dying Qiangju with me.Qiang Ju and other soldiers undergoing human experiments were isolated separately. On January [-]th, Qiang Ju and other soldiers undergoing body modification successfully sensed the location of the alien guide. Qiang Ju's mental pollution caused him to lose control at the same time as Blessing. Tachibana was found with a steel pipe running through his body, and Blessing deflected his heart and impaled him.

I thought I would go crazy but I didn't. On the contrary, a strange calm oppressed me. Whether it was the day I learned that Qiangju was going to die or now, I was in a strange calm day and night.When I realized that this calmness was too abnormal, Daniel's mental body suddenly rampaged in the space, and my grief and collapse broke out at that moment, and I realized that Daniel's mental body was mentally suppressing me.

"Quickly stop your mental body!"

Someone shouted!I turned my head and saw Daniel standing there calmly, motionless, with deep eyes, and the buttons on his clothes were wrong.

"But I can protect you..."

Daniel walked slowly regardless of the commotion around him, murmuring softly as if he was locked in another space.

"If I can't give you anything more, at least cut everything I have in half and I will protect you..."

He paused at this moment, opened his eyes wide,

A military doctor screamed and took several steps back. The terrible mental pollution caused my mental body to lose control. Daniel walked slowly. He looked at the wall, the ceiling, and the glass, as if he was looking for something. Finally, he suddenly looked back at me suspiciously.

"Sequence S020604 Qiangju execution?"

At that moment I finally realized that he was crazy.