living sacrifice

For a while, I regarded serving God as a heavy burden, because I always thought of the years with Sister Zhao, and felt that it was not worth it.

At that time, I really spent a long time studying theology in order to prepare for catechism classes and preaching.But in the end, I found that these things are worthless before God.

When I was hindered by God, I realized a truth: Should soldiers not obey orders?Which soldier goes to the battlefield if he wants to?Even if the Lord has not called me, how can I be careless?

It is a pity that few people in the church today understand this simple truth.It's so important.It is only because of human problems that it is difficult to understand God’s guidance, so that there are many services in the church according to people’s wishes. The projects of grass, wood and stubble will inevitably collapse when they are subjected to fire. At that time, if a person wastes money on these projects A lot of time, isn't it worth it?

Thank and praise God, He showed me this problem so early, and although I suffered because of it, it was well worth it.About a year and a half after that incident, I slowly began to see what it was like.

On the day I quit the group, I @everyone in the group, and then I said: "I'm sorry everyone, I was ignorant before, and I rashly accepted such a service because of people's orders. Now I understand that this service is not I have the ability to do it. I also found that there are big problems in those audios. So I am very sorry, please try to forget what you have heard before, and all the audios of my sermons should not be published anymore, please delete. Today In front of everyone, please be a witness, if there is any audio in the future, it has nothing to do with me. This crime does not belong to me."

I thought it was all right, but what happened later I never expected.

I found out that Sister Zhao and their church had opened a public account, and even secretly put my audio on it again.

I was so angry that I couldn't sleep. I asked the person in charge of the official account why she put the audio on the Internet again. She said that it might be an accidental operation in the background.I endured my temper and asked her to delete it, and then deleted it.

But after a period of time, these audios appeared strangely again, which blew me away!

It happened that Sister Zhao came to see me again, and she wanted me to go back to her church.

I was already very upset with her in my heart, we didn't solve the problem last time, but at this juncture, they actually came up with such a moth again, which made me wonder if she did it on purpose.

Of course, I now know that my suspicions were unfounded, but the way things are, I feel there must be a human element and an enemy element behind it.I don't know the exact origin, only God knows.

I told her sternly: "I won't go back, the Lord has found a new church for me. I will take this opportunity to make it clear to you, I don't think Qian Junru is qualified to stand on the podium, Sun Brother is not qualified to be a church elder, and you are guilty of putting them in inappropriate positions. Let me ask you again, why did my audio appear in the official account again? It has been deleted before."

Sister Zhao said to me: "What official account? I don't know?"

The official account was opened with her ID card, and I was there at the time.The specific operation is performed by the person possessed by the ghost, which I think is simply crazy.How could God accept a demon-possessed person to serve Him?You should help him cast out ghosts first!

I was preparing to go to work at the time, and I didn’t have time to entangle her. I reorganized the problems in her church from the beginning to the end, and then sent them all to her, and then ignored her.

I sent a private message to the person in charge again and asked her to delete it, and she promised me that she would not post it again in the future.I didn't see those audios again after that.But I also opened a public account and tried it myself. I think there is no way to make these audios reproduce strangely according to the method she said.

Later, I questioned her again, and she told me vaguely: "Maybe my son was reluctant to delete it when he was operating it. He always thought the audio was pretty good."

I don't want to deal with these people anymore, I don't know who is lying, or maybe I misunderstood them, but I don't want to entangle with them anymore.Similarly, with the help of the leaders of the new church, I deleted the WeChat accounts of several leaders among them.

I want to make a good connection with the new church, but I have spent much longer with them than Youyan.

I can’t tell now what kind of mentality I was at that time. I felt that I couldn’t adjust myself, it was difficult to devote myself to worship, and I felt like a stranger sitting in the church.I have done all the rituals that should be done, but I can't find any connection with God.After watching this for almost half a year, I feel that my spiritual life has stagnated.

Later, a leading brother couldn't take it anymore, and he came to me for questioning. Of course, I knew he was worried.

We sat in the same room with You Yan, closed the door, and he started asking me about the situation in the previous church.

I told him about the chaos among them, and he thought for a while and said, "I don't have much contact with the Charismatics, but I heard that they are really chaotic, with all kinds of things. Our church will not go this way. way."

His words to me comforted my heart deeply.

I told him about the weird things I found in me, including those weird extreme charismatic Christians I met before, and that Satanist.

After hearing this, the brother frowned and said to me seriously: "You probably don't know that you are being targeted by the enemy. I suggest you stop contacting them. They were sent by the enemy to disturb you. You didn't There is no way to pull them to the right path, but you will be dragged away from the right path by them in various ways.”

I don't know if what he said is right or not, but I did follow what he said. I deleted the person who prophesied to me, the person who taught Satan, and then hesitated about the name of Sister Zhao, and finally Also deleted.It wasn't until I finished these things that my life began to gradually become more peaceful.

I asked him, "If there is something wrong with the person who baptized me, should I be baptized a second time?"

In fact, I have an answer in my heart, but I don’t know if my answer comes from God. For such a serious question, I still need a witness to help me understand that the answer is given to me by the Holy Spirit.Of course, I checked the testimony of many people before, especially the testimony of Wang Mingdao's second baptism. I still feel guilty.

The brother is confident: "When the Lord Jesus went to the cross, the robber next to him had no chance to be baptized. It can be seen that if there are conditions, of course he must be baptized. If there are no conditions, there is no need to stick to it. The most important thing is to have correct faith, because truly baptizing people It was actually the Lord Jesus who baptized people with the Holy Spirit."

I didn't say anything more about this answer, because it was exactly what I thought.

He said to me: "I will give you four suggestions: the first is to participate in weekly worship, the second is to participate in study, the third is to participate in service, and the fourth is to connect with the church."

After the brother finished speaking, I laughed, but I didn't agree.

There was no big reason, but I was upset and didn't want to go.I feel like I've put in so much effort and done it for nothing, and now I don't feel like doing it, there's nothing wrong with being free.

You Yan is right. I have suffered a lot from Sister Zhao and the others, not only because they sold me services that I am not capable of doing, but also because I can’t see what they did to me afterwards. to a little goodness in it.

I wanted to get back to my original passion, but I couldn't. I knew that I couldn't return to a normal state by myself, so I kept praying to the Lord.

Strangely, the more I prayed, the worse my situation became.

It seemed that the environment was slowly getting worse, and when I needed it the most, the environment around me collapsed little by little. This simply made me wonder if I had been abandoned by God.That state is really bad.

The first thing to crash was my salary.

When I first joined the newspaper office, my salary was 6000 yuan, but later because the department was dismantled, it suddenly became [-] yuan. This is totally unacceptable to me.

If it was before, I would have nothing to do with these things. I was just a laborer, what could I do?

But it's different now, I have the God who created the world to back me up.Isn't it popular to spell the background in this era?In terms of background, no one has a stronger background than me.But the problem is, I know that I have offended God, and our relationship has deteriorated.

But the sharp drop in wages still offended me, and I prayed to the Lord, "Lord, they are deceiving people too much. Of course I know that I am just a sojourner in this world, but I work very hard. At least I should be paid what I deserve." .Lord, why do you let these people withhold my wages? Why why?"

I complained for a long time, and then I forced myself not to get angry.However, it is the nature of a sinner to blame others. My nature has been exposed. I don't know it yet. I want to suppress it by myself, but of course it fails.

I didn’t think too much about it, and I vented my anger before the Lord, thinking it would be good.

Unexpectedly, things changed dramatically because of this prayer.

One day, after I got home, I got a call.The person on the phone said, "Go to the president's office tomorrow."

"Huh? President? What does he want from me?"

"I don't know that."

It's inconceivable to me how a small proofreading by me can alarm the president.I was very nervous at home and said to my mother: "What if I make a major mistake, or the leader thinks I am not competent and wants to fire me? It will be very difficult to find a job at my age."

My mother comforted me: "You don't have to think too much, go and have a look tomorrow, maybe it's a good thing?"

When I got to the door of the president's office, I really didn't want to go in when I saw the door, but I knocked on the door anyway.I was very embarrassed when I stepped on the floor and made a "squeaky" sound.

The president saw me and said, "Please sit down."

Although I saw a smile on his face, I still sat half of my buttocks trembling.The arrogance of "I am the daughter of Jehovah" in my heart before was thrown into the sky, and I became the obedient person I was before.

The president took a puff of his cigarette, and then exhaled a long puff of smoke.He said to me: "I saw you in the corridor two days ago, and suddenly remembered, you graduated from University C, why are you always satisfied with just doing a proofreading? Can you tell me what you think?"

"Huh?" I was a little taken aback because I didn't expect him to ask this question, so I thought for a while and said, "Because I like it."

"Haven't you thought about trying another job?"

"I think proofreading is pretty good."

"I think you should break through yourself and try other jobs. I think it's a pity that a graduate of C University came to our newspaper to do a proofreading."

"well enough……"

"Our newspaper office has a job rotation system, which hasn't been implemented for a long time. I think it starts with you, and you should think about it when you go back. Young people should not be so afraid to fight like us old people. It just so happens that the editor-in-chief runs a As a news director, you can try it if you want, of course, this is still based on your personal wishes, we will not force it."