living sacrifice

When I entered that church, I examined them with a proof-reading attitude. I recorded everything they said and did like a driving recorder.

But after all, this is the church God Himself brought me to, and I have great hopes for them.

What kind of church will God lead me to?I think this church may have a very solemn atmosphere, and maybe it will give me a sense of belonging from the first time I step in.I very much hope that the brothers and sisters here will have a harmonious relationship, and that they will understand the true way, so that they will not be like what happened in the last church.In short, because God leads the way, I am looking forward to it, but when I walk into the church and see it for myself, I will inevitably be a little disappointed.

All the women in the church covered their heads with black cloths, and they prayed in groups of three or two.

Unlike my original church, the people here have no special concern for strangers, they just bow their heads and do things to worship God.

I sat there for a while, when a young man came up to me, handed me a card and asked me to fill in the newcomer information.Inside the column of personal information impressively read: "marital status."I'm so sick of it, it's very troublesome that these people ask me for my mobile phone number and home address without knowing the situation. I don't remember whether I filled in the real information at the time.

After I filled out the form, a young man came up to me and said, "Sister, this is for brothers. You should sit on the left. Is this your first time at our church? There are Bibles and hymn books. ?"

"I brought the Bible, but not the hymn book."

"Then this book of poetry is for you."

"thank God."

It makes me feel so strange here, their seats are divided into left and right, unlike the first time I went to Qian Junru's house, her house has birds and dogs, and I can go to play with pets when I am bored.But this church looks too serious to even have any fun decorations.

However, their podium is very formal, and the piano and speakers on the right side of the podium are very formal.

There is a row of small bookcases on the wall, which contain large and small Bibles and hymns.

I think it should be that I am too unfamiliar with the environment, looking around, there is no familiar face, not even a fun gadget, I can't help but feel a little lost.

During the break, You Yan actually found someone she knew here, and she excitedly said to me: "Lin Xiao, this is sister XX, I met at Elder Huang's before."

I don't remember who Elder Huang is. You Yan has been to too many churches.I greeted that person very politely and unfamiliarly. In the eyes of that person, I appeared as "You Yan's younger sister".

"Sister, I'm so happy. I recognized you just after hearing your prayer!" The sister excitedly held You Yan's hands.She also came to shake my hand.

For a person with social phobia, nothing makes him more restless than a strange church. If it is not because of the different foundation of belief, I would not easily leave a place and come to a new place.For me, getting to know a whole bunch of new people is literally killing me.

During the sermon, I found a little consolation, and listened to the whole sermon with apprehension and trepidation, and I could find no fault.I thanked God in my heart: Lord, thank you, you really listened to my prayer and found me a church that is good only at preaching and nothing else.

How ridiculous I was at that time, bringing hostility from one church and bringing it into the new church, and facing these people who were redeemed by the precious blood of Jesus Christ with such an unjust heart.

I knew I was absolutely wrong, but I couldn’t control my emotions at all. This was sin. It was activated in me, and I was powerless to resist it. At that time, I didn’t understand the correct way to resist sin.

I feel like I need God's help, I really do.

After the sermon, the leader introduces the new brothers and sisters.

When he asked about me, he asked me if I was going to stay here, I thought about it, and answered him: "I'll come here first to have a look."

Would it be okay for others to hear such a lukewarm answer?I don't know.

But thanks to that brother, he didn't just look down on me like this, he still greeted me warmly.

But You Yan is not the case.

Our two personalities are completely opposite.I think she was really arranged by the Lord to be next to me. Even if I travel all over the world, I'm afraid I won't be able to find such a suitable person.

You Yan first got acquainted with the children inside.

The children came with their parents, and the parents all came to the party, so they brought them together because there was no one to take care of them at home.They usually gather in a small room next to them, accompanied by a special person, and do not affect each other with us.They didn't come out to play until the big party was over.

For some reason, You Yan got acquainted with those children.After that, she quickly added WeChat to those brothers and sisters she knew before.

I was absolutely dumbfounded at her.Although we are sisters, we have nothing in common.Except that our faces are alike, and our personalities are completely opposite, I'm afraid it will be difficult to find another person in the world who is so diametrically opposed to me.

I am very envious that she can get along with people, but I still keep a distance from everyone.

Even so, You Yan still feels that she has no connection with the church, even she feels this way, let alone me, I am originally a social phobia.

Unlike the old church here, everyone gets to know each other very quickly, and I can quickly understand everyone's personality.But here, all I see are strangers. I don't know if it's because they are too indifferent, or because I am on guard against others.

It was about the third week when I went to the new church. When I finished worship and was about to leave, You Yan suddenly took my hand and said, "Lin Xiao, do you feel that we have no connection with this church at all? I can't go on like this Now, I want to have a good chat with the person in charge of the church. Would you like to stay with me?"

I saw that she was about to cry, so I had no choice but to stop and leave.But I don't think things are so exaggerated, I think I'm fine by myself.

You Yan pulled a brother and asked him if he was in charge.The brother was tall and handsome, and said with a kind smile, "I'm a co-worker here, not the person in charge. But you can contact me if you have any questions."

"Great, I have a problem, I have a big problem, can I talk to you? Lin Xiao and I, the two of us, both of us have problems..." At this point, You Yan suddenly frowned Weeping.

That brother is still young, where has he seen such a battle?At that time, he arranged a place for You Yan and me with a serious face, and asked us to sit down. He comforted us to wait for a while, and then go to his wife.

The brother was still very calm at this time. He didn't have anyone to serve us, but he called his wife. Thank you and praise the Lord.

At that time, You Yan was actually in a better situation than me. She was born with a lively personality, and she used to be a kindergarten teacher, and soon got along with the children in the church.As for me, I am really a loner. Before I believed in the Lord, I liked to be alone. Once I got used to it, it was difficult to adapt in the church.

Some of those children knew her, and they came to us curiously to watch.

The brother and his wife returned soon.

You Yan said: "I have come here several times, but my life is not connected with your life at all. We have come several times, but no one has answered us. How can this work? I need the help of the church. I Really need the help of the church..."

How can others understand You Yan sobbing and incoherent?So the brother said, "Don't worry, speak slowly."

"My original church, I was hurt a lot there, and Lin Xiao was also hurt a lot. We used to serve there, but now we have left and come to you. I have no way to talk to you. Connect, do you understand?"

The brother looked at me innocently.

I can only briefly explain to him: "Do you know Jiang Xiuqin?"

"heard about it."

"What do you think of her?" I blocked him.

He said: "I heard that many people do not agree with her way, I am not very familiar with her."

Even such an answer reassures me, is it much better than "I'll give Jiang Xiuqin a guarantee"?I told him: "In our original church, the leaders there listened to Jiang Xiuqin's teachings. We only discovered this recently..."

I told him in general terms what happened among us, including how I got in touch with that sister, and then I said, "The Lord led me this way, so we came here. This is our situation, But I don't know what You Yan wants to ask you today."

You Yan wiped away her tears, and hurriedly interjected: "I just want to ask, who can I turn to when I have a problem in the future, who can help me pray for me in the church? Which person in charge should I contact?"

"Where do you live?" said the brother.

"It's near here."

"Then you belong to our group. Don't worry, come to me if you have any questions in the future, and I will pray for you."

"Thank you, brother!" You Yan immediately took out her phone, seeing her posture, she was about to cry again if she didn't add friends.

One of the children saw that You Yan was crying all the time, and I was sitting next to her calmly, and he saw that the brother and her wife were like middlemen, so he began to think about what happened to us.

In the end, he probably suspected that I was bullying You Yan, and You Yan asked the person in charge to complain, so the child turned his eyes, rushed over, patted me with his soft little hand, and said, "You Bad guy!"

I froze for a while before realizing why he suddenly rushed over to hit me. I thought he was funny and had a sense of justice. This kid left a deep impression on me.