living sacrifice

What's going on with You Yan?

Let's put this aside.Even now, I don't know her very well, but things are much better than before.The brothers have given me a lot of examples and help.I speak of the brethren of the new church.

The sister I asked for help messaged me back a few days later: "There is a church on XX Road. I will give you their contact information. Would you like to go and have a look?"

When I saw the address, tears welled up in my eyes. This church is just three stops away from my home.The Lord actually arranged for me a church so close to my home!

In my heart, I felt that this place was given by the Lord. I asked two people to introduce the sister to me, and then the place that the sister introduced to me was so close.I rarely remember street names, but this place is familiar to me.

I am very grateful: "Thank the Lord! Thank you sister too!"

That sister was far away across the ocean, on the other side of the earth, but the Lord introduced me to a place that I was very familiar with and felt close to through her.

At this moment, I felt that all the distances in time and space disappeared, and we were connected by the Lord.

"Just thank the Lord." Sister Zhang sent me a smiley face.

But I really need to thank that sister, because the Lord introduced me to a church through her, which itself is an unforgettable experience.May the Lord remember her!

Later, on a special occasion, my mother asked me: "If you were to be interrogated and asked where you found this church, what would you say?"

I laughed, and I said, "It's very simple, God helped me find the church."

"People won't believe you when you say that."

"But it is what it is."

My last church hurt me too much. My main hurt was that I trusted these people so much and was willing to associate with them sincerely, but in the end I found out that these people were so bad.

At that time, I was heartbroken after making those three phone calls, as sad as being hurt by Wang Xuanhuan.

So that for a while later, I was unwilling to bear the cross, and I refused the request of the Holy Spirit (thinking about it now, after the phone call, I felt that I should talk to them face to face, but I personally felt that seeing them I was disgusted, so I rejected the idea at the time), I didn’t want to have a clear discussion with these people in person, so I just ran away.

I should not have escaped like this, I should have bravely taken up my cross and followed the Lord.

It is a pity that I took the best way, which stumbled me and did no good to others.

While blaming people, I blamed God at the same time. I said, "Lord, why did you put me in such a church? I'm just a newly saved person. Why did you give me such a big test?"

However, the truth is that I did something wrong myself.Looking back now, in fact, my biggest mistake at that time was that I didn’t listen to the teaching of the Holy Spirit anymore. I didn’t explain my mistakes to each of them face to face. Instead, I left the church with resentment, leaving a lot of damage to the enemy. mouth.

What I said may have been right, but I did not speak it with the right spirit.I felt great fear and loathing in my spirit. This was not from God, but the enemy influenced me through each of their illnesses and through my sin, and I was deceived into sin.

So what was the spirit that reminded me that Brother Sun and Sister Zhao were heretics, and told me to be a watchman and expose their sins in front of the whole church?I really dare not talk nonsense.Maybe it's better to save some things and wait until we return to heaven.

But I judged people indiscriminately, and I didn’t speak the truth out of love. These are obviously contrary to God’s teachings.I also paid a lot for this.

When I first entered this church, I took a wait-and-see attitude towards them.It just so happened that the person who joined me in this church also had a relatively cold personality, and she didn't come to urge me, and I didn't come to urge her either.

I listened to sermons, read the Bible, and prayed alone at home without any fellowship. At that time, I thought I was in a good condition. I was proud of hearing many sermons, but I gradually forgot about the Lord.

But the facts will not accompany me to deceive myself. I feel that my relationship with the Lord is not as close as before.

This made me very anxious, and I looked around like a headless chicken for a reason.People who have never been with the Lord have no way to understand that kind of grievance. The one you love suddenly disappears, and it may be because of your own sin. How can this not cause people pain?

Sometimes I would think of Sister Zhao's words, "You really think this is a stronghold of evil spirits", and I hated her very much.

The presence of the Lord really gave people great strength and light, but when sin covered God’s light, my soul fell into a dark situation again.I am very sensitive to the theological debate of "whether once saved or not saved for life?" What I want to know is whether the Lord has given up on me, or He just taught me because of one of my mistakes. There is an essential difference between the two. .

The enemy never misses an opportunity.Opportunities like these were exactly what he was looking for.

While threatening me spiritually, he took every opportunity to weaken me.

When I donated blood, I was weak for almost a week. At that time, I began to doubt a word: donating blood is not harmful to the body.I think this body is probably limited to the body part and does not include the soul.I donate blood out of good intentions, but if this kindness is not from God, it will not do anyone any good except hurt myself.

There is actually a little tidbit about donating blood.

Later, I was very curious about who my blood was dedicated to, so I prayed to the Lord, and then one day I suddenly received a phone call during work, and the person called to ask about the submission of the manuscript.I rejected him on the phone, saying that we no longer accept submissions here.He later said he had sent a new letter with a courier fee.I said I couldn't charge him the courier fee, so I returned the money and all the original submissions to him.

I thought this matter was over like this, but later because I left my mobile phone during the express delivery, the person sent me a text message very enthusiastically, saying that the express delivery was received, and said a lot of things.Later, when I was very impatient, he suddenly told me: "I recently had a blood transfusion due to illness. I think I probably received blood from a literati. Recently, I always want to write and publish. I have already contributed to China xx Library... ..."

After reading this text message, I really couldn’t laugh or cry. I thought maybe God heard my prayer and sent him to tell me.I don't think it's worth sacrificing myself just to get this result.From now on, except for what God told me to do, I no longer believe in my own kindness and what others think is kindness.

Since I left the church, other than spiritual accusations, unsaved threats, being forced to donate blood to weaken my strength, and using games and short videos to attract my attention, the enemy has tried to attack me in the same way, but this The matter was later used by God to train me.This happened at work, and I will talk about it in detail later.

In order to torture me, the other party really did everything they could.Only then did I think of the words in the Bible, and I realized that there is no boasting in God’s words, but truth-telling.

All those who believe in the Lord are those who have passed from darkness to light, but the enemy will not let us go so easily.We do not triumph in ourselves, but triumph over the enemy in the Lord.

The enemy’s persecution is real, but the Lord’s salvation is even more real, but do we have faith in ourselves?Do we have the heart to wait patiently?Do we forsake the true way and surrender to the enemy because of the enemy’s persecution?This is absolutely impossible!

I will wait and endure until the day when the Lord returns!All will see him return on a cloud to judge the whole earth.

I need the church, I need brothers and sisters.

That day, You Yan asked me: "The epidemic is not serious recently, and I see that gatherings have started in some places. What should we do? Do you have a church?"

I felt very troublesome in my heart, I knew that there must be no good things where You Yan was, and I was really worried about her religious status, but I couldn't lie to others, and I couldn't leave my sister alone.I can only tell her: "Yes."

"Then why didn't you tell me earlier? Which church are you in? Do you have their contact information? Lin Xiao, this time we both have to keep our eyes open and see clearly, don't be like last time again. We have to pray hard .”

"I know, but I don't think there is any problem with this church, because the Lord brought me here after praying."

"Then you have to pray hard! What if you find out that they are led by the blind after you go in? Do you want to meet another blind man like Zhao Moumou?"

"Then I will definitely check them out."

"It is necessary. You give me their contact information, and I will talk to their contacts first."

Hey, I really don't want to give it to her!But there is no choice.I gave her the sister's contact information, and said to the sister: "The one who just added you as a friend is my sister. She has been to a heretical church before, and her spirit is very confused. If she said something wrong If it sounds nice, don't be influenced by her."

"Okay. What about your sister? Is she single?"

Maybe the speaker has no intention and the listener has the heart. As a divorced person, I sound particularly harsh on these issues of being single or not.Fortunately, she said another sentence at this time: "Your sister added me, I will contact her directly."

An hour passed, and You Yan called me angrily: "This sister is very problematic! I don't suggest you to contact them again!"

"what happened again?"

"I just added her as a friend, and she asked me if I was single. Why did you ask such a private question? What premeditation did she have?"

"I also find it very strange, but maybe we think too much, and people may just ask."

"Then why didn't she ask something else? Why didn't she ask me about my faith? Why did she ask these personal questions? What does it have to do with her? She also asked me if I would commit myself to the church. I don't even know her yet. Commitment to what commitment?"

"I hate hearing the word committed church too." I frowned, thinking of the pastor I met in church.

You Yan said again: "Besides, she still doesn't let me worship God with you. She wants to separate us."

"Why?"

"She asked if you were single and I said she was single now, and then she suggested you go to the afternoon party, she said because the morning party is mainly for people with families. So why should I attend the morning party? It's not a breakup Us? Lin Xiao, there is a problem here!"

I'm almost bored to death by her!Miss!What kind of church you found by yourself has screwed me over!Now I finally prayed and came to a church without even looking at it. You help me say that they have problems, and you expect me to take care of you?

I said annoyedly: "Then why did she ask if we are single, because they divide the church into morning and afternoon, the morning is for families, and the afternoon is for singles, so you have to ask clearly, otherwise how will they arrange for us?"

You Yan was dumbfounded for a long time and said: "Yeah... I didn't think of it."

"Anyway, let's go and have a look."