living sacrifice

Is it possible for God to exist?

I feel like I'm going crazy, I'm a college student, highly educated, how can I even start thinking about something like this seriously?However, all kinds of things that happened to me can no longer be answered by atheism, because I clearly see that a very strange retribution happened to me. This is not something without intelligence or logic, but a An intellect beyond mine was showing me in a strange but straightforward way that he was in control.

You Yan has been trying to convince me: "Lin Xiao, you have to believe. If you believe, you will have experience."

I don’t think her logic can convince me at all. If I just believe it without checking anything, then I think this kind of blind belief will lead to many blind conclusions, and then I will attribute everything I have to God.

However, the first thing I need to determine is whether there is a God. Another very important thing is whether Jesus was resurrected from the dead. This is the deepest impression in my mind of what my grandfather said.

I have been receiving education in school before, until this day I discovered that if the entire universe is interpreted according to the two labels of "God" and "Godless", two completely different value systems will emerge, from the formation of the universe to life. Meaning, the future of man, the future of the world, the value of human life, the source of every discipline that exists in the world, etc., under the label of "there is God", there is a very reasonable and systematic system, and it is not me It is so "mythical" in the imagination.

For this problem, I fought with myself for two months.In the past two months, I have divided all the collected materials into two groups of "theism" and "atheism", trying to find the most logical answer. I want to understand what is behind these things that have happened to me in the past two years. What logic.

When I started to struggle with this problem, I found that my brain started to run very fast. This is something I have never done before. My thinking is like flying an airplane. Almost all the things in the book have been mobilized, and there are even a lot of knowledge that I learned in junior high school. .

I know very well that there are two completely different voices fighting in my head, some ideas may not even be mine, maybe after sleeping, a very evil idea pops up suddenly, and puts what I did the day before. All conclusions are overturned.It's exhausting me, I've never been this tired.

It was because of this clue that I checked that my thoughts were not completely under my control.I wasn't illogical or delirious, I don't think that's the case if someone uses "schizophrenia" to explain it, it's just that there were two completely different voices fighting for my brain and the battle was fierce.

I clearly know that I have a very clear mind, which is clearer than my logical thinking during the college entrance examination, but I also know that there are two completely different voices competing for my mind.

Atheism says: "There is no God that is invisible to the eyes. If there is a God, why doesn't He let you see it?"

Theism: "God introduced himself as a spirit, and the spirit is invisible. Being invisible does not mean that it does not exist, and people cannot see the wind, but they can feel the wind. Moreover, many people have testified that there is another world , They all call it the spirit world. A master from Taiwan said that he once had yin and yang eyes and could see ghosts, and those ghosts came to play tricks on him. Later, God asked him to go to church, and he happened to read the Gospel of Matthew Regarding the matter of Jesus casting out demons, he believes in Jesus and uses Jesus’ authority to cast out demons, and it will be fine.”

Atheism: "Aren't you delusional? Do you believe in these nonsense? How did the education you received from childhood teach you? Didn't you learn geography? The world evolved over hundreds of millions of years , how could it be like they said, only a few thousand years?"

Theism: "Someone proposed from a scientific point of view that if the great flood that destroyed the whole world recorded in the Bible is true, then the entire human world was covered by floods exceeding the height of the Himalayas for so many days, and many factors on the surface of the earth were changed. , the dating method used now must undergo a lot of revision. In addition, in fact, the beginning of the "Bible" does not detail how many years have passed since the appearance of human beings until now. The so-called thousands of years are some people's calculations, because the "Bible There is a phenomenon of skipping generations, so it is not accurate.

Furthermore, the theory of evolution is also a hypothesis, and the theory of divine creation is also a hypothesis. In fact, no one has really seen it. In the final analysis, both are hypotheses.But I am not a professional, there is no way to go deeper, and I can no longer fully trust other people's explanations.I just don't think the theistic explanation is as completely unreasonable in this respect as I think, and evolution is not as ironclad as it might seem. "

Atheism: "So you believe in the Bible? Do you believe all the myths in the Bible? Are you an idiot?"

Theism: "I'm familiar with those stories, I just didn't take them seriously. But now that I've started thinking about it, I'm not sure. In fact, I think the most important thing in the Bible is the resurrection of Jesus. If it is proved It is true, so the so-called myth may not really be a myth. Even the dead can be resurrected, why can’t other miracles exist? I think there must be a way to prove it, including the thing that the Egyptian pharaoh was cursed by God, such a big If it really happened, there must be traces in history."

Atheism: "Hehe, your basis is the "Bible", and the "Bible" was written by believers. You use the "Bible" to verify the "Bible", what authority does it have? Do you have a solid hammer other than the "Bible" ?”

Theism: "I found a discipline called "Bible" archaeology, which is serious archaeology. Did you know that the pharaoh when Moses came out of Egypt, the skull of his eldest son was found, archaeologists said This is most likely the eldest son who was killed by God recorded in the Bible at that time. There was a depression in his skull, which scientists said led to his early death. The word used in the Bible is 'killed', Think about it, of course the person who was killed had a hole in his skull! The eldest son of the Pharaoh was killed by God when he was young, which is exactly the same as recorded in the Bible. They also found the ring suspected to be the prophet Elijah, We found the records about the giant race on the Egyptian murals, the ancient civilization of Ur, and even the shroud of Jesus."

Atheism: "It's okay not to mention the shroud. It's funny to mention it. Didn't this incident refute the rumors later? It is said that it is evidence forged by believers."

Theism: "There are fake ones, and there are real ones. A group of scientists scanned the Shroud of Turin with an instrument that makes the surface of the moon appear in 3D, and later restored a three-dimensional figure. They said, this means At the moment of forming, the entire shroud must be scanned by a strong light sequence like a scanning machine, so that a flat pattern can be formed on the shroud, and can be successfully restored by 3D equipment. It is likely that Jesus was resurrected The strong light engraved his image on the shroud.

There is also another voice saying that the age of the shroud is not that of Jesus, but in the Middle Ages, so they think the shroud is a forgery.

But some people countered that because the church caught fire and the corners of the shroud were burned, the nuns had sewed the shroud, and the specimens selected for the experiment were on the patches of the shroud, so the date measured was not the age of Jesus.Waves of people who study it come and go, and everyone is always arguing, and so far there is no real conclusion. "

The research on the shroud took me a long time, but in the end it ended with an unsatisfactory ending. I remember that the actor in a movie did the same thing as me. He was a reporter. He interviewed medical scientists, psychologists, scientists, etc. in an attempt to overthrow the resurrection of Jesus and persuade his wife to leave Christianity. He believed that Jesus had taken away his wife's love for him, but later he became a Christian himself.

However, according to the conclusion of my inspection, I think it is not correct to take the path of purely scientific argumentation, because no matter from which angle you study it, you will find a very strange fact: it seems that you will come to a dead end Well, it's really very discouraging.

The reason why I think God does not want people to use logical deduction or "evidence" to verify whether Jesus was resurrected is also related to the fact that the Bible deliberately does not record the year of Jesus' birth or death.

In fact, if God wanted to leave such a record, it should be a very simple matter, but it is strange that no matter what is recorded in the Bible or archaeological records, on such an important key event, the records of the entire human race It was completely blank.

If Jesus is the true Son of God, he will be the king who will inherit the throne in the future. Why is the day of the king’s birth and resurrection deliberately not appearing in the Bible, a book that testifies to the king?

I think there was a celestial anomaly on the day of Jesus' crucifixion, and it couldn't have happened only in Jerusalem.

Later, I found a written record, which was recorded in the Eastern Han Dynasty and was written by our ancestors.

It is recorded in the historical books of the Eastern Han Dynasty: Guihai is dark, there is an eclipse every day, avoiding the main hall, sleeping soldiers, and not listening to things for five days.The imperial edict said: "My virtue is poor, causing disasters. When I see the sun and the moon, I tremble and fear. What can I say! Those who write the letter must not be holy." Xia Siyue Renwu, the edict said: "It is more wrong than yin and yang, and the sun and the moon are thin. The common people If there is one, give it to one person and forgive the world.”

This is recorded in the "Book of the Later Han Dynasty". It is said that a solar eclipse and a lunar eclipse occurred on a certain day in the Eastern Han Dynasty.Later astrologers used three words to explain the strange astronomical phenomenon at that time - the death of heaven and man.

The record here is very likely to be at the same time as the Good Friday. On the day of the Good Friday, the whole world is likely to be shrouded in darkness just like the "Bible" records.

Guihai Day refers to the last day of March in the seventh year of Emperor Guangwu's reign in the Eastern Han Dynasty A.D25-57.The Passover of Jesus' crucifixion is in March and April, and the months can roughly correspond.At that time, the capital of the Eastern Han Dynasty was in Luoyang, which had a time difference of 5 hours to the east of Jerusalem.If this astronomical phenomenon occurs from noon to 3 pm in Jerusalem, then in Luoyang, this astronomical phenomenon will be seen from 5 pm to 8 pm.This explains why the Chinese see both a solar and a lunar eclipse.It is a pity that the "Bible" does not record in detail how many years Jesus was born or how many years he died, so although the month and time can basically correspond, the year cannot be accurately located.

After researching here, I suddenly realized that if there is a God, then God may deliberately cover up the birth date of Jesus, because he really knows that later generations will calculate it like this, and use the astrology of other countries to support history, but this is not true. God wants man to walk the right path.Otherwise, why did the Bible simply mention such an important event as the birth of Jesus?This is not in line with common sense.

God even recorded the names of everyone in the clan in such detail, why didn't He record the birth of Jesus?Is this a waste of space?Of course not.Judging from other chapters, the entire "Bible" is very brief in terms of literature, but it records extremely rich things. It can be said that it records the most important things in the simplest text. If you look carefully, it is almost No detail was spared, including that King Saul regretted his crimes. When he heard the prophet Samuel pronounce the will of God to him, he regretted so much that he grabbed Samuel's robe and tore the hem off his clothes.Such details are recorded in the Bible, but the birth and death time of Jesus are not recorded, which can be seen on purpose.

I found that although sometimes I seemed to see a light, it was immediately blocked by darkness.I felt as if there was a force that didn't want me to find out the truth at all.But another force seems to deliberately hide the truth so that I won't discover it from this angle.I've exhausted myself on this path, but it seems to be wrong.I think I should do a simple prayer like You Yan said.

Just like what You Yan said, you must believe in God first, and believe that God rewards those who seek him, but I find it really difficult to have such faith. I have never done such a thing in my life, and this experience is completely blank for me. .

The voice of the opposition immediately spoke to me again: "You really are a fool. Do you believe You Yan's words? Do you still expect the air to answer your questions?"

That day I sat on the bed and thought about my life carefully, including an event that happened a year ago that lingered in my mind for a long time.I have a secret that I never dare to tell anyone.However, I remember, in my most painful and sad time, I once told God that I was wrong and asked him to forgive me.But then the incident passed, I don't remember it, and I didn't remember it until today.

I also can’t remember how many times I have prayed to God, but these prayers all have a hint of unbelief, although after thinking about it later, God seems to have answered them all.

I think I need to say my first serious prayer in life.

It was an embarrassing thing, but then I thought, no one saw me anyway, so why not try praying?Can it take a lot of effort?

I asked myself: why do you pray?

My answer is: I want to know whether God really exists. I don’t want to be confused anymore. I want to know whether it is really God who repaid me with my actions in marriage so that I can repent and believe in God. he?I have now learned that homosexuality is a crime, and I have committed a great crime.But there are many evolutionary things in me that cannot be broken. I have come to the end, and I need help.

I asked myself: If there is a God, what should I do?

My answer is: If there really is a God, I decided to completely discard all my original views. I admit that I have many sins that I may not be clear about, otherwise I would not step by step to where I am today.May God guide my future path, no matter the path is difficult or tortuous, I am willing to work hard to follow His guidance and no longer follow my own will.

I really didn’t know how to pray. At that time, I remembered the advice You Yan once gave me, so I said completely without confidence: “God, if you really exist, please reveal yourself to me, so that I can see it with my own eyes. See you, hear you with my own ears."

Then, I opened my eyes expectantly, and the room was still mine.

There is no god.

Of course I hoped that something wonderful would happen right away, even a god appeared in front of me and spoke to me radiantly, but nothing happened.It's quite disappointing, and it's expected when I think about it.