living sacrifice

They don't say "worship" here, but "worship".I don't know if this refers to the same thing.

The songs they sang are also different from the songs in churches in my impression. The songs here are more modern and easier for modern people to adapt to.In my impression, the tunes of the songs my grandfather and the others sang were particularly ugly, and the words were difficult to remember, that is to say, the chorus team sang well, not to mention how ugly the singing was for ordinary people.

The songs here are much better.There are only four sentences in a song, and it needs to be sung several times, and the whole song will be completed after listening to the first paragraph.

After we sang and sat down, Qian Junru walked to the podium alone.

After she bowed her head and prayed a few words, she suddenly looked at me and said, "Thank you Lord, in this last days, thank you Lord for gathering Your sons and daughters, and let us listen to Your words here. Lord, please bless this unworthy man before you. I ask the Lord to cleanse your daughter Qian Junru, and use me as the outlet of your words to shepherd your children. May the Lord also let the children in front of you be nourished by your words, and thank the Lord for bringing Lin Xiao Come among us. Lord, do I know that she is dear to you, that your sacrifice on the cross was for her. Lord, use me as an unworthy vessel, and may you come before her and speak to her, Save her soul. Thank and praise the Lord, in the name of the Lord Jesus, amen!"

I listened carefully to every word Qian Junru said, because I thought her tone of voice was quite strange.Listening to her, it seems that it is not she who is speaking to me, but God is speaking to me through her.

First, You Yan told me that there is a "little spirit" here, and then Qian Junru said that God would use her to speak to me, so I was curious, what would God say to me?

In fact, before I came to church, I really felt that I was self-inflicted, and that there was a very powerful force that told me to receive retribution according to what I did, but until now, I still did not admit that this force is God.It’s just that I have surrendered, I know I have sinned, I have committed a great sin, I want to repent, but I don’t know who can accept my repentance, my parents will not forgive me if they know what I have done.I really long for someone who can fully accept my repentance. It would be even better if I could live again, but I feel like I am dreaming.

I have been in excruciating pain for almost a year.I really wish there was a medicine for repentance, but I knew there wasn't one, and during that time, I made myself very hopeless.

Qian Junru is a preacher, and this identity makes her have a special aura to me. I listened very carefully to what she said to me, and she was sitting in the first row.

"Lin Xiao, I am very grateful to see you here today. You are a blessed person, you were called by the Lord at such a young age. Do you know? It is the last days, and the situation around the world is very chaotic. "Bible" "It said that there will be difficult days in the last days, and there will be wars, earthquakes, famines, and plagues everywhere. When Jesus Christ comes again, the whole world will be destroyed, and a new heaven and a new earth will descend from heaven..."

What Qian Junru said was beyond my expectation, especially the word "end of the world", which reminded me of the end of the world that we writers often write about, such as zombie siege.

I'm about to write an article on the end of the world, and I'm still thinking about using Wang Xuanhuan as a prototype to make him notorious.Suddenly I heard Qian Junru mention that "we are now in the last days", and my heart skipped a beat.

I am an author, but I myself do not have a very clear vision of the end times.In the doomsday stories I have written, there are scenes like people eating people, and there are also exaggerated settings such as biochemical mutations.But in short, a novel is just a novel. I don’t take it as true, and readers don’t take it seriously. We all know it’s just a story.

However, Qian Junru and the others don't seem to think so, they are not making a story, they are serious.They think there really is an end time, and we are already in the end time.

Thinking of those people and things I met in the past, I frowned.is that true?My grandfather believed this too.So, if the present is really the last days, is there anything written in the Bible about what will happen in the future?

I think that the "Bible" will definitely be written, but according to the common sense of the novel, most people will not believe in prophecies, so they will die.

If there really is an end-time, then whoever starts to prepare first will have a great advantage in the end-time.This is the intuition of the author of the last days, so I began to listen carefully.I listened carefully to what she said, but the material was secondary. If the end of the world is true, then I have to start preparing for the end of the world, because no one knows when the worst will come.

In all the doomsday novels, the apocalypse happens when people are unprepared, and this kind of drama works best, but in the real world, this is not the case.That would be a brutal scene.

"Now the divorce rate is getting higher and higher, and young people don't want to get married or have children, and their marriage and family are disturbed by the devil; young people are busy with work and have no time to rest, but their hearts are becoming more and more empty; why are many people addicted to the Internet, Addicted to games, novels, work, and even love, because their hearts are empty, they fill themselves with these false things, so that they can forget about eternal life; there are many rich and famous people, everyone thinks of them The goal of life, but these people themselves are very miserable, their life is empty, they don’t know what they are pursuing, so they can only use money to fill themselves, but they are not enough..."

"The whole world is not going up, but going down, more and more degenerate. The whole world is like this. Like our time, there are many things that we don't accept, such as homosexuality, but now society treats homosexuality The level of acceptance is getting higher and higher. Lin Xiao, I don’t know what you think about homosexuality, I know that many young people in society accept homosexuality.”

I don't know what's wrong with Qian Junru. He was obviously preaching to everyone, so why did he keep staring at me?And you have to ask about sensitive topics like homosexuality.

I didn't say a word, just sat there straight.I felt like I was being nailed there. Everything Qian Junru said was true, and I had seen it all.I think that as an author, I am more knowledgeable than ordinary people, but I have never looked at these things around me from the perspective of "the end of the world", and I feel that Qian Junru gave me a very clear answer.

Qian Junru stared straight at me while talking, but her eyes were soft.I know she didn't condemn me, nor did she have any malice towards me, but she seemed to see through my eyes, which made my hair stand on end.

She looked at me again, then opened the Bible and said, "So, God gave them permission to do unclean things according to the desires of their hearts, and dishonor their own bodies. They would rather believe a lie than God's truth, Honor and worship the creation not the Creator. The Creator should be praised forever. Amen. Therefore God allows them to indulge shameful prostitution. The women among them give up the normal function of the body and do perverted things, the men Also ignoring the normal functions of women's bodies, men and men covet each other, rape themselves, do obscene things, and end up taking on themselves the punishment they deserve for such depravity."

When Qian Junru read these words, my back was sweating, as if someone had been staring at me, seeing through my inner thoughts and actions, and now through Qian Junru's mouth, right I spoke.

I'm guilty of feeling like I'm sitting there naked and sweating.

It suddenly occurred to me that You Yan told me "We are all little spirits" when he entered the door. At that time, I didn't realize what was going on.But now, hearing Qian Junru suddenly mentioned the topic of homosexuality on stage, I began to wonder if they could really know my behavior in the spirit?Did they really know from God what I've done?Did they really see it?

What I did was shady. If these people knew about it, I would lose face.

I did this because I didn’t believe in God before.But what if there is a God?I couldn’t imagine myself doing such filthy things in front of God, and I immediately felt filthy.

I didn't dare to look at these people, I lowered my head and pretended to take notes.

Qian Junru said: "We are all sinners, and none of us is qualified to stand on the moral high ground and judge others. Maybe you committed this crime and I committed that crime, but in the eyes of God, we are all the same sinners." God said: There is no one righteous, not even one. Lying is the same sin as homosexuality, stealing is the same sin as murdering. Human righteousness is like a worn-out old garment that is filthy and filthy. God does not want us to use it Our own righteousness, God wants us to put off the old man and put on the new man, that is, Jesus Christ. God gives those who truly repent a new life, God forgives their sins, forgets their transgressions, and enables them to There is a chance to live again. Lin Xiao, are you willing to have that new life?"

I nodded my head twice.Her words made me find the light, and I am so happy to have a new life, but are these things true?It still needs to be tested, but I am too happy to live again, I don't want to live with guilt, and what happened with Wang Xuanhuan makes me unable to hold my head up.

Qian Junru smiled and said, "Great, Lin Xiao, I feel your time is up. Do you know that the Lord Jesus died on the cross for our sins, and He suffered so much for the sake of saving We sinners. His punishment was for our sins, and his whippings healed us. Anyone who is willing to believe in the Lord can have this new life. The Lord is willing to forgive all your sins and offenses. Lin Xiao , would you like to live again?"

Hearing that I still have a chance to start over, I felt an indescribable joy in my heart.As I laughed, tears welled up in my eyes.

In my consciousness, people who truly love me are willing to sacrifice their lives for me, but long-term experience tells me that there will be no such people, and I am wishful thinking.All people are doing it for their own benefit. They say they love you, but what they think in their heart is that you are good for him. Once the benefits are exhausted, he will not talk to you anymore. Such a person is not worth entrusting What about life?

But the moment Qian Junru spoke to me, I really felt that there was a God. This God was crucified for me. He didn’t ask me for anything, but it was all for me, completely for me.

Even though I have been denying him and nothing I have done can be called "bright", he still wants to save me.

Do I still have a chance?Can I do it all over again?Thinking of these, I feel extremely shocked inside.

I thought about my grandfather telling me that Jesus Christ was crucified and rose from the dead.I didn't believe it before, but at this moment, I had a breakthrough in emotion, reason, or other experiences I was familiar with. I couldn't describe the real presence, and he let me know one thing——It turns out that Everything is true!It turned out that my grandfather did not lie to me, Jesus Christ is really the Son of God!

I don’t know how I suddenly jumped from “God forgive me” to “Jesus Christ is resurrected from the dead” to “Jesus is the Son of God”, but at that time these thoughts seemed to pop out of my head one after another. It made me uncontrollably ecstatic.I've never been so happy in my life, it's hard to describe such pure joy.

It's as if a person originally lived in a small dark room, and suddenly the roof of his room was lifted, and the sunlight shone down directly, leaving the whole room without a trace of darkness.For that person, his eyes may not be able to adapt to the light at once, and he may still be blind, but he feels the indescribable joy of being illuminated all over his body, which comes out from every pore.

They didn't know what I was thinking, they only saw the uncontrollable joy on my face.These people have no idea why I am happy, but they are happy for me.

Qian Junru said: "The Bible says that anyone who follows the Lord must take up the cross and follow the Lord. Of course, Lin Xiao, you don't need to be afraid, because God's intention is not to make people suffer, but to experience pain. After suffering, people can receive blessings from God.”

Yes... I've been through a lot of pain, but I know now that God really is real.

Although I was forced to come to church by You Yan, if she hadn't forced me, I wouldn't have heard such wonderful words.Although Qian Junru and You Yan were at odds with each other, she really spoke well in this sermon. She talked about my privacy, my heart, and where I need it most.

Because of these things, I decided to stay, not for any of them, but because I want to find out whether God is real or not. The feeling I just received in the church is just my wishful thinking because of the pain. , or God is truly speaking to me.

I have been asking the sky why I have to go through these things, and today the sky finally gave me the answer.

"Whoever God loves, He will chasten and flog. During the flogging, don't lose faith, because God loves, He will discipline."

So is there really a God?I need a very definite answer, if there is a God, then I have been living wrong all my life till now.My grandfather was right when he said, believe in Jesus or go to hell.At that time, all of us laughed at him, and then I followed others to laugh at him, but now that I think about it, the first thing I should do before laughing is to prove it, right?This is the attitude that truly conforms to the spirit of science and cannot be taken for granted.