living sacrifice

I have gained a lot of experiences of following God from serving in the catechumens, and these experiences are very precious.However, this service is not suitable for my stature, it is too tiring for me.

After the catechumen class ended, I began to think about the direction of my service.

What is the value of human life?This is a similar question that Zuo Anran and Wang Xuanhuan both asked me.Because Zuo Anran didn’t understand, he lived a miserable and passive life; because Wang Xuanhuan didn’t understand, he followed the trend of the world, tried his best to make money, and then went on a trip, but then asked me why I traveled; and because I didn’t understand , committed such a heinous sin, because Jesus Christ saved me from sin.

That's when I realized that people live to glorify God—the one who gives life and breath to each day, created this beautiful world to provide for people's needs, takes care of the world in every possible way but is often forgotten, and deserves praise and the glory of the great and only true God.

I have never really lived, and I didn't understand what it should be like to be alive until I was reborn.

How happy I was at that time. Although I had many unpleasant experiences, I was always with the Lord and was close to God. I really lived in the anointing every day.

I was very careful with my life for the fear of losing such a big baby.

It is difficult for people who have never experienced the presence of God to understand that even if it is only for one day, you really know what you are living for, you really know what love is, and you will never ask such questions again. With the presence of God, I am really willing to abandon the whole world to follow Him.

The Lord’s love inspired me to move forward, and I also gradually discovered some things in me that I thought were very correct, but were actually not pleasing to God.

For example, writing.

All my friends know that I like to write. When a friend found out that I believed in Jesus, she asked me: If I had to choose between writing and Jesus, how should I choose?

This question is so difficult.At that time, I really couldn't say the answer.I was thinking, if the Lord does not want me to write, can I give up writing?If the Lord really forbids me to write, what should I do?This question made me very embarrassed, and then I thought of a countermeasure.

My answer at the time was: The Lord Jesus is so good, He will not let me give up my interest in following Him.

This is a very tricky answer.

Does the Lord know what is really going on in my heart?Of course he is clear.

So when I asked him "Can I earn some pocket money by writing", he didn't answer my question at all.

I have also sought God’s will for this matter for a long time, but I still didn’t understand it. Then I began to deceive myself and others, thinking: If I can make money by writing novels, I don’t need to work in a company, so I can spend more money and time. Spend it in the church to serve God.

According to the nature of sinners, isn’t such thinking very deceptive?

I have a whole new project for my novel.

Now, I am different, because I know how the world will end.My plan is to write out the steps by which the world will end, so that people will know that I am right when they see the world going to end as I have written.

Of course, the "Bible" is relatively vague, and I have to expand it, which requires a lot of prayer before God.At that time, I really hoped to write a prophetic novel that was completely in line with reality, which was really bold and proud.I feel like I'm doing something really great.

I said before God: "Lord, I think this is a very good opportunity to preach the gospel to people. If you are really with me and are willing to use prophecy to prove your correctness, they will definitely start to reflect upon seeing it. Repent. But Lord, I am also afraid that I will falsely preach the decree, because it is really difficult for me to understand your own meaning, please help me and hinder me, if what I write is not in line with your wishes, please don’t ask me to write it Bar."

Am I praying like this?Actually not.Because I already have a plan in my heart.

When I opened the pit, I started to plan, and my wishful thinking was very loud: I decided not to ask them to introduce myself, but to come and let them come to me.If God is not pleased, please ask God not to sign a contract for me, so I will write slowly;

It is relatively difficult to sign a contract at the starting point.I once heard an author from Jinjiang say that she wrote an article at the starting point and only signed a contract after more than [-] chapters.I have also opened a few short pits to test the water, and sure enough.

But this time, unexpectedly smooth.

I only wrote three chapters, and the background signing notice arrived.

I am really happy with that contract.This is the first time I got a signing contract from the starting point, and they sent it to me on their own initiative, so I regard it as a treasure.Because the headquarters of Qidian is in City S, I even wanted to go to their headquarters to see it myself, and send him the contract myself.

I thought it meant that God liked me for writing this article, and I felt that this article would be a great success—because I knew God was not pleased with me giving glory to myself, so I forced myself to convince myself that what I defined Success means saving many people.But in fact, I still think in my heart that I can make money and get many fans.

I have written many novels, even under this pen name, there are really many, but the process of writing so many novels is not like this.

Because I am writing a novel, I sometimes need to imitate the tone of God and speak with No.1 pronoun.

When writing those paragraphs, I was actually very nervous. I wanted to write them a few times but dared not write them, and then deleted them.

But once it was unavoidable, one of my important characters was arrested, and when others were imprisoning him, he wrote a letter to those people with love.The plot of the story is that God speaks to those who interrogate Him through His pen. On the surface, it seems that people are speaking, but behind it is God Himself.

I have to imitate the tone of God to warn the world. Of course, I dare not write these words indiscriminately. I only dare to write what is clearly written in the "Bible", and I dare not add embellishments.

Earthquakes, plagues, famines, catastrophes... I prayed for a long time and felt that I could write, and then I started writing.

While I was writing, I suddenly felt a great panic covering me, and I knew that suddenly a One had come to me.That kind of presence scares me a lot. I know that he knows my thoughts and thoughts. He knows that there is adulteration in me. I want to use the prophecy of this article to glorify myself and make money. I am completely transparent in front of him. of.

He told me to know my true self, in order to let me understand that my service is very filthy. At that moment, I felt both fear and gratitude.

He is so holy and I am so filthy. I instantly understood why so many people in the Bible reacted with fear and trembling when they saw God.The fear was in my bones, because I was too filthy to stand before His glory.

I didn't even dare to breathe, but my typing hand didn't stop until all the lines were written and the period was typed.

After writing that paragraph, I just sat there and repeatedly read the paragraph I just typed.Its last sentence reads: "You must record everything I said today, and you are not allowed to delete or modify it."

I read it over and over again, and then I was really not sure, so I sent it to Mu Yun.

I left her a message: "You read this article."

Mu Yun replied to me: "I feel very different. When I was reading just now, the computer screen suddenly lit up, and then went dark again."

"I feel very uncertain. Should I not write this passage in the tone of God? What if I offend God?"

Mu Yun said, "Didn't the last sentence tell you not to delete it? Isn't it right to delete it?"

I feel very in a dilemma, but fortunately, the contents mentioned are all in the "Apocalypse", and these contents must be fine. In the end, I can only boldly post them.

Thinking of this incident at the beginning, I want to say that I was too bold. Maybe it is really a newborn calf who is not afraid of tigers, but this is not a good practice.

If someone is curious about my experience and rashly imitates what the outside world does, they will probably be fooled by evil spirits.Don't assume that all magical experiences are good.

There is a book on the market that is created in the same way. From the beginning to the end, it is written in the tone of God’s No.1 dialogue with people. There are many important places in this book that do not match the Bible at all. .Out of the protection of human life, I think I must boldly say that the origin of this book is not correct, and it is very likely that the person talking to the author is an evil spirit pretending to be a god.

This kind of creative technique was too risky, and I never used it again.

My ministry at that time was completely devoid of God's calling, like the rest of my church.

We all feel that as long as people are willing to offer, God is willing to accept it. We all feel that what is offered for God is my "self-sacrifice". Give God a lot, take credit and be proud.

But this kind of service is not service at all. On the contrary, people are even worse spiritually than if they do not serve.

The Lord Jesus said that a servant should serve his master, and no servant would say anything very proud. What a servant should say to his master is, "This is what I should do."

But we had a natural feeling in our hearts at that time: I did this for the Lord, and I paid a lot for the Lord.Then we may not be able to say some words, but we will think in our hearts: My master should reward me, because I have done a lot for him.

This is why people must have a calling before they can come out to serve.God has the best arrangements for everyone, and He will lead everyone who is willing to obey His orders to do things.

For example, in this article of mine, all the stories, characters, and sequence of appearances have been “written” by God Himself, and I’m just re-recording the things that actually happened.In addition, I originally planned to write fictional literature, but God didn’t allow it. He guided me to write non-fiction, and I wanted to post it on Jinjiang’s website for those who knew me before.I wrote seven versions of the outline, and none of them worked in the end.In the middle I wanted to attend a Christian novel training, but God sent two people to stop me.From the day I started writing to the end of the day, I obeyed God’s guidance as much as possible.

I say this not for boasting, but to let those watching understand that as long as people intend to follow God’s will, God’s guidance is very delicate, so people should not plan anything themselves, but obey God’s plan.

The Bible says: "In that day many will say to me, 'Lord, Lord, did we not preach in your name, cast out demons in your name, and perform many miracles in your name? ’ And I told them plainly: ‘I never knew you, you evildoers, leave me!’”

May I ask, why do some people preach, cast out demons, and perform many miracles in the name of the Lord, but the Lord says that he never knew these wicked people?

Yes, they are villains.