living sacrifice

The arrival of Jiang Zhixing's family has added color to my life, not that I am happy to see their life so bad, but that I suddenly discovered that this world is really something I have never understood before.

I used to think that the world became like this naturally, but looking at it now, I suddenly feel that this setting cannot be accepted.

Although I didn't see the ghostly shape I imagined in Jiang Zhixing's body, I did see his creepy eyes, which convinced me that there was something unclean inside him.And from childhood to adulthood, most people can tell me a lot of ghost stories when it comes to ghost stories, but I never believed it, but now I saw a person possessed by a ghost with my own eyes.

How I longed for the ghosts on Jiang Zhixing to be cast out, so that I could know that the stories about exorcisms in the Bible were indeed true.Of course, there are many witnesses, but I have never seen it with my own eyes!

The reason why I think this way may have something to do with Wang Xuanhuan, I really think there are ghosts in him.

He said that he had seen a psychiatrist for two or three years before, but the disease was not cured, so he gave up the treatment.When I told him about his psychological problems, he said that he knew all these things in a very awkward manner, so what if he knew?

He clearly knew that he was at fault, but he pleaded not guilty, what can I do?

I can't do anything against such a person, I can't scold him, I can't be nice, I can't talk about him, I can't be cold or hot.What was he like then?It's like a rotten plaster sticking under my eyelids. It's uncomfortable if I don't tear it off; it hurts when I tear it off.I think he is a piece of chicken rib, and I am full of anger when I think of him, but I can't do anything to him, and he knows that I can't do anything to him, so he doesn't pay attention to me at all.

I really hope that this person has never appeared in my life, but I know that if this person does not appear, I will not repent until I die.

My parents have returned to S City, and I feel that my life is on the right track. As for what will happen with Wang Xuanhuan in the future, I don't know yet.

At that time, I often prayed for him, not to love my enemies as the Lord Jesus commanded, but I prayed to the Lord: "Lord, please whip Wang Xuanhuan like you whipped me. Doesn't he want money? Please take away all his savings. Doesn’t he want children? Please make him unable to have children. Please let him have no way to go to heaven, let him have no way to go to earth, let him turn back to you, let him repent to me. "

It's really scary to look at these prayers now, but I didn't understand them at the time.The Lord is really merciful to me, and a person with deep sins like me can be merciful.

I'm hoping that God will come and clean up my mess, and I still hope my marriage doesn't fall apart.I know that as long as he agrees, Wang Xuanhuan will be saved like me. My greatest hope is that he can confess his sins and repent, so that our family will not have to be broken up, and we will not have to divorce.I really don't want a divorce. Although the marriage in front of me is meaningless, I think divorce is a broken marriage contract.I'm sticking to those inexplicable rules, and I don't know it.

After I moved to the rented house, I prayed more urgently for my marriage, because I hoped that the Lord could change Wang Xuanhuan's heart before my parents found out.

The Lord did hear my plea, but He didn't think it would be good for me.

The Lord gave me the answer.

The path prepared by God for man is often one that people are reluctant to take, but in the long run, it is really the best path, let’s go, let’s go even with the pain.As long as it is confirmed that it was prepared by God, it will be fine in the future.

I don’t know if You Yan was moved by God that time. She called me to her house for several days and said she had prepared dinner for me.

Whenever I see the sumptuous banquets prepared by her, those exquisite dishes, and the new decorations at home, I long for a warm home in my heart, and I will think of my current environment.

I don't know how our topic started, so I asked You Yan: "Do you still pray for your ex-husband now?"

You Yan said: "God gave me a lot of blessings through him, and he didn't understand at all that he was used by the enemy, so I can understand him. I think I also caused a lot of harm to him, and I don't want to curse again Or he hates him. Lin Xiao, because Heavenly Father said we should love our enemies. My ex-husband, he is not my enemy.”

I understand what she means. Every time I see the Bible says to love your enemies, I think from the bottom of my heart that I can't do it.And You Yan's matter is not like mine. For me, even if I regard Wang Xuanhuan as an enemy, I don't think it's too much, but I also know that he is being used, but he also needs to be responsible for it.

You Yan added: "They are in business, and you must know how filthy their circle is."

I nodded vigorously.Wang Xuanhuan is also in business, he has a side job.

You Yan said: "The enemy wants people to perish, nothing more than the eyes, the pride of this life. They want these things themselves, so the enemy can catch them casually. I think I will still Pray for my ex-husband, I still hope to ask God to give him another chance to repent. Lin Xiao, you should do the same, after all, you have loved."

loved?Those two words pissed me off.I’m just not sure if I’ve ever loved it. If I really loved it, it’s fine if I don’t love it anymore, but I suspect that he designed a complete set for me from the very beginning.But I'm too insensitive to the business experience of these businessmen. I dare not even think about such evil things, but he can do them.

My current marital status is not good. You Yan probably knows it well, because when she prayed to me before, when it came to marriage, I couldn't stop crying in front of her. At that time, we couldn't understand each other. declared.

Have I ever been in love with Wang Xuanhuan?This is the point where I am most indignant, because I have no way of determining whether we have loved or not.I'm not sure he loves it because of love, but he just wants to use me like he uses other contacts in his business.Then did I ever love him?I don't want to admit it either.

"Lin Xiao, Heavenly Father does not want us to live in hatred. You are better than me. You have no children, and I have a very big child. And you are not alone now. I was alone in a foreign country at that time. It is really called Tian Tian No, the ground is not working. If you want to talk about anything, you can come to me."

With just such a sentence, I couldn't hold back my tears.

This is probably the case when a person is most vulnerable. This tear gland is like a broken water pipe, which leaks when it is stimulated.

You Yan comforted me.I am also very grateful to this invisible God in my heart.No one knew. When I was in the most pain, I suspected that Wang Xuanhuan was using me, and at the same time I was still worried about whether I would get pregnant. During that time, the sky was dark, and I knew that I was not far from hell.

When I was in the most pain, I made two prayers: the first one was to ask God to save me; the second one was to ask God to take away my child.

Later, I did the test myself with anxiety, and I was really relieved when I found out that I was not pregnant.I believe the Lord heard my plea and He has mercy on me.Life is of the LORD, from this I have learned.

When Wang Xuanhuan heard that I was not pregnant, his attitude towards me changed drastically. When facing me, he didn't even smile anymore, and he was a completely different person.He said to me: "Don't always come to work to find me in the future, I will be very troublesome if people see me."

I didn't expect to hear such scumbag's words with my own ears.What I suffer today is completely God’s repayment to me according to what I have done. I have nothing to say.But I really want to ask God not to let Wang Xuanhuan and that person go, so that the two of them will never be reborn in hell!

But You Yan was right. Even though God whipped me severely, he still loves me.For such a filthy person as I am, the Lord Jesus is willing to sacrifice himself for me. He really loves me.Even though I was whipped, God didn't completely destroy all my life. He didn't burden me with having children, otherwise the relationship between me and Wang Xuanhuan would be even worse.But now, at least, I am free to divorce.

But I have always been unwilling to face the word divorce, especially since I never mentioned it in front of my parents.

However, God has arranged for me to take this path.

Wang Xuanhuan told me in a text message: "When will you be free? We divorced."

He spoke so lightly of the engagement.

How I wish the god in the sky would really strike Wang Xuanhuan with lightning, reminding him of his oath, making him repent for the thunder that suddenly hit him, maybe he will realize that he was wrong, and he will remember him He made an oath to the god in the sky, if he did not keep his oath and broke the marriage contract casually, he would be judged!I hope God will keep him from sinning out of fear.

But God did not strike him with lightning, nor did He discipline him, but God let him go.

When Wang Xuanhuan sent me the divorce text message, his tone was casual as if "Let's return Alipay" or "Let's throw away the trash".This text message made my hands tremble uncontrollably. I was afraid that if he got angry with Parkinson, it would not be worth the candle.

I threw away my cell phone and prayed to God in tears: "Abba, Father, I was confused before, and I didn't listen to your words. Is my marriage really hopeless? If Wang Xuanhuan can still be saved, please save him. Please change his mind. Lord, I really need You to speak to me, please speak to me through Your Bible. It is Your Holy Word, and I know I should not be reading Your Holy Bible like this. But please see that my situation is urgent, make an exception and use this method to guide me to understand your heart. If you have something to say to me, please let me turn to that page, please tell me what you mean .thank God."

I wiped away my tears and picked up the Bible.

While praying silently, while turning the pages casually, a little bit casually.

Pastor Tang Chongrong often complained about this kind of practice. I knew at the time that this kind of practice could not be done for a long time, but I also asked the Lord to forgive my naivety this time, because I really have no other way out.

The scripture I pointed out is: "The cup is in the hand of the LORD, and the wine foams in it, and it is full of adulterated wine; when he pours it out, all the wicked on the earth will drink the dross of the wine and drink it up."

I didn't think I would click on this, and it's incredible to think about it today.Could it be that I was happy to read such scriptures at the time, so I read them all at once?I don't remember much.

This verse immediately gave me great strength. I knew that my heavenly father would judge the wicked, and I knew that the heavenly father would remember Wang Xuanhuan's oath to him, and he would definitely settle the score with Wang Xuanhuan.However, I don't know whether he will settle accounts with Wang Xuanhuan while he is alive, or wait for him to die.When I clicked on this sentence, I was not sure if it was given to me by God.But I must say, it gave me great comfort.

With the word of the Lord, my hands were cold, and I texted Wang Xuanhuan back: "It's up to you."

"Tomorrow then," he told me.