living sacrifice

I have to tell my parents about the divorce.This is another very scary thing for me.

However, things went out of my expectation.They love me so they don't blame me.

After listening to my words, they pondered for a while, and then my dad said: "Leave as soon as you leave, you don't have any children now, and you have no burden. It's better to leave as soon as possible."

My mother also said: "You don't have to worry about us, you just need to get this matter done. Now that you have decided to divorce, don't be procrastinating, parting ways and then go back on your word."

I cried, I walked to the window sill alone and didn't speak, and they didn't say anything more.

I waited for him downstairs in the Civil Affairs Bureau.

When he saw me, it was as if we had met for the first time for an appointment. His expression was normal, as if he hadn't been affected by this incident at all.He said to me: "Have you brought everything? Let's go up and sign."

Why didn't God let him die here?Why did God let him go?My hands were shaking as I signed.But I still signed it.

After walking out, he also said to me: "That's fine, anyway, we don't have any money exchanges, everything is cleared up. Will you take the subway back later?"

This is our last conversation.

After that, I deleted his WeChat and never saw him again.

The last thing I want to say about Wang Xuanhuan is that he was haunted by evil spirits.

He may not know it himself, or he may not admit it when he knows it, but the thing is real.

One day, when he was going downstairs, a series of strange things happened. A woman looked at him through the crack of the door. When she saw him turn back, the woman screamed in fright and locked the door with a "slam".

Then when he went home, the key in his hand fell on the ground inexplicably, and he felt very unlucky.

But that day, when I was taking a shower, I suddenly felt a hand touch my head.I didn't have that feeling of fear, I opened my eyes and saw nothing.

This happened on the same day, I don't know if there is any connection between them.

Because more than one person around me had something like him happen, so I guess my salvation will also have an impact on the people around me. The enemy will use those people who are close to me as pawns to plot against me. Wang Xuanhuan is just one of them. The enemy's best chess piece.

Then came my parents, but my parents love me very much, and I often pray for them, so they are still protected by God.

The third person is my friend, Zuo Anran.She came to my house once and was frightened by ghosts.She said that she saw my stuffed dog move suddenly. She said it three times and asked me if I saw it. I said no. Later, she was too scared to sit still and ran away.

The fourth person is a colleague at the front desk of my unit.

That colleague’s family is a Buddhist, and I also preached the gospel to her, but her reaction to the gospel was “So I am so popular, Buddhism, Taoism, and Christianity are all vying for me”, I am not too embarrassed to give her a blank stare .According to her own description, her family is regarded as "street fighters" in the street, but she never thinks that there is a problem with her family, and the problems are all other people's.She usually likes to watch Tanmei, and likes to talk about things like celebrities raising ghosts. She was also the one who introduced me to play games with the boss to make money.

The reason why I introduce her situation in such detail is to show you that if you don’t live like this, the devil will really come to your door.

She is usually careless, but that day she suddenly said to me with a dull face: "Lin Xiao, a strange thing happened to me yesterday."

"what's up?"

"I don't live alone, you know, I have two houses. Yesterday when I was living alone, a voice suddenly said to me, 'You follow me, listen to me, and I will give you glory and wealth Endless', I'm so scared to death."

"You didn't promise him, did you?"

"Of course not! But, let me tell you, don't tell me that Christ, I don't believe it, I'm an atheist!"

I'm drunk too!You are all hell, are you still atheist?

But after this incident, she still lived like that, and continued to mock Christianity and Christians. Once I couldn't take it anymore and left her. Later, she still thought it was my problem.

I really thought I was a good person, but after the marriage, I found out how stupid and stupid I was!My parents had to live in the countryside because of me, where I was not familiar with; I was trapped by myself, and I could neither have a normal marriage nor tell the truth to my parents; all the things I thought were good, The path I thought was good that I chose for myself ended up sending me to hell...

How can I trust myself like this?

What else am I planning for myself?

Why do I not believe in the One who gave His own life for me?

Am I out of my mind?

I really have a problem!I'm sick!

I don’t believe in myself, I am willing that the living true God will guide my direction so that I will not go on the wrong path again, and I am willing to try my best to seek the Lord’s will in everything I do.

No matter how great the difficulties are, they are just in front of me. I believe that even if God whips me, it is for my own good. In marriage, I have deeply realized this point.

My zeal for God delighted the people in the church, who knew they had a part in my salvation.This brought great joy to the new church.

The little brother who was possessed by a demon did stay behind, including his whole family.

The church wanted to replicate in him what God had done in me.

There are so many people, and only I know the reason. Of course, I can't be stupid enough to tell them that I used to be gay, and it's even more impossible for me to say that I'm a bisexual. Everyone is ashamed.I think these things are in the past, God has cleansed me, so I don't need to mention it, and I am ashamed to mention my past.I am a new creature now.

But other people in this church don’t know the deep reason behind it. What they see is just the tip of the iceberg of what God has done. They see that You Yan brought me in, made a decision, and was baptized, and I was saved. They thought It was easy, but they didn't see the arduous work God had done in me for more than 20 years.

On the one hand, this matter was my problem, because I didn’t have the courage to confess the sins I had committed in front of people; on the other hand, it was also their problem. How could they think that God’s individual leading can be replicated?

After Jiang Zhixing came several times, he was also determined.

When they said that he could make a decision, I was confused, because I thought Jiang Zhixing was still in a very abnormal state. Can such a person who can't even pronounce his own name be able to make a decision?Was his decision really of his own free will?

When Jiang Zhixing made his decision, I didn't pay much attention to it, but You Yan suddenly said to me very forcefully: "Lin Xiao, you also go in."

I stared at her, I think she is too unreasonable, always like to order people.I've been annoyed by the "unstoppable party" last time, and now she wants to order me in front of everyone because of Jiang Zhixing's decision.I'm bored, but I don't want to fight, and just thinking about it I go in with emotion.

Jiang Zhixing was still giggling when he was sitting on the stool.

To be honest, Brother Sun gave me a lot of security here.Otherwise, when I think of Jiang Zhixing's ghost, I also feel horrified.

I'm not afraid of ghosts harming me, I feel that ghosts can't harm me, but I feel that Jiang Zhixing's eyes make me feel that he is scarier than ghosts, and I am afraid that he will suddenly jump up and hit me.

Brother Sun looked at this child with a worried face, I think how much he loves him!He said to Jiang Zhixing: "Jiang Zhixing, Big Brother Sun will pray for you now, and if you agree, you can say amen to Big Brother Sun."

I don't expect Jiang Zhixing to say anything.

Brother Sun began to talk to Jiang Zhixing: "Jiang Zhixing, you are still very young, you are a very handsome young man, great. Let me ask you, do you want to improve your academic performance in the future, find a girlfriend you like, and find a girlfriend after graduation?" A good job, huh?"

When Jiang Zhixing heard this, he suddenly smiled brightly, and nodded.

Brother Sun clapped his hands: "That's great, Jiang Zhixing, Jesus can give it to you. Do you want to believe in Jesus?"

Under repeated urging, Jiang Zhixing nodded again.

"Lovely Father, dear Lord, although Jiang Zhixing can't speak, it doesn't matter. The Lord has seen him nod his head. He is willing to come to you in his heart..."

I'm confused, is this okay?

I clearly feel that those just now are lying.Because believing in Jesus is not for those things at all, and I even suspect that some people will be like me, and it is even more unlucky to believe in Jesus.But I know that Jesus is good, even if I can’t see the benefits in front of me, I know that He is good. He made me suffer to get me out of sin and hell, to save me, not for such a stupid thing.

Progress in studies, success in work, and a happy family... These, if God is willing to bless, are of course the blessings of this person and his family, but I don’t think it is possible to enter the church with such a purpose from the beginning.I can't say much, I just know it's wrong.

But Big Brother Sun is the leader here, and I have no experience. I think this is a flexible approach of these experienced people. Maybe they will use other methods to correct Jiang Zhixing in the future, right?Out of trust in Big Brother Sun, I didn't speak.

To be honest, I don't have any tricks against Jiang Zhixing, he often doesn't respond to our words, what can I do?So I didn't say anything, I just kept it in my heart.

Jiang Zhixing was determined in this way, but I could see that this incident did not change his life, he still lived in chaos, sometimes looked at me with threatening eyes, sometimes became better, and sometimes stretched out his hand suddenly Draw me with a rope... He has done all these things, but I don't hate him. I feel sorry for this child. He really doesn't know anything. I hope that one day the dirty things in him can really leave him.

Jiang Zhixing's mother changed from a very devout Buddhist to a very devout Christian, but I'll be honest, she just changed the way of worshiping Buddha into the way of the church.She didn't know anything about who God was, what salvation was, or the sinfulness of man, because no one in the church told her about it at that time.

But I dare to say that Jiang Zhixing’s mother seems to be very pious. She participates in every bible study group, all gatherings, online prayers, etc., whatever there is, she either attends or asks for leave. She is very active and serious.