the one who lives in my body

I was in a trance when I left that room.

Xie Dongrong came to me, relatively silently, under the watchful eyes of the doctor, we left the technology ground.

"What did he tell you?" Yue Mo saw that my expression was not good, Xie Dongrong asked.

For a moment, I didn't know how to speak, and I didn't know what I was thinking at the time. Inexplicably, I half-truthfully said: "The doctor thinks I should separate from you for a while."

As if he didn't expect me to say this, Xie Dongrong squinted his eyes, "This is a question aimed at you, his answer to you?"

This shouldn't be a lie.

With a little guilt, I nodded.

Xie Dongrong sneered, "Anyway, the old man doesn't know our real situation." He observed me, touched me for a few seconds, "Are you suspicious?" His voice became softer.

We paused, and we stopped in the corridor. At this moment, our expressions were a little tense, "Xie Dongrong, I like you." Word by word, I repeated this sentence that I have said countless times, "I have said this sentence for so many years, and it will not be changed by others overnight."

Yuemo was because my expression was too serious, Xie Dongrong stared at me, I don't know what he was thinking, anyway, as always, he didn't make any reply to my confession.

"If you think separation is necessary, I can cooperate with you." In the end, Xie Dongrong said this.

His expression was a little indifferent, but those words, which were obviously cooperative, hurt me for no reason.

It felt like...he didn't care that we were apart.

"Actually, it's almost the same." Looking away from his face, "we have been notified to enter the training of flying away from the mothership."

The footsteps of two people seemed a little lonely in the corridor.

"Actually, after thinking about it for so many years, we really haven't been separated much." With a half smile, I turned my head and said to Xie Dongrong.

Xie Dongrong also smiled, but it wasn't a happy smile, "It's not that you must stick to me." I guess he probably has such thoughts in his heart, but it's just a fact.

Before he could give an answer, they had already arrived at the elevator where they parted temporarily.

"I feel that something is wrong with you recently." Xie Dongrong turned his face, "Come to my place tonight to talk."

"……it is good."

Just like that, Xie Dongrong and I parted briefly.

On the way to the breeding room, I couldn't help thinking deeply - what would happen if Xie Dongrong and I were really separated?

To be honest, it’s a bit hard to imagine, like a fish born in water from the beginning, I found that I might not be able to adapt to life without Xie Dongrong.

But, in this world, who can't live without it?

Thinking about it, I have already reached the bottom.

Some staff responsible for the release of animals are already waiting in the reception room outside the breeding room, and my colleagues must have already talked with them about the same.

When I entered the room, the leading staff stood up and stretched out their hands to me. Yes, I was appointed as the "first person in charge of the Rock". After I came back, they began to prepare to contact me under my guidance. rock.

Although Panshi had contact with people outside the breeding room in the past, but now the situation is special, and the day of releasing the animals is approaching, so everyone is quite nervous.

In fact, I'm fine. Pan Shi is more relaxed when he's with me, but not necessarily with others.

At this moment, Pan Shi is still locked in a cage. When the door opened, I looked at him. He showed a happy expression at first, and then Yue Mo saw a large group of people emerging behind me, and his body was visibly tense. stand up.

I walked over, across the cage, and touched his face as usual to try to make him relax. Fortunately, before entering the door, I reminded the outsiders not to make noise, otherwise I think the process of appeasing Panshi will last longer.

"It can be seen that it trusts you very much." When I led the rock out of the cage with the chain, the leader of the foreign staff said so.

"After all, we have been together for some years." Smiling at them, I only hope that the next process will not hurt or scare Pan Shi. To be honest, as the landing time approaches, I feel more and more reluctant to give up Pan Shi in my heart. It has intensified. If I said that I made Panshi suffer a little before, I would think it was a kind of exercise for him, but now I can hardly see him suffer a little bit of grievance.

After all...Because of what happened to Xie Dongrong before, I feel somewhat guilty towards Pan Shi.

Fortunately, because the preparatory work was done relatively well, their meeting with Panshi this time was considered smooth, but during this process, Panshi was a bit too clingy, and it took a lot of time to simulate the separation. time.

I have to meet Xie Dongrong in the evening... Judging by the time, it should be a bit late now, it's strange, I would probably be impatient in the past, but at this moment, I don't feel that way at all, faintly, I even hope that this time can be delayed longer, longer.

"It's true that I'm too clingy to you." The staff on the opposite side smiled, "In order to prevent the meeting from going well, we will visit frequently in the next period of time."

Finally, after finishing a series of handover tasks, they left, and when my colleagues closed the door, Panshi and I finally had a short time alone.

It can be seen with the naked eye that when he is alone with me, Pan Shi’s interest is much higher and his emotions are more joyful. Although we don’t do anything particularly meaningful most of the time, at this moment he just looks at me. It's just making the armor step by step, but the relaxed atmosphere that permeates between us is lingering.

If only the relationship between me and Xie Dongrong could become like this.

"Stone," I looked up at him, "we are going to separate." I know he can't understand human language, but when I stare into his eyes, some words will pour out of his mouth involuntarily, " Are you happy that you are going home?"

Naturally, Pan Shi would not answer me, but he seemed to understand the emotion in my eyes, he raised his arms, and gently pulled me into his arms.

Through the muscles, I heard his strong heartbeat.

Sure enough, whether it is a human or an Amut, the sound of the heart comes from the chest cavity.

It was already late at night when Pan Shi fell asleep.

Xie Dongrong didn't contact me. On the way to the top floor, I was thinking, might I be late?Will he be angry?

However, it turns out that I was overthinking.

When I entered his room, I realized that he hadn't come back yet.

Well, he's busier than me, which is understandable.

I sent a message to Xie Dongrong, and I told him that I was waiting for him.

In fact, I was already a little sleepy, but Xie Dongrong didn't come back, so I didn't dare to sleep.

He said he wanted to talk, but what can we talk about?

My thinking seemed to be blocked, and after thinking about it for a long time, I couldn't figure out why.

Involuntarily walked to Xie Dongrong's desk, this is his favorite place to stay, last time he found a letter he wrote to Xie Ningbai in a stack of documents in the upper right corner...

Speaking of which, I haven't asked him about it yet.

However, if you think about it carefully, there is nothing to ask.

There is a small bookshelf in the upper right corner of the table, on which are some books he has read recently.

In the past, I tried to study the books Xie Dongrong read, but in the end I found that these books were as difficult to understand as he himself, so in the end I didn't get it.

It's better to go to his bed and take a few breaths of his immortal energy, laughing like this in your heart, but your eyes stay on the small bookshelf which is a relatively special book in appearance.

Well, it should not be a book, but a notebook, which seems a bit out of place in those books.

Reason told me that this was not good, but my hand stretched out involuntarily.

When I opened it, I knew it was a diary as soon as I saw the title page.

Yomo is the diary that the doctor was talking about in today's talk.

It's really not good to spy on a lover's privacy.

But I can't help it.

My heart beat faster involuntarily, and I flipped through the pages. Xie Dongrong only wrote a few sentences every day, which were concise and easy to read.

It's a pity that even in his diary, he seldom described his own mental journey, most of the time he just stated a thing itself.

The dates in the previous part are all connected, one day after another, without interruption, but the content is relatively empty, repetitive, and meaningless.

Until one day, a very short content with no date-"The doctor has read it, it seems that there is no need to write it."

But there is still content to follow, but instead of recording an article every day like before, it seems like I will write a little bit when I think of it.

Unlike the previous content, after that page, occasionally, Xie Dongrong would write about me.

"Tao Shu came to my house and slept in my bed."

"I met Tao Shu in physical education class, and I was with An Jingtong."

"I got into an argument with Tao Shu again, it's very annoying."

……

A few pages of content, a few strokes, I don't know if I should be grateful that he finally wrote about me.

Looking back, the interval between days is getting bigger and bigger. Xie Dongrong himself has no habit of keeping a diary, so he probably has almost forgotten it by this time.

Finally, I came to a page where he wrote so much, so uncharacteristically, that it had to be noticed.

Looking at the date again——

It was the day after I slept with him for the first time.

Here is what he wrote:

"There was an accident last night, Tao Shu and I, he was drunk, I was clearly sober, but things still turned out like that.

He confessed his love to me and asked me to be with him, and I agreed.

For so many years, he has been saying that he likes me.

Sometimes I feel that Tao Shu may be a scar on my body that cannot be removed or shaken off.

What happened last night... I don't think he can be blamed for it. Since things turned out like this in the end, I have an obligation to give an explanation.

I will always be with him, he treats me well, I can only repay him in this way, and this is the only thing he wants.

It's a good way to maintain balance, and I need him after all.

He said he would always be by my side, I thought, a reasonable identity might be better. "