the one who lives in my body

Naturally, Xie Dongrong didn't know about my plan with the doctor. In fact, I seldom hid such important matters from Xie Dongrong. Maybe it was because I lived too honestly for the first half of my life. This dishonesty made me feel very strange.

After Panshi's mood stabilized, we tested him for various physical indicators, and finally found that his physical condition is actually getting better and better. I think this is probably because the living environment we are familiar with It's near.

When there is no one around, I quite like staring at Panshi and chattering. I don't know if he can understand what I say, but I like the feeling of being watched seriously.

These days, the situation with Xie Dongrong is still stable, basically we can see each other every day, most of the time in my small dormitory, occasionally I will go to the top floor with him, in his exclusive "President" Sleep overnight in the suite.

During this period, the frequency of Xie Dongrong's cravings has obviously decreased. After comparing the timetable given by the doctor, it turns out that the estrus period has passed, but he himself does not have that kind of consciousness. He thinks it is because he is very busy, so the desires are correspondingly Reduced.

So he would occasionally ask me if I would feel lonely or something, how should I put it... It's kind of cute, and it also made me feel helpless.

In fact, the feeling of sleeping with him is not bad. Every morning, when I open my eyes and see that face, a kind of good feeling will suddenly arise in my heart, almost making me forget all the previous unhappiness. , and almost made me no longer afraid of those pains that would suddenly pop up at some point and stab me hard.

My performance seems to make Xie Dongrong feel at ease. In fact, I am also surprised that I have been able to be so quiet all this time. How should I put it?In fact, I just don’t want to make trouble for myself. Some things are destined to be unreasonable and disappointing. Why should I touch them again and again?

unnecessary.

When the appointed time came, and I visited the research base inside the mothership with Xie Dongrong again, and once again faced the doctor side by side, a sense of guilt swept over my nerves inexplicably.

The expression of the doctor has not changed, and everything is the same as usual.

At first I wondered if the doctor had forgotten something, but soon, when the two of them sat face to face in that room, and I was able to observe all their movements through the glass, I heard the doctor say his classic opening words :

"Has anything interesting happened recently?"

The sound came from a small loudspeaker on the table, and I hadn't realized until then that this gadget was actually connected to the other side of the room and could record the sound.

Then it is absolutely true that this room is an interrogation room.

It seems that this time is indeed different.

Xie Dongrong probably didn't know that I could hear the voices inside when I was outside.

At the beginning, the doctor still asked some very routine questions. Xie Dongrong answered them fluently with the usual false attitude when facing the doctor. I don't know how much the doctor believed.

I found that Xie Dongrong is really a person who talks nonsense without changing his face. I think this is one of the important reasons why I have been played by him for so many years.

"By the way, I see that your condition these days seems to be different from usual..." Finally, the doctor changed the subject.

Hearing this, Xie Dongrong raised his eyebrows, and instead of answering immediately, he spread his hands slightly without changing his expression, motioning for the doctor to continue.

"Ashu said, you seem to have some ambiguous feelings with the female students in your class." The doctor continued.

As if hearing some joke, Xie Dongrong curled the corners of his lips, "You all like to guess wildly, it's very boring." It was an answer that fit Xie Dongrong's personal style.

"I want to say, if you are in love, I will have new criteria for your test based on your situation. Sorry, this is not an invasion of your privacy. I hope you can understand this." Dr. Xie Dongrong When he spoke, he was not very humane, presumably he also knew that he occupied an unfavorable position in Xie Dongrong's heart.

"Yes, doctor, you don't need to say more, I will cooperate well, you have repeatedly emphasized this point every time, I think it is really unnecessary." Xie Dongrong smiled and said half-jokingly in a calm tone.

"Okay, then can you make sure that you will answer the questions I ask you truthfully instead of perfunctory with meaningless rhetoric?" The doctor held the notebook in his hand, adjusted his glasses, and looked Be serious and professional.

"Of course, why should I have trouble with my body?" Xie Dongrong spread his hands slightly, and answered easily.

"That's good." At this moment, I found that the doctor turned his head slightly towards me, and subconsciously, I tensed my muscles and clenched my fists involuntarily.I heard the doctor say to Xie Dongrong: "At your current age and situation, it is quite normal to have feelings for the opposite sex, but the Amut people and humans behave completely differently when facing their favorite target , I want to ask you, do you have a favorite now?"

At that moment, I almost held my breath, knowing that what Xie Dongrong said next was likely to be just to deceive the doctor, but subconsciously, I still wanted to hear what I wanted to hear from him, even though I hardly knew it anymore. Don't expect anything.

Without any hesitation, Xie Dongrong answered quickly, spreading his hands slightly, and said, "Who knows about this kind of thing?" But unfortunately, from the beginning to the end, he never looked at me even once.

"I don't want to hear an ambiguous answer." The doctor tried to correct.

But Xie Dongrong said: "This kind of thing itself is not absolute."

I heard the doctor take a deep breath, "Well, what about sexuality? We need to know whether your various orientations are closer to humans or Amuts."

"All creatures have lust, even doctors do." Xie Dongrong said this with a half-smile, with a hint of teasing.

"...Then let's put it another way," the doctor sighed, "Xie Dongrong, I hope you can be sincere this time."

"Doctor, I have never been insincere." Dr. Chong blinked, Xie Dongrong looked innocent.

"Dongrong, imagine, if now you have a lover, someone you like with all your heart, and you plan to be with her for the rest of your life, if you meet her now when you walk out of this door, how will you treat her in the days to come?" ? In what way to love her?"

There was about ten seconds after the doctor finished speaking, and he remained silent. To me, these ten seconds are as long as a century.

Finally, I heard Xie Dongrong say: "Someone you can meet when you go out? Are you talking about Tao Shu?"

As if he had had enough of his one-liners, the doctor slapped his palm on the table, "Xie Dongrong, I hope you take it seriously."

There was another ten seconds of silence.

"Ok."

Xie Dongrong finally got serious.

"...I have a bad temper." I don't know if it was my illusion, but at this moment, I suddenly felt that Xie Dongrong's voice became mellow and serious, "First of all, I will definitely get rid of my known problems. I tried my best not to let him be hurt by me."

"If he wants something, as long as he says... even if he doesn't say it, I will find a way to send it to him."

"I won't neglect him, and I won't lose my temper because of a little thing, and make him look unhappy."

"I won't let him think that I'm just a young master who needs to be accommodated everywhere... If there is such a person, I think I will become more manly than I am now."

"I will also try my best to keep the distance between myself and the interested person around me, so as not to make him suspicious or angry."

"I would want to wake up every day and see his face..."

"If I'm busy, I'll explain it to him..."

……

"That's all." In the end, Xie Dongrong looked at the doctor and asked with a half-smile, "Is that enough?"

The doctor nodded, and wrote something down in the notebook.

Xie Dongrong said a lot. Actually, I didn’t expect him to answer this question so seriously before.

But unfortunately, it seems that I didn't get one.

I don't know how I feel, and I don't want to analyze why he said that in detail.

It feels like... I have been completely rejected.

Ridiculous.

I suddenly thought of a story.

It is a couple. They had a dream of traveling around the world together, but because their wife was seriously ill, they could not complete this dream with the man, so the man decided to travel alone and took pictures of the beautiful scenery along the way. A thick volume was assembled, and he brought the album back to his hometown, hoping to inspire his wife so that she would have more hope of living.

After seeing the photo, his wife looked haggard and told him that she would live a good life.

But not long after, his wife died.

Everything the man did seemed to be in vain, he could only persuade himself to believe that at least his wife had seen the beautiful scenery she had never seen through the photos.

The beauty of her dreams.

Their conversation continued.

The doctor smiled and said, "How do you feel that the feelings you said are quite targeted."

Xie Dongrong glanced at the time, stood up, "It's just my first thought, didn't you want me to say it, and now I'm questioning it?"

"No, it's enough." The doctor also stood up, as if to see off the guests.

Just as Xie Dongrong was about to walk out the door, the doctor said, "Are you still writing that diary?"

"I won't write after the situation stabilizes, why? You still want to read?" Turning back slightly, Xie Dongrong's voice was a little sarcastic.

"No, no," the doctor smiled, "after all, it's your privacy. I'm just a doctor, not a pervert who likes to spy on others." Through the glass, I met the doctor's eyes, "The next thing is Ah Shu."

The moment Xie Dongrong walked out the door, and I stood up and passed him by, nothing had changed, but I clearly felt that everything was different.

"Don't worry, he can't hear you over there." The doctor said, "How are you doing now?" He seemed very interested in my state at the moment.

"I don't feel it." I said.

Indeed, it just doesn't feel like it.

Everything that followed was as normal as any time before.

"It seems to have a great impact on you," the doctor said, "I think you need to separate, and you need enough time to consider the relationship between you."

This is the last sentence left by the doctor after this physical examination.

I wanted to punch the doctor, but I thought he was right.

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