the one who lives in my body

I don't want to see Xie Dongrong. After a long absence, I have this similar emotion again. I have so many things to say and ask, but I just don't want to see him.

That night, I hid in Panshi's breeding room and didn't go anywhere.

In fact, "hiding" is not considered, after all, no one came to look for me, Xie Dongrong is very busy, maybe he didn't think of me at all.

Maybe it's self-serving, staring up at the rock, I think.

I don't know how this news reached my ears for the first time - in about two weeks or so, the spacecraft will arrive at Amut Star.

I suddenly hoped not to reach that place, and just let the trip on the mothership become eternity, staring at the special palm prints of Panshi, I thought so.

Pan Shi seemed to have sensed my emotions, he gently covered my ears with his palm, I raised my head, and looked at him.

At that moment, my body seemed to be completely isolated from the outside world. I stared at the eyes of the rock, and felt as if the entire universe was hidden inside. passed.

We just looked at each other quietly like this. I don’t know how long this process lasted. In the end, the colleague in the breeding room poked me awake with a pole with a frightened expression.

The moment I came back to my senses, I saw Panshi baring his teeth at that person. This was the first time he showed malice towards the people in the breeding room. I slapped his hand lightly as a punishment, but when I reprimanded him When I looked at him, his expression became innocent again, as if his expression just now was just an illusion caused by my wandering eyes.

"Tao Shu, is there something wrong with you like this? I always feel that you and him... are a bit strange. The way you two just now... feels like he is hypnotizing you." After going out, this is the first thing my colleague told me. sentence.

I was silent, I didn’t know how to answer for a while, and faintly, deep down in my heart, I found that maybe the truth is indeed like that, but I don’t want to believe it emotionally...

"I will keep a distance from him, don't worry... Besides, there are not many days left." The blood vessels on the forehead throbbed, accompanied by a slight pain, which made me at a loss. I could hardly imagine the life of Panshi after he completely separated from human beings. Way, if he is put back to Amut star, will he really be able to survive smoothly?Where is his home?And how can we be sure we sent him off in the right place?

After sitting in the breeding room for a long time in a daze, I realized that I should take a look at the optical brain.

Xie Dongrong contacted me, unexpectedly but not unexpectedly, but at the moment I am not in the mood to talk to him, everything I just learned from the doctor is obviously urgent to be resolved, but I just want to escape.

Is this the so-called bad?

However, reality does not give me a chance to escape.

Just as I was laying the floor and preparing to spend the night in the breeding room, Xie Dongrong contacted me again.

I stared at the optical brain for a long time, and my conscience did not allow me to let it ring like this, let alone the other party was Xie Dongrong.

"I'm here with you now, and you haven't left work yet?" This was Xie Dongrong's first sentence, in a tone that was usually noble and taken for granted.

"Aren't you busy? I'm going to rest in the breeding room tonight." I said this as briefly as possible.

As if choked by my words, Xie Dongrong was silent for a moment, and then spoke again, his voice softened, "The doctor told me that you went to see him today, we can discuss the specific situation..."

I don't know how much the doctor told Xie Dongrong. At this moment, Xie Dongrong's tone is rare and soft. I feel that if I don't go down the stairs, I will be a little ignorant.

"Something happened on Panshi's side. I plan to live here tonight." But I couldn't help but say that.

I thought, why is it that if he wants to see me, he can ask me to come over whenever he wants to see me, but it is so difficult for me to see him, and I can't even get a reasonable explanation?

"Then I'll come to you." This was Xie Dongrong's final answer.

"No, what's the matter tomorrow..." Before he finished speaking, the other end hung up.

As always, Xie Dongrong did not accept any objections to what he wanted to achieve.

He didn't seem to realize that I simply didn't want to see him, and of course, I couldn't believe it myself.

But eventually he came.

The cubicle outside the breeding room was even narrower than my single dormitory on the upper floor. Xie Dongrong entered the door with a short body, his head almost touching the ceiling. He frowned, and he could see that he Very dissatisfied with the environment here.

Here you can see Pan Shi well through the small window. Xie Dongrong turned his head, and through the small window, he seemed to be looking at Pan Shi in the cage in the distance. Are you looking at him, or is he looking at you?"

Here it is again, I can hardly understand his strange jealousy, sitting on the edge of the bed, looking up at him against the light is a little dazzling, a thin layer of mist is cast in front of my eyes, I lower my head.

"Actually, there is nothing to say, just the usual ones..." My mind was in a mess, and I didn't even know what to say for a while, but Xie Dongrong sat beside me, raised his hand and stroked my chin, the next moment, I looked into his blue eyes, and I saw his expression moved for a moment: "Why are you crying?" He asked.

I felt a little ridiculous, and at the same time a little embarrassed and frustrated, almost involuntarily frowned: "I didn't cry, the light dazzled my eyes." I said, and at the same time felt that this was really hypocritical.

"In a bad mood?" Xie Dongrong posted, sometimes he would do this when I was in a low mood, looking very gentle, "I'm really busy today, and I was a little irritable when I spoke... You didn't mind before, why? ?” He touched my face with a coaxing attitude, he would never treat me like this at ordinary times, it felt like...like treating me like a girl?

Thinking of Xie Ningbai for no reason, I couldn't help feeling ridiculous for myself, raised my hand to stop his movement, and said, "The doctor told me about the electric shock."

Xie Dongrong's movements froze for a moment, with some unnaturalness, he lowered his head, and said, "It was decided not long ago, and I haven't figured out how to tell you..."

Have no idea how to tell me?At that moment, I felt very ridiculous. It turned out that his first reaction was not to discuss with me, but to inform me after making his own decision?

Sure enough, it is easy for people to overestimate their position in the heart of the other party.

"Not that I've said it before..." I clenched my fists, trying to reason.

"Tao Shu, you seem to think this bond is very important, but it's not like that to me." Xie Dongrong stared at me with a serious and serious expression.

Looking at his indifferent eyes, I was suddenly speechless.

I can understand what he means. All along, he thinks that the aftereffects that I can't do without me are a chain that binds him tightly, and he can't wait to break free of it, I know it.

But I was not what he thought, trying to bind him with this factor so that he couldn't escape.

I just don't want him to suffer from the electric current passing through his body.

I explained it to him, but unfortunately he never listened, people always assume what they initially assume.

Just like him, just like myself.

I set him as my favorite person, and I will never change my mind.

But he defined me as a shackle, a scar, no matter how hard I tried to turn it around, it was ridiculously futile.

"...that's fine." When I said these two words, the thing that seemed to be tightly strangling my throat suddenly disappeared.

I stared at Xie Dongrong, the cruel appearance of him suffering from the electric shock suddenly disappeared.

Xie Dongrong hugged me and kissed my eyes.

Maybe in his view, I understood him.

But when did I not know him?The only thing I don't know is that he turned his head to look at my time.

That night, in this small room, Xie Dongrong and I did it again and again.

I grabbed the curtains, trying to block the view from the window.

But Xie Dongrong tore off the poor curtain and covered me like crazy, using his own body to whip me with all his strength, from the inside out.

Disappointedly, I cried.But when I think about it carefully, when did I ever live up to it?

Afterwards, Xie Dongrong wrapped me in his arms, held my hand, and asked me to accompany him outside the ward on the day he went to receive electric shock treatment.

He said: "Ashu, I think I like you, I will know when I..."

I was so tired that my hearing was already blurred when he said this.

As expected, the mothership is about to arrive at Star Amut, and the next day we received a notice that we were required to undergo simulated training for flying away from the mothership.

Also, after all, the place where the rock was released is not the same as the place where the mothership docked.

This also means that I will be separated from Xie Dongrong.

Calculating the time, the "electric shock treatment" should have ended by then. Even if I'm not on the mothership, it probably won't have any effect on Xie Dongrong.

What happened that night, of course, the rock saw it.

He refused to approach me, his eyes dodged, with some broken emotions.

Feeling ashamed, I just sat about three meters away from him, silently staring at the semi-finished product in my hand.

This is "Little Shizier No. [-]", probably because I realized that the time to part is approaching. Recently, I have been particularly obsessed with making armors that are similar in shape to rocks.

Arrange the little pebbles from No. [-] to No. [-] in order. Their shapes are like rocks, but their charm has more or less the shadow of the "prince" I imagined.

The story the old man told me almost haunted me. The prince who committed suicide in the end would walk through my dreams every day.

Coupled with the connection between the prince and Xie Dongrong...

Xie Dongrong...

I thought of him again.

I don't know why, when this name appeared in my heart, I couldn't help feeling sad, which made me feel like a little girl who was broken in love... It's a pity that Xie Dongrong and I haven't broken up yet.

Probably because I heard that my itinerary is about to separate from Xie Dongrong. Soon, the "opportunity to know Xie Dongrong's true thoughts" mentioned by the doctor last time is also on the agenda.