the one who lives in my body

After returning to the base, Xie Dongrong was immediately called for a physical examination, and after I was confirmed to be fine, I was released early.

I saw Qiu Xingwen just after leaving the infirmary. He woke up. Although his face looked a little pale, judging from the expression on his face, he seemed to be quite energetic.

"Hmm..." Scratching his head, he walked up to me, looking more cramped than usual, "I heard that you took care of me when I was in the ward..."

Seeing his expression, I said something was wrong, and quickly waved my hands in a gesture of refusal, "Hey, hey, you won't fall in love with me just because of this."

Qiu Xingwen was choked by me, "What!" He laughed out loud, "No! I just want to express my gratitude to you, where are you going!"

With this outburst, the atmosphere between the two of us instantly relaxed. Qiu Xingwen even asked me if the rumors were true, and even made a very exaggerated gesture, asking if I had climbed up to two feet in one fell swoop with my bare hands. On a mech as high as a floor.

I was a little ashamed to hear that, anyway, the two-story building is too exaggerated.

"By the way, you are too weak. It's only the first day of training, why did you fall down?"

As if evoking bad memories of Qiu Xingwen, he waved his hands palely, "I don't know, I felt something wrong when I came to this place, I guess it will be enough in the next few days, it's fine now, but I'm afraid a To the mecha..."

Fortunately, this kid is still a professional in mecha combat, "What a great opportunity, I wasted it by you. I really want to go and see it with you. Can you take a picture of me..."

Just as I was talking, I saw Xie Ningbai, who was full of worry, hurried past me, heading towards the examination room where Xie Dongrong was. Qiu Xingwen and I looked at each other, and finally he said, "Would you like to get involved?"

According to my usual state of mind, no matter what, Xie Ningbai couldn't let Xie Ningbai strike in front of me, but at that time, I felt very relieved for no reason, and seemed very sure in my heart that Xie Dongrong would not have any substantive development with her, so I seemed to be open-minded He hugged Qiu Xingwen's shoulders tightly, "Leave her alone, let's go to your dormitory to play games."

There was nothing to say during the game, but it was not confiscated when it was time to check the dormitory. I was accidentally caught by the instructor on the spot. I was fine. Qiu Xingwen was pointed at his nose and scolded. He was told that he was not serious about participating in the game. Just roll up the bed and stuff like that.

"I used to think that you were talented, hardworking, and a good seed, but now I feel that I can't compare with others, and I can't be selected anyway, so I gave up on myself, right?" The instructor's voice was like a cannon, and it exploded ears. Qiu Xingwen shrank his neck to listen , he almost wrote the word guilt directly on his face.

The door of the dormitory is wide open, the place is not big, and the sound can be heard far away. After a while, several students who came to watch surrounded the door of the dormitory. For more than ten minutes, it was obvious that he wanted to kill the chicken for the monkey to see.

Seeing Qiu Xingwen's eagerness to find a place to bury himself, I felt uncomfortable. After all, I proposed playing games. In a way, I hurt him.

After the instructor left, Qiu Xingwen was silent for a long time with a weeping expression on his face.

"I'm sorry...I..." Before I finished speaking, Qiu Xingwen turned around and unplugged the game console, and put it in my hand together with the handle with great force.

I was dumbfounded, Qiu Xingwen lowered his eyes, and said to me with red eyes: "Take it, and return it to me after you go back to our dormitory..." His tone was full of reluctance to give up.

"No, you don't have to...and it's because of me that I let you..." Holding the game console and handle, I was a little at a loss. Qiu Xingwen rarely showed this expression on weekdays, and it made me wonder what to do for a while. How to deal with it.

"No, I invited you first on the first day..." Probably the more he said, the more sad he became, Qiu Xingwen's eyes became redder and redder, guessing that the fact that he was just taught in public by the instructor was really a big blow to him. The fact that he was the only one sent back today...

"The instructor is right. As a substitute, I didn't think I would be selected when I came here... I just muddled through, and then I saw that you wanted to go so much, and you were so interested in mechs. Look at me, I am so frustrated. It's gone..." Yue Mo said that he was sad, Qiu Xingwen's mouth shrunk, and then burst into tears.

Qiu Xingwen was spoiled by his parents when he was young, and he has hardly suffered any grievances outside. Although some details on weekdays can tell that he is a bit glassy, ​​but most of the time, what I face is his unscrupulous and smirking. when.

This is the first time I saw him cry, I was stunned for a moment, and it took a few seconds for me to react. I pressed Qiu Xingwen's head on my shoulder, patted his back, and listened to him talking about self-destruction over and over again. Then, I began to try my best to comfort him in the way I usually comfort my mother.

Normally a cheerful boy, once he becomes vulnerable, it is really overwhelming...

He wet the cloth on my shoulders from crying.

I think maybe crying is more helpful to release stress.

When I was standing in front of my dormitory door with Qiu Xingwen's game console and controller, I realized that something was wrong.

In the end Qiu Xingwen insisted on giving me the game console.

I don't know how I will react when I see Xie Dongrong.

When he entered the door, Xie Dongrong was only wrapped in a bathrobe. He squatted down and was picking up something on the ground.

His flesh will always give me a big shock, when he turned his head and glanced over, I blushed completely.

Then I found that he was holding it between his fingers, and what he had just picked up from the ground was a small part that fell out of my bag.

The violent heartbeat, I can almost hear it myself.

Xie Dongrong first glanced at the game set in my hand, and then slowly walked over.

For some reason, I was very nervous, so nervous that I didn't know what to do. It is no exaggeration to say that I even forgot to breathe.

His shadow completely covered me, his eyes turned slightly, he paused slightly on my shoulder, frowned, and then smiled mockingly, "Are you still crying?"

Quickly recognized tears on my shoulders.

He was talking about Qiu Xingwen.

"You know." Quickly regaining consciousness, I passed him and placed the host on the table in the room.

"After the physical examination, I passed by the door of his dormitory, and I just heard it." As if thinking of something funny, Xie Dongrong's tone was quite leisurely, and it was easy to see that his attitude towards Qiu Xingwen's experience was gloating.

"How's the result of the physical examination? Are you okay?" I asked.

With a slight wave of his hand, Xie Dongrong obviously didn't want to continue this topic, he passed me, sat on the edge of the bed, and played with the parts in his hand.

"I wanted to play games with you at first, but now I don't dare..." Smiling slightly, I stared at the small parts in his hand, and suddenly wanted to snatch them away, feeling the warmth from him lingering on them. .

"The instructor won't teach me because of this." The corner of his mouth slanted, Xie Dongrong threw the part up and held it in his hand when it fell, "For me, it's a proper entertainment, for the weak, it's a plaything."

This time, without any shyness, he unabashedly expressed his contempt for Qiu Xingwen in front of me.

Qiu Xingwen is my roommate and good friend, I don't want him to be maliciously slandered, even if that person is someone I like, even if what he said is true...

"It's not good to say that, Qiu Xingwen is my friend..."

Throwing the part up again and catching it, Xie Dongrong interrupted me without hesitation: "Are you teaching me a lesson, Tao Shu?"

"It's not education, it's just my intuitive feeling." I tried to harden myself, but I couldn't do it because I lacked confidence.

"But that's the truth, isn't it?" Xie Dongrong narrowed his eyes, and he finally peeled off the skin completely, revealing his malice towards others without concealment, "You don't even know how to refute me."

"Qiu Xingwen never did anything to you, right? I just think it's really unnecessary." After I finished speaking, I felt that my tone was a bit too strong.

Xie Dongrong looked at me, as if he understood my thoughts completely, "Just because he cried in front of you last night, you love him, and you don't hesitate to speak for him, right? Then think about it carefully, That Qiu Xingwen didn't say anything about me in front of you, right? You know he doesn't like me, right?" He spoke faster, and he could hear the anger he was trying to suppress.

I obviously have a lot of things to say in my heart, but looking at Xie Dongrong's face, I suddenly ran out of words.

I can't refute it because what he said is the truth.

Thinking about it carefully, I don't even understand what we are arguing about.

Maybe I shouldn't have said that to him in the first place.

It seems that Xie Dongrong doesn’t like anyone who is around me. Before, I thought he was jealous, but as time passed, I realized that he just clearly understood that “like attracts like and divides into groups”.

He hated me enough, he didn't want me to annoy him by bringing people he hated even more into his sights, that's all.

Although I understood it in my heart, I couldn't lose with my mouth. I smiled and asked him: "Can I understand that you are jealous?"

For several seconds after I finished speaking, Xie Dongrong didn’t react at all. Then he seemed to finally understand what I was talking about. He raised his hand and threw forward the parts that he had been holding in his hand. , steadily, and fell into the trash can in the room without any mistakes.

"You're willing to think so much, and I don't mind." After speaking, as if he had solved a big problem, he pulled up the small hanging lamp beside the bed, nestled under the quilt, and closed his eyes.

I stood there for a while, and after a while, I finally thought about it, moved my feet, raised my hand, and turned off the lamp beside my bed.

"Good night." I said this to Xie Dongrong.

As I lay in bed, I couldn't help laughing at myself.

Could it be that night in the mech that gave me the illusion that my status in his heart had finally improved?

I should have known, my approach, he never allowed.

Like a carrot hanging over my head forever, the previous night was the closest moment he occasionally gave me.

And I'm that poor rabbit who's always trying to jump high, longing for a carrot someday.

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