the one who lives in my body

"Ah Shu, in fact, at my mother's age, I gradually know that love is something that cannot be found. You know, in this regard, my mother's luck is not very good..." Wearing a wedding dress, the Standing in front of me with light makeup on, I realized that this was the first time she knew how to confide in me.

"Occasionally, I will be like a little girl, dreaming that even at this age, I will have an ideal and dedicated husband who will take me away from those miserable lives... But it is just a fantasy after all, Ah Shu, people live this life, It's just to save my breath, mom has worked hard for so many years, and there are only a few things she is persistent about." My mother raised her eyes to look at me, her eyes were full, and for a moment, I couldn't tell the difference between her eyes. Hope is still fragile sadness.

"Since love is no longer available, I still have to find a way to have what I can hold in my hands as much as I can. Mom no longer wants to be surrounded by those contemptuous eyes. To me, Wenyan is actually It is also the best choice... Without him, I would still be a marginal figure in that aristocratic circle. Just getting married can make those people look up from looking down, Ashu, do you understand that feeling? You heard that Is it? They all think that I am a good woman who watches infatuatedly." With a wry smile, my mother raised her hand to straighten her hair hanging on her forehead, "Such a good reputation is rare."

"As for what you said, I haven't thought about it, no matter whether he will be with other women in the future, as long as Mrs. Tao is still me, I... don't matter."

Obviously from her eyes, I can see that she may still love Tao Wenyan, but at this moment I realize that her love for him has no conflict with her desire to embezzle all the benefits he brings.

For a while, I didn't know whether to be happy or sad. I only knew that maybe when the incident happened one day, she might not be as sad as I thought before.

Well, that's enough.

"Also... Mom has to apologize to you first." Lowering her head, Shen Yi took my hand, "Because you asked me not to tell, so Wen Yan didn't know your relationship with Dongrong, Dongrong's blood is special On the one hand, the two of you brothers know the basics, and on the other hand, they are more compatible in blood, and now Naming needs the help of the Tao family... Xinguang also likes Dongrong. Wenyan is kind and wants to help Naming. Originally, I was worried that Dongrong might not like Xinguang, but now..."

"Don't worry," Ning Mei, I explained, "Many things can be resolved without the so-called marriage."

Staring at me silently, for a long time, my mother smiled and sighed, "Okay, Mom believes you, the ceremony will start soon, and Mom will go back first."

Looking at the back of my mother who left gracefully, I realized that maybe she knew everything about Tao Wenyan, and she was not as pure and innocent as I thought. Her purpose has always been very clear ——As a nobleman, go back to the circle you used to be in, no matter what the price is.

Even if the price is her own.

Yes, maybe Tao Wenyan may still betray her in the end, but just by virtue of her status as the "Madam of the Palace", she can already have everything she wants.

Originally, I was always afraid that my mother would be bullied in Tao's house, and I always wondered why she would endure Tao Wenyan's many words and deeds.

That may not be because she is stupid, but just for this day...

It's no wonder that Tao Wenyan mocked my mother like that. In a way, he does know her better than I do.

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I wanted to bring An Guo to play with An Jingtong, but An Guo insisted on staying by my uncle's side, saying, there are too many people, and the husband can't stand such a crowded environment.

Helpless, I came to this place alone, and in the end I left alone.

An Jingtong is very good at finding a location. If I hadn't deliberately sent a message to ask, it is really impossible for me to find such a small corner.

An Jingtong grabbed my arm and gently pulled me into that corner, like a mysterious agent, he said: "Just now, I saw the queen."

In fact, it is not appropriate to call the Queen "Queen" now, but since we all know who this word represents, it doesn't matter whether it is corrected or not.

In fact, there is nothing surprising about it. Given the relationship between the queen and the Tao family, it is not surprising that she will come here to attend the wedding. As the king who "manages everything every day", An Hexuan should have given out the gift he prepared by the queen. Bar.

Seeing An Jingtong's whole body on guard, as if his hair was blown up, I couldn't help secretly feeling funny.

He said: "The queen just walked in, and I saw that she seemed to have said a few words to your father."

with my father?Oh, Tao Wenyan, seeing An Jingtong's innocent face, I can't force him to correct this word, but the queen talked to Tao Wenyan?This is not surprising. Recalling the interaction between her and Tao Wenyan when she first met the queen, I guess they should be considered half acquaintances.

"He is the bridegroom, and the queen will send him blessings...probably."

"Hmm... That's right, but Brother Shu, let's go on an adventure!" It is indeed a novel experience to hear the word "adventure" from a boy of An Jingtong's age.

"Adventure? What kind of adventure?" Reminiscent of the ball in the palace a long time ago, An Jingtong and I shuttled inside the palace. At that time, I always had the illusion that he was a child. I didn't expect to have a similar feeling at this moment. Maybe I'm too precocious?However, communicating with such a person, I really feel that I am much younger with him.

"Let's follow the queen to have a look!" An Jingtong seemed to have light in his eyes.

This man An Jingtong... talks about his dislike for An Boyan, but he is probably still thinking about the words An Boyan said when he left.

"Stalking the queen, if it is discovered, it will be a disaster. I will not participate." Holding him back, not only do I not want to participate, but I also don't want An Jingtong to participate.

I don't know what that guy An Boyan thinks, but he can say that kind of entrustment to such a person.

I was very persistent at first, but I couldn't bear An Jingtong's repeated begging. Wait and see, come any closer, I won't agree.

An Jingtong is a strange person, as if he has some supernatural powers, but he can play some very formal occasions with the thrill of living in the jungle. The Tao family is very big. I have been here once, and I don’t even know the internal structure. , he began to take me through various corner trails at high speed.

Can this really find the queen?I very much doubt that this kid is doing something wrong.

"Are you praying?" Tao Wenyan's familiar voice made me stiffen, and I dragged An Jingtong to hide in a corner. Not long after, Tao Wenyan and the queen walked side by side, "Bracelet? I wonder if I have the honor to watch it?" Tao Wenyan's tone was cheerful.

I don't know whether it was luck or bad luck, but not long after passing the corner where we were, the pace of the two of them slowed down.

The queen stretched out her hand, raised her wrist, and handed it to Tao Wenyan.

"Wow, it's really the master's handwriting. I remember I asked for it before, and he didn't even want to see me." I have to say, Tao Wenyan's flattery is really good enough.

The queen chuckled, "I can ask for one for you later."

"Okay, let's ask for... a happy family." Tao Wenyan spoke without changing his face, and wondered if his tongue would flash, "I wonder what the queen is asking for?"

"...Of course, I want Hexuan to have a smooth journey ahead." He spoke in a leisurely manner, and the movement of withdrawing his hand was also graceful, which really is the grace only of a queen.

After hearing what the queen said, Tao Wenyan burst out laughing, and said, "You still care about the world, but it seems that I am small."

Just like that, the two slowly left my field of vision.

An Jingtong tilted his head, "I don't seem to have said anything important."

"Is that still an adventure?" I asked.

"Yes, but is it time to eat? Or let's go to eat first."

Feeling a little funny, I asked him, "What if the queen ran away?"

"Let's choose a table closer to the queen." After speaking, An Jingtong took my hand and walked towards the main hall.

I didn't expect to meet Xie Dongrong as soon as I entered the main hall.

He lowered his eyes and stared at the hand that An Jingtong and I were holding together, curled the corners of his lips, and said, "So you guys came together today, so I said why I sent out the invitation, but Ah Shu ignored me."

Unconsciously, I felt hot in my ears, and I didn't know what I was guilty of. Fortunately, I was able to raise my head and tell him: "Didn't I reply to you later? I promised Jingtong early in the morning, there must be someone who comes first, first come first." Bar."

Without expressing too much emotion to my explanation, Xie Dongrong walked up to me, and I smelled a faint fragrance from him. Today, he is wearing a light-colored suit that fits him, and with his eyes, he looks very beautiful, leaning slightly body, and in a voice only the two of us could hear, he said, "I'll go find you tonight where you live."

It’s true that it’s been a while since the last time. I didn’t know how to feel about it. Fortunately, Xie Dongrong walked away without waiting for my answer.

"Brother Shu..." I didn't come back to my senses until An Jingtong pulled me, and I happened to find the queen at a glance, and I said to An Jingtong, "Let's go there."

"it is good!"

Fortunately, An Jingtong didn't ask too many questions. He could sense the strangeness in my heart and kept silent about things I didn't want to mention. I am very grateful to him.

Unexpectedly, not unexpectedly, the princess was still sitting at the queen's table. I wanted to go up to say hello to the princess, but today she seemed to be a little abnormal, she kept lowering her eyes and frowning slightly, even in the past The polite smiles of the guests were all gone, and the queen sat beside her very naturally, but she didn't look arrogant and didn't intend to talk to her. It seems that the rumors are true, and the relationship between the two of them is not very good .

Xie Dongrong would not sit at the same table with his mother, he probably went to chat with his old acquaintances of the nobles, but within sight, I couldn't find him.

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