the one who lives in my body

Will he be angry?Just face him like that, I thought.

At this time, a crisp bird song sounded in my ears.

"It's okay, there won't be a next time." Walking to me again, Xie Dongrong's expression was indifferent, with no emotion visible, "Let's go eat first."

Just like the previous few times, this time I still brought the blueprints and proposals with me. Xie Dongrong seemed to have prepared everything for the next step. He told me, "Let's go to Namin, it's the most convenient."

Xie Dongrong was right. Logically speaking, it was indeed a place suitable for discussion in all aspects.

The princess seemed to have known from the beginning that I would be coming, and as usual, I was treated with the warmest hospitality.

With the princess here, I originally thought that I wouldn't be so embarrassed.

But I didn't expect the doctor to come.

When the servant in charge of leading the way brought him to us, I was explaining the most complicated part to Xie Dongrong.

Facing the doctor's gaze, the three of us looked at each other, and fell into a deathly silence.

At first I thought it was Xie Dongrong's arrangement again, until the princess came forward to explain in time, saying that the doctor originally just wanted to see how Xie Dongrong used the sedative.

"You two just happen to be here, that's just right." Sitting in front of us, his eyes swept over the faces of me and Xie Dongrong in turn, the doctor stroked his chin, "Dong Rong, come with me to check the indicators first, I heard you recently Stop fighting all of a sudden? It will definitely have a certain impact on your life..."

"Okay." Xie Dongrong frowned, stood up, "Go up and talk."

Before leaving, Xie Dongrong's hand lightly patted my shoulder: "It's okay, we'll continue when we come back." His voice was very low, and he only spoke, his lips were close to my ear.

He turned around, followed the doctor's footsteps, and left.

Looking at Xie Dongrong's back, I suddenly felt that he was trying to cover up something, or that there was something he really didn't want me to know.

"Shu Shu." The princess' voice brought me back to my senses. She was sitting next to me, wearing the usual attire for receiving guests at home, as noble and elegant as ever, "Actually, Auntie has always wanted to ask you... Are we Dongrong in love? "

The princess's words froze my mind for a moment. I naturally know that the princess is not a person who would test others for no reason, but in my impression, she has always been forbearing and elegant. This is the first time that she secretly asked me Xie Dongrong's condition.

I'm the only one who doesn't want to deceive the princess, but helplessly, only this matter, I can't answer truthfully, "I don't really know, what happened, Your Highness?"

"You still call me Your Highness, Ashu is still being polite to me at this time." She smiled helplessly at me and said, the princess sighed, "You know that child Dongrong, he is stubborn, and he refuses to say anything when asked. , I thought, Shushu is his friend, if I have more contact with him, can I know something..."

"As a parent, you really shouldn't interfere with your child's privacy too much. I just said that I am afraid that if this continues, it will affect his health."

The princess looked embarrassed, and I couldn't help but straighten my face.

"...Can you tell me more about it? Actually, I don't know too well..."

As a human being with Amut genes in his body, Xie Dongrong will inevitably be special in some aspects.

Estrus, slow growth, and some unreasonable physical and psychological demands.

I know all of these.

I have not forgotten that, before we boarded the mothership, considering that Xie Dongrong had just entered sexual maturity, the doctor specially prepared drugs to suppress estrus for him.

As a breeder who used to be a rock, I also know what kind of state the Amut people will be in at certain times.

I can't forget the days on the mothership, and I certainly don't want to think about it.

When we were together, Xie Dongrong never injected the medicine given by the doctor, because as his boyfriend at the time, I spent every night with him as a matter of course, and naturally played a certain role in his estrus period. effect.

Before I left, I had thought about Xie Dongrong's physical problems, and even quietly asked the doctor.

The doctor gave me the answer: "The dose I gave him should be enough, but according to that kid's charm, it should be no problem to find a partner who can rely on him on the mothership..."

According to the princess, in the past three years, Xie Dongrong, who has been focusing on his career, has no plans to find a spouse. He will also inject drugs to suppress estrus regularly. Although it will cause some discomfort to his body, in the end, those drugs will also It still managed to make him survive these three years.

"It stands to reason that the sexually mature Amut people should gradually stabilize their physical condition as their minds stabilize." The princess lowered her eyes and frowned slightly, "But Dong Rong's situation is a bit special. When it was time to stabilize, he became more and more serious, and recently...he began to refuse injections. At first, my father and I didn't know about it, until the doctor told us that his values ​​were abnormal after a physical examination. , we just found out."

"We begged him to say why, but he kept his mouth shut and told us that he didn't think it was necessary."

"But his physical abnormality actually exists!" At the end, the princess was a little excited.

Refuse to inject?

I couldn't help slowing down my breathing, my heart felt like it was being squeezed hard by something, it was extremely uncomfortable.

Indeed, there is no need for Xie Dongrong to tell me these things, but it cannot be said that it has nothing to do with me.

When the doctor came down from the second floor, Xie Dongrong followed behind.

The princess stood up, as if she wanted to ask something.

The doctor said to me at this moment: "Tao Shu, come."

For a moment, I didn't know what expression to make, so I stood up numbly and walked towards the stairs.

When I passed by Xie Dongrong, I heard him whispering in my ear: "I'll go to your room later."

Why is it my room?Before I had time to ask questions, the doctor had already opened the door for me on the other end.

"long time no see."

"Long time no see." I smiled, thinking that this opening sentence is so corny.

"After the separation, do you still have contact with each other?"

"Nothing."

"No? Young people nowadays are so ruthless?"

If the doctor knew the real situation, he probably wouldn't have said that, "Just to be on the safe side." I said dumbly.

"You once talked about your feelings for him? May I know that you still..." The doctor's voice was drawn out.

"Nothing."

"Okay, that is to say, are you still getting along as friends now?" The doctor smiled, and he stared at me, making me terrified for no reason.

Of course, it may also be because I have a guilty conscience.

Hearing the doctor's question, I couldn't help being annoyed again. Sure enough, people shouldn't lie, and I even started to panic—is this illusory lie going to continue?If it's about Xie Dongrong's body... I think it's better not to lie anymore.

Of course, this matter has to be discussed with Xie Dongrong.

"Yeah." Finally, I replied like this.

He squinted his eyes, as if he had heard some interesting news, "I thought you would be the one who was more deeply affected by this time, but it turns out it's the opposite..."

"What do you mean?" I was worried, and I suspected that my concealment would cause the doctor to misdiagnose.

"You have had special feelings for each other since you were young. This is very normal. For example, Xie Dongrong in the past always had an inexplicable hatred for you, but you are infinitely tolerant. Even if you try to hide it, I can still get a glimpse of it. This is the sequelae of your symbiosis..."

If possible, I don't want the doctor to sum up our complex emotions in three simple words, but I also know that such a request is rude.

"Because of this, you may not be able to tell your true feelings for each other. Now you have come out, and Dong Rong...you should know his physical condition."

Reminiscent of what the princess told me just now, an answer is ready to come out.

"Yes, what's wrong?"

"He is unwilling to inject inhibitory drugs. I think it is very likely that he regards you as his spouse. The depression of injecting inhibitors all year round has caused him to have such an illusion. Therefore, he may have some more aggressive behaviors. Courtship behavior..." At this point, the doctor stroked his chin and frowned, "Although it is hard to imagine, it is true in theory."

Treat me as a spouse?illusion?I thought I was hearing something in my sleep.

"Wait doctor, I really want to know... Is there any basis for saying so?"

"...Of course, otherwise, why would Xie Dongrong and I have such a long conversation? But..." Speaking of this, the doctor's expression was a little playful, "Are you sure you want to hear it?"

I straightened my face and just said, "I think I need to know."

"...Although he said it very cryptically, in my opinion, you are the object of his sexual fantasies."

The room fell into a long silence. Seeing the doctor's serious expression, I felt that what I was talking about with the doctor should not be this, but something else.

"That doesn't mean..."

"Although this is just my personal judgment, I think this may be the main reason why Xie Dongrong identified you as a spouse."

But even so, what can I do?

"Tao Shu, you don't have to worry. I'm here to tell you this to let you know that all of this may not be really because of love. I just hope that you won't make a big mistake by giving Dong Rong an undeserved response."

When I walked back to the first floor, my mind was dizzy, I greeted the princess, and found that the original drawings on the coffee table were gone, and I remembered that Xie Dongrong should have put them away and waited for me in my room. Then he dragged his pace and moved slowly.

Why is it my room?Until I stood at the door of the room, I still didn't understand the reason. I felt that even going to Xie Dongrong's room was much more reasonable than running all the way to my room.

Opening the door, I saw Xie Dongrong sitting on the edge of my bed, my quilt was thinly covering his legs, he looked over, his face was flushed abnormally.

In the air, I can even faintly smell those scents that I am most familiar with, exclusive to him.

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Rest tomorrow.