the one who lives in my body

As long as you pay close attention, even in an empty and secret hospital bed in the ship, you can hear the situation below about the human occupation of Amut Star.

This is indeed convenient, but it also makes me very painful.

The psychiatrist on the ship didn’t quite understand my situation at the beginning, in fact, I didn’t understand what I was like, I just felt that my soul was floating above my body, I stared at my body, I was unscrupulous Thinking deeply, at the same time, I don't feel anything about the outside world.

—Would it hurt me so much to leave the Amut?I can't help but ask myself.

Maybe not because of that, I think, at least, not entirely.

Regarding the colors on the body that are exclusive to the Amut people, the doctor took me to wash them almost every day, and it took several days for my original skin color to fully reveal.

The doctor said that this juice is very special and needs to be studied. He also said that it may be this special liquid that makes me so dull and silent now.

At first I did not agree with this statement, but after thinking about it, the doctor may have a certain truth, but now that the matter is a foregone conclusion, let him go.

Later, I didn't know what happened, and I started to have high fever for no reason.

The brain has an indescribable and extremely uncomfortable feeling, but the body actually cannot feel the pain. Even if you search carefully, it is difficult to find where you feel uncomfortable.

Several times, I was sent to the intensive care unit.

Of course, in the end I was carried out safely, otherwise how could I say these words in such a relaxed tone at this moment?

It just so happened that when I returned to the normal ward from the ICU for the second time, the doctor's examination report already had the results of the juice.

He gave my disease a very vivid name - Amut Astrosickness.

As the name suggests, the object of this lovesickness is the land of Amut Star.

The doctor did an experiment. It’s amazing that not only me, but also other creatures from the earth, if the juice is attached to the skin, over time, the attachment to Amut star will indeed appear. Feelings, they behave like a drug addiction attack, madness, pain, and some individuals even die because of it.

It stands to reason that such a reaction is the most violent when a person has just forcibly separated from Amut Star and washed off the color of his body.

But for the first time ever, while the Amuts were applying this potion to my skin, they were continuously feeding me with their own food, which seemed to counteract the effects of the juice, thereby This lessened the symptom, so that in the end, all I showed was a high fever.

What is "just a high fever"!Even though I just have a high fever, I still feel very uncomfortable, hey!

Anyway, without the Amut's knowledge, they might have killed me and then saved me.

Because the working principle of this juice is very complicated, with the Amut people's level of literature, obviously, they are not enough to explain all this from a scientific point of view.

Let's not talk about these, anyway, now I finally found the reason for my high fever.

Of course, although the theory is clear, it does not help my illness itself. I am still sick dutifully and have no intention of recovering. Think it's wrong.

Eventually, they called in the Doctor.

I have to say that with the care of a reliable old acquaintance, Dr., I immediately felt relieved. Although on the surface I was still burned unconscious, in my blurred vision, even if I only saw his outline, I felt relieved. I feel at ease from the bottom of my heart.

The doctor took care of me for a while, and finally proposed a solution that he thought was reasonable from a scientific point of view—call Xie Dongrong back and let him stay with me.

Because he felt that this may not only be the attachment disorder of Amut star, but also a large part of it may be the sequelae after breaking up with Xie Dongrong.

I think the doctor is just talking nonsense, this neurotic old guy, has he been so dazed that he attributed all the situation of me and Xie Dongrong to that simple reason?

The doctor said: "After all, you have developed feelings of admiration for him, because now he is in the middle of a war, risking his life at any time...Don't think about all this so simply, after all, what is inside your body? You don't know what happened, do you?"

This time, my resistance can be described as "sitting up in shock in a dying illness".

I grabbed the doctor's hand and emphasized over and over again, I don't need Xie Dongrong to come back for me, I don't want to, and I don't want to do it, I didn't even think of him during this time, please don't do such unnecessary things.

At this time, I suddenly discovered that I didn't know when I started to be unable to bear any dedication that Xie Dongrong might bring to me. Although "his dedication" seems to be something I have never owned, but I sincerely hope that there will be no more after this.

Maybe, deep down, I realized what a terrible price I was paying just for asking him to commit himself to me.

I can't afford to pay back everything about him.

But unfortunately, Xie Dongrong returned to the ship not long after.

In fact, my condition had improved at that time. When I heard the news, I was almost so angry that I went back to the previous state. However, when I asked the doctor for confirmation, he innocently stated that he did not call I asked Xie Dongrong to come back, but Xie Dongrong's news network is very wide. It must not be a particularly difficult thing to get my situation to him, but the time will be a little later.

Staring at Xie Dongrong in military uniform standing in front of the bed, my heart felt unspeakably heavy. I didn't want him to see me like this, and I didn't want myself to be his trouble. Now, I just hope that I can have To stand with him with dignity, as an equal, no matter how much time it takes me, instead of being like this...

"Since you need me, you should have someone notify me earlier." Xie Dongrong's voice was deep, reminiscent of a fine piece of ink.

I didn't know how to properly express my true thoughts on him, I opened my mouth, and in the end I could only say: "Actually, I'm almost better now, sorry, I didn't want to waste your time..."

"I didn't come here to hear your apology," Xie Dongrong interrupted me, he sat beside me, staring at me with his eyes, "It's good, I talked a little more than at the beginning." He said.

I don't know what to say, so I can only ask him to help me take my semi-finished mech bag and continue my manual work. Only when I focus on one thing like this can I forget the relationship between me and him Awkward.

Awkward?Well, Xie Dongrong obviously didn't think so. Just when I was about to concentrate, he raised his hand and stroked my forehead, saying that I had a fever again, and called the nurse.

His arrival obviously made my place the center of everything. After a while, a large number of people came to greet me. All the checks that had been done had to be done again. The nurses described to Xie Dongrong that I was in pain and distress a few days ago. They talked happily about all kinds of situations, and their eyes even glowed, staring at Xie Dongrong's face with that kind of admiration.

In the past, I would definitely be jealous of this, I think, but now, for some reason, even when Xie Dongrong talked to women, I didn’t feel anything in my heart (actually during this period, Xie Ningbai also came once, of course she was He wanted to take a look at Xie Dongrong mainly by looking at me, but it was strange, at this moment, Xie Ningbai was no different from other women in my eyes).

Lying on the hospital bed, looking at Xie Dongrong surrounded by everyone, I even felt that this is all he should have.

My "encounter" obviously made Xie Dongrong feel guilty. When we got together again alone, he gently touched the sweat that didn't exist on my face with a wet towel, and said, "Why don't you tell me?"

"You say I'm dishonest, what about you?" he asked me.

I didn't know how to answer, I just looked at him in the blink of an eye, I just felt that his blue eyes were like beautiful gems, very beautiful.

When the dinner was brought over, Xie Dongrong stared at the porridge for a long time, as if he was dissatisfied with the unrefined food.

His appearance was a little funny, I watched it, and I couldn't help but feel better, when I was about to raise my hand to take the bowl, I saw Xie Dongrong picked up the bowl and spoon quite naturally, he tried the temperature with his lips, The posture seemed to be feeding me.

My heart tightened, and I quickly raised my hand, "Let me do it, I can do it."

Xie Dongrong's face was not very good-looking, and he only said two words concisely: "Lie down."

I resigned myself to lying back.

Facts have proved that Xie Dongrong does not have any talent for taking care of people, because of him, my only hospital gown was stained with rice.

But Xie Dongrong didn't think it was his fault at all, he muttered that it was due to my lack of cooperation.

I wanted to laugh when I heard it, and said to myself that this kid is indeed quite cute. This is also the reason why I was lucky and refused to part with him at the beginning. Falling in love with him is indeed very good. Thinking about it this way, my life is not a pity. .

Soon, Xie Dongrong helped me find a new hospital gown, and locked eyes on me, urging me to put it on.

It's just that I got naked during the process of changing clothes. In fact, I don't think there is any need to pay too much attention to this kind of thing... If Xie Dongrong's eyes are not so hungry.

Yes, I said it without exaggeration, like a hungry wolf, although it only appeared for a moment, and was quickly hidden by his serious expression.

I don't know why, but at this moment, the look in his eyes that makes people can't help but tightly cover their clothes makes me feel a little uncomfortable, although this is not the first time I have faced such a situation.

I realize that Xie Dongrong and I may not be in the same state as two couples who have broken up.

I wanted to remind him, but I didn't find the right time. The probability that he would laugh at me instead was higher.

Since then, Xie Dongrong has been by my side and has no intention of leaving.

I know that he is actually very busy. Messages will come from the military headquarters from time to time. He has connected to countless communications. He is commanding the battlefield and observing the battle situation from the air.

"Xie Dongrong, why don't you go back, I have no problem here." The night of Amut star has come, the light outside the window has dimmed, and I heard myself say these words.

The author says:

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