the one who lives in my body

When I was alone with Xie Dongrong, it was inevitable that I would feel nervous, which seemed to be an instinctive stress response from my body. Fortunately, looking at the bath water that was constantly being dyed, I realized how much I am at this moment. Dirty, and because of this, I didn't have any strange reaction to Xie Dongrong's touch.

As if realizing how dirty I am at the moment, Xie Dongrong gently clicked his tongue in my ear.

His back hurts a bit from the bruising, but his skin tone is only a little lighter, as if the pigment has penetrated into the deepest part of the skin, it seems that it is only once, and it cannot be cleaned with conventional methods.

Looking at myself in the mirror, the darker complexion showed a bit of redness caused by friction, which looked a bit nondescript. Xie Dongrong stood behind me, and his figure looked very tall. I stared at his ivory white complexion, I feel that he is as fascinating as an ancient male statue, which is in stark contrast to me.

Such a person, what happened to his eyes before he agreed to associate with me?Numbly, I turned around and walked out, followed by Xie Dongrong, like a hunter looking at his prey.

The rest cabin where Xie Dongrong is located is located at the core of the mech. Its area is actually not too big. It has one bedroom, one living room, one kitchen and one bathroom, and there is only one bed.

From a distance, I saw Xie Dongrong's bed sheet, where I "visited" just now, was exactly right, with the shape of a buttock printed in a dark brown color, which looked a little funny.

"Get ready to take a break." Presumably Xie Dongrong has been on the road without sleep during this time. He is showing a little fatigue at this moment, and I have been sleeping several times while waiting for the team to arrive, even if it is true now. It's time to rest, and I'm full of energy, not to mention resting with Xie Dongrong.

While the impression of Amut and those Amut people is still clear in my mind, I want to continue my "creation", and I have a hunch that it will be the most perfect of all my works, both in form and Structurally.

"Go to sleep first." I turned and walked towards the small sofa in the cabin. Looking at the whole room, this place seems to be the only place where people can rest besides the bed. Even if one person sleeps on it, it will still appear It's just cramped.

"I haven't slept well these few days." Xie Dongrong's voice sounded from behind me, and I could feel that he was looking at me, "If you didn't suddenly... I mean, I remembered that you still wanted to tell me bed time story……"

Is there?With my eyes slightly upward, I stared at the lights in the cabin. How long ago was this?It feels like it came from the deepest part of my memory, and I can't even remember it.

"Well, I was drunk then," I said.

In fact, I'm quite curious. For such a long time, Xie Dongrong didn't mention our breakup even once. Did he not see it?But it doesn't make sense, that place is so conspicuous...

"You don't seem to be looking well..." Xie Dongrong came over, "Did it scare you during this time?" He raised his hand, as if he wanted to touch my head. At that moment, for some reason, it was like instinct , I took a step back.

For a moment, Xie Dongrong and I were both stunned. My action obviously easily shattered Xie Dongrong's hard-earned tenderness. He is a person with good face, and when he realized that his kindness might be rejected, he immediately straightened his face , "After I go back, I will help you arrange the best doctor to treat you, and you sacrificed your life to let other people escape. Although I am very angry, I also admire it."

Xie Dongrong actually praised me. Anyone who hears other people's praise will feel happy and happy, not to mention that this compliment was given to me by Xie Dongrong who has always disdained anyone?

I smiled, "Thank you for the compliment."

Xie Dongrong just looked at me like that, as if the one standing in front of him was not the Tao Shu he used to know, but in fact it should be the same. I can only describe it like this -

There is another planet with such vitality beyond the earth. The world is so big, and the universe is so big. I feel that my eyes suddenly open up. In the past, I tried to order myself to get closer to Xie Dongrong, but maybe it was too close Well, plus he is taller than me, it blocks all my vision.

Although I am indeed a very small existence, but what if, I mean if, I leave everything I have now to find a brand new life?

The Vanity Fair in the capital city may never have been prepared for people like me.

This is the answer I came up with during the past period of time, during the countless nights when emotions arose for no reason, and during the countless nights when I imagined that Xie Dongrong would take me out of that hut.

It's no wonder that Xie Dongrong didn't come down from the sky to save me from the fire, after all, I myself feel that such a fantasy is extremely stupid.

I just started to doubt my way of thinking about wanting someone else to save me.

I don't know how to explain all this to Xie Dongrong. When facing him, I feel like I have suffered from aphasia. I don't know, and I don't want to express anything in front of him.

As for Yuemo, Xie Dongrong thought I was too silent. He seemed to have identified some kind of mental illness that I suffered from when I lived with the Amut people. He seemed a little irritable, although I tried to explain to him that things might not be what he meant. As expected, but he wouldn't listen.

He also sent some doctors who provided psychological counseling to the soldiers to chat with me, and the final answer was indeed that I may indeed have a certain degree of psychological problems.

Really?Staring at the palm of my hand, to be honest, I don't believe it.

Although I did lose some weight during this time, and I did not like to talk as much as before, but... I really think I am not sick, I am just thinking about some problems... Well, maybe.

Later, some people in charge of strategic deployment asked me to point out where the Amut people in this area mainly live. What can I say?I didn't want to say anything, I tried my best to keep silent, even though they kept talking about loyalty to the country, or respect for the dead soldiers.

Of course I feel very uncomfortable when they say this, but I really can't convince myself to let humans attack the Amut people, so I can only keep silent and keep silent.

In the end, it was Xie Dongrong who was the first to lose sight of it.

As a young officer, although he has a high status, in terms of combat experience, he is obviously not as prestigious as those seniors who are on the same level as him.

He said that I was sick, and my condition could no longer withstand such questioning. Would this make my spirit even more broken?

Yeah?I don't know, maybe if I do this a few more times, I will really become like that, but seeing Xie Dongrong exaggerate my situation, I still find it very funny... Of course, I am also a little bit happy.

In fact, Xie Dongrong was pretty good to me. Anyway, at such a moment, he also took my feelings into consideration.

Although I don't know if he will want to kill me when he knows the truth.

In the end, I couldn't stand Xie Dongrong arguing with the upper-level officers over this.

He might be branded an "emotional dude" by them, which I don't want.

So I pointed them in a direction - the direction to leave this forest.

"The Amut people here are very cunning, and the plants here are even intelligent. They may unite the entire forest to deal with humans."

"Leave, forcibly breaking through here will take a lot of time."

This is the longest thing I've said these days.

In the conference room, Xie Dongrong stared at me, and I only looked at him for a moment.

However, at this moment, I knew that he might have seen through my thoughts.

Sure enough, that night, when he returned to the cabin, he firmly held my shoulders with both hands and asked me, "Have you sided with the Amut people?"

I could only look back and tell him: "Xie Dongrong, you understand my situation, there are some things I really can't do."

Then what did Xie Dongrong say?

Oh, by the way, he said I was bloodless and annoying like a woman.

It seems that he completely hates me.

If it was before, I should be very sad, but now, I just feel relieved.

fair enough.

The human army walked through this mysterious and changeable jungle for about half a month, and finally chose to go to the way out that I pointed out at the beginning.

They didn't intend to spend so much time for the Amut people in one area.

When I left the jungle, I knew that Pan Shi and the others were safe.

However, this meant the downfall of the rest of the Amut.

Because of my lack of cooperation and the so-called "mental illness", Xie Dongrong arranged for me to return to the mothership.

And he will continue to stay and fight.

When I left, I felt that Xie Dongrong and I seemed very indifferent.

It feels like just two strangers who are a little more familiar. I'm afraid no one would have guessed that not long ago we were glued together like glue.

But that's right, right now, it's obviously not the time to talk about love.

When the spaceship carrying me was getting farther and farther away from the surface of Amut, I realized that the moment I stepped on the stairs just now might be the last moment when my feet stepped on Amut.

At this moment, staring at its appearance, I found that it is completely different from when I came.

The flames of war have scorched the ground black, and the smoke rising from the ground is proof of the merciless plundering of human beings.

How much I want to ask Xie Dongrong, why all this happened?Why did the hesitant soldier become what he is now, and why...he who originally disapproved of the king's regime also became excited about killing?

These questions puzzled me day and night, made me dizzy and sad, and made me wonder what night it is.

I think, I should really be sick.

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