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Xu Yunqing was still sitting upright with his back straight, but his expression was frozen and pale: "Have you been in the United States all these years?"

"After finishing my studies, I stayed there to work and get a green card. Later, I adopted a little girl." Su Liang lowered his eyes: "At the beginning of last year, my daughter passed away. She had congenital heart disease. The dean of Kangxing is me. My old classmate, after knowing about it, invited me to go back to China for development. I also wanted to change my environment, so I came back.”

Xu Yunqing was noncommittal, and smiled lightly: "You should know that I am in N City when you come back this time."

The sun slanted in from the window and fell on Su Liang's head, making his white hair even more glaring: "I know you don't want to see me, and don't want to disturb you...The last time I was in the hospital was because I saw your medical records. I was worried that you were having a bad life...but at the time I thought you knew what was going on. As a result, I met you at the cemetery two days ago, and you were so emotional that I guessed that your mother might not have told you..."

"Is it interesting to push everything on a woman?" Xu Yunqing interrupted him, "I don't know the so-called truth, is it because my mother concealed it from me? The reason why my father died in the hospital is because my mother didn't listen Explain? All the faults are hers. She has been favored, so she deserves to be cheated into marriage? You are wronged, right? You said you loved him, but what happened? When my dad was sent to the hospital, you were sent to the hospital Asylum sent to the United States, you are sitting in front of me now, he has been buried in the ground for 20 years."

"Yun Qing, calm down." Seeing that he was so angry that he couldn't sit still, Tao Liyang pressed his shoulder with one hand, and said in a low voice, "Be obedient, calm down first."

Xu Yunqing held his arm firmly, looked at Su Liang's pale and slumped face, and took a deep breath.A weird smile that was uglier than crying appeared on his face: "You know he died, so do you know how he died? How much pain did he have before he died, how many injuries did he have on his body?... No, I can't blame you. His voice suddenly dropped, "I can't blame you, I can't blame anyone..."

Tao Liyang knew what Xu Yunqing was going to say next, and he wanted to cover his mouth to prevent him from saying it, but Xu Yunqing always had an unreasonable stubbornness in this matter: "After all, I watched him die. , I was there the whole time, I didn't stop him, I was the one who killed him, if he hates you, he must also hate me..."

Unlike what he told Tao Liyang that night, Xu Yunqing's tone was unusually calm at this moment, and his voice was also very soft.Su Liang stared at him dumbfounded, but when he came back to his senses, his first reaction was to shake his head again and again: "Xiao Ning, don't think so, don't think so... If your father knows that you think so, he won't feel at ease."

Xu Yunqing sneered, and said disdainfully, "You know him again?"

"You hate me and don't believe me. You should. But I'm also Qi Ming's psychiatrist." Su Liang's complexion hadn't recovered yet, and when he spoke, his hands trembled unnaturally.

"Your father's depression is more serious than you think, and he has a strong suicidal tendency. Especially when he was just married, his condition worsened, and he couldn't live and work normally during that time. I am his doctor, I love him, but I can't help him. I can only watch him suffer, give him medicine, and barely ease his pain, but then he really gets better because of you."

Su Liang stared at Xu Yunqing across the table: "Qi Ming has been very unhappy, even shortly before you were born, your grandma passed away. He committed suicide by cutting his wrist on the night after the funeral. When you were born, he was still lying in the ward Inside, there was no will to live. The nurse took you out of the delivery room, and I carried you to him, and you held his fingers. He spoke to me for the first time after being rescued, and he said , 'Is this my baby?' I knew in that moment that he was going to survive."

On the pottery stove at the side, the water was boiling, making a puffing sound, and the tea aroma carried a faint bitterness.

"As you grow up slowly, your father will gradually get better. So you may not see much difference in his mental state in your memory. Xiao Ning, you don't understand how grateful I am to you. If Without your birth, he might have..."

A line of tears fell from the corner of Su Liang's eyes, which was too late to wipe away: "He must have reached the point where he can't bear it and will seek death again. Even if you stop him, there will be another time. Since he has this thought again, even you can't save him." He died. It's my fault that he got to this point, not yours. If he knows that you have been blaming yourself for this matter all these years, he will only blame himself for scaring you that day. "

"Xiao Ning, Qiming, he doesn't love your mother, and maybe he never loved me..." A trace of pain and frustration flashed across Su Liang's face, "But he must love you."

Xu Yunqing remained silent, and unconsciously grabbed the tea in front of him again until his fingertips were burned red.Tao Liyang looked at him worriedly, Xu Yunqing opened his mouth as if to refute, but in the end he just looked at Tao Liyang in confusion.

Tao Liyang pulled the cup out of his palm and held his hand.Xu Yunqing looked up at the ceiling. After a few seconds of silence, he regained his composure and did not respond to Su Liang's words. He just asked him: "Do you have anything else to say?"

Su Liang drank another cup of tea, calmed down his emotions a bit, and took a bag from the side: "This is your father's, and there are others, I didn't have time to take it away, that's all. I will also plan to I went back to the United States, and maybe I will never come back in my life. China is not suitable for me. Return these things to you.”

Xu Yunqing hesitated for a moment before raising his hand to take it and open it. They were all ordinary objects.A fountain pen, a writing brush, a pair of cufflinks, a few books, two seals and a piece of ink. It can be seen that they are old, but the owner cherishes them very much and they are well preserved.

There was a strange thing beside it, Tao Liyang didn't recognize it at first sight, Xu Yunqing picked it up.

"Lu Bansuo." He tilted his head and said to Tao Liyang, "I remember this."

"It was originally yours too." Su Liang nodded, "You often came to play at that time, and your father bought it and put it in my office to make you happy. There are many other toys, but unfortunately I can't find them."

Xu Yunqing was noncommittal, smiled lightly, and the smile disappeared quickly.He handed the Luban lock to Tao Liyang and asked him to put it away for him.After caressing slowly one by one, he pushed the other things back in front of Su Liang: "These don't belong to me, he gave them to you, you can keep them if you want."

He didn't look at Su Liang again.He whispered to Tao Liyang: "Let's go back." Standing up from the edge of the table, he put on his hat and mask again and went to the door.After putting on the doorknob, he suddenly stopped in his tracks, hesitating for a few seconds.Without looking back, he whispered: "Doctor Su, I have heard another version of the story."

"That night, the night you said your family took you away. Our house was in such a mess that my mother insisted that my father give her an explanation of what happened during the day. I pretended to be asleep in my room, but I could hear everything they said clearly." Xu Yunqing's brows and eyes were calm, calm and calm.

"He said that he was sorry for this marriage, and he admitted that he was gay... He also told my mother not to trouble you. He said that he was pestering you. Your doctor is kind, and he is afraid of aggravating his condition, so Just pampering him..."

Xu Yunqing was silent for a moment: "This is the reason why my mother refused to let him go and sent him to a mental hospital."

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