recession

Xu Yunqing walked so fast that he almost bumped into the wooden sculpture next to the fence.Tao Liyang chased after him, grabbed his arm, and pulled him back: "Why are you running so fast? Don't forget about things, even I will lose them?"

"I..." Xu Yunqing lost his composure when facing Su Liang just now, his eyes were full of panic and helplessness, and he opened his mouth in vain.

Tao Liyang stretched out a finger, and gently pressed his lips through the mask: "If you can't think clearly, then don't say anything, don't say anything."

After looking around, he pulled Xu Yunqing into an empty box next to him, and put his arms around him: "Yunqing, we talked about it before we came here. I just came to listen to a story. He told you one, and you returned it to him." One, that's fair."

Xu Yunqing blinked his eyes twice, and Tao Liyang's voice was gentle and calm: "Okay. I know you're in a mess now, so don't think about it." He raised his wrist and glanced at his watch, "It's the same as usual, twelve soon It's time, let's have dinner first. Then we'll go to the theater. After you calm down, if you want to talk, we can talk tomorrow, okay?"

Xu Yunqing turned his face away and looked aside, and spoke for a while, a little coldly, the kind of indifference that tried to isolate himself from the world: "Are you ordering me?"

"I'm discussing with you, you can object. Then we'll go back to the hotel now."

Xu Yunqing was silent for a while, without looking at him, and his heart heaved slightly.Tao Liyang waited patiently for him to make a decision, finally Xu Yunqing pushed his arm and said in a low voice, "You hug him too tightly."

"Nonsense, I obviously didn't use much force." This meant agreeing, Tao Liyang breathed a sigh of relief, let go of him, and held his hand.

They are all just pretending to be calm, trying to whitewash the peace, but they really need to cool off first.

"Then what do you want for lunch?" Tao Liyang asked.

"You decide." The voice was muffled by the mask, but his hand was firmly held by him, "Anyway, you like to arrange."

So I found a tea restaurant nearby, and went to the theater step by step after dinner.Coincidentally, what is being performed today is actually "Jade Hairpin".Tao Liyang asked him if he wanted to go to the cinema instead.Xu Yunqing thought for a while, then said softly.

He wants to pretend to be a normal person, more like Tao Liyang, with no flaws visible on his face, only occasionally distracted.After the show ended, they walked back along Binjiang Road and packed two bowls of wonton noodles at the corner shop.Xu Yunqing's appetite was visible to the naked eye, but he insisted on eating most of it.

Tao Liyang cleared the table, cut a plate of fruit and brought it out.Xu Yunqing was sitting next to the sofa, with only one floor lamp turned on, and was reading a few scripts sent by Shen Xi.He wasn't thinking about it, and fell asleep halfway through.I want to see Su Liang today, he didn't sleep all night last night.

Afraid of waking him up, Tao Liyang didn't dare to hug him.He just gently pulled the tablet out of Xu Yunqing's hand, and made another blanket for him.Sitting at the opposite desk, continue writing the script.

Su Liang's words in the morning disturbed Xu Yunqing's mind. Although Tao Liyang was not the person involved, things involving Xu Yunqing could always easily disturb his mind.While writing, one side is also distracted thinking.Naturally, the progress was very slow. I wrote two episodes in front of the outline, but after a closer look, it was not satisfactory.I had to keep it and change it in a few days.After rubbing his sore neck and raising his head, he realized that Xu Yunqing was already awake, wrapped in a blanket and sitting on the sofa, his eyes didn't know where to fall.

"Are you awake?" Tao Liyang smiled, "Why don't you talk?"

Xu Yunqing looked dazed, and raised his eyes for a while: "I had a dream, but I can't remember it... what time is it?"

Tao Liyang looked at the time: "It's a quarter to one, go to bed and sleep when you wake up."

"I don't want to sleep anymore." Xu Yunqing shook his head, there was a faint sleep mark on his forehead, and he glanced at him, "It's already the second day."

Tao Liyang reacted: "When did you listen to me so much?"

"You said let me calm down first."

Tao Liyang closed the computer and walked over, sitting next to him: "Is it better now?"

"I want to drink some wine." Xu Yunqing didn't answer, and he said after a while, then pushed his waist again, "Can I order a bottle of wine?...Don't look at me like that, I haven't taken Diazepam for more than a month .”

Tao Liyang smiled helplessly, but compromised.

He found the wine list in the room and chose a bottle of liqueur with a lower alcohol content.The wine and ice cubes were brought up quickly, Xu Yunqing drank a glass first, and said in a low voice: "I was thinking just now, the letters that Su Liang said he sent back... maybe there were no such letters at all, or maybe my mother didn't accept them. Yes, maybe she received it, but my dad is gone, and it doesn't help, so she didn't tell me... But when I listed all the possibilities, I found that these are not really important. The important thing is always Yes, my dad said something himself."

"I didn't lie to him." He looked at Tao Liyang: "I am today, no, yesterday. What I told Su Liang is true."

"I know." Tao Liyang said softly, leaned over to touch his arm, and repeated, "I know."

Xu Yunqing seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, as if he had received some kind of comfort.However, there was no smile on his face: "Then do you believe it?" He paused for a moment and added, "What Su Liang said... about him and my father."

This is not a question that requires his answer. Tao Liyang understands this and just asks him in a low voice: "Do you believe it?"

"I'm not sure." Xu Yunqing replied lightly and quickly, pouring himself another glass of wine.

He drank too quickly, Tao Liyang held down his hand, and divided half into his own cup.Xu Yunqing glanced at him, didn't say much, and slowly drank the remaining half glass of wine: "I should believe it, it's good for everyone. But I have to doubt..." He paused for a moment, his voice low Low, "In Su Liang's version, my father is too innocent."

This is an unanswerable sentence. In fact, Xu Yunqing didn't need it. He continued on his own: "If he didn't give him anything, didn't respond to him, why did Su Liang stay by his side for so many years..."

Speaking of this, he suddenly had a subtle pause, and smiled unhappy: "Yes, I have seen more stupid people. But not everyone is as lucky as me."

He didn't look at Tao Liyang, he lowered his head and hugged his knees, almost curled up.

Tao Liyang lightly touched his thin shoulder blades through his shirt: "It's my luck."

The half-bright and half-dark lights fell on Xu Yunqing's eyebrows, and he did not argue.There was a longer silence.Tao Liyang's tone of voice sounded a little dazed, as if it came from the sky, but Xu Yunqing was clearly within his reach.

"Speaking like this may be unfilial, and I am not filial...but I really don't believe it. Besides, it is especially unbelievable if these things are said by Su Liang. I hate him, and I still do it from the age of seven to now. But I must You have to admit that he has feelings. Have you seen his eyes?" Xu Yunqing sighed, "People who love each other always have the same pair of eyes. Even if it is immoral and wrong ...so what he described about my dad may have been true to him, but I..."

Before he finished speaking, he smiled lightly and looked sideways at Tao Liyang: "Just like if I mentioned you to others, I would definitely say that you are the best person in the world. Of course, you are different , you are. If you mention me to others, it is probably the same. "

"No." Tao Liyang shook his head, "If I talked about you with others, I would definitely say that you have no benefit at all... I finally won your favor, so I forbid anyone to compete with me for you."

"No one fights with you, it's all yours."

Xu Yunqing pursed his lips: "Tao Liyang, I will never get the truth." With a bit of inexplicable sadness, he said, "But in fact, the truth is the least important thing in this matter. It has nothing to do with it." It can’t be solved, nothing can be redeemed. It’s pointless to expend any emotions on it... I’ve always understood it, but I’ve done too many years of useless work.”

He drank the remaining wine and fell silent again.Tao Liyang turned his head to look at him, because of the alcohol, the corners of Xu Yunqing's eyes turned slightly red.

"Yunqing." He said, "Give me a hug for a while."

Xu Yunqing didn't react and was slightly puzzled.However, he still gently put down the wine glass, and let Tao Liyang hug him sideways: "What?"

"It's okay." Tao Liyang shook his head.

How would he tell Xu Yunqing, just a few moments ago he felt that Xu Yunqing was too far away from him.So much so that he would lose his illusion again.But now that Xu Yunqing was leaning in his arms, he finally felt relieved, knowing that he would not go anywhere as he promised himself.

"I'm a little cold." Tao Liyang finally said.

"Nervous." Xu Yunqing scolded him in a low voice, but then said with a sigh, "Me too."

Then he stretched out his hand and hugged Tao Liyang back forcefully.

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