Sir, I'm not good

"The patient is already asleep, um...Mr. Gu, why don't you deal with it first?"

Chen Feng looked at Gu Yinian who seemed to be vomiting blood, and suggested hesitantly.

He has been a doctor for decades, and he has never seen someone who can be so cruel to him.

As if he didn't know the pain, Gu Yinian casually wiped the blood on his chin, and asked anxiously: "How is he? Why is it so sudden?"

Seeing that Gu Yinian was so persistent, Chen Feng pushed his eyes and sighed.

"It was sudden, indeed, but for him, this situation is considered normal."

When Chen Feng said this, he was suddenly a little puzzled, and asked him: "Have you never seen it before? Logically speaking, he should be emotionally unstable. You should have experienced it when you live together."

Gu Yinian's expression showed a moment of surprise, but soon turned to look more serious.

He hadn't experienced it, he just heard from the doctor that Shu Xian would be very emotionally unstable due to this disease, but he didn't live with Shu Xian like what Chen Feng said, so he didn't really see it.

This is the first time.

And when he couldn't see him, had Shu Xian ever collapsed and lost control like this?

Sudden, uncontrollable sadness and despair, helpless tears, and not wanting to be loved.

How did Shu Xian survive those times?Will anyone be with him?

No, even Shu Xian tried his best to hide from Xu Zhi.

"Oh...you should spend more time with him." Chen Feng saw that Gu Yinian didn't often accompany Shu Xian, otherwise how could he not have experienced it?But looking at Gu Yinian's expression, it didn't look like he didn't love Shu Xian, and he couldn't bear to criticize him.

Immediately afterwards, Chen Feng instructed: "When he wakes up, try to comfort him as much as possible, and don't let him blame himself, otherwise it will easily aggravate his suicidal tendencies."

"Well, I see."

"You can ask him why he suddenly lost control, but don't try to convince him, because you can't understand him, just like he can't understand you."

Like a doctor, but also like a kind old man, Chen Feng, as the doctor recommended by Shen Yao, is also Shen Yao's mentor, and his concept is exactly the same as Shen Yao's.

The deepest part of understanding is not understanding. No one can fully understand another person, let alone a mental patient?

Gu Yinian also understood, but he still couldn't help frowning and feeling sad.

He sighed under his breath, "He's just sick."

Chen Feng nodded: "Yes, but he may not get better in the future, so I hope you will always be with him, every time is like this time."

"I will."

Gu Yinian's guarantee was not a life-and-death oath, but his eyes were resolute, with a force that made people unconvincing.

It seems that as long as he speaks, he will definitely practice it.

Chen Feng is very relieved that the patient has such a family member.

When Shen Yao called him back then, she told him that he could trust Gu Yinian, and that Shu Xian could completely rely on Gu Yinian.

He was still in disbelief.

He has always felt that only parents in this world can accept all kinds of emotions of their children unconditionally and give the most selfless love, and love is always easy to die.

But people with mental illness just cannot face emotional ups and downs.

He is over 60 years old and has seen many patients, many of whom came to the doctor with his lover.

Those lovers were full of worry at first, expressing that they were willing to accompany them for a lifetime and face difficulties together.

But in the end, too many couldn't bear the repeated mental torture, and finally chose to leave.

He can understand, but most of the patients can't understand or accept it. They will blame themselves and lose hope in any relationship, and many of them finally choose to end their lives.

"Shen Yao said that I can make you his life's reliance, but I'm actually skeptical."

Chen Feng said to Gu Yinian, but with a smile on his face, showing the kindness of an old man towards a junior.

When Gu Yinian heard what Chen Feng said, he also smiled in agreement, but the smile was very bitter.

Shen Yao asked him at that time, asking if he would be the motivation for Shu Xian to live, he said that he didn't know if he was worthy, but he was willing.

Indeed, he is willing.

"You know what you're going to suffer, right?"

"Shen Yao told me."

"Okay, let's hold on for a few more years. Even if you want to leave, try to wait until his condition improves."

Chen Feng still said conservatively. After all, most of the people he saw who could accompany the patients from the beginning to the end were relatives, and few loved ones.

So he hoped that even if Gu Yinian wanted to leave, he would try not to choose when Shu Xian was in the middle of his illness.

Although he also knew that it was difficult, if his condition improved, why did he leave?Most of them leave during the period when the patient's mood is the worst.

Gu Yinian did not respond to Chen Feng's reservations.

He knew that it would be futile to say more.

"Go and stay with him. When he wakes up, we'll consider adjusting his medication after seeing his condition."

"Well, thank you."

"It's okay, thank you too."

Chen Feng is very rare, thank the patient.

It's been a long time since he saw such a sensible patient, and he felt that Gu Yinian deserved his thanks.

Back in the ward, Gu Yinian walked lightly, walked to Shu Xian's bed and sat down.

He looked at the tear stains on Shu Xian's face, and every time his heart beat, it throbbed.

Shu Xian's eyelashes were clumped together from crying, he wanted to smooth them, but he stopped half way through his hand, afraid that Shu Xian would be awakened, and also afraid that Shu Xian would hate his touch.

So he withdrew his hand.

Around noon, Shu Xian woke up.

When he opened his eyes, everything in front of him was blurry, and he could only see a person sitting beside him.

The memory in his mind was not very clear, he couldn't remember who that person was, and he couldn't remember where he was.

He could only instinctively call out in a hoarse voice, "Bai Yu."

The man seemed to have paused for a moment, then pulled his hand to his lips, repeating, "I'm here".

The moment he heard the voice, he knew it was not Bai Yu, but it could also bring him peace of mind.

So he didn't dodge, didn't pull his hand back.

After a while, he felt that the headache gradually subsided, and he remembered the man's name.

With a hoarse voice, he corrected his mistake just now, "Gu Yinian."

He saw Gu Yinian lowered his head upon hearing the sound, still holding his hand as if he was holding some treasure, and it took him a long time before he answered, "I'm here."

Afterwards, the nurse and the doctor arrived, and asked about Shu Xian's condition with concern.

Shu Xian answered Chen Feng's questions truthfully, without any resistance, and there was no more crying and shouting of collapse.

Most of the time, he can still control his emotions well.

During the whole questioning, Gu Yinian was beside him.

Originally, Gu Yinian wanted to let go of his hand, but he pulled it back, but he saw the crack on Gu Yinian's lips, and finally pulled his hand back.

In the end, Chen Feng made some adjustments based on his psychological condition and his reaction to the drugs.

He didn't want to hear it anymore, so he turned over, rushed towards Gu Yinian's direction, closed his eyes, and Gu Yinian listened carefully to the doctor's orders for him.

When the doctors and nurses left, Gu Yinian went to see them off. He opened his eyes and got up from the bed, leaning against the side of the bed.

"Why did you get up?"

When Gu Yinian came back, seeing him sitting up, he asked with a smile.

But he didn't want to answer, and sat up instead of lying down. What kind of answer does this need?

He just stared at Gu Yinian's lips.

"Why are you staring at me?"

"Sweet?"

Gu Yinian was taken aback by Shu Xian's question, and then he came to his senses, sat beside Shu Xian's bed, touched the wound on his lip, "It's quite fishy."

"Then you still kiss me?"

Shu Xian asked angrily, as if he was quite dissatisfied with Gu Yinian's behavior of kissing himself in spite of the pain.

But Gu Yinian didn't mind, he smiled a little deeper, as if he had tasted the sweetness and didn't know how to repent.

"Bloody, but you are sweet."

Shu Xian turned his head away, he didn't want to face Gu Yinian's eyes, it was too hot and could burn people.

After a few seconds, he said in a low voice: "Seriously, Gu Yinian, leave me."

"why?"

"I can only make you hurt."

"I am willing to hurt for you. What you give me, even the pain is very precious."

"...Your words are somewhat perverted."