Sir, I'm not good

Gu Yinian is a smart person, he knew that Shu Xian told him to leave because he didn't want to hurt him.

Shu Xian is also a smart person, he knows what Gu Yinian means, and he doesn't want to leave him.

At this time, Shu Xian really hoped that Gu Yinian was a fool.

"Look, you can only get hurt if you follow me."

"I know, but didn't I say it? I am willing to suffer the injury you gave me."

"Then I'm afraid you're not an M."

"That's your M too."

Shu Xian knew that Gu Yinian was joking with him, but he couldn't help it, he was super angry.

So he tried to get serious.

He became a little more serious, stared at Gu Yinian and said, "If you don't leave by yourself, then I will find a way to make you leave."

"Then how are you going to force me to leave? Shu Xian."

Gu Yinian was not frightened by his words, nor was he involved in it, but a simple rhetorical question made him unable to answer.

Wanting to force a person away is nothing more than torturing him, abusing him, making him despair, and making him give up.

But Gu Yinian knew very well that it was impossible for him to do this now. He already felt sorry for Gu Yinian, so it was impossible for him to feel sorry for him even more.

Gu Yinian understood him, and he was sure of him.

Shu Xian couldn't get the result he wanted, so he couldn't help feeling a little bored, sitting on the head of the bed with his arms folded, panting a bit short of breath.

The emotions that had just calmed down soon became repeated again.

Gu Yinian is very perceptive, it can be seen that Shu Xian is not very happy.

But this time, he really couldn't follow Shu Xian's wishes.

He could only show his helplessness, sighed lightly, and said calmly: "You will never be a burden to me."

"...you just feel that way now."

"It will be like this in the future. It is a blessing in my life that you are by my side."

It is a blessing in my life to have you by my side.

Shu Xian repeated these words in his heart, feeling like being poured in hot chocolate, sweet and hot.

How can you say that?

Also too arrogant.

"Shu Xian, when you were in the Third Hospital, you already agreed to let me accompany you here, why are you still hesitating now?"

"Because I didn't know at that time that I could bring you such real harm."

Shu Xian looked helpless.

He used to have trouble controlling his emotions, but usually he just hurt himself. He has never hurt people around him like this.

He now felt that he was just a burden, a dog suffering from a mad disease, he might not know who he would bite, and he couldn't control it anymore.

Just as he lowered his head, staring at the white quilt, getting more and more dull, his hands suddenly felt warm.

It was Gu Yinian who held him.

"Is it okay?" When he raised his head, he saw Gu Yinian holding his hand and asked patiently.

Shu Xian was silent for a moment, then put his other hand into Gu Yinian's.

It's warm, if it's a snowy mountain forest outside, Gu Yinian is like the fire in a fairy tale hut, "cracking" and roasting people dizzy.

He used to be greedy for this temperature. In the past, every winter night, he would secretly stretch out his hand under the quilt, but he was afraid that his hand would be too cold and wake up his beloved.

Originally, this temperature was simply a luxury for him...

"Why are you crying again? I didn't see you crying so much."

When Gu Yinian's voice sounded, Shu Xian realized that he was crying.

He wanted to pull out his hand to wipe away the tears, but was held tightly.

While Gu Yinian held him with one hand to keep him warm, he stroked his face with the other hand, wiping away his tears.

He was a little shy, he said, "I used to cry very little, and I don't know why recently."

"What did you think of?" Gu Yinian asked with a gentle voice that made people feel hot.

"I thought it was time to sleep with you, and you wouldn't warm my hands like this at that time."

Gu Yinian was stunned when he heard the words, and suddenly laughed, "This is a false accusation, so when you put your foot on my stomach at night, when did I push you away?"

"……Have it?"

Shu Xian was stunned, he couldn't remember!

"Yes, he stuffed his hand into my neck in a daze, like a little ice ball."

"You're the icicle!"

Shu Xian retorted in a low voice, a little embarrassed.

He used to sleep much better than now, how could he remember what happened when he fell asleep!

Gu Yinian couldn't stop laughing, he said why did he cry just as soon as he curled his lips, and he was so wronged, so he forgot all the good things he did while asleep?

"Stop laughing! I was wronged, isn't it funny!"

"It's not funny, my fault, next time when you are awake, warm your hands more, so you can remember."

"whispering sound."

Gu Yinian felt that Shu Xian's appearance of not being able to control his emotions was quite cute in a sense.

Especially this kind of tsundere, who looks like a rascal, playing petty temper, is Shu Xian that he has never seen before.

Of course, it is estimated that Shu Xian has never seen himself like this before.

"Okay, don't be sad, don't be angry, I know what you think, but you should also know what I think, right?"

Gu Yinian stroked Shu Xian's hand, and talked to Shu Xian in a harmonious voice, as if coaxing a child, patiently and peacefully.

Of course Shu Xian knew.

He just wasn't willing to accept it, he just didn't want to live as a burden, because he was already a burden to Gu Yinian.

He and Gu Yinian have had too many twists and turns in the past.

"Gu Yinian, there is already a mess between us, we can't figure out who owes whom, if we continue to entangle..."

"Then let it be tied."

Gu Yinian interrupted Shu Xian's words.

Generally speaking, educated people would not interrupt others, but he didn't want Shu Xian to think like that anymore.

"Don't talk about things that are unclear, and don't analyze things that are difficult to analyze rationally. The past is the past."

"I can't get through."

"It's over, just treat them all in the past, at least about mine, I hope you don't mind anymore, I know it's hard, but you know, I never blamed you, I also hope, Don't hate me any more."

"I never hated you."

"In that case, let's make a knot with what happened yesterday."

Shu Xian's eyes were a bit complicated, so many things happened in the past, did you just tie the knot if you said it?

Even if they tie a knot, can they really let it go?

His memory has declined badly. When he was depressed, he would forget all the words he just said, but those cruel days are still clear.

He is always like this, let alone Gu Yinian.

Obviously it will never be forgotten.

He shook his head and repeated: "We can't forget it."

Gu Yinian grabbed his arm, pulled him into his arms, and stroked his back.

He told him: "Things that can't be forgotten, just drag, drag, and carry them on, and it doesn't matter if we walk on like this."