Sir, I'm not good

There are three more days to the new year.

The hospital has been quite deserted, and all the patients who can be discharged have been discharged. After all, it is best to have a family reunion during the Chinese New Year.

Shu Xian has been living in the single room, and he doesn't feel the increase or decrease of the hospital's flow of people, but he can also feel it in the dark, and it seems to be quieter recently.

"woke up?"

When Shu Xian heard Gu Yinian's voice, he was already behind him.

He turned his head and saw Gu Yinian looking at him with a lunch box.

Putting the lunch box on the table, Gu Yinian stuck behind him, propped his arms on both sides of his body, and poked his head on the table.

Gu Yinian's coat was covered with morning frost, it was cold and stuck to Shu Xian's back, he shivered slightly.

The heating in the north was overheated, which always made him dizzy, but the coolness brought by Gu Yinian made him much clearer.

"Have you been studying so early?"

"Well, this program cannot be written by humans. I really don't know how Bai Yu..."

Shu Xian stopped halfway through his answer.

Mentioning Bai Yu's name in front of Gu Yinian, Shu Xian was afraid of hurting him.

But he stopped, but Gu Yinian took his words.

"Bai Yu is fine, and you are not bad either. Take your time, you have just started to study on your own, and there is still a year before the postgraduate entrance examination, so you have plenty of time."

Shu Xian nodded, not in a hurry, he pushed the computer away first, and pulled the lunch box over.

He felt that Gu Yinian was far away from him, and most intuitively, the coolness on his back was gone.

Turning around, he saw Gu Yinian taking off his clothes and walking towards the hanger.

After coming to the hospital, he didn't go out much, but Gu Yinian often went to various places to buy food for him.

Gu Yinian came back several times and complained that it was cold outside, finally at his suggestion, Gu Yinian changed his trousers into casual trousers so that he could wear a pair of long johns underneath.

Casual pants are not suitable for shirts, so the tops are replaced with sweaters and sweaters.

Now when he looked at Gu Yinian's back, he felt very friendly, without the alienation and indifference under the suit and leather shoes.

As soon as Gu Yinian hung up his clothes, he turned his head and found that Shu Xian was staring at him, the corners of his mouth naturally slightly raised.

"Does it look good?"

Although Shu Xian felt that he was looking at it aboveboard and not peeping, but he was still a little ashamed by Gu Yinian's words.

Pursing his lips, he still said bluntly: "It looks good."

"Then consider eating more for breakfast today?"

"Do you think you look good?"

"Dinner?"

"It's nothing, go back and go surfing more." After Shu Xian finished speaking, he twisted back and opened the lunch box.

Hu spicy soup, egg cloth bag, dried radish.

Very simple, Henan-style breakfast, so simple that one wonders if Gu Yinian bought it.

Gu Yinian came over and sat across from him, seeing him staring at a bowl of hot and spicy soup without moving his chopsticks, he asked, "Don't you like it?"

Shu Xian shook his head, "I'm not picky, it's just that you know Hu spicy soup, which we ordinary people eat for breakfast, it's really not easy."

"During the three years of marriage, didn't my aunt also buy Hu spicy soup?"

"Really? I don't remember."

"Yes, you don't have class in the morning and don't get up, just eat lunch directly. If you have class, you get up late and don't have time for breakfast."

Shu Xian thought for a while, it seemed so.

After entering college, I began to get up late with revenge, as if I wanted to make up for every morning in high school.

Shu Xian separated the chopsticks, stroked each other, scraped off the wooden thorns on them, and handed them to Gu Yinian.

"Shall we eat together?"

"There is a video conference, you eat first."

"So early?"

"International meeting, time difference."

As Gu Yinian said, he turned on the laptop and put on the bluetooth headset.

Although they live in a single ward, there is only one table in the whole room, where eating, studying and work are done.

Shu Xian was used to it, so he nodded and started to eat by himself.

The meeting seemed to start soon, and when Shu Xian lowered his head to sip the Hu spicy soup, he heard the person opposite started speaking English.

He knew that Gu Yinian had studied abroad, but he hadn't really heard Gu Yinian speak spoken English, this was the first time.

Gu Yinian's voice was already very low, but when paired with a pure British accent, it made people sink even more.

Involuntarily, Shu Xian's eating speed slowed down.

He felt that it was very disharmonious for him to drink Hu spicy soup so boldly and extensively, and to be in the same scene as Gu Yinian holding an international conference.

The morning sun shines in through the floor-to-ceiling windows, bringing the unique coolness of the north, and dust like ice crystals floats in the air.

The room was quiet, which made Gu Yinian's voice clearer, like an Irish folk song.

Shu Xian felt very relaxed, as if even the dried radish was worth chewing.

Time passed, and the meeting seemed to be over, but Shu Xian's breakfast was coming to an end.

Seeing that there were only two mouthfuls of Hu spicy soup left, Shu Xian stared at the bottom of the bowl, silent for a few seconds.

Suddenly, as the light in the eyes flickered, the eyelashes trembled, and a tear fell silently.

Immediately afterwards, tears fell drop by drop into the hot pepper soup, without any sign or sound, they fell uncontrollably.

When Gu Yinian realized something was wrong, Shu Xian had already started holding the bowl, crying and trembling.

He froze for a moment, and his expression immediately became serious.

"Shu Xian?"

When Shu Xian heard Gu Yinian calling his name, he still didn't want to raise his head.

He put down the bowl tremblingly, hugged his head with one hand, and swung the other hand towards Gu Yinian.

"Go to the meeting, leave me alone..."

When Gu Yinian saw this, without any hesitation, he ended the meeting with a few words. When the leaders of the company over there were still shocked, the video was cut off.

Gu Yinian hurriedly stood up and ran to Shu Xian's side, but Shu Xian stood up abruptly, turned around and was about to run.

In this situation, letting Shu Xian run out is definitely not acceptable, and it is designated to cause an accident.

So when Shu Xian just put his hand on the doorknob, Gu Yinian caught up with him and hugged him from behind.

Shu Xian wanted to break free, but Gu Yinian's strength was too great, he couldn't break free at all.

And he found that he couldn't push the doorknob down at all, his hands were shaking too much and he couldn't control it at all.

How to do……

Gu Yinian didn't know what happened to Shu Xian, but he could see Shu Xian's sadness and helplessness, he knew that Shu Xian couldn't be left in such despair.

"Don't be afraid, I'm here, I've been..."

He couldn't help comforting him, hugged him tightly from behind, and held Shu Xian's hand, his heart trembled with Shu Xian's hand.

"No matter what, I will be by your side, I will always be with you, don't be afraid..."

"roll!"

Suddenly, the person in his arms roared hoarsely, but the roar seemed to have exhausted all his strength and softened.

Gu Yinian hurriedly hugged him up again, but found that it wasn't that his legs were weak, but that he was trembling so badly that he couldn't stand up.

"Don't touch me! Get out of here!"

Not knowing what stimulated him, Shu Xian frantically wanted to run from his arms.

Gu Yinian held back the pain in his heart, hugged him horizontally, was punched and kicked by Shu Xian, carried him to the bed, and rang the call bell.

Just as he put down the person in his arms, Gu Yinian didn't breathe a sigh of relief when he saw Shu Xian kick off the quilt, hugging his head, and pulling his hair tightly with both hands.

"Shu Xian, calm down!"

Despite what he said, it was obvious that Shu Xian couldn't calm down, and curled up on the bed, crying and shaking.

When he tried to catch Shu Xian's hand grabbing his hair, Shu Xian slapped him away abruptly, changing from grabbing his hair to grabbing his shoulder.

It was cold in the north, but the heating was sufficient, and the ground was warm and the sky was open, so Shu Xian only wore a thin hospital gown.

Gu Yinian clearly saw that Shu Xian's fingernails dug into his shoulders and began to scratch down, blood seeping through the blue and white top.

"Shu Xian!"

Gu Yinian gritted his teeth, grabbed Shu Xian's wrist, let Shu Xian shout and resist, and pressed Shu Xian firmly on the bed.

With his arms pressed against his sides, Shu Xian began to kick. In order to hold Shu Xian down, Gu Yinian knelt on the bed with one knee, and was kicked on his stomach by Shu Xian, frowning in pain .

But he couldn't let go.

Shu Xian will hurt himself.

The two were struggling frantically on the bed, Gu Yinian trembled with Shu Xian, and the whole bed trembled with them, as if the entire ward, the entire hospital, and the entire world began to tremble, as if it was about to collapse.

Ever since he was held down by Gu Yinian, Shu Xian kept yelling at him, almost breaking his own throat.

Before the doctor arrived, Gu Yinian bit his lips until he heard the shouts piercing his eardrums, his eyes were filled with distress.

How to do……

In desperation, Gu Yinian suddenly bent down.

Shu Xian's lips are still cold, he is always so afraid of the cold, his body is always so cold every winter.

The people under him seemed to be frightened by his actions, and they resisted for a second.

But soon, there was a sharp pain on the lips.

Shu Xian's teeth pierced his flesh, and the smell of blood immediately filled their mouths.

But neither of them was going to stop.

Shu Xian bit Gu Yinian's lip fiercely, and Gu Yinian also blocked Shu Xian's mouth firmly.