Sir, I'm not good

"Shu Xian, don't worry, if you don't know why Xu Zhi left, then you will definitely not be able to find him."

Shen Yao held back Shu Xian who was about to pull out the needle to find someone else.

Shu Xian was a little dazed after hearing Shen Yao's words.

Why did Xu Zhi leave?Is there even a question?It can only be...

"You think Xu Zhi left because he knew about Bai Yu's existence, right?"

Shu Xian was stunned, why did Shen Yao look at him with a mocking face, isn't it the reason?

Besides this, what else could make Xu Zhi go?

He didn't know whether it was Jian Wan or Gu Yinian, but it must be one of them who went to tell Xu Zhi about Bai Yu!

Otherwise, why did Xu Zhi leave?

I am obviously so kind to him...

As Shu Xian thought about it, he felt that his hands began to tremble uncontrollably.

He looked at Shen Yao, hoping that Shen Yao could tell him the reason, but he was resisting in his heart.

And Shen Yao broke the entanglement in his heart with one word: "Look, you are also doubting, Xu Zhi's departure has nothing to do with Bai Yu, he doesn't know Bai Yu's existence yet."

Shen Yao's words were like a sharp knife, with a sound of "呲啦", it cut through the membrane covering Shu Xian.

Shu Xian began to resist Shen Yao instinctively, pulled his hand back from Shen Yao's, and wanted to leave.

He didn't want to know why Xu Zhi left.

Shu Xian pulled out the tube too quickly.

Although Shen Yao thought that he would reject the truth, she did not expect to refuse so decisively, and before she could hold it down, drops of medicine mixed with blood burst out.

When she turned her head again, Shu Xian had already got out of bed.

"Shu Xian!"

Hearing the shouts behind him, Shu Xian definitely didn't want to stop, he just wanted to escape from this ward.

But just as he walked quickly to the door and was about to rush out, a figure appeared in front of him, and he bumped into it before he had time to avoid it.

Just by bumping into him, there was a strong sense of dizziness, Shu Xian had no choice but to grab the man in front of him, and the man firmly hugged his waist, calling eagerly in his ear.

"Shu Xian, Shu Xian?"

Shu Xian didn't have the strength to answer for a moment, and seeing that he shouldn't respond, the voice turned to Shen Yao and asked, "What happened to you?"

Shen Yao's voice of defense came from over there, but he couldn't hear it clearly.

He only felt that he was picked up by someone, shook twice, and lay back on the bed again.

After a while, he felt that the voice in his ear gradually became clearer.

Sure enough, it's Gu Yi Nian.

The voice engraved into the soul is unforgettable.

"Don't force him."

"I didn't expect a person who looks so stubborn to be so fragile? I haven't spoken yet."

"What on earth are you trying to tell him?"

"The reason for Xu Zhi's departure, the grandson called you over just now, didn't he also tell you about it?"

"So when Dr. Sun came to see me just now, you deliberately took me away, in fact, to give Xu Zhi time to leave and not let me stop it?"

"Otherwise? Keep a promise to know how you want to get on the throne?"

"It doesn't matter whether I'm in the top position or not. Only Xu Zhi can make him better, so Xu Zhi must stay by his side!"

"Give Shu Xian's life to Xu Zhi to control, tsk tsk, is this something you can do? Gu Yinian, you should have the confidence to make him depend on you and get better because of you."

"I can't be the driving force for him to live. He said... In fact, as long as he can live, it doesn't matter to anyone. I have already sent someone to chase him. Xu Zhi can't leave."

Shen Yao seemed to be furious at Gu Yinian's stubbornness, and her originally well-maintained emotions were about to get out of control.

But just when she was about to shout at Gu Yinian, Shu Xian, who had been listening silently for a while, opened his eyes and turned his head slightly.

The movement was not big, but the slight sound of hair rubbing against the pillow attracted the attention of the two of them, and the ward fell silent for a moment.

The two people standing by the bed turned their heads to look at him, Gu Yinian looked particularly concerned, and quickly asked him how he was feeling.

Although Shen Yao was also full of disdain, when facing Shu Xian, she was a little more serious and asked about his physical condition.

Shu Xian ignored the two people's questions, but fixed his eyes on Gu Yinian, then reached out his hand silently, and grabbed the corner of Gu Yinian's clothes.

It should be because he has recovered, so Gu Yinian changed back into his own clothes. The material of the coat is very good, and it is very comfortable to hold.

"what happened?"

Gu Yinian lowered his body and asked in a harmonious voice.

What Shu Xian wanted to say hung in his throat, and it was dry, making it difficult to say it.

Want to speak out?After saying that, there is no turning back, it's so difficult, I don't want to let go...

"what happened?"

Seeing that he didn't speak, Gu Yinian thought he didn't hear, so he asked again.

He looked at Gu Yinian's face and remembered what Gu Yinian had said to Shen Yao just now.

I can't be the motivation for him to live... As long as he can live, it doesn't matter to anyone...

But, do you really care?

"It really doesn't matter?" Shu Xian asked in a hoarse voice, after a while.

Gu Yinian was stunned for a moment, wondering what Shu Xian was asking, what doesn't matter?

But Shu Xian didn't want to ask any more, originally he was just thinking in his heart and blurted out the question out of nowhere, not what he really wanted to ask.

He shook his head, remained silent for another two seconds, and then spoke in a low voice.

He said, "Stop chasing me."

Gu Yinian didn't understand again, he looked puzzled: "Why don't you chase after me?"

"Xu Zhi, stop chasing Xu Zhi, let him go."

After finishing speaking, he saw obvious surprise on Gu Yinian's face, and Shen Yao who was beside him also froze.

Seeming that the atmosphere was not suitable for her to stay, Shen Yao glanced at him and said, "I'll come first, you two talk slowly".

Shu Xian and Gu Yinian were left in the ward, and the atmosphere became a little stagnant for a while.

"...You lower down, I look too tired."

Shu Xian's tone was calm, and his mood was fairly peaceful. Compared to the time when Jian Wan told him everything, he was much more sober.

Gu Yinian followed his words, sat by the hospital bed, got close to him without touching him.

"You used to be very restrained towards me." Shu Xian said.

"what?"

Gu Yinian didn't understand again.

Shu Xian also realized that his words seemed to be somewhat inconsistent, so he explained: "I said, you used to be so restrained towards me, approaching me, but not touching me."

Everything is just right, showing proper care, not appearing distant and indifferent, but never giving me extra touches.

After all, he just doesn't love me.

Gu Yinian also understood what Shu Xian meant, and was at a loss for words.

When it came to the original, he was always unable to respond to Shu Xian immediately.

Because whenever he looks back, he can only see the misses and regrets along the way.

Shu Xian didn't mean to take aim at Gu Yinian either, he just expressed pure emotion.

Seeing that Gu Yinian was depressed because of his words, he felt a little embarrassed.

So Shu Xian went on to say: "I didn't mean to blame you. It turned out that you restrained yourself because you didn't love me. I can understand."

"But I love you very much now, and I also restrain myself."

"Yeah, the exact opposite state of mind, the exact same behavior."

After Shu Xian finished speaking, he felt that this was probably Gu Yinian's unique characteristic, restraint.

If it was Bai Yu, he would never restrain his desire.

Obviously both are love, but they have completely different expressions.

Thinking of this, Shu Xian suddenly felt that he understood love better.

Gu Yinian was completely unaware of the twists and turns in his heart, but seeing that he didn't speak, he just waited silently, the atmosphere was very peaceful and peaceful.

Before Shu Xian became Bai Yu, he actually liked this silent and quiet atmosphere very much.

But he suddenly remembered something that would not allow him to enjoy the silence any longer.

"By the way, didn't you just say that you sent someone to chase after Xu Zhi?"

Seeing Shu Xian asking Xu Zhi, Gu Yinian's eyes darkened for a moment, but soon became gentle again.

"Well, I sent someone, don't worry."

"Call me back."

"what?"

"I didn't joke with you just now, tell your people to come back and stop chasing him."

Except for Shu Xian who seemed a little tired, everything else was normal and his expression was serious.

But Gu Yinian still couldn't believe it, and didn't understand, why didn't he chase after him?

Seeing Gu Yinian's doubts, Shu Xian explained: "Because he wants to leave, so let him go."

"why?"

"Do you want to ask Xu Zhi why he wanted to leave, or why I let him go?"

Shu Xian turned his head to look at Gu Yinian, looking very patient.

Just like talking to Xu Zhi at that time, answering his doubts bit by bit.

Gu Yinian said frankly: "I want to ask."

"Then you call your subordinates first, and we will talk slowly."

"..." Gu Yinian hesitated.

Shu Xian felt a little funny looking at it, but also felt a little sad.

Why is Gu Yinian more anxious than him when Xu Zhi left?It is a good thing that the rival in love has left.

Just because he was worried that he would not want to live without Xu Zhi, so he refused treatment, right?

"I promised Shen Yao to receive treatment, sir, you should call your people back first."

Like a sigh, Shu Xian spoke with helplessness.

After hearing this, Gu Yinian froze for a moment, his expression froze, and he couldn't believe what he just heard.

Shu Xian could understand his shock.

After all, it is really surprising that a person who would not receive medical treatment after being beaten to death suddenly changed his attitude.

Gu Yinian couldn't believe what he heard for a long time, and after he regained his composure, the first sentence he said was: "Why?"

"You ask me why I received treatment? Because of you."

Shu Xian spoke casually, and his tone was even a bit boring, as if Gu Yinian was trying to sell himself because he got a bargain.

So Gu Yinian couldn't believe it even more.

He confirmed: "What did you say? Because of whom?"

"because of you."

"……why?"

Shu Xian looked at Gu Yinian, who was originally calm and unhurried, staring at him in a daze, and couldn't help laughing for a moment.

Why is this person so different, he is a social elite on the outside, why did he suddenly lose his intelligence in front of him?

The mood that had been gloomy and troubled was slightly better at this time.

There was a smile on the corner of Shu Xian's mouth, not a mocking smile, he said to Gu Yinian like this: "Probably because you have done too much to keep me alive, so I suddenly woke up."

"Really?"

"...Do I lie to you often?"

"No."

"Then why do you doubt me so much?" Shu Xian's face was full of confusion, he was curious, could his own words be so unbelievable?

Gu Yinian has also regained his composure, and quickly shook his head: "No doubt, no doubt."

Seeing that Gu Yinian was in a daze at this time, Shu Xian couldn't help laughing.

Who in the end thinks sluggishly after depression?

But because of Gu Yinian's reaction, Shu Xian couldn't hide it anymore, and said honestly: "There must be reasons for you, but not all, and there is also the pressure that Jian Wan will bring, understand Yet?"

Gu Yinian digested it for two seconds before nodding: "Understood."

Like a child being lectured by a teacher, you don't know if he understands or not.

But Shu Xian acquiesced that Gu Yinian understood, after all, there are more important things now than making Gu Yinian believe his words.

He tugged on Zhinian's sleeve, "Now that you understand, then go and call your subordinates first, tell them to come back, and don't scare the kid."

Xu Zhi is timid, nervous when talking to strangers, even resisting calls from mobile companies, let alone being robbed.

Shu Xian knew Xu Zhi well, that's why he urged Gu Yinian to call.

But when his words fell into Gu Yinian's ears, it still hurt for a moment, this kind of pampering, Shu Xian only had to Xu Zhi.

"Go quickly."

Shu Xian didn't realize that Gu Yinian was suffering because of his own words, he only saw that he was still in a daze, so he urged him.

So Gu Yinian lowered his brows and eyes, suppressed his sorrow, then raised his head and nodded gently towards Shu Xian, got up and left the ward to make a phone call.

In the ward, Shu Xian listened to Gu Yinian's voice talking on the phone outside the door, feeling bored looking for his mobile phone.

I haven't seen him since I fainted.

Fortunately, the mobile phone was placed on the bedside table. He stretched his arms to take it and unlocked the lock screen.

There is a lot of news.

Normally, there would not be so much news in a day, why did the news explode after halfway through today?

On the top is the message his mother just sent: Baby, are you here yet?Send us a photo?

It is You Haozhe who keeps popping up new news, he seems to have just escaped from Jian Wan's control and is rushing towards him.

Just when Shu Xian was about to reply to You Haozhe's message, he suddenly saw a familiar name.

It's Xu Zhi.

Xu Zhi sent him a message.

Shu Xian clicked in, and it was a long message, occupying two and a half screens of WeChat.

While Shu Xian was reading the news, Gu Yinian knocked on the door and walked in.

"Okay. Actually, you don't have to worry too much, because the people I sent were thrown away by Jian Wan's people not long after."

When Gu Yinian spoke, he couldn't help pinching the center of his brows, because Jian Wan had a headache.

Shu Xian focused on reading the news, and also frowned. He didn't pay much attention to Gu Yinian's words, and just hummed twice.

"What are you looking at? It's so uncomfortable."

"News from Xu Zhi."

Shu Xian didn't intend to hide it, but it still made Gu Yinian's heart skip a beat.

He knew the importance of Xu Zhi to Shu Xian.

He was afraid that Xu Zhi's words against Shu Xian would make Shu Xian sad.

At the same time, he was also afraid that Xu Zhi would come back to Shu Xian.

This thought made him feel shameless, but jealousy was uncontrollable.

Just when Gu Yinian was hesitating whether to ask or not, Shu Xian suddenly raised his head, and had already read Xu Zhi's news.

"Want to know what he said?" Shu Xian asked proactively.

"What?" Gu Yinian didn't dare to confirm.

"Am I dumb, or are you deaf?"

"……what?"

"There's something wrong with you, let me ask you if you want to know what Xu Zhi said?"

"Can I know?"

Shu Xian couldn't bear it any longer, he had brought up what was going on with this guy, how could it be a feint?

But just when he was about to scold someone, seeing Gu Yinian's slightly surprised expression, he realized that Gu Yinian was just not used to it.

Not used to him talking to him nicely, without sarcasm, chatting in a normal way.

So even an ordinary question turned into a kind of gift from heaven, which made Gu Yinian unbelievable.

In the end, Shu Xian stabilized his emotions and said affirmatively, "Yes, you can know."

What's more, the reason why Xu Zhi left has something to do with you.

So Gu Yinian sat by the bed, Shu Xian picked up his phone, and read Xu Zhi's news from the beginning.

——Brother, I thought about it for a long time, and finally decided to leave, but it's not because I don't love you, on the contrary, I really like you.

——But my love is too thin, even if I try my best to love you, it still seems insignificant in front of your love for me.

——The girl named Jian Wan, she told me everything about the glands, and only then did I know that you asked Gu Yinian to donate the glands to me.

——I don't know how much you paid for me in this, and I can't imagine what it would cost to make a person donate his glands.

——But that girl told me that Gu Yinian was willing to give it to you, so he didn't ask for anything.

——Although it seems too ignorant to say this, but to be honest, I am under too much pressure, and I dare not even think about everything you have done.

——I don't have his background and achievements, so I originally thought, I will love you more than him and treat you better. I originally thought that this is the only thing I can compare to him.

——But I can’t actually, I only know now that I have never been better than him, although I really like you, I really like you.

——Brother, your love for me is as deep as Gu Yinian's love for me. It is beyond my reach. In front of you, I dare not even say I love you.

——But I still want to say, for the last time, I love you.

——Brother, if I become a very powerful person in the future, capable of loving you, and have the confidence to say that I love you, I will definitely come back to you, if I can live to the future.

——Life and death are fate, brother, don't look for me, we have never been together, so there is no need to say goodbye, we can only say goodbye.

—Brother, goodbye.

While watching Xu Zhi's news, Shu Xian recounted the general idea to Gu Yinian.

When these emotional words came into his mouth, they turned into indifferent and rational sentences.

"The root cause of his choice to leave should be the inferiority complex brought about by the difference in status. Under my love for him and your love for me, he feels that he is too small..."

Repeating and repeating, Shu Xian suddenly felt that something had been scratched on his face, and he wiped it with his hand, and it got wet.

He was a little surprised.

At this time, Gu Yinian also looked at him with pity, and took another tissue for him.

He took it blankly, wiped it on his face, and saw that the tissue was indeed wet.

I really cried...

Shu Xian put down her phone, bent her legs, folded her arms on her knees, and rested her chin on her hands.

He felt Gu Yinian's hand stretched out, hanging on top of his head, but he didn't let it go after all.

"Silly boy, but I never loved you."

Shu Xian muttered to the white quilt, his voice was broken and murmured, but Gu Yinian didn't hear clearly.