Sir, I'm not good

Shu Xian was hesitant about whether to push the door and go in. He hesitated, and after much deliberation, he still couldn't press the doorknob down.

But he didn't decide whether to go away, and finally squatted at the door of the ward.

"So annoying..."

Shu Xian hugged his head and murmured.

He is not a hesitant person, why is he so entangled in meeting now?

Shu Xian held his head, and the scene of Jian Wan yelling at him just now rang in his mind again.

It was too messy, he really wanted to ask Gu Yinian face to face, and wanted to know what shady things Gu Yinian had done behind his back.

But he was also afraid that Gu Yinian would tell him that those were all true.

He didn't want to bear the heart-piercing and desperate feelings, it was too heavy, and he didn't know how to deal with it.

If you never confirm it, will you never have to face Gu Yinian's feelings?

After the escape signal came out, it quickly occupied Shu Xian's entire brain, and now he wanted to escape every moment.

Just when Shu Xian was hesitating, thinking whether to get up and leave, there was a "squeak" in his ear.

In response, Shu Xian raised his head and met a surprised nurse.

Shu Xian hurriedly said to the nurse, "Shh—"

But the young nurse didn't pay attention to Shu Xian's expression, and exclaimed, "You are, Shu Xian!"

Although the voice was not loud, he heard clearly that the originally noisy conversation in the ward stopped.

"I am Beta, that is, your fan! I am so happy to meet you. I didn't believe it when I heard that you came to the hospital, but..."

The little nurse stammered and said hello to Shu Xian.

Shu Xian supported his forehead, silently supported his knees, and slowly stood up from the ground.

"Hello."

The little nurse was so excited that she was about to shed tears. My brother is so gentle, he even said hello to me!

And this is Gu Yinian's ward!Did brother come to visit Mr. Gu?

My God, the cult cp I kowtow can't be true!

"...can you let me in?"

Shu Xian knew that the people inside must know that he was coming, but the little nurse didn't know what she was thinking, and looked at him with a flushed face. Anyway, she was not prepared to make way for him, so she asked.

The little nurse nodded quickly when she heard the sound, and hurriedly made way for Shu Xian.

Shu Xian took a deep breath, finally lifted his legs and walked in.

The curtains are drawn, the snow that fell in the morning has now covered the whole city, the window is pure white, the noon sun shines in on the snow surface, making Shu Xian unable to open his eyes for a while.

After a while, Shu Xian felt that his eyes became clearer.

"Family, close the door."

The doctor's voice was heard not far away, and he subconsciously followed the voice, and his eyes happened to collide with the one on the bed.

Probably because he just woke up from anesthesia, Gu Yinian looked very tired, and his eyes looked extremely gentle.

A sickly beauty.

"Didn't hear? The family members close the door."

Seeing that the person by the door didn't respond, the doctor was a little impatient, and reminded him again.

Hearing the sound, Shu Xian regained his composure, said "Sorry" in response, closed the door with his backhand, stood by the door for a while, and then came this way.

"How are you doing?"

"How's your body?"

The two spoke at the same time.

Shu Xian was dazed at first, then realized that Gu Yinian should have known about his fainting.

"I have no problem, what about you?"

"I'm fine too, just a little dizzy."

"It should be a side effect of general anesthesia, but you didn't continue to inject anesthesia, so you should be fine soon."

Shu Xian explained.

The doctor next to him couldn't help but look up at him, as if he was asking, are you a doctor or am I a doctor.

"Okay, the patient can rest and wait for recovery. If there is any problem, call the nurse. I'll go first."

"Excuse me."

The doctor left, leaving only Shu Xian and Gu Yinian in the ward.

Shu Xian sat on the small bench beside the bed, remained silent, his eyes hung down on the white quilt in front of him, and he didn't know what to say.

"...I heard from the doctor that you passed out outside the ward, what's the matter?"

Gu Yinian asked first, but his voice was hesitant.

What he saw before he lost consciousness was the white surgical lights, and he was in the ward when he woke up, and there was no shortage of weight on his body. The doctor only told him that the operation was not carried out, but he didn't know why.

He only knew that the operation had been temporarily put on hold, and he didn't know what happened.

Hearing the sound, Shu Xian raised his head, was startled, and replied: "Autonomic disorder."

"What's that? Is it serious?"

"You don't understand even if I explain it, so it's not serious."

"What is the cause?"

"The etiology of the autonomic disorder is complex. I probably have it because...lack of sleep?"

"Is it curable?"

"……good."

The two asked and answered, and soon had nothing to ask, and fell into embarrassment.

But it didn't seem good to be embarrassed all the time, so Gu Yinian racked his brains to think what else to ask.

After a long silence, Gu Yinian asked again: "Will you faint again in the future?"

"It's hard to say." Shu Xian shook his head, frowning slightly, and realized that their conversation was too watery.

But it seems that Gu Yinian has just woken up, and he probably doesn't know anything, is it really up to him to speak?

Just when he was hesitating, Gu Yinian's gentle voice came from his ear.

"If you don't want to say it, then don't say it. If the surgical conditions are not suitable, just wait."

Shu Xian raised his head and looked at the man, meeting Gu Yinian's smile.

This kind of tenderness is rare in Gu Yinian, and it made Shu Xian lose his mind for a moment before he recovered.

Soon he realized that Gu Yinian probably thought that the interruption of the operation was because his physical condition was not suitable.

Why do you think so, shouldn't you just ask him what happened?

Shu Xian didn't like to suppress the doubts in his heart. Now that he had a breakthrough, he asked directly: "The operation was not interrupted because of you, why do you think so?"

"Isn't it? Then why did you come..."

Gu Yinian was halfway through speaking, but suddenly stopped talking.

Shu Xian was stunned for a moment, and realized that this was indeed the case. If it wasn't for a special reason, he came to Gu Yinian because of the surgery.

Thinking of this, Shu Xian smiled wryly: "Why, I can't come and see you if I have nothing to do?"

"Are you really okay?" Seeing this, Gu Yinian also smiled, and stared at Shu Xian with great interest, making him avert his gaze.

There is indeed something.

"If you have anything you want to say, just say it. If you don't want to say it, you can accompany me."

Gu Yinian is very gentle, a person who is usually cold and serious, but in front of Shu Xian is always so soft and warm.

Shu Xian pursed his lips, he had too many questions in his heart, but now he couldn't ask a word.

In the end, he had no choice but to ask ambiguously: "Don't you have anything to tell me?"

Seeing Shu Xian's hesitation and obscurity, Gu Yinian also became suspicious in his heart, thinking that some huge change must have happened, otherwise, with Shu Xian's character, he wouldn't have hesitated for so long, and finally threw the initiative to him.

But what happened to make Shu Xian hesitate to such an extent?

He stared at Shu Xian's eyes, and could see the water marks in them, did he cry?

Who can make him cry?Did something happen to Xu Zhi?

But why is he looking at himself like this?Always feel a kind of...sadness?

Suddenly, Gu Yinian thought of something, and the smile on his face froze.

"Why was the operation interrupted?"

Seeing that Gu Yinian noticed something strange, Shu Xian had no choice but to answer: "Someone came to stop it."

Gu Yinian smiled unnaturally, and asked jokingly: "It's impossible...is it Jian Wan?"

"..."

The question came too fast and too sudden, Shu Xian didn't expect Gu Yinian to think of Jian Wan so quickly, he was stunned for a moment and forgot to respond.

But that is a response in itself.

Seeing Shu Xian's expression, Gu Yinian smiled unnaturally.

He leaned back on the head of the bed, with two strands of hair hanging around the corners of his eyes, and the upper part of his hair was slightly raised, but the corners of his mouth had a sickly beauty.

"Ask whatever you want. I don't know what she told you, but since she's here, she should have found something. Ask whatever you want. I won't lie to you."

"But you have lied to me a lot."

"for example?"

"For example, for example..."

Gu Yinian seemed to have suddenly relaxed, and looked over with a chuckle, looking reckless, trying to lure Shu Xian into telling what he knew.

But in this situation, it was difficult for Shu Xian to keep calm, and he seemed anxious everywhere.

He is very eager to know the truth, even though he understands that Jian Wan doesn't need to lie to him, but he stubbornly wants to confirm all this from Gu Yinian himself.

He wants to ask a lot.

For example, did you get in touch with Xu Zhi very early, did you team up with Xu Zhi to lie to me, did you help me hide it from my parents, did you beg Grandpa Bai.

Did you give me the glands just because of my words?

But when it came to his mouth, he couldn't say anything.

Only slightly trembling lips were telling Gu Yinian how eager he wanted to know all this.

But Gu Yinian clearly saw the pain in his eyes.

So, Gu Yinian cautiously stretched out his hand and held Shu Xian.

"It's my fault for giving you medicine. Don't blame Xu Zhi. I threatened him."

"If Jian Wan said anything else, just treat her as nonsense, Shu Xian, you don't have to bear the burden."

There was silence.

Surprise flashed across Shu Xian's eyes, tinged with puzzlement, and lingering sadness also surfaced.

On the other hand, Gu Yinian's gentle eyes seemed to be telling him, don't be sad.

There was a long silence, and suddenly, a tear streak cut through the silence.

Gu Yinian was stunned, and hurriedly raised his head to wipe Shu Xian's tears.

Feeling the wetness on his face, Shu Xian froze and wiped it hastily.

The hands of the two touched together at this moment.

The tears in the eyes overflowed uncontrollably, with all the sadness and incomprehension, all the sighs turned into breathless gasps.