Sir, I'm not good

don't you cry.

I'm wrong.

Gu Yinian kept repeating these two sentences, and hurriedly wiped away Shu Xian's tears.

He really couldn't see Shu Xian crying, it broke his heart.

Even though he didn't know why Shu Xian cried, but as long as Shu Xian cried, it was his fault, and he really couldn't bear Shu Xian's sadness.

"It's my fault. Don't be pressured. I shouldn't have done those things without telling you."

"I'm sorry, I was wrong. I should respect your wishes, and I shouldn't have gone to Xu Zhi to add medicine to you without telling you."

"I was wrong, Shu Xian, I promise you whatever you want when I leave the hospital, okay, don't cry..."

"That girl Jian Wan must be saying angry words, don't believe her, just ask me, okay?"

"I'm really, I won't hide anything from you anymore, I won't hide anything, I was wrong, don't be sad..."

Gu Yinian wiped away Shu Xian's tears, smoothed his breath, pumped toilet paper, comforted and apologized all the time, but Shu Xian couldn't stop.

It wasn't that he wanted to cry, and he didn't want to cry anymore, but he couldn't stop, the more Gu Yinian talked, the more he couldn't help it.

Obviously he doesn't like to cry, and he hasn't cried a few times a year, so he gave it to Gu Yinian.

In his tattered memory, what he could remember related to Gu Yinian was nothing happy, it was all sad.

"What did that girl Jian Wan tell you? Don't think too much, I'll go back and drive her away, shall we continue with the operation? You love him so much, I won't let anything happen to him..."

"Stop talking!"

Gu Yinian finally broke Shu Xian's defense with one sentence, he suddenly raised his head and shouted at him, his voice was a little hoarse, the ending trembled, and there was no momentum at all, but Gu Yinian was still stunned by the refreshing shout, obediently Shut up.

Shu Xian choked with sobs and lowered his head to wipe away his tears, and slapped Gu Yinian's brushed hand away.

"Let me justify it, please stop talking..."

Shu Xian whispered, trying to suppress his emotions, trying to calm down and sort out everything that happened.

Although every word in Gu Yinian's words was "Don't be sad", but every word made him sadder.

Why did you treat me like this? It's not as good as when you didn't love me back then.

It's obviously for my own good, but it seems like you've done something wrong, why are you so humble and careful, obviously you are such an excellent person.

Originally, he wanted to calm down, but thinking about what Gu Yinian said just now, Shu Xian became more and more sad.

Then he looked up and saw Gu Yinian's worried eyes, like a brat who made a mistake, and when he looked up, he quickly showed a flattering smile.

Shu Xian was angry and uncomfortable, and remembered Gu Yinian's first words.

"If Jian Wan said anything else, just treat her as nonsense, Shu Xian, you don't have to bear the burden."

How could anyone think so?

What Gu Yinian did behind his back was not for his own good?

But why deny it?

Why do you say you don't have to bear these?

"What, Gu Yinian? Tell me, is what Jian Wan said true?"

"What did Jian Wan say, is it true?"

"Gu Yinian, don't talk to me, you just said you didn't lie to me, tell me what you have done?"

Shu Xian already felt that he could not control his emotions, but Gu Yinian was still perfunctory.

why?Why not tell him?

Shu Xian stood up abruptly, the stool was knocked backwards, fell down, and hit the ground with a "bang".

But Shu Xian ignored it, knelt down on the hospital bed, grabbed Gu Yinian by the collar, and dragged him over.

Gu Yinian was forced to look up at him, with a smile in the corner of his eyes, but he couldn't hide the sadness in it.

Shu Xian suddenly remembered that when he found out that Gu Yinian had brought Xu Zhi to the company, he frantically ran to Gu Yinian's company to find him.

At that time, he also asked Gu Yinian's collar like this.

Gu Yinian also had this expression.

"Shu Xian..."

Suddenly, a whispering voice broke his trance.

Shu Xian's eyelashes trembled, his Adam's apple rolled, and the hostility between his eyebrows and eyes dissipated a lot.

After sobbing for a moment, Shu Xian suddenly lowered his head weakly, and leaned on Gu Yinian's shoulder.

He could feel that Gu Yinian's hand hesitated before embracing him, it was an extremely light and restrained touch.

He rubbed Gu Yinian's shoulder and murmured, "Don't lie to me again..."

The hands behind him tightened slightly, and Gu Yinian's helpless voice came from next to his ears: "I'm sorry Shu Xian, I didn't expect Jian Wan to find out..."

"Why are you apologizing? Tell me if what she said is true. Tell me what you did. Tell me, okay?"

"It's over, it's all over."

"What happened? I can't get through..."

"Then don't talk about it anymore, you don't need to know, treat the illness well, and then stay with Xu Zhi properly, okay?"

Gu Yinian seemed determined not to talk about it, and smiled softly, as if he wanted to turn the matter over.

But what he didn't know was that Jian Wan knew too much and told Shu Xian too much.

In Shu Xian's mind, everything that Gu Yinian did was irreversible.

He took a deep breath and lifted Gu Yinian's chin: "I don't need to know anything? Are you going to ask Xu Zhi?"

"I'm sorry...I shouldn't have asked Xu Zhi to give you medicine without permission."

"Then you're going to find Grandpa Bai? You're going to help me hide the matter from my parents?"

"……sorry."

"Did I ask you to apologize? You apologize with a hammer!"

"No, no, I don't know what to say..."

Shu Xian's mood fluctuated greatly, he was still choked up just now, but now he suddenly became angry, which made Gu Yinian a little at a loss.

"It's okay, let me ask you again, why did you agree to donate glands to Xu Zhi?"

"Because you said you wanted it."

Gu Yinian answered very naturally, as if what Shu Xian asked for was not glands, but just a book, a pen, and he gave it casually.

This attitude is not fake, but it made Shu Xian even more irritable: "Then before you donated, didn't you ever think about whether your family would agree?"

"Didn't we agree to keep it a secret from the family?"

"Yes, I keep it a secret to save trouble, how about you? You keep it a secret because once the family finds out, they will definitely spare no effort to stop you, right?"

After Shu Xian finished speaking, Gu Yinian froze.

Did Jian Wan find out something else?

Why does Jian Wan know about his family?

And Shu Xian looked at Gu Yinian's reaction, and already knew it in his heart, everything Jian Wan said should be true.

Endured it, but Shu Xian still couldn't hold it back.

He ruthlessly pushed Gu Yinian against the wall, clenched his fists and hit him hard, causing Gu Yinian to cough violently.

"Then tell me, Gu Yinian, why didn't you tell me, not now?"

"Gu Yinian, why are you? Even if you help me find the glands, what's the point of doing this?"

"Do you want me to pity you? But, but...but why do you still deny it now..."

Shouting and shouting, Shu Xian pulled up Gu Yinian's collar, his eyes were very red.

But Gu Yinian still didn't answer him.

After a long time, a warm tear fell directly on Gu Yinian's face.

Gu Yinian panicked again, it doesn't matter if you hit him, don't cry...

"Shu Xian, I was wrong, I admit it, don't cry."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"because……"

Because I know you are not a ruthless person, so once you know what I have done, you will definitely fall into conflict.

On the one hand, I hate me, on the other hand, I am kind to you.

Each of these things I do will become your pressure.

You will want to repay me and return all the good things I have done to you, but you can't do it.

This is so cruel to you, I don't want you to be conflicted, I don't want you to be put under any pressure.

I just hope you live a good life. If hiding all this makes you feel better, then I will never tell it in my life.

But in the end, I didn't hide it...

Gu Yinian felt his throat sticky and wanted to explain, but he couldn't say anything under Shu Xian's gaze.

In the end, he could only smile with the corners of his mouth pulled up, as if he was laughing at himself.

He said, "Probably because I love you."