Sir, I'm not good

"What annoys me the most is patients like you, who are as rational as lunatics, who know what they are doing and are willing to bear the consequences."

Shen Yao sat beside Shu Xian's bed, her tone revealed a touch of boredom, her slightly frowning eyebrows showed a trace of boredom.

She has been a neurologist for so long, and she often meets patients with psychological problems that affect the nerves.

Generally speaking, she would recommend these patients to see a psychiatrist. After all, the psychology is the root cause, and she would prescribe some medicine to cooperate with the treatment.

But Shu Xian is obviously different.

After listening to Xiao Sun's description, she knew that Shu Xian didn't need to see a psychiatrist, because he knew very well that he was sick, and he was determined not to seek treatment.

A sane and crazy patient.

Shu Xian just sat on the side of the bed silently, without saying anything, a faint smell of soot was exuded from his whole body, and if he smelled it carefully, it seemed to be a kind of incense smell.

Shen Yao knew that this was probably the smell of Shu Xian pheromone.

This smell made her sigh, it was really similar to Shu Xian's temperament, as quiet as if he was about to die.

Most of the Omega she met tasted sweet and soft, reminiscent of cotton candy, chocolate, or soft and fresh lawn, delicate flowers.

But the taste of leisure can only make people think of the ashes after the war, the scorched grass, dead wood and death after the wildfire.

Although the feeling conveyed by pheromone is related to mood, if he is in a better mood, the smell will be better, but it will not be sweet or greasy.

Apart from being annoying, this Omega is quite unique.

"Stop talking. Although I'm not a psychiatrist, if you are willing to tell me your story, I don't mind wasting a little time."

"..."

"Brother, I wasn't asking for your opinion just now. While I'm in a good mood, you'd better explain everything in detail."

Seeing that Shu Xian was still silent, Shen Yao twitched the corners of her mouth and frowned. Although she was still speaking in harmony, she could clearly feel her impatience.

But Shu Xian glanced at her, unmoved.

"Thank you, doctor, but please get out."

"...Brother, although I haven't given you a specific examination yet, if my guess is correct, you should have experienced varying degrees of insomnia, amnesia, memory confusion, and auditory and visual hallucinations recently."

Shu Xian frowned, he hated other people's speculation about him.

But Shen Yao seemed to be used to this kind of resistance, and continued without changing his expression: "During the inspection, I saw the scars on your arm, arranged vertically and parallel, scratched by myself with my nails? About a month ago?"

"...Why, Dr. Shen is a forensic doctor?"

"I thought you were severely depressed at first, but now I think that you may be bipolar disorder. Have you ever had symptoms of mania? For example, active thinking, talking a lot, and being particularly excited?"

"Could you please stop talking to yourself?"

"Then can you answer my question?"

Shu Xian felt bored and was about to explode, so he took a few deep breaths to calm himself down.

Afterwards, he sneered, and asked Shen Yao: "Does Doctor Shen think he can help me?"

"No, why should I help you?"

Shen Yao also laughed, the sarcasm at the corner of her mouth was no less than that of Shu Xian.

"Then why are you meddling so much?"

"I don't want to care about it, but you have been classified as one of my patients. As a doctor, I will not let you live... You walked out of the hospital in such a mess."

Shu Xian looked at Shen Yao, did she just want to say "I won't let you walk out of the hospital alive"?

What an embarrassing doctor this is!

He also wanted to go and see Gu Yinian, see Xu Zhi, and have a chat with Jian Wan.

Why was he blocked in the ward by this doctor?

"Obviously you don't want to waste time with me, and I don't really want to waste time, so you'd better make a long story short and explain the matter clearly, and then I will give you treatment advice, you don't want to listen to it, this matter is over gone."

Shen Yao eased her tone and said.

Seeing this, Shu Xian found it very difficult to deal with. In fact, he didn't mind telling his story, but it took a lot of talking.

What's more, too many people are self-righteous, and want to point fingers at others after hearing other people's experiences.

Dealing with "it's all for your own good" advice can be a headache to think about.

He propped his arms on his forehead, and asked Shen Yao distressedly: "What can I say? You can't help me."

"I didn't want to help you either, don't think too much, just perform my duties."

"Do you have to listen?"

"Not sure. To be honest, I also have some gossip thoughts. After all, you also know how hot things were between you and Gu Yinian some time ago. I still want to fight for the opportunity to eat melons online."

"..."

Shu Xian was silent, but Shen Yao's casual attitude made him relax.

Let's just talk about it, since everyone knows that they have depression, they will inevitably be dragged by Jian Wan to see a doctor in the future.

"It's actually very simple." Shu Xian rested his chin, looked far away, and began to recall.

Shen Yao immediately lifted her spirits, her eyes were burning with anticipation.

Shu Xian stroked his train of thought, coughed twice symbolically, and spoke in Shen Yao's expectant eyes.

"It's a story like I love you, you don't love me, he loves me, I don't love him, you love me, I don't love you anymore."

"Fuck... I'm sorry you didn't hear anything just now, I'm a doctor who won't be rude... Fuck, tell me the fuck!"

Shen Yao held back for a long time, but still sprayed it out.

Seeing that Shen Yao broke the defense, Shu Xian had a rare good temper and said "Sorry, wait for me to smooth it out".

"Do you not remember clearly?"

"Not really, the main things I can remember are unpleasant things, and some confusion, I may not be able to tell the time."

"It's okay, what do you think of and say, I might be very happy after hearing unpleasant things."

"...Are you really a doctor?"

"Otherwise? Don't talk nonsense, hurry up, I want to start listening when you and Gu Yinian met! Hurry up!"

Shen Yao seemed a little excited.

The meeting was very simple, but also very unforgettable, something that Shu Xian would never forget.

Therefore, he described the meeting with Gu Yinian on that day three years ago to Shen Yao.

Shen Yao listened intently at first, but soon became speechless.

After finally waiting for Shu Xian to finish speaking, she complained: "What, isn't it just a commercial marriage, going on a blind date and it just happens to be love at first sight?"

"You're right." Shu Xian nodded in approval.

"Because of this meeting, you have loved him for three years?"

"Meeting him really impressed me, but he is indeed the type that is easy to fall in love with, or is it the type I like?"

"So you love him more and more after we met?"

"more or less."

Shen Yao nodded slowly, then shook her head again, she understood, but not completely.

"It's okay, you go on and talk about what happened after you two got married."

"After getting married, it's a very normal life. I stayed out at school and moved to his house. Every day..."

While trying to remember, Shu Xian told Shen Yao about her married life.

But soon he found that he really couldn't remember, maybe the life after marriage was too ordinary, and there was nothing to keep in his heart.

Shen Yao seemed to be aware of this, and interrupted him: "Let's skip directly to Xiang Qing's plot, I want to know the original appearance! It's too bizarre to upload on the Internet."

"Well, on my birthday last year, he didn't come home. I had a bar before I married him. The manager of the bar was my friend, and he sent me the bar's surveillance..."

The memory has become clearer since then.

Shu Xian talked silently, from the moment he found out about the affair, to filing for divorce, to Bai Yu's frame, he and Gu Yinian were kicked out...

Shen Yao, who originally listened to the story with the mentality of eating melons, opened her mouth slightly after listening to it, as if she was shocked by the twists and turns behind it.

Shu Xian was much calmer, even when he talked about being marked behind the bar, he only paused for a moment, his eyes lowered.

Until Shu Xian mentioned that Xiang Qing framed him forcibly in order to make it public with Gu Yinian, and he was picked up by Bai Yu, Shen Yao was so angry that she stomped on the bed, shaking Shu Xian.

"...you don't need to be so excited."

Shen Yao was a little embarrassed, and soon showed a professional smile again: "It's okay, you can continue talking, that person named Bai Yu will pick you up, and then what?"

"Then...he made an appointment to take me for a pregnancy test the next day."

"Uh-huh."

"That day, the weather was bad and I got up late. He made me fried dumplings and porridge with preserved egg and lean meat. Before I could eat it, I was on the road. There was no parking space in the second courtyard, so we got out of the car and asked the driver to park..."

"and then?"

"he died."

"...What?" Even though Shen Yao had seen too many patients with mental problems and heard too many heartbreaking stories, she did not expect this turning point.

Shu Xian seemed to have been sucked out of his soul, without emotional fluctuations, staring directly at the white wall in front of him, and continued to talk in a low voice.

"At the intersection in front of the Second Courtyard, we had a car accident when we were crossing the road. Many people gathered here. Life was noisy. I got up from the ground to look for him. He was knocked far away with a lot of blood."

Shen Yao originally listened to the story with great interest, but now she remained silent, no longer the excitement just now.

"I went to hug him, told him not to talk, told him not to die. But he didn't listen to me anymore. He used to dote on me very much. Even if he often mocked me, he always obeyed me in the end, but only That time he didn't..."

No tears, no sobs.

"He ended up saying he loved me and then he died and I never saw him again."

Even when telling the story with Gu Yinian, Shu Xian always had mood swings, but when he mentioned Bai Yu's name, he was no longer fluctuating.

It was as if, at this time, he was not a living person, but dead, and died together with that person named Bai Yu.

Everything that follows is so smooth.

Find the murderer, take revenge, and watch Xiang Qing approach her trap step by step, and finally fall into the abyss and never climb out again.

After that, I met Xu Zhi, approached him, and kept him by my side, then discovered Xu Zhi's illness, and finally came to this step.

Shen Yao was startled, but saw that Shu Xian was still calm, with clear logic and smooth thinking.

"Well, that's about it."

Shu Xian felt that there was nothing more to say, and he couldn't think of anything more, so he concluded.

It seemed that he had talked too much, Shu Xian felt his mouth was dry, and he leaned against the bed as if he didn't want to talk anymore.

Shen Yao poured him a glass of water, tried her best to restrain the slight horror in her eyes, and didn't know what to say for a moment.

As a doctor, she actually has a lot to say, but as a story listener, she can't say anything.

Up to now, Shu Xian is just like what she said at first, a rational lunatic.

"After listening, can you go?"

"Huh? Let's go now? I haven't given you any treatment advice yet."

"Then give it quickly, and withdraw immediately after giving it."

Shu Xian was very tired. He had learned too much in the morning and needed to deal with it. He didn't have time to deal with this doctor.

Seeing this, Shen Yao didn't hesitate and asked directly: "Is that Bai Yu important to you? As for you..."

Shen Yao stopped talking halfway through, as if he was looking for a suitable word to describe what Shu Xian did for Bai Yu.

Before she could find it, Shu Xian took the initiative to answer: "As for me, am I so unreasonable?"

"Well, quite self-aware."

"Is this considered medical advice? Do I need to answer you?"

"There's no need to refuse to answer, right?" Shen Yao raised her eyebrows, making Shu Xian suddenly think of Bai Yu, that guy often raised his eyebrows at him so frivolously.

Forget it, whatever, said so much.

"We grew up together and did everything together, so... I don't know if you can understand, but my body is full of him."

"I can't understand."

"Well, I understand your incomprehension."

Shen Yao is very straightforward, and Shu Xian is also tolerant and calm.

"Can you give me medical advice and leave?"

"The last question, how do you look after Gu Yinian now?"

Shen Yao was a little curious, looking forward to Shu Xian's answer.

But Shu Xian didn't answer.

It's not because he resists showing his feelings to others, and it's not because he hates Gu Yinian, it's just because he doesn't know the answer.

It turned out to be very clear that to him, Gu Yinian was nothing more than a lover, then an enemy, and then a passerby.

But now, he really couldn't see clearly.

"I haven't seen him yet."

Shu Xian was silent, thought for a while, and answered Shen Yao in this way.

Although she didn't satisfy her own curiosity, Shen Yao also understood that although Shu Xian was sober, but suddenly knew so many things in the morning, it might be difficult to sort them out in a while.

"Okay, I'll leave first as I still have patients. You should rest well."

Shen Yao stood up and prepared to leave.

She glanced at the watch on her wrist, then turned her head and said to Shu Xian, "The little girl just gave Gu Yinian anesthesia when she entered the operating room, she should be awake soon."

"Why tell me this?"

"Get ready to face him, aren't you nervous?"

Shu Xian instinctively wanted to deny it, how could he be nervous when facing Gu Yinian?It's not the time when you were just married.

But when he thought about Gu Yinian lying on the operating table, he couldn't help but tremble in his heart.

Finally, Shu Xian lowered his eyes and whispered "Thank you".

Shen Yao, who was about to open the door, heard the corners of her mouth slightly raised, and left a sentence before leaving: "I will come to you again after you two meet."

After Shen Yao left, Shu Xian heaved a sigh of relief.

Why is there such a doctor as Shen Yao?Is it really here to treat people?Didn't come to make you sick?

The ward became quiet for a while, and Shu Xian felt much cleaner.

But being so quiet always made him feel that something was wrong.

Xiao Sun said that Xu knew that the doctor over there said that "the donor is unwell today and is not suitable for surgery", so it should be fine.

So what is wrong?

At this moment, a nurse suddenly knocked on the door and came in.

"The donor has woken up. Dr. Shen asked me to wait for him to wake up and tell you, do you want to go and see?"

"...Go."

Shu Xian originally wanted to go to Xu Zhi first, but since Gu Yinian woke up, he should go see him first.

So, the nurse came here to pull out half of the infusion fluid for him, and then helped him get off the bed.

"Thank you, you don't need to help me, I can walk by myself...By the way, have you seen the girl who sent me in?"

"That girl? I don't know. After Dr. Shen kicked her out, I haven't seen her. "

Shu Xian frowned suddenly.

If Jian Wan is not by his side at this time, where else can she be?

Although he was a little confused, but because Gu Yinian's affairs were too complicated, Shu Xian could only put Jian Wan down first, and followed the nurse to Gu Yinian's ward.

When they reached the door, the nurse wanted to press the doorknob and go in directly, but Shu Xian stopped her.

"Ok?"

The nurse turned her head suspiciously, and saw Shu Xian's hesitant expression.

Why, he was still a little nervous.