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The warmth in his arms spread to his heart, Zhuo Qihua's eyes were flushed, and he blurted out the phrase "I like you" almost without thinking.

Tao Yaoyao broke away from Zhuo Qihua's embrace, looked at him with a complicated expression, but said nothing.After a long time, listening to Tao Yaoyao's farewell with a smile, it seems that she didn't hear Zhuo Qihua's "I like you" just now.

Are you leaving?Zhuo Qihua sighed slightly, and looked into the distance.Seeing her nodding, she said, "Slow down on the road, be careful of slippery roads."

Tao Yaoyao nodded, but her feet seemed to be staggering.She almost fled in a hurry from the place that seemed romantic but was actually full of struggles.

How did Zhuo Qihua know what a heavy burden this sentence of liking needs to bear.Yes, how can a childish person living in his own world know the cruelty of this world.

I really don't know whether Zhuo Qihua is too simple, or the world is too complicated.Perhaps Zhuo Qihua, who lives with idealism, will be swallowed up by this society sooner or later.

In the dead of night, Tao Yaoyao would always think secretly.When I met Zhuo Qihua for the first time, I was very drunk at that time, and then I changed to Zhuo Qihua, drunk and dreaming.

Could it be that the relationship between himself and Zhuo Qihua is just a change of cups on the wine table?Is it possible to walk into the other person's heart and take a look at the figure that Zhuo Qihua hides deep in his heart.Tao Yaoyao wanted to know whether that figure was fat or thin, tall or short, if there was any chance that it could be... herself.

Of course, these random thoughts are often accompanied by a deep sigh.Tao Yaoyao knew that these wild thoughts were nothing but stupid thoughts of trying to fill up her empty heart.

At this moment, Tao Yaoyao didn't have the heart to worry about whether Zhuo Qihua, who saw the truth of this society clearly, would be able to adapt.Now her mind is in a mess, and the only thought that flashes in her mind is to escape from Zhuo Qihua's world...

Time just passed by, slipping through the fingers.Zhuo Qihua and Tao Yaoyao have never seen each other since the accidental encounter on the night of heavy snow.

What else can I do, God forbids the two to meet each other, Zhuo Qihua can't force it either.After all, even Tao Yaoyao pretended not to hear what was on her mind when she spoke quickly, but Zhuo Qihua still felt embarrassed.Suddenly, I understood the sentence in Zhao Xiaoqi's mouth, "The biggest mistake I made in my life was to open my mouth to let you know my bottom line."Let you know that I love you'.

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On weekdays, Zhuo Qihua knew that it was not easy for Lao Cui to take care of his wife and daughter alone, so he always went to the canteen to buy some drinks and cigarettes from Lao Cui.Although it's not worth much, it can be regarded as taking care of Lao Cui's business anyway.

These days, Zhuo Qihua, who has nothing to do, even goes to chat with Old Cui every other day.After going back and forth, the relationship between the two has improved a lot.

Zhuo Qihua, who has been suspended from work and is waiting for work at home, lives in style every day.She didn't wake up until noon. She felt hungry and struggled to get out of bed. When she saw the empty refrigerator, she suddenly wanted to die.

Busy and washed up, dressed neatly and ran to the canteen, thinking about buying a pack of instant noodles and a few ham sausages for lunch.Zhuo Qihua, who has always been talkative, has gradually lowered his food requirements after his suspension.The first priority is to fill the belly, and the second is the delicious food.

Old Cui didn't know that Zhuo Qihua was suspended by his unit, Zhuo Qihua's tone was tight.There is very little talk about things in my own unit.

However, it's not that Zhuo Qihua deliberately avoided talking about it, but because most of the time, the objects that Lao Cui talked about were his daughters.That little sister in everyone's eyes is so cute in Lao Cui's mouth.

Seeing Zhuo Qihua jogging all the way, Old Cui just wanted to chat with Zhuo Qihua because he was free.Anyway, being idle was idle, Zhuo Qihua was refreshing, and made a cup of instant noodles with the boiling water from Old Cui.Not being polite to Old Cui, he grabbed a bench and sat down, and began to eat with a snort.

The canteen is not heated, and it is not facing south. It is okay in summer, but it is cold and cloudy in winter.Xu was afraid that Zhuo Qihua would feel cold, so Lao Cui was busy fiddling in front of the air conditioner.

Zhuo Qihua was eating noodles when he looked up and saw Lao Cui standing in front of the air conditioner and pressed the switch a few times, but the air conditioner didn't respond at all.Then he said to Old Cui, "Old Cui, do you want to turn on the air conditioner? It's okay, I'm not cold, so there's no need to turn it on."

When Zhuo Qihua said this, Old Cui smiled awkwardly, continued to fiddle with the air conditioner, and said without looking back: "It's okay. The machine is a bit old, and the switch is not in good contact. It only works if you press it hard. "

After all, Old Cui increased his strength a bit.Just hearing a 'beep', the air conditioner began to hum.

Seeing that the air conditioner was operating normally, Zhuo Qihua laughed and joked: "Oh, I really don't see it. Turning on an air conditioner is still a technical job."

"Hey, let me show you a joke. The business of the canteen is not doing well, and many things are broken, and I am not willing to change them. Look at my electric kettle. It has been used for nearly three years, and it is already broken. The water will not boil. Power outage, what should I do, it’s not enough to make do with it. Wait until it’s completely broken, and then replace it with a new one.”

Huluhulu finished a bowl of instant noodles, Zhuo Qihua put down the instant noodle bowl, touched his mouth with the back of his hand and said: "Well, there is no saying on the Internet. It probably said this: People of the older generation want to It’s all about repairing something when it’s broken. As the saying goes, “it takes three years to mend and mend”. Today’s young people think about replacing things if they don’t work. I don’t know whether it’s because the standard of living has risen, or The spirit of hard work and hard work in the bones has been taken away by time."

"Xiao Zhuo is a well-educated person, and his speech seems to be polite. When you say that, I am not too poor to change, but I have endured hardships and stand hard work." Zhuo Qihua's words amused Old Cui, the old man There was a smile on his face.

Old Cui, who knew that Zhuo Qihua smoked, really didn't care about her female identity.Subconsciously threw a big front door to her, but was stunned again, and finally said after a while: "The big front door that costs three yuan a pack, you can't get used to it?"

"How can I not get used to smoking, I have diamond lungs. I can smoke Cuban cigars on the top, and homemade cigarettes on the bottom." Zhuo Qihua lit the cigarette in his hand and smoked.

Seeing Zhuo Qihua smoking a cigarette in a serious manner, Lao Cui didn't say anything anymore.Sitting beside Zhuo Qihua, he took two puffs of cigarettes.

Glancing at the people beside him, Zhuo Qihua knew that Old Cui had something to say, so he waited quietly for him to speak.

Perhaps after becoming a parent, all the thoughts are put on the child.This is the case for Old Cui, knowing that he is exhausted every day, but he has no complaints about supporting his family.

The first sentence he spoke was about his daughter, the girl named Cui Anjie.Listening to Lao Cui repeating words like 'I'm useless, I can't make a lot of money'.

Zhuo Qihua, who already felt irritable in his heart, seemed to become even more anxious.His chest seemed to be pressed down by a boulder, and even the most basic breathing became difficult.

"Anjie, this child, has been fond of singing and dancing since she was a child. She has a natural voice. She originally wanted to be an actress, and she wanted some money to go to Beijing to participate in a talent show or something." Speaking of this, old Cui Ruan He took a deep puff of the cigarette, and then slowly exhaled the smoke: "But I didn't agree, I thought in my heart that instead of spending time, energy and money on those fake things, it's better to let her work outside, even if it's If you help out in the store, you can earn a little bit.”

"Well, I agree with your approach. Instead of dreaming of being a star, it is better to find a job in a down-to-earth manner." Zhuo Qihua nodded thoughtfully, agreeing with Old Cui's approach.

"Hey..." Old Cui was unwilling to continue this topic, but ended the conversation with a heavy sigh.

It was also the first time for Zhuo Qihua to know why Cui Anjie would rather wander outside than go home.Because she blamed all the unhappiness in her heart and the disappointment in reality on her old father.

It seems that Cui Bin, the father, hindered Cui Anjie's star dream.But everyone understands, why is it so easy to be a star?If you want to be red, you can be red?Taking a step back, even if Cui Bin raised his hands in favor of Cui Anjie's development in Beijing, the ending may not be happy.

There are thousands of boys and girls in Beijing who dream of getting rich and being a star, but among them there are very few lucky ones who are truly popular.There are still not a few people who still choose to make a breakthrough even if they hold the chance of one in ten million, or even one in billion.

Perhaps, at a certain age, people always think that they are the most special one in the world.It wasn't until I was slapped loudly by reality that I realized the pain!

Every family has a scripture that is difficult to recite. As an outsider, Zhuo Qihua is naturally not good at pointing fingers at other people's family affairs.

When leaving the canteen with heavy steps, Zhuo Qihua turned his head and took a deep look at Cui Bin.In Cui Bin, Zhuo Qihua saw the helplessness and determination of a father.

And no matter how much Zhuo Qihua thought about it, he still couldn't know that this glance turned his head, but it became the last farewell to Old Cui from the canteen...