Water lanterns and dreams in 1 nights

Do you think so too? '

He didn't dare to look me in the eyes and said softly, 'Go ahead.Just drink tea. '

I have no choice, knowing that I have no right to refuse, my objection is useless, the most I can do is send my hands and feet bound.So I said yes, and I said, 'Okay, I'll go. '

I went back to my room, opened the old wooden box that contained the clothes, took out a piece of clothes that was at the bottom, and took out two paper bags from my pocket.In the evening I cooked them a last meal before going to my appointment, and I carried a pot of freshly brewed tea.

As soon as I opened the door, the man threw himself on me without tea and hugged me. I pushed him away and asked him to drink a cup of herbal tea with a smirk. He agreed impatiently and poured me a cup. The tea was drank in one gulp.

After 10 minutes, I returned to my parents' room. They fell asleep on the dining table and the dishes were not finished. Put it on the table, and put a wine cup in front of two people.After everything was arranged, I rummaged around the house for their hidden belongings and found some, but not much, and I stopped, not wanting to take too much, even knowing they had more than that.

Then I set a fire in their room and the man's room, ran to the corridor, shouted 'fire' in a low voice, and slipped away quickly.

Assuming that there was no opportunity, I might never do such a thing. It may be hard for you to imagine how relaxed and happy I was when I committed a crime. There was no fear or pity. I just felt that my soul was floating in the air. There is an indescribable emptiness in my heart, a good emptiness, a daring slave freed from his master for good at last, and the freedom I have longed for all my life.No one can really hurt me anymore, whether it's on the streets or otherwise.I ran to your window almost immediately. I was very lucky to catch up with you for dinner. I listened to your conversations and imagined the relaxed and comfortable air in the room. I almost thought that I would sit down next moment Between you, eating and talking with you, my future is bright, and I have you walking with me, bathed in love and hope.I sat alone outside the window and became more and more excited as I thought about it. This fantasy greatly urged me to enter your life and let you know me.

But the illusion was quickly shattered. After three or four days, a distant relative came from other places, and I found out that my mother had a distant cousin whom I hadn't contacted for many years.

He collected the bones of my parents and took me away from Qiming a few days later.

40. Bad boy 25

I dare not expect that I can get rid of those pasts, a person is made of his past.Based on my past, I thought that the future would have no worries. With this hard-hearted heart, I would not have the slightest bit of sadness or repentance. I didn't have any in my waking hours, and I don't know if I would reveal my secrets in my sleep.

I lived in my cousin's house for a while. The three members of their family, the husband and wife and a child, were not talkative, and they were cold with each other, and there was no intimacy.Their family is not rich, and their children are in school. My cousin and aunt used to work in a textile factory and her eyes were tired, but now she does some trivial work of washing clothes for others; People live tight.Under such circumstances, unless it is a saint who would take over and take care of the children of deceased distant relatives, I have doubts, and I cannot be grateful for their adoption, but suspect that there is some conspiracy involved.

My premonition came very strongly, and I could always see the three of them hiding from me and whispering. My cousin was five or six years old and used to stare at me secretly with a pair of surprisingly big round eyes. One day I looked out of the window and saw him from He got out from under the table next to him and said faintly, 'Kill someone. I felt a chill run down my back, and immediately turned my head to look at him. There was no expression on that child's round face, it was full of numbness, indifference and sarcasm. He hummed 'Killer' softly like a mouse, like a mouse Cowardly, he got under the chair again.

This incident made me fall into wild conjectures. I don’t know what’s wrong, or my uncle and aunt heard my babble in my dream and vaguely pieced together everything I did. No, they should have been alert before that Well, when my cousin claimed my parents' corpses, he must have had doubts. Compared with ordinary people who were burnt to death, they died... It was not painful, and their faces were not distorted.In addition, if he opened my parents' mouths, there might not be any soot inside, which is undoubtedly strong evidence of another cause of death.My thoughts are reasonable enough to scare me, I am not afraid of them killing me, I am afraid of being imprisoned, losing my freedom, never being able to see you again, losing the possibility of life, being forgotten and rotten in the mud.

I'm sure they know the terrible truth.Everyone avoids contact with me, my cousin won't let me go out; my cousin won't let me do anything, as if I'm a sinister and deadly poisonous snake; whenever my little cousin staggers towards me, she will quickly hug him in her arms , glanced at me indifferently and disgustedly, busy with his own affairs.

Since they dislike me so much, there must be something that makes them tolerate me in every possible way and keep me at home, there must be something in me that they seek.

Finally, my cousin got off work one day and called me to him to ask a question: Where are our family's property hidden.He said people had rumors that they hid it somewhere.Then I figured out my value, but unfortunately I couldn't answer it for him. I told him honestly that I didn't know, and I never participated in the decision-making of such a major event.The corners of his mouth drooped suddenly, like an overturned boat, and the huge waves of disappointment and rage overturned me. My cousin quietly peeped behind me with her eyes open, and my little cousin sat on the ground clapping his hands and laughing: "Kill me!"Kill someone! '

I don't want to experience the atmosphere of that day again. How scared I was at the time, thinking that I was finished, and they would definitely send me to the police station.

But I underestimated desire, they refused to let go of hope easily, they pretended that I didn’t know, but didn’t tell me when I knew, in order to get the answer from me, they pretended to ask me about my health, but pried me from every crack Open your mouth, but not knowing is not knowing.They were so distraught that my cousin took me back to Qiming several times, dug up the ruins of the Yanxia Pavilion several times, but found nothing, and took me back cursing.

During that time I tried to slip away, to meet you, but I couldn't, I couldn't escape, I didn't have enough strength, and then he took me home again.

He told me not to go until I figured out where to go. I was restricted in my personal freedom and had nothing to do. I would just stay in my room and think about you more every day.I want to see you.No matter what, I want to meet you.So I planned my escape, not knowing that they planned me first.

I overheard their conversations at night, 'police', 'sooner or later', 'hateful', 'killed', 'money' and 'burned to death', these words are clearly imprinted in my mind, it is difficult for you to understand, for For lowly people, life is not that important, human life is not more precious than the life of livestock.

What I have done once will be much more proficient when I do it the second time. I didn’t take anything away. I watched the fire gradually rise in the place where I lived for half a year, and it lit up the night sky. The sleepy cousin put him at the door of an asylum. The child seemed much better when he fell asleep.Then I curled up in a place on the street and fell asleep. After dawn, I hailed a car for a ride, or helped my master with some minor work and asked him to pick me up for a ride. After a week of dawdling, I returned to Qiming.

The long-standing nostalgia boiled up when my feet set foot on the land of Qiming again. I have no other purpose, only one destination. I run as fast as I can, no matter how painful my ribs are, I run all the way to your door I waited silently behind the tree I am familiar with. I can’t say how long it will be. Anyway, after a long time, the door creaked. You walked out of the door, wearing a dark blue suit. At the neckline of the shirt, the face and figure have not changed from before, and they remain stable in the same way I saw you last time. The black eyes are peaceful and quiet. I don’t know why my heart that was tense in mid-air finally found peace. At that moment, I Only then did I really feel alive and connected with the world.

I don't love this world.Over the years, Aunt Tan has taught me countless times to discover my interests, learn more about the world, make friends, and increase my knowledge. I understand how wise her advice is, but I don’t seem to be interested in those.What does the beauty of the world matter to me, since they will never be mine.I disregard the distant beauty, hate hypocritical and emotional words, doubt every good intention even if it makes me suffer, I have learned not to be disappointed, thinking that I can be content, because I still have you.Regardless of the billions and billions of others, I captured the one, irreplaceable, and very precious you, and from then on you became my only link to reconciliation with the world, and by looking at you, I also saw myself.

After all, people have to fill their stomachs to live. I hid the little money I found from my parents in advance, and I hardly used it. I used it to buy a box that could be carried openly in front of my body, and bought some cigarettes to sell along the street.It is true that I am young, and I can find jobs that earn more money, but I am not willing to do that. It is a waste for me to spend too much effort on making money.I rented the basement of a medical center, which was narrow and dark, always damp, and well-versed with rats, cockroaches, and ants.Eat one meal a day on the street, wontons or steamed buns and porridge, and sell cigarettes in places with heavy traffic for the rest of the time, earning enough to cope